The trouble started after the family hade eaten dinner, her Grandfather was glaring at Alicia

'You shouldn't be eating with us, go back down to the gutters where you belong'

The alcohol was fuelling his rage.

'Alistair, stop it! Alicia's done nothing wrong' rose put a calming hand on her husbands arm

Alicia gave her grandmother a grateful smile

'Dad I meant it, what I said in the hall' Rachel said threateningly

There were a few moments of a painful silence, until Alistair stood up

'Rachel sit down, you're as bad as her you hide behind your successful facade but all you are is a dammed whore, and you wonder why you weren't welcome back to the family home'

Rachel sat there, a tear slid down her cheek. Alicia though Mel would stick up for her sister, despite their differences, but surprisingly she just sat there looking down at her now empty plate

But even more surprisingly Phil stood up

'Granda I think you should leave, Aunty Rach made mistakes but she isn't that person anymore. When mum disappeared did you come and look after me? No. Aunt Rach took me in and for once I had a stable home. She's been nothing but good to me, Alicia and to all the kids at school. Actually grandad definitely think you should leave, you have a daughter and a granddaughter who want a relationship with you. But you're too damn proud and do you know what none of us want you here, we want to enjoy our Christmas'

Everyone was taken aback by Phil's sudden outburst, he never usually said more than 5 words at a time, even Alistair was shocked.

The two men kept looking at each other, not wanting to be the first to real eye contact

'Come on dear, we're going' rose stood up and left, she knew Alistair wouldn't mow on his own accord and she was the only one go had any sort of influence over him

'Fine' he muttered and stormed out , banging the front door begin him, Rose waited to say good bye to her family

Mel and Phil went over and hugged her goodbye, Rachel went up and hugged her mum too, it was the first bit of love they had shown each other for a very long time.

Next Alicia went to hug her grandmother 'nice to meet you grandma, can I see you again?'

'Of course Petal, I'm sorry about Alistair, he won't change his ways but believe me I think your wonderful and of course - I'll pop round next Sunday after church' they hugged again and then she quickly ran after her husband

The door shut

'Well that was eventful' Melissa exclaimed

'Yeah thanks for sticking up for my mum, you're her sister for Christ sake - surely you could have done something, instead you were too scared and had to let your son do it for you'

'Don't you dare talk to me like that you little madam'

'Why? What have you ever done for me? At least mums and gran are trying to make up for it, you're nothing but a timid cow who couldn't give a shit about her family, nice one'

'Alicia that's enough - Mel a word in the kitchen'

Alicia stomped upstairs, she didn't know why she was getting told off, her aunt was the bitch, she lead down on the bed and sighed, she loved her mum but boy did she come with a dysfunctional package

There was a knock on the door and Phil came in

'Hey Alic I know we've never seen eye to eye but I want you to know I think grandad was out of order and I don't agree with anything he said'

'Thanks Phil, and thanks for sticking up for mum down there'

'No problem' after a pause in which nobody spoke Phil said 'this was my room once'

'Oh right' Alicia replied

This made her feel worthless, was this just the room her mum lent anyone who stayed with her

'Yeah it was different though, dark blue with a few nerdy posters' Philip thought he was being funny, but it made Alicia feel even more easily replaced

Suddenly that was a loud smash coming from the kitchen, both kids ran downstairs

'Dont you dare Mel, don't you bloody dare, Eddie is not with you, and how do I know that he came round here last night an told me everything'

'I knew he always loved you' Mel screamed back at Rachel

'That doesn't give you the right to keep him from me Mel, he needed me after you lost her' Rachel softened her voice

'You know what I'm done, undone with this family, you don't know what it's been like. And you know what you can keep my son with you, he obviously had more 'stability' with you' Melissa replied, mocking her son's earlier words 'oh and another thing, I agree with Dad that girl belongs in an alley just like you'

Before rachel had a chance to reply she rushed past Alicia and Philip, and went out the door slamming it behind her - in a similar fashion to her father

All three of them just stood there stunned, not knowing what to say

'Mums done it again hasn't she, I wonder where she'll go this time' Phil said, whilst trying to hide how visibly upset he was

'Phil it's ok, it will be ok. I've still got some of your things here that you had last time, and you can have the room next to Alicia's'

'Ok thanks Rach I'll go up now'

Alicia felt for her cousin, after all she knew how it felt for a mother not to care about them.

'Mum you ok?'

'Im fine Alicia, just wish I could choose my family'

'Right then..' Alicia fled upstairs she didn't want her mum to see her cry either

'No Alicia wait I didn't mean you' her voice got quieter as she realised her daughter wasn't listening. 'Great' she muttered under her breath, she sat at the now empty dining room table and thought of what a disaster today ha been

Alicia was doing the same, a whirlwind of thoughts whizzing round her brain. 'She belongs in an alley' 'the hooker's daughter' Alicia laughed - it was either that or cry, she kept thinking about the days events.

her own family didn't even want to eat with her and said she should be in the gutter. What had she ever done? It wasn't her fault she was conceived the way she was, surely she couldn't be blamed? Then a thought crossed her mind, her grandma and Phil had both said they didn't agree with her grandfather, Mel had made her opinion perfectly clear, but her own mother hasn't said she didn't agree with him. Maybe she was being irrational but after eating all those nasty comments, she didn't know what to think. And what about this bedroom, would her mum become bored of her, re-paint the room and let someone else live there, be replaced?'

Suddenly Alicia became claustrophobic, her room felt stuffy and she felt a shortness of breath 'I've got to get out' she thought to herself, and without thinking clearly he leapt from her bed, ran downstairs and through the front door

'Alicia wait!' Screamed her mum behind her

Alicia didn't want to stop, she didn't want to look at her mum

Suddenly the street started spinning, Alicia's head felt like it was going to explode, she ran into the road, and ran straight into a passing car.

Alicia's could just make out her mother's face over her body, then her vision got clouded over by dark blue and purple swirls, a few light blue stars behind them, and then everything went black

Next chapter: both Alicia and Rachel meet someone newish in the hospital ward, some things will be cleared up and then chapter after that... A new term at Waterloo road begins :)

I know grammars awful in this one - sorry, don't hate me!

And I know people are sceptical of seeing stars when you black out, but I described what I saw when it happened to me :) xxxx

Link to my m rated story
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