It goes from first person to third person at some point

Rachel's P O V

How had this happened? Just 10 Mins ago I was excited to start my new life with Adam and now my life has turned into a crumbling mess, my biggest secret from my past has been revealed to my loved ones, so much for a new life

Her thoughts turned to her daughter

It's been a long time since I've seen Alicia, and I can't believe how much she looks like me. I know she must hate me but I can't have anything to do with her, I just can't

At that moment Adam walked into the room and saw me sitting on the sofa, I must have looked such a mess.

'Rachel who is she? And why haven't you told me about her?'

I sat up knowing I was going to have to explain to him my secret

'She is really my daughter Adam, her names Alicia, I'm sorry I didn't tell you about her but I haven't told anyone, I've kept her a secret as she reminds me ok much of my past'

Adam didn't say anything to this so I continued

'I made some mistakes, and you know I fell into trouble and made wrong decisions'

Adam knew about his wife's past and how she had worked as a prostitute for two years, so nodded and again let her continue

'Well I had finally got myself out of the life I had created for myself, and then a few weeks later I found out I was 6 months pregnant, I don't know how I hadn't realised I just think I was so swept up in relief, anyway at that point it was too late to get rid if it, and in may I had a baby girl.'

Rachel took a big breath

'And Adam no one understands but I felt no love for the girl, no mother instincts crept in, I couldn't hold her, or feed her and I realised I didn't want her'

'Why didn't you give her up for adoption Rach?' Adam said softly

'I couldn't stand the shame, as I didn't even know who to put as her father on he birth certificate. For the first few months it was really hard, an I felt into depression. After a while I used my savings to get an education and left her at child minders and friends houses. Then she reached about 3, I was a qualified teacher and didn't want my secret revealed, so I sent her to a boarding school in central Manchester. To start with she came home in the holidays, but everything I saw her she reminded me of my past and I couldn't deal with it, so when she reached about 10, in the holidays she went to stay at guardians'

So when was the last time you saw her Rachel?

3 years ago, I decided to go to parents evening believing that would bring some parental instincts out of me. They all said Alicia had done me proud and that she was a star student, but again I felt nothing, and from then on I stayed away she didn't deserve a paren who couldn't look at her. I sent Christmas cards, birthday cards and a bit of tuck money, but I didn't have the strength to see her. I should have known something was up though, I kept getting letters from the school about her behaviour, but I shrugged it of believing it was nothing, oh Adam what am i going to do' sighed Rachel

Adam wasn't sure if he was disgusted at Rachel or if he felt sorry for her.

'Im going to bed, it's been a long day' Adam finally said

'Ok I'll be up in a minute darling'

'I don't think that's a good idea Rach, stay down here and calm down we'll talk in the morning'

Rachel was shocked but wasn't surprised.

They both slept alone that night, their wedding night ruined