A/N: Hello, This is officially chapter one. I'm super ecstatic to be writing this story. Like I mentioned before I got the idea from a drama cd translation but the bits and pieces I used from that cd were tweaked to my liking to fit my story. I love this idea for a story and I hope you guys reading it do too! END OF A/N.

Grammar mistakes: I did my best to edit, but I'm not very good at editing so... yeah! You've been warned.

Disclaimer: I do not own Kyo Kara Maoh!

There's an old saying in the great demon kingdom, secrets aren't to be hidden forever. During the reign of shinou, Rufus von Bielefelt never anticipated falling for the king. Her life was already complicated enough without the added stress.

Her parents weren't able to produce a male hair to rule over their homelands forcing her to take the place of a man instead, to save face for the entire Bielefelt clan.

Even so, the decision also meant she couldn't wear dresses or tell anyone of her real identity if you don't count Siegbert the only other person besides her parents who know's of the truth, her oldest and dearest childhood friend.

Though her fate was decided a long time ago, a small portion of her subconscious still longed to be a regular girl again like she used to be as a child playing with bows in her hair, when the possibilities felt wide open.

Then again, the only other person she actually hoped would take noticed, hadn't. Not only was it disconcerting that the king did not know of her being a woman but heartbreaking enough he also didn't realize the deep burning love she harbors for him and him alone.

Not to mention, lately the king has become increasingly distant; worrying the poor girl to no end. Together with that and the fact that the king only speaks his heart to his eminence sit the girl on fire.

"Why does he insisted on worrying me, Siegbert."

"You know his majesty is dealing with a lot, if anyone should understand the hardships of ruling that should be you."

"I do! But that doesn't mean keeping everything to oneself or insisting his eminence be the only reasonable one to share with!"

"As his retainer, you can't possibly expected the same treatment as his eminence, can you?"

"I know that Siegbert, you don't need to reminded me of what I already know." I throw my hands up in the air in frustration.

"Well If you knew then why- oh… I see." He smirked.

I blushed. "Shut up!"

"If you love him, then why don't you tell him."

"I can't do that!"

"Why not?"

"Why not, you say. Isn't it obvious he doesn't even know I'm a woman, He thinks I'm a man!"

"Well then, go ahead and tell him, don't you think it's about time his majesty knew of the truth. Personally, I do. I'm honestly surprised he hasn't yet discovered it for himself."

"Sieg!"

"What are you two talking about?"

"Lawrence! Siegbert and I jumped simultaneously."

"My apologies, I hadn't meant to scare the both of you." He smiled that gentle smile of his appearing in the doorway of the library where Siegbert and I currently are.

"Y-you didn't…. I lied. What are you doing here?"

Walking fully into the room. "I came by to see how everything is." His voice took on a more serious note. "Where's his majesty?"

That peak my interest. "Why do you ask?"

"A source of mind said that the king was acting strangely. So I..."

"What do you mean?" Siegbert incurred interrupting him.

"I'm not to sure, except that whatever it is, has worsened over the past couples of weeks. Or so I'm told."

"I see..." Siegbert mumbled. "Your source has good eye sight."

"Huh?"

"Ugh!" I screeched. "Who's this source of yours anyways?"

"Rufus, calm down." Siegbert tried.

"No! I knew he was keeping something from us, but this time unlike before, I'm not just going to sit around and let him treat me- I mean us this way!"

Lawrence eyebrows shot up. "What do you suppose we do?"

"The only other thing we can do, find out for ourselves what's really going on." I declared with my finger in the air.

35 minutes later.

"I don't think we should be doing this."

"Lawrence, don't you think it's a little late for doubts. Besides, I think I can already hear his majesty and his eminence talking."

"Shh… it's coming from the throne room!" Siegbert announced.

"Majesty Shinou!" I heard his eminence half-yell.

"Right here, right now for the first time I regret being as strong as I am. This powerful life force that doesn't allow me to be killed and because of that I've gotten you involved in an endless fight as well, forgive me."

"You don't need to apologize. This is the path that I've chosen."

"But..."

"Ow! My foot!" Siegbert hollered after I accidentally step on his foot trying to get closer to hear better.

"Shush they'll hear you." I reprimanded.

"Huh? Did you hear you that?" His majesty questioned.

"I guess the gig is up." Siegbert sighed giving in already without any further cause to do so.

"No it isn't, I said be quiet!" What was Siegbert thinking.

"Eh? Who's there?" His majesty voice's rang loud throughout the room.

"Siegbert don't." I cried. Once he got up to leave the safety of our hiding place. That idiot.

"Please excuse me."

"Siegbert! We're you spying on us?"

"I'm here as well, please forgive me, your majesty for not coming out sooner."

No! not you too Lawrence, I smacked myself in the face. Sighing, if I knew those two idiots we're going to spoil everything I would have gone looking for the king by myself.

"Lawrence Weller, you too." The king said in a surprised tone. At this point, I realized I was given no other choice but to revival myself as well.

"Uhm uh… I'm sorry." I apologized dunking my head as I approached after crawling out from under the perfect hiding place if your hiding in the throne room.

"Rufus? I realized It's not strange to see Rufus and Siegbert together, but I wouldn't have thought that Sir Lawrence would be accompanying you."

"We did not mean to spy on you, your majesty. Please forgive us for our rudeness." Lawrence apologized.

"So, what are you three doing here?"

"To be honest, we noticed that lately your Majesty has been behaving differently ... and uhm... Rufus was very worried about you that..."

"Shut your mouth, Sieg!

"Rufus was worried? Hmph. I appreciate your concern, but it's unnecessary. I cannot have all of you being so overprotective."

"Even if his Majesty directly commands us to stay away, we'll figure out a way around it, Rufus said that before also."

"Sieg! I did not!... Something similar maybe… but…"

"My, my... You two are really close." He chuckled.

"Y-You're wrong, your Majesty." I anwsered shaking my head.

"Your Majesty if I may, Rufus was extremely concerned. We did not mean to spy on you but...uhm... in other words... what we heard you saying just now, are you alright?"

"Didn't I make myself clear before Lawrence?"

Turning my attention to his eminence who has been awfully quiet so far. "Your eminence... does his majesty have any health problems?" I asked without missing a beat ignoring the strange look that passed over the king's face.

"Ah… well..."

"Rufus! Why do you ask him, when I'm right here?"

Because... your Majesty is... your Majesty is... a liar. I tried not to be totally honest but it came out that way anyways.

"A liar!?" the king looked baffled.

"Rufus!" Siegbert barked.

I knew deep down I should have stopped talking but continued on despite the liitle voice yelling to shut up. "Your Majesty is a liar. Hiding your issues from us, even when fighting the soushu you hardly told us anything! You only reveal what's in your heart before his eminence. Are we really so untrustworthy in the eyes of your Majesty!?"

"It's not that I don't trust you, it's just that, I don't want to get you involve in my problems."

"But, you allow his eminence to get involved in them." Lawrence stated.

"That's because he allows me to be selfish..."

"Your Majesty..." His eminence signed sadly.

"He forgives me for getting him involved... That's why he's fine."

"I... !"

"Rufus!" Siegbert barked.

"I will allow it. I said despite the look I got from Siegbert. Your Majesty's selfishness, all of it! If I do that, can you please allow me to get involved?"

"What?" He asked clearly taken aback. Only the shock he emanated hurt more then I anticipated. Despite my best efforts I could not stop the tears from building up and falling.

Concern passed over Lawrence's face. "Rufus, are you all right?" without anwsering I covered my face.

"Ah, Siegbert..."

"Yes, your majesty?"

"What's wrong with your partner? Did he eat something bad? Or...?"

"No, I don't think he ate anything strange…"

"Then... what's up with him? Does he have the flu? A fever maybe?"

"Um… yeah... that must be it. He might have a fever..." Heh-heh... avoiding eye contact Siegbert started knitting in mid-air.

His eminence signed. "Your Majesty, you can't be making your vassals cry."

"Look, I don't know why he's crying. Hey! Don't cry!"

"Forgive me." I said. This is so embarrassing.

"What is going on with you, Rufus?" He asked concered.

"I'm sorry... It's nothing. I'm really sorry!" I cried.

"It can't be nothing... There's got to be a reason."

"No! Really... please just forget about it." I wish they'd all stop staring and move on.

"All right," He throw up his hands. "I have no idea what's going on..." and throw them back down.

"Your Majesty, that's enough, cut it out. It's impolite to keep asking."

"What's impolite!? I don't even know why he's upset. What did I say? He changed his tone from intimidating to calm Now, Rufus. I apologize if I said something wrong. Tell me the reason."

"Your Majesty!" His eminence barked trying once more to put a stop to the kings attempts at asking. Though, I think in the end he probably realized it was futile.

"The reason...?" No I can't answer, he'll think I'm crazy!

"Yes, What is it?" The king gave off an impatient look.

"There... there's no reason. It's just that I... I just selfishly wanted your Majesty to tell me about yourself... please just leave me be!" I stuttered out, again not being able to stop myself from telling the truth, despite my better judgment.

"What?! Siegbert, what's going on here?"

"Even if you ask me that... well…"

I blush realizing what he's implying.

"What?" Lawrence looked over as I wiped at my eyes probably noticing the ripe blush I'm sure I was spouting.

"Sir Lawrence... it took you a while, huh? His eminence chuckled."

"Uh, wait... I seem to be the only one not understanding what's going on here. I'm not saying anything against liking someone of your same gender, but... if I think about it... doesn't Rufus belong to Siegbert?"

"What do you mean by 'belong'? I mean, yes, we've been friends since we were children and I work as her guardian but..."

"Wait, wait, wait… hold up, what did you just say? Eh? Her?"

"Your Majesty, Rufus is a woman." His eminence answered with confidents.

"A woman!? Since when?"

I pouted. "My whole life." I can't believe this is all coming out right now. Why is this happening I want to hide!

Siegbert smirked knowingly. "Since the Bielefeld family didn't have any male heirs, for the sake of the family's survival, this strong-willed woman was raised as a man."

"My wise man, you knew about this?"

"Of course I knew. Besides, just by looking at her you can tell right away that she's a woman."

"I had no idea!"

"Honestly, I'm not surprised For a philanderer, you really don't pay attention, huh?"

"What did you say! In any case, is this flat-chested one a woman!?"

"I'm sorry that I'm flat-chested!" I snapped.

"Eh!? WHA..!? A woman!?" Taken aback I stared at Lawrence as he stared at me, I could see the wheels turning inside his head.

"Sir Lawrence, it took you a while, huh?" Again his eminence chuckled.

In the meantime the one opinion that truly mattered; facing the king I could see his eyes pierced through my soul with an understanding realization donning. "Ah, I see. I get it now. That was not proper behavior for a king. Forgive me, Rufus."

"I-It's fine…" I wasn't sure what to make of that response but at least it was better then what I previously thought it would be.

"I see. Heh. You know, Looking at her now she does have a cute face, doesn't she?"

I blushed turning away.

"Your Majesty, she'll allow you to selfishly drag her into your problems, I personally feel she's a remarkable woman. What do you think?" His eminence whispered though I couldn't actually hear what he said I did feel his kind smile.

"What I think?"

"Yes, Everything I do, is only for the sake of your Majesty's happiness if you found her to be to your liking I would not protest."

"Is that so?"

"It is."

Present time~

When I was a child I had a hard time falling asleep. There was even a moment when I thought to seek advice from Giesela but dismissed that idea all together. My life was already complicated enough without the added fuss.

Besides my problem did eventually improved and by the time I was sixty vanished like it never existed in the first place.

Sometimes I did wondered though, if being related to the twenty-six maoh of the demon kingdom played a part in my insomnia.

When mother's marriage to Dunheely Weller ended she soon mat my father wolfrik von Bielefelt during a meeting with the ten aristocrats. Father attended said meeting as the new head of Bielefelt for the first time since taking over for his father after his death.

Despite that fact that mother is a big flirt they fall in love and a year and half later I was born, dubbed, the third prince of the demon kingdom.

Father went back to his Homeland a few days later though and within six months was divorced from mother. Year's on, I found out the real reason for the divorce father apparently engaged in an affair with a beautiful brunette named Elizabeth who used to work at the castle as a maid but was fired when mother caught her and father kissing and kick the both of them out of her life.

The source came from a couple of unexpecting maid's who didn't realizes I was standing close by listening in on their converstation but after blackmailing Stuffel into telling the truth he confirmed everything I heard was true.

Looking back now, the issues I have with cheating had to have started back then, I was mouths away from graduating from the academy and joining the army. Fortunately my focus on what I needed to do instead of what I wanted to do did not deter my determination to graduate.

Sadly, The whole situation worsen the day I joined the army and found out father had passed away. How I survived is beyond me. Even now, my heart still aches.

The day I found out about mother retiring I was eighty-two and wouldn't say I was thrilled but at least Stuffel wouldn't be regent anymore.

The one supposedly replacing mother was something of a mystery no one seemed to know anything about the next maoh except for the few small details snoops inside the castle were able to gather. The list consisted of, the gender, which is male, the fact that said person is not from our world and most importantly the color of his hair and eyes, a double black.

Things were pretty hectic around the castle until the new maoh finally arrived. The problem was, I had no idea of what to expect so when we locked eyes for the first time I felt a surge of Injustice pass through me. Did Conrart really except this inexperienced vibe giving kid to lead us all as the new demon king?

Dinner that night wasn't any better but I successfully hid my doubts under a lifetime of anger. Resulting, in insulting, his human mother of all people only, the reaction I received is not one I would expected from anyone after insulting their own mother. A slapped across my left check which for nobility indicates marriage proposal.

In a state of shock I'll I could do was challenge him to a duel since he wouldn't take it back on his own. If only someone would have warned me about his magic abilities, I did not think a noob to be able to use magic right off the bat. I still can't believe he won the battle. Even so, I still had believed big brother to be better suited as maoh then that wimp, Yuuri Shibuya

Unsurprisingly, marrying for politics among the royal family happens more often then not, especially considering finding true love for more then your status isn't easy to come by. So when my feelings changed from prideful to that of love I nearly lost my footing.

Despite regulations yuuri and his eminence coming of age ceremony was put off until eighteen as supposed to, sixteen when it's required. Their reasoning being was to wait until after high school graduation.

When the day finally came about, a joint ceremony took place to save time. The whole time I was anxiously waiting for yuuri to announce his decision on whether or not to live as a human or demon. I for one never felt such relief as I did when he chose to live as a demon.

His eminence choice the same only seemingly waiting for yuuri to go first for some reason. Oddly weird. Maybe I'm just reading to much into it.

I'm eighty-seven and currently look exactly as I did at eighty-two. Honestly, my appearance hasn't changed at all since then. Stupid genes.

Yuuri on the other hand has grown up quite a lot over the years; he's now twenty-five and all that training has paid off. Not only with a sword but with politics as well. He doesn't need as much help as he used to and his studies with Gunter have decreased a great deal, much to the misery of Gunter himself.

His appearance is my greatest enemy he's always been attractive but now I fear even married man and woman can't keep their wondering eye's off of him.

He did have a growth spurt at seventeen resulting in him standing as tall as Conrart, broad shoulders, muscular physique, hair passed his collarbone and cute little stubble he insisted on shaving.

Resisting the urge not to jump my fiancé has proven to be a great deal harder then it was in the beginning. Why can't he accepted how much I love him?! Our relationship is currently at a standstill not worse but certainly not better.

The demon kingdom alliance has never been stronger thanks to yuuri. Not to mention peace between humans and demons continues to flourish.

Today's Greta's fifth birthday and a huge celebration was held in her honor. Humans and demons alike from various countries came to celebrate my daughters birthday.

The first time little Greta walked into the castle my heart went out to her. Here was a fragile little girl who's parents died during a brutal civil war in her home country of Zorashia covered in mud crying for her mother the sight broke my heart. She instantly took a liking to yuuri who in turn decided to adopt her especially after learning she had no other relatives willing to take her in. It's hard to believe it's already been two years since then.

"Papa wolf?"

"Hmm?"

""Will you read Anissina story?

"You mean the one she gave you for your birthday?

"Uh-huh she said she wrote it just for me."

Smiling I grabbed the book she presented from her small little hands. Personally I had my doubts about whether or not Anissina children stories were age appropriate but Greta loves them.

"Let's see… this one is called giant monsters in the birthday cake, poison lady Anissina to the rescue!" Cringing on the inside. How does she come up with these titles?

Greta had the story read twice to her before she finally fall asleep. I made sure she was warm enough before backing out of the room as quietly as I possible without tripping over the many gifts that laided the floor and still needed to be organized and put away.

To my knowledge no one know of this but me, but when I was younger during the period of time when I had trouble sleeping, I'd make my way down the dimly lit pathway from my room to the kitchen where I knew a fresh batch of cookies were pre-made for afternoon tea the next day. I'd sit there and devour every single one of them then sneak back out before anyone saw.

To this day I've never told a soul and when I started sleeping better I stopped going down to the kitchen all together. But I still remember some of the rumors that were spread all because of me.

Some thought cookie bandits came in at night and stole the cookies. Other theories were even crazier then first but majority were only upset because they had to remake cookies every morning. It went on for a while until the gossip mill quickly moved on.

I passed a few extra guard's on the way to the royal bedroom since a lot of the guest weren't actually leaving until tomorrow more of them had to be on duty tonight then usual.

"Your excellency!" the two private guards signed to the king saluted moving out of the way so I could get through. Ever since yuuri became older and wiser he was given his own personal protection instead of just Conrart and I following him around everywhere now he has Eli and Jonathan to care for his welfare.

I skidded to a halt next to the dresser after walking into the royal bedroom taking the nightgown Mama Shibuya sent for me along with a few toiletries and of course underwear to the royal bathroom.

The royal bath is the largest in the castle. When mother was still queen it had been her personal bathroom while other members of the royal family including myself used a different bath specifically made for us. It wasn't until after getting engaged to yuuri when I used the royal bathroom for the first time.

Slowly Sliding down into the hot water allowing the steam to block out unwanted thoughts as I relax and let the hot water sooth my body. Seconds away from closing my eyes when the sound of moving water brought my attention else where.

"Who's there?" I hollered.

"It's only me Wolfram."

"Yuuri?"

"Yeah, its only me." He assured softly only I could hear his voice but I couldn't make him out through the steam.

"What are you doing sneaking up on me wimp."

"Hey! I was in here first. And don't call me a wimp!"

Embarrassment brought fort goosebumps despite the steaming hot water. Clearing my throat I tried to conceal any trace of humiliation. "Hmph! Where have you been anyway?"

What are you saying, I've been making sure that the guest are in order before coming here to clean up. He voiced finally coming into view.

Yuuri was bathing in close proximity to me now. I could literally reach out and touch him only I wouldn't in fear of repercussions. His muscler body merged underwater while his head leaned back supported by the edge of the bath. He looked the equivalent of a relaxed man who had no idea the person siting next to him had to fight every urge not to jump him.

He's like a living work of art every move that he makes has my heart beating faster. I peel my eyes away before I lose all sense of direction and end up doing something that could potentially harm our relationship.

"Wolf?"

Startled by my nickname, adrenaline coursed through my system causing my head to feel fussy; I feared the questioning tone of his voice. He didn't by any chance noticed how turned on I am. Right? I do my best to ignore the pounding feeling in my chest and focus solely on him.

"Y-yes?" Dam my suttering.

"Did you have fun at the party?"

"Huh?..." Mouth agap now I was confused.

"Earlier, you disappeared for a few hours so… I was wondering if you enjoyed yourself."

Is that all? Closing my eyes for the briefest of seconds I felt my inner soul visibly relaxes. This boy nearly gave me a heart attack.

"Yuuri, I was off talking to my mother before helping with putting away Greta's gifts in her room they wouldn't all fit so I had to improvise and store the rest in our room to sort out later."

"Oh... did you at least have a good time?"

"Of course! It was for our little girls birthday. I still can't believe how fast she's growing up."

Sighing, he responded with "neither can I."

"Hey wolf can I ask you something?"

"You know you can ask me anything yuuri. Why are you acting so weird?"

Heh-heh "right." Rubbing his head sheepishly his face suddenly went serious. "Wolf… next time there's a gathering don't leave my side."

"What?"

"I'm getting out now."

"Yuuri?"

I'm sorry but I'm all clean.

Watching him walk away confusion set in. "What was that all about?"

After finishing my own bath I headed back to our room. Sometime last year yuuri stopped complaining about our sleeping arrangement. In contrary to popular belief, each and every time yuuri put up a fight or denied my existence as his fiancé it hurt badly.

Eli and Jonathan moved out of the way as soon as they saw me coming. They used to open the door for me but stopped doing so the day I yelling at them 'I can do it myself.' I feel bad, but in my defense they caught me in a particularly bad mood.

I had just came from dealing with Elizabeth who showed up at the castle demanding her old job back, she dose the same stunt every year.

The first time I met Elizabeth I did not realize who she was. I had known father had an affair with a woman named Elizabeth but I had no way of knowing what she looked like.

I was able to put two and two together only when I heard mother yelling at her to get out. It baffles me why that woman would actually think she had a living chance at redeeming her old job back. The nerve of that woman pisses me off! Even with a new maoh she will never get her job back!

"Yuuri?" I questioned. Taking notice of the big lump under the covers despite the rooms only source of light coming from the moon.

"Wolf, come to bed." The quiet command came from the lump.

Not expecting a response, I jumped slightly. Climbing onto my side of the bed I turned facing away from yuuri on the opposite side.

"Turn around." Another command.

"Yuuri what is it? you've been acting weird all night." I accused sitting back up.

"Don't face away from me."

"Huh?!"

"Don't turn away."

"What do you mean?"

"Don't turn away from me."

"Yuuri I'm tried and your not making any sense."

Sighing, but not saying another word he forced my hand to lay back down only this time facing each other before whispering "Goodnight wolf."

Blinking heavily, my mind was sent reeling unable to comprehend yuuri's previous actions or words.

I tried to forum speech but found I couldn't, considering the situation even if I could he probably wouldn't respond since he was currently pretending to be asleep.

What is up him anyways?

He has been acting strangely ever since we were in the bathroom. Shaking my head slowly in frustration. I will admit a part of me wanted to throw a tantrum until I receive the information that explained his weird behavior but terrified it'll only make things worse between us I scratched the idea for now.

Instead I used this rare opportunity to lay as close to yuuri's side as possible without actually touching him. The warmth he naturally gave off soothed my body and lured my mind into darkness.

...

The room is blurry, I'm not even sure if I'm breathing, as I look around I notice this isn't even yuuri and I's room. Who's room is this? It seems to be a room in the castle that much I know, but aside from that, everything else didn't make any sence. It felt like mentally I am here, in this room, but physically I wasn't, like an out of body experience of some sort.

Hearing a humming noice I look over to my left where it's the loudest, finding myself staring at a woman who seemed oddly familiar, like I've seen her somewhere before. Only, I couldn't make out where.

Her hum has a motherly feel to it, instead of feeling any bad feelings after listening I felt weirdly protected. Hearing her soft voice say I love you is the exact moment I took notice of the tiny infant wrapped securely in her arms.

Watching both of them without taking my eyes off either of the two, I continue to listen to the woman's hum. Weirdly enough, I almost felted as if I was eavesdropping on a private moment, a moment I shouldn't even be apart of, and quite frankly was confuesd as to why I even am. That's when it hit me, this is a dream.

A/N: I really hope everyone enjoyed the first chapter. Please be on the look out for chapter two! Reviews are needed to motivate the author.

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