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One chapter wasn't enough so for peacekeeping sakes- Tadaa~

Chapter 34
"I Love You Too"

Grey eyes stare into the reflection of the bathroom mirror.

My palms against the granite counter, feeling the cold stone underneath. Even though I feel the chill against my skin my insides are a burning furnace with my man behind me.

His profile completely flushed against my back as his fingers move lightly over my shoulder. I watch him bury his nose in my skin and inhale deeply. A rush of pink comes to my cheeks when I feel him press against me, releasing a soft groan. I can't even mutter a single word or move as he gave me a passionate look of desire and possession.

His fingers brush my hair over my other shoulder as he kisses my skin and I literally felt my knees buckle beneath me. His lips are so soft and hot. They travel up my shoulder to the nape of my neck and I was fucking sure if he touched me I would erupt in his hands right there and then.

"I nearly lost you…" he whispers in my ear, his lips lightly brushing my skin. I exhale loudly and follow his gaze in the bathroom mirror as it left my skin and met my eyes.

"…I will never leave you."

A small smile tugs at the corner of his mouth and I nearly die. A smirk from him was sexier than a night with Miyavi mixed with a hot afternoon with a young Steve McQueen and a pack of cigarettes. This man is a fucking handsome God and I love it. He turns me around and looks into my eyes like I had offered a challenge that he was already sure to win. "That's a big commitment. Can you keep it?"

"Better than you can keep your hands to yourself." I tease biting my bottom lip, watching that competitive look melt right back into pleasure.

His fingers slide under my shirt, slowly lifting the hem of my top. He pulls it up gradually causing my torso to become visible until I was right at my bra. I lift my hands allowing him to pull the shirt off and he drops it on the bathroom's tiled floor. My breath hitches when his thumbs press against my ribs just under my bra.

"I'm entering with you…" He murmurs as he walks to the shower while pulling his shirt over his head, exposing his back to me. It's beautiful…

I turn before he could spot me drooling like dog over his body. I try to concentrate on the things before me, reaching for an elastic band to pull back my hair. I remove my piercings and my rings as I hear the shower running behind me.

I pause when I feel his fingers move to my lower torso and he starts to unbuttons my pants.

Uta's hands are the gentlest when he's worried.

Stripping away the heavy tension between us I look back at what had taken place in the past 4 hours. My new…tongue, the bloody shirt on the floor and the faded red stain on my chin, my confused memories and the sentence I can never forget but was too scared to say: "…That is how you heal a wound when you're a ghoul…"

The way he touched me- he wouldn't believe it if he was told but the way he touches things reflects the way he feels in the moment.

It wasn't just that he was worried, in his touch I also felt a sharp haste. He wasn't rushing this. He is moving at a pace that is most comfortable for me.

"Uta…Are you angry?"

Yes…that was it. I was just throwing ideas around, but I was confident that I was right. It wasn't speed it was anger. He was trying to cover it. He didn't want me to know that he was angry but his body just hadn't released the emotion just yet.

"No." he said as he came back up after taking off both my jeans and underwear.

I turn around to face him as I rested my hand on his cheek, looking up at him. I knew he was lying. Why was he pretending? Why was he hiding it?

"What happened?" I asked. I wasn't giving up without an answer.

"I was irritated."

I look at him in silence. He gave me the truth but I know he would not give me more. I nod and look away. If he doesn't want to tell me I won't force him to. He is a man of reason and I won't disrespect that. I look at his shirt on the floor covered in blood, I feel bare before him in nothing but my bra.

"Why did I attack Itori…Why did I try to kill myself?"

"How much do you remember?"

I hold my head as I feel a little dizzy just trying to rummage through my memory. I pull away from my thoughts when I feel him holding me and realize that I'd slowly been tilting sideways.

"Don't think about it if it's painful Kaisa…please don't try. Just tell me- what is the clearest memory you can recall?"

I nod and relax, thinking back. "I…I came back to you…I came to the apartment after being from you for so long."

He nods, rubbing my back lightly as he pulls me to his chest.

I feel like a lot of things happened in between that and now but I just couldn't lay my finger on it.

"Kaisa…you're mine."

A chill go's down my spine as I look up at him, feeling a little fearful of the way he said that…

"Uta-"

"Let's step in."

The water feels so good just standing under the spray. I feel his presence behind me while I wash my hair. I feel insanely aroused just knowing behind me stood my boyfriend stark naked for my taking. I swallow, dismissing the thought. Now wasn't the time to be thinking of that. He was showering too. I guess I'm on suicide watch even though I know I'm not suicidal. But then…this is actually the best suicide watch ever.

Seriously, I would attempt suicide for this to happen again.

I rinse the soap from my hair as I feel his arm brush past my face and affix the shower head so it would reach his taller form. I flush.

Naked Uta, sexy naked water-dipping Uta, just minding his own business in the fucking shower

Okay I'm blushing a lot. I am getting next to no water but I can feel my body getting hot even though my body is soaking. I'm finished washing but the exit for the glass door is behind him, so I would definitely have to turn around and see him to leave the shower.

Kyaa! What should I do?! Should I keep my eyes down, turn around, ask him to move, and slowly shuffle pass him? But wait! The space to walk pass him isn't that big so I would definitely brush against him and feel his soft wet skin against mine. But wait! Looking down puts me at risk of accidently looking at-I might see his…nooooooo…I can't look down. I don't wanna see it I definitely couldn't come back from that at all! I would have to go down there and then because it would be the only thing on my mind and a girl has needs and these legs are not waiting and oh my god- Naked Uta, sexy naked water-dripping Uta, just minding his own business in the fucking shower! This song is starting to stick.

Wait, I could just keep my eyes up and not look down at all. But then…. I know he's washing his hair…I can imagine how hot he looks with wet hair. But- what type of wet hair…slicked back, sticking to his skin soft wet hair? Or the mildly curly with dripping wet ends? Or the somewhat silky wavy wet hair? What about his lashes? Would his long lashes be thickened with water and make his eyes even more beautiful than they already are, or maybe his lips? Moist and wet just waiting to be touched… But then there is the not face part with his neck shoulders and upper chest with all those muscles and lined bone structured… Especially his light pale skin that is designed so artistically with tattoos. Or the other part, if he is turned backwards, his ass. His fucking firm bare ass. Right now, I think I can survive the cock but not that sexy ass. My… sexy ass.

I grin at that.

W-What the fuck! I can't look up and I can't look down I might as well just pluck out my damn eyes.

I rub my nose and then I feel his hand touch my back and his finger slowly run down my spine.

"Having a shower with your girlfriend is harder than it looks." His voice low and clear over the sound of the steady patter of water from the shower head.

I don't know how to respond I can only blush as his fingers came back up even slower.

"It's really…harder than it looks." He said even softer this time as I slowly turn around and look at him. My breath caught in my throat as my heart began beating so hard in my chest that it almost hurts. I want him. I want all of him. The sight before me, even though he is a monster, he is like a heavenly painting of an angel. How could he be so impure when he is so insanely beautiful. I can't- I can't fight back either.

"Uta…" I whisper softly as I am too scared for my voice to be heard, I knew what he meant and I knew he knew what I want after hearing myself say his name like that.

His hands hold my sides, pulling me slowly closer to him. I feel my chest make contact with his, my nipples lightly grazing the surface of his skin. He looks down at me and I know he sees everything, I feel so embarrassed by his stare knowing he is taking in my nakedness. He leans forward and his hands are gripping my thighs as he picks me up spreading my legs and wrapping them around him. He is pressing me against the wall and his body presses against mine. My hand rests on his shoulder, my fingers lacing through his hair and I ball his locks in my fist and pull him towards me, my lips brush over his.

"Kiss me…"

I'm begging him. I want it so badly. I want it so badly that I feel tears prick my eyes as his lips lightly brush over mine but when I press forward he pulls back.

"Uta…"

I beg more, it was eating at me, feeding on me, ripping me apart. I want him. I want him more than he could even imagine. I don't care anymore. Having him feels right in so many ways. Fuck the standing shower, fuck the hair that I already lost it at before I could even compete, fuck the water dripping over his tatted skin, fuck the water, don't fuck the ass though I saw a glimpse of it in the mirror and I died four times before moving on but fuck everything else!

"Kaisa. Don't- push me." He growls gnashing his teeth at me as his grip on my thighs was so tight.

I groan, frustrated and horny I run my hands down his chest. "I want you…" I whisper as I kiss his chin moving to his lips, lightly grazing over his.

He releases me as I fall to my feet. I look at his turned back and I hear him curse under his breath. I swear he would break the glass if he hit it. I try to control my breathing, I want him so badly and he couldn't understand.

"I get it. You kill people, you cause others pain. If that's the case then I'll kill with you. I'll murder with you, I will hurt with you, I would do anything…for you. Just don't- don't leave me…because I love you."

I cry as I pour out my heart for him and I can see his reflection in the mirror. He doesn't move. He's not even budging. It's silent as the water showers around us and I watch him standing there. What's with us…what's with this space between us…why is there always this space between us? First it was our distance before we became close, then there was our species and now I have become like him, I healed…like him. I am…like him.

"What sort of fucking monster lives inside you? I said I fucking love you!" I snap at him. My voice is so damn loud I swear everyone would hear.

He turns and pushes me against the wall. And then he's kissing my lips. Hard.

My body slams against the tiled wall behind me and his body's pressing against mine. I feel the heat, the full warmth of all of him. I feel the blood in our kiss, the heat of his chest against mine as I wrap my arms around his shoulders, my fingers digging into his skin. I was going to break like this, he was so strong and rough, but I love it. I'm getting breathless as I can't even break the kiss to breathe. Digging my nails into his skin as I gasp for air feeling lightheaded.

"Uta~" His name slips from my lips and I close my eyes, feeling his lips move over my neck, he bites my skin lightly, then hard. I groan and I feel him break skin and as painful as it should be it turns me on. It was hotter than it should be.

Then he's sucking my blood.

He's feeding on me.

I allow him to… soft moans escape me, it feels so good, too good. I want more.

"Uta-ah!" He bites harder and out of the corner of my eye I see blood spray the glass door. My thoughts become hazy. "Y-You can't b-bite there…I n-need to stay awake." I whisper as I start to heal, feeling him grin against my skin.

"I won't waste a single drop." He murmurs as he wipes the glass and licks his fingers. "You're so tasty Kaisa…so tasty" He says softly, licking the skin of my neck and I feel the pain fading as I recover. I pull him to my lips and return to kissing him, wrapping my arms around his waist, enjoying the feeling of my body melting into his as I feel his hands touching me more.

Awhile passes and my heartbeat's racing so fast, and I want to feel him inside. His hands grope my breasts and I moan softly at feeling his big strong hands touching me like that. The way he squeezes them while he kisses my neck makes me feel so fucking worshiped I just want more of him. His lips move down to my nipples, sucking teasingly with licks from his tongue before gently pulling the sensitive nip in-between his teeth.

Tender moans leave my mouth as he squeezes them between his fingers. It's a new wave of pleasure after pleasure until there is a short pause when I feel his hand travel down my abdomen and towards my sex. His fingers find my clit and he expertly rubs it. If I did not lose my mind before, this pushed me over the edge for sure. I come against him, moaning against his lips in a hot kiss. I can barely piece together how good that felt. Now my entire weight is in his arms, weak and twitching and I literally can't believe that just happened.

His fingers gently stroke me as I press my chest against him looking up at him when he bites my lip.

I'm going through post climax orgasm. I can't tell if I was against the wall or laying down and all I could certainly feel was his body and movements. Suddenly the water was non-existent and so was everything else.

"Kaisa…You're so wet."

Barely able to keep my eyes open for the waves of pleasure I was coming down from I gave him a smile, "And your so har-ah~"

There he goes entering me with his finger as I feel his tongue enter my mouth and I'm swimming in pleasure from this sweet and connected moment. My body rocks slowly following his thrusting as a single finger turns into two and I am utterly melting in puddle of moans as he starts moving them faster inside me.

"T-Tell meee." I whisper when I break the kiss, looking into his eyes. Our faces are so close I can count the droplets of water sticking to his lashes.

"Tell you what?" He asks kissing my lips then pressing his forehead against mine.

"Tell me how much you want it."

He grins as he pulls his fingers out and moves them to his lips. He licks them off and I blush at the sight of him tasting me.

"Does that show you how much I want it?"

"No. It just shows me how naughty you are." I say grinning as I pull his finger to my lips and lick it. "But I can be naughty too~" I whisper, reaching down I touch him flushing as I feel how hard he is.

I witness a spark light in his eyes as he grins and I know I've pleased my lover with my teasing.

There is suddenly a knock on the door and I lace my hand around his neck shaking my head. I don't want to go out just yet.

"Let's play, I want to play."

"No more for now." He said looking behind him, checking the door almost like he could see through it. "Can we play tonight?"

"Uta doesn't wanna play because he can't play." I mock as I wiggle from his arms and walk around him, leaning against the glass door I pull my hair behind me.

"Come on Kaisa…You know I can play."

"Lies." I scoff as I poke his torso. I look down at those sexy muscles and I think he should do modelling. This is mouthwatering eye-candy.

"Do you want me to fuck you Kaisa? Because if you're teasing me I will give you what you want and then ten times more than that."

"Mmhmm~ I wanna do it. But since you can't do it I'll have to settle with nothing."

I smile at his twitch and I watch him wash himself off.

"If I have sex with her…. Itori will kill me…if I don't have sex with her…she will think I'm incompetent." He said aloud to himself as he did a final wash over.

I giggle at him contemplating his options. I bounce over to him. "Silly Uta~" I tease. Laughing at his adorableness, I pull him close to kiss him. "I-"

His lips press against mine and I blink at him.

"If you say it anymore I'll never let you leave." He whispers as he kisses my lips. "I love you too."

I blush insanely red, feeling my cheeks blaze hot. I quickly step out of the shower and go to wash my face in cold water. I rise, looking in the mirror where I see his reflection while I reach for a towel to dry my skin.

"Come here." He says. He has a towel and wraps it around me. He kisses my forehead and looking into his eyes I blush again.

"Uta, when this is all over. Let's spend lots and lots of showers together."

He grins at me.

"Kaisa…I want to ask, what did you remember while you were in a coma?"

I look at him. I remembered it all.

"I saw my mom…" I whisper as I have a feeling of nostalgia. "I think I'm remembering things from my past. I want to unravel all of this."

"Kaisa…it's much more than that. We don't know why Aogiri Tree wants you but even now you're being hunted. Your unknown past might be connected. I'm sorry to break this to you but we are going to have to pry more into your life….more into this history that you tried to forget. More into…your parent's death."

I look up at him and I nod. Actually, I want to remember it now. My mother…my father…my home.

The garden.

The red roof.

We leave the shower and I go to the bedroom to change. Smiling, I pick one of his shirts that fit me like a dress. He finishes getting dressed and I grin when he blushes slightly at me in his shirt.

"How about you get some sleep."

"Okay~"

I smile, snuggling into his bed, basking in his scent. It's so warm and fuzzy, it smells so much like him.

"I miss my kittens."

"I'll tell Renji to bring them over."

"I miss Itori."

"She'll come when she gets back from downstairs." He adds, kissing my forehead and then kissing my lips.

"Uta…" I rub my eyes as I do feel a little sleepy.

He rubs my side.

And before I realize it I'm off to sleep.

Uta closes the door behind him and looks at Itori, who is holding a bag. "We need to leave. A fight has already broken out and we need to go immediately."

"It's okay, I can manage her when she's asleep. We just need to quickly evacuate while she is out and go to the other location."

"I can't believe we're going to Italy." Itori sighs happily as she packs the last of their things together.

"It's just for the weekend." Renji adds, entering the bedroom and beginning to shift Kaisa.

"I'm quite surprised." Uta says from the doorway. "When that doctor said that he was going to do research I didn't expect him to move so fast."

"I'm surprised at how stupid you are, pulling her into having sex with you at a time like this." Renji muttered, rising and walking towards Uta. He was a ghoul with a keen sense of hearing, so of course he would have heard that.

"Did you like the feeling?" Uta questions, a smirk on his face.

"The feeling of what?" Renji shoots back, unsure how the topic changed.

Uta steps close to him, glaring at him with a sadistic gleam in his eyes. "The feeling of my dick going down your throat- because that's exactly what happened while you were listening to me fuck her."

HAS ANYONE READ CHAPTER 170-171 OF RE:? UTA IS NOT DEAD! I will be on the next plane and taxi to Sui Ishida's workplace if they kill him but -inhales deeply- He is not dead.

I hope this chapter will be enjoyed! Thank you to my beta reader, she does such an amazing job. :)