How Taking Down Legacy Failed

It was like a constant pain that wouldn't go away. All I wanted to was to have a safe part of his life, where no matter how hard he tried, he couldn't get rid of me. It feels like between me and him, I'm in it alone, his heart seems to be set with Sam, why else would he stay with her? You try to explain to someone else and you can just tell they think you're over reacting or think you should just give up and leave it as it is, those who say that, haven't experienced it. If they felt just a little bit of what you were feeling, they would understand. And even though everything feels hopeless, there is a part of me inside that thinks there is a chance, there is a chance of us to get back to how we were, all I needed to was work for it. My head wants to give up and move, but my heart, it just can't. I may not be the only one for him, but he is the only one for me. The fact that I have to see him with Sam everyday, it makes my head hurt just thinking of those two together.

Part of me wants to erase all the memories we have had together so this wouldn't hurt so much, but the other part of me wouldn't give them up for the world. Because even though remembering how we used to be hurts so much, I can't let them go.

The tears were stinging my eyes; I didn't want to cry anymore, I didn't want to be weak. I didn't want this to happen in the first place; I never wanted to fall for him. He used to be this jerk I'd occasionally see around Raw who acted as if he ruled the place and if you would of told me back then that I would be crying over this guy, I would of laughed and said no way would I become one of his victims. I felt pathetic, how could I let a guy do this to me? I used to say when I watched programs when the girl got her heart broken and she over reacted that she was an idiot, I've just proved what a huge hypocrite I am.

My face was still shoved in the pillow; I was just lying there not knowing what to do. I heard the door open and someone come in. I knew Melina would come back, but she should just stay at the club and have fun with Ted!

"Melina, I said you didn't't have to come back…" I kept my face in the pillow.

"It's not Melina" I shot my head up when I heard his voice. He was the last person I wanted to see right now. I just wanted to be alone; I was that so hard to ask for? I was ready to face him; I'm scared that at this stage, whatever he wants I will crack under it. He has control over me and I don't want that to be the case. I wanted to face him when I was good, ready and strong, not now after crying over him for the last few hours.

Randy Orton.

"What are you doing here?" I said to him, I faced away, if I would turned to him, he would have seen the tear marks that were placed on my face. I was ashamed of how he got to me and I didn't want him to know how much he had hurt me.

"I just wanted to see if you were ok" I felt him sit on the bed.

"I am fine" I was trying to hard for my voice not to crack.

"Are you crying?" He asked me as I looked up. I started to wipe my eyes quickly.

"Not for the reason you think" I stuttered. "I just watched Ghost" I lied.

"Don't cry" He voice was weak. I looked up at him.

"For once, instead of telling me the reasons why I shouldn't cry, actually pay attention to the reasons why I am" I hissed at him.

"Mickie…" He started, he tried to come closer, I moved away.

"Don't, just don't" I said as cold as I could.

"If I hurt you, then I'm sorry. Please don't think that this was easy"

Didn't he understand!? I just wanted him to go, leave!

"Please don't be like this" He gently said, he put his arm out as to bring me closer to him, but I wouldn't budge.

"Tell me Randy, did that night we shared together mean anything to you?" I whispered harshly.

"Of course it did, it meant everything to me, you don't even realise how much" He replied, I laughed.

"Is that what you said to Kelly Kelly?" I asked him cocking my head to the side.

"Why are you being like this?"

"Being like what Randy? Being cold? Being angry? How would you feel if after the night with spent together, you went away for four days, just FOUR DAYS and come back to find me with John, how would you act? Would you RKO me Randy?" I snapped at him.

"I would nev.." I cut him off.

"Cut the crap Randy, you've done it once, what is stopping you from doing it again" I hissed, he looked down.

"I don't even know why you bothered coming, you don't even care" I said trying to keep my voice from breaking.

"How can you say that, you know I care" He grabbed my hand and pulled me towards him. Instead of that warmth I normally feel when he touched me; I felt pain, a sharp pain in my chest. I pulled away.

"Why are you with her then?"

"It's a family thing; my family want me with Sam…" I cut him off; I did a lot of that.

"Is that all I am to you Randy? Something your family won't approve off?" I snarled.

"Yes, no, I don't know, stop confusing me!" He snapped at me.

"Then stop letting them control your life, your so much better then that Randy, you don't need them and if your not going to fight for me then I don't need you" I got up to leave, but Randy grabbed my arm, I took in a sharp breath before looking up at him. He pulled me into a rough kiss, at first I tried to get out of it, I pushed at his chest, I struggled, I didn't kiss back, I tried not to taste his kiss, but when I did, I felt weak. My legs trembled and the only thing that was holding me up was him. I kissed back with just as much passion. For a moment, I forgot everything, I forgot about Sam, I forgot about the conversation that we just had and everything that had happened. I felt my tears actually fall as we were kissing, I tried to hold it in, but everything was over whelming, it was then I realised something odd about the kiss, I pushed him away and looked at him.

"You love her, don't you?" I asked him, he looked shocked.

"It's got nothing to do with family, you actually love her" I said, the words that just came out of my mouth echoed in my head, I could hear the hurt in my voice.

"Mickie…" He whispered, he reached out to me and I smacked his hand away. I was going to get sucked in, not again.

"Don't touch me" I sobbed, I backed away from him. How could he love her? After everything that had happened between us, he had cheated on her, how could he love her?

"How could you do this to me?" I panted. He sat down on the bed and put his head between his knees. "How could you lead me on like this? Why would you do that? You must hate me that much" I sobbed.

"No it's not like that" He shouted at me, grabbing me by my shoulders.

"At first it was just to take down DXMJ I admit" He yelled.

"I knew it" My voice broke; I couldn't look him in the eye.

"But that's not the case anymore Mickie, your more then just that now, you have to believe me" He begged.

"You're forgetting the problem. You. Love. Her." I growled the last bit.

"But I love you too" I looked at him; I didn't know whether to believe anything he said anymore.

"I don't know how you could love her" I snarled at him.

"We have history, we've known each other since we were young, I know she comes off kind of a bitch, but there is more to her then meets the eye" I scoffed at him.

"You made me believe she meant nothing to you" I whispered.

"I know" He whispered back stroking my arm. I was scared to look at him incase when I did look at him, I wouldn't be mad anymore, but I can't just let him get away with this, I wanted to be happy and if I only focused on him being happy, I know I wouldn't be. All this time, I was so convinced Sam meant nothing to him.

"I know and I'm sorry, but I just don't want to loose you" His eyes were shiny too; I thought he was going to cry, but he held it in better then he did with me.

"A little late for that" I said to him, but this time, I didn't snap, I didn't yell, I just said it, I pushed him gently away from me.

"I can't do this Randy" I said slowly.

"We can we just…"

"No, Randy, we can't, you may be able to, but I can't, I can't pretend like nothing has happened, that your not seeing her, I'm not just going to be your bit on the side Randy, I deserve much more then that" My voice was shaking.

"I deserve to find someone that wants me and just me that, I should be enough for you Randy, but obviously I'm not"

"What am I suppose to do Mickie?" He asked me. I sat down on my bed.

"Why did you even bother coming up here Randy? To tell me the good news that you love her? Well heart cheers for you, it really does!" He stayed quiet.

"So what was it that drew you to her? Scrolls by the river hand in hand? Or does she just drop her knickers for you every time you ask" I sneered at him.

"It's not like that" He spoke up.

"Is it not?" I mocked.

"Mickie, I never meant to hurt you, this is as hard on me as it is you"

"Oh my heart bleeds for you, it really does"

"Mickie, I'm so sorry" I just walked up to him and slapped him as hard as I could.

"Now, you have a little feeling, just a little feeling of how it feels in here" I tapped my heart. "NOW YOU GET OUT OF MY ROOM, I NEVER WANT TO SEE YOUR FACE AGAIN!" I screamed in his face. I walked away from him, but I turned to see he was still there.

"What can I do to make this better?" He asked me near tears.

"I'm going to ask you one more time and that's it. Either you pick me or her" I turned around to face him.

Who will he choose?
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