How Taking Down Legacy Failed

I went backstage, I was in shock. How could I be traded to smack down? What about MJDX? What about Randy? He has only just come back to me and now I have to leave him. Why me? Why not Kelly Kelly? I'm gutted, I don't want to leave. Raw has always been my home and I want it to stay that way. I don't know many people on Smack down and quite frankly, I don't want to. I don't think I can face not seeing Randy, I don't just want to see him on the TV, I want to be with him, I thought maybe our relationship was finally going somewhere, maybe we can secretly be together. How can we do it when I'm on another show? I wonder how he was feeling about all of this. Is he half as gutted as I am? As soon as I was told the news, I didn't wait around for anyone to comfort me; I just wanted to be alone to think. I will only get to see Randy at main events and I don't want that. I was crying, but because I was frustrated. I didn't know what to do, what is stopping Randy from harassing one of the other divas when I go? I can't bare to think that.

I grabbed my stuff and headed out to my car. I wasn't in the mood to see anyone. I just went straight to the hotel. I sat in my room for what felt like hours. I had already tried to call Vince and asked him if I could stay on Raw, but he said I had to talk to Teddy Long. Which is what I'm going to do the minute I get to Smackdown.

The sound of the clock on the wall ticking was making me go insane. I stood up, threw a jacket on and headed out the door.

I ended up in front of Randy's door. I knocked; he answered the door and was surprised to see me. I slid in through the gap and just starred at him.

Randy's P.O.V

"I don't want to leave" She said to me. It was the first time I actually wanted to cry in my life. I didn't cry though, I looked at her. I couldn't say anything, I tried to talk, but nothing would come out, it was like, she had some sort of spell on me. I hope I had the same affect on her.

"That's a shame" I managed to whisper. I didn't want her to know that I was so upset. Girls normally like liked me more then I liked them, but in this case, with Mickie, that's impossible.

Her face dropped, I felt like a bastard. After all I am one, but I couldn't let her see me upset, all my pride would go and pride is something a guy always wants to have. She stared at me. I really wanted to kiss her. At one point, I thought; fuck it, why don't I kiss her? Why don't I just tell her how much I fucking love her? But that would hurt not only me, but her as well and that's the last thing I wanted to do. I know it has hasn't been long since we've known each other, but I fell for her quickly. There was just something about her, that made me think she was different, at first, it was just fun bothering her, but now it's much much more. Do you ever get that moment where something about one person that can just much you smile? Despite what anyone says or think? I would want nothing more then to tell everyone how I feel for her, I'm not ashamed, how could I be? She is beautiful.

She stepped closer to me, I could smell her perfume, it made me feel dizzy. I just wanted to touch her, I wanted to put my hands all over her body, pull her closer to me and never let her go. The thought of her being with John sickens me. The thought of his hands on her body makes me angrier then I have ever felt, but I believe her, I believe her when she tells me it was a mistake, I trust her. At first I was mad, but I don't regret how I reacted, I was hurt, anyone would be in my position, but after ignoring her for a few days I began to miss her and hell when I saw her smile, I couldn't stay mad at her. When we were in her locker room just hugging, I never wanted to let go. It was the first time I was happy just hugging a girl rather then just making out with them.

I couldn't let her go like this. I needed HER. Everything about her amazed me, everything about her enchanted me, she was my air. My oxygen. My water. This may sound stupid as I haven't known her long, but that doesn't matter, I know her well enough to know I don't want to spend or picture my future without her.

I grabbed her waist and pulled her towards me. I just needed to feel her near me; I needed to feel her hair. My lips touched hers and I felt this sort of electric shock going around my body. She was the only person that made feel like that and she was leaving. She was going away. She couldn't stay with me and it killed me.

I kissed her more and more. I never wanted it to end, it was then I realised that I was repeating "I love you" It was the first time I had ever said it to anyone and actually meant it.

She pulled away and as she pulled away it felt like she was ripping my heart out, all I wanted to do was take care of her and love her and she just pulled away from me like that.

"I don't love you" I swear I could feel my heart cracking. Did I change her like that? Was it me? She said it in such a bitter way. Her eyes were shiny and I could see she was shaking. I hated what this was doing to me, but I hated it even more because it was hurting her. The most beautiful girl in the world, MY girl.

"I can't love you, we can never be together, maybe all this happened for a reason, we just can't" She said to me.

She was never my dream girl, she was never the girl that I wanted, she used to be nothing to me. It's incredible how quickly things can change, how one minute you ignore someone and the next minute all you do is think about them.

I grabbed her hand and put it on my chest. My heart was beating so fast. I looked at her.

"Can you feel my heart beating?" I asked her. She was looking down. She looked up and nodded. I gently pulled her towards me; I moved her head on my chest, where my heart is.

"You make me this way"

She looked up at me, she was crying, I was trying so hard not to cry, I didn't want to look like a pussy. I wasn't a pussy.

She kissed me; her lips were salty because of all the tears that went down. I couldn't stop kissing her, my jaw was starting to ache, but I didn't care. I would've rather been beaten by 20 men than not being able to kiss her.

My hands were everywhere, I touched her neck and went down to her waist, I was squeezing her so tightly, kissing her and she was crying. I could feel the tears on my lips, her tears.

I pulled away trying to breathe and when I looked at her, I realised she was the girl I wanted to spend the rest of my life with. I wrapped my arms around her. She's the only girl I would ever act like this to.

"Love me, leave me, is that how it works?" I whispered into her ear.

Mickie's P.O.V

I couldn't say goodbye properly, I let him sleep and I snuck out. Some would call me a coward, but if I stayed and waited for him to wake up, I wouldn't be able to leave. I used to say to myself when we weren't talking, I can't last a week let alone a month or two. I got my phone out and read over our texts. I could feel tears building up, but I refused to let them fall. I didn't want to feel weak. I used to think of myself as so strong, but I'm finding it so hard to handle this. I don't know how I keep going on, but when I do it, I can do it. Some say it gets easier. Maybe you get used to it, but I don't think it gets better. There is always going to be that burning feeling in you're heart, that pain in you're chest you just want to leave you alone.

You don't want anything to change, but sometimes you can't help it. I didn't want to leave him, I felt like I couldn't. I just wanted to be with him. He is everything I never wanted, but he is everything that I need. If you would have told me a year ago that I would be like this over Randy Orton, I would have laughed in you're face. I was on the plane now. I was on the window seat and I just starred out. Maybe people would get the point that I didn't want to talk. I kept biting my tongue; I kept blinking, just to stop the tears. I couldn't cry in a public place, next thing I know it will be on a cover of a magazine. I kept my hat low to prevent anyone from recognising me.

I thought to myself that I wish I never would have met Randy, then it wouldn't hurt as much to leave, but I don't, I don't regret it, I can't. If I could go back and change anything, I would do exactly the same again, I wouldn't take back what me and Randy had, not for anything. Even though I am feeling the pain now, I wouldn't have it any other way. When I was with him, he made me happier then I ever thought I could be and knowing that I can't have that on Smack down, it kills me. I don't want it to go away; I want to have that feeling that I feel whenever he is around.

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