How Taking Down Legacy Failed

I laid in my bed, curled up in a ball, surrounded by wet tissues. That's how I had been all night. I thought everything was going to be ok, I felt happy after Ted's letter, but then everything changed and now I'm like this. Ted and Cody didn't come back last night, maybe it was for the best, I needed to be on my own, I needed to think. It's time I learnt to handle this. I couldn't move, I couldn't bring myself to. I had reached the point where I just felt so numb; It didn't feel real. I had to keep repeating in my head the wedding is today. Still it had not sunk in. This had been building up for weeks, but it always felt so far away. I felt weak, I felt helpless and I felt physically sick. Right now, Randy would be preparing for his wedding, preparing his vows and preparing to spend the rest of his life with Sam. A life where I'm not in it. I knew this day would come and I knew I would have to face it, I thought I was prepared to deal with it, but I wasn't prepared to catch John cheating, it was then everything hit me. Was it a sign? People had always told me, it gets easier, it'll get better, everything will be ok, was John cheating a sign that it wasn't going to be ok, that it wouldn't get better, that everything would not be ok?

I didn't know what to do next; it felt like I had come to a dead end in my life. Everything I had going for me, has now gone. All I could do is lie here, waiting, but I don't even know what I'm waiting for anymore. It's not like Randy is going to burst through those doors and tell me that he made a mistake, that it's me he wants and no one else. Like that would happen. It feels like, if I keep crying, someone will see that I deserve to be happy as much as the next person and something will happen for me, something that will make all this shit, go away. If this was a movie or a book that I was reading or watching, I would think, she's giving up? Already? Seriously? There is still so much that she can do. But the thing is, there isn't much more I could do, he is getting married today, they are having a child soon, he told me that he didn't want me, that I meant nothing to him, what do I have to offer him? I wish that time when I thought I was pregnant, that I was, it would of gave him an excuse to stay with me, a reason to be with me, but I don't want there to be an excuse, I want him to want to be with me.

How can it be that we went from being the two greatest friends in the world, all the teasing, flirting and laughing to absolutely nothing.

The thing is, I always got my hopes up, whenever he looked at me, whenever he smiled at me, whenever he told me he loved me, I always hoped that just this once, he'll care, but he doesn't, he never does and it crushes me every time. If he loves me, like he said he does, even though I said no, he would of kept trying, he wouldn't of just gave up and went running back to Sam.

I could pretend that these feelings for Randy aren't real, but pretending doesn't make them go away. I should hate him for what he did to me, but can I?

A few days ago, I was talking to Kelly Kelly and somehow, the conversation mentioned Randy. She asked me if I had ever got to know him. I looked away, I had thoughts of all the times we had together, sharing laughter, tears, jokes and tons more. I looked to where Kelly was, waiting for an answer and then said softly, 'No, never'

I miss him, when something really good happens, he is the one I want to share it with. I miss it when, something is troubling me because he is the one who understands me so well. I miss him when I laugh and cry because I know he was the one who made my laughter grow and my tears disappear. I miss him all the time, but I miss him most when I lie awake at night and think of all the wonderful times we spent with each other, because those were some of the best and most memorable times of my life and he was my best friend.

Thinking of how I let him hurt me, makes me pissed off at myself. That's right, at myself, not Randy. I'm pissed off for always being nice, always apologizing for things I didn't do, for getting attached, making him my life, depending on him, wasting my time on him, thinking about him, following him, changing for him, forgiving him, wishing for him, dreaming of him and most of all for not hating him, which I know I should, but I can't. I wish I could, then maybe this wouldn't be so hard.

I didn't want to feel like this anymore, I'm sick of it, I want to be happy, I deserve to be happy, so why can't I be? Why can't I just forget about Randy and find a decent guy, there has to be one for me, there is one for everyone, isn't there? I remember when I was young, watching all those Disney movies, they portrayed men to be so wonderful and that everyone will find there Prince Charming. Where is mine? It certainly wasn't Randy. I blame Disney for my high expectation of men! Part of me wished Ted was here with me now, he would continue that joke with me.

Part of me thought, maybe it wasn't too late, maybe I could stop the wedding, maybe I could talk to Randy before they started, but what kind of person would I be to take a father away from his baby? It's not like Randy would leave anyway, I think he was all talk, it seemed he never wanted me to move on. Well he got what he wanted, me and John are no more.

I couldn't stay in all day, that would just make it go slower. I grabbed some clothes and threw them on. Maybe a walk on the beach would clear my mind. I walked down into the lobby and saw a few of the wwe superstars dressed up for the wedding. I shook my head and kept walking. The church was only down the road, god I can't believe this is really happening. I looked at my watch. The wedding started in an hour.

Sam's P.O.V

Everything was going perfectly, the dress was stunning, everyone could come and there was no Mickie however, there was something stuff in the side of my mind.

Flashback

There was a knock at the door, Randy was out, god knows where he was, maybe this was him, but wouldn't he use his key. I shielded my eyes from the light as I opened the door to see John.

"What the hell are you doing here? Randy could have been the one to answer it" I snapped at him.

"I passed him a moment ago, I know he wasn't here, I need to talk to you" He told me.

"John, we are over, we both agreed now go! I'm getting married in two days" I tried to shut the door on him, but he held it open.

"Mickie caught me just a moment ago"

"Caught you..ohh, shit, with who?" I asked him. He better not be trying to get with me because Piggy James ditched him.

"Her um sister"

"Oh you ass hole" I laughed.

"And her um former best friend"

"Did she cry?" I asked with a grin on my face.

"She is like in love with me, of course she did! But that's not why I'm here" He replied.

"Why are you here?" I asked him.

"Since me and Mickie are over, if that babies mine, I want in" Why now? Why why!

"John I'm getting married.."

"I don't care, if that baby is mine, I don't want it raised as an Orton" He said sternly before walking away. John could ruin everything for me.

End of flashback

I tried putting it to one side. This is my day, no one else's. I stood waiting, I was about to walk down the isle. I was so excited! I was getting married!

Mickie's P.O.V

That was the quickest hour, the wedding would be starting now.

"Mickie" I heard calling from behind. I turned around to see Melina. I narrowed my brows at her, what did she want? She started walking by my side.

"Why are you here?" I asked her. "Shouldn't you be at the wedding?" Since she was best friends with Sam now.

"Yeah, I'm not going, me and Drew are back together, Randy doesn't want him at the wedding so I decided not to go either" She replied, I was just waiting for a insulting comment.

"Getting back with Drew? That isn't really a popular move" I told her.

"Well I love him and I want to be with him, that's all I need to know, sure, loads of people are going to disapprove, but I'm living my life for me not for them, you'd do the same thing right?" She asked me, it hit me right then and there. What was she trying to do? Was she trying to make me see sense? She is supposed to hate me.

"I should of, I've got to go" I told her, I started running. I had to catch Randy before the wedding, I needed to know if there was a chance. Melina strangely enough has been helpful. It was a 5 minute walk, but a 2 minute run, I was very unfit and started gasping after the first minute, but I needed to keep going, I couldn't let this happen. I got to the front of the church. My heart was racing and my palms were sweating.

I turned the corner to see the wedding had already started, I poked my head around to watch it. Everything looked perfect, like it was cut out of a magazine. Randy looked so beautiful in his suit and he was smiling. He was happy. How could I ruin this for him? I just stood there and watched.

"Randy, do you take Samantha to be your wife?" The priest said, my heart raced. "Will you love her? Protect her? Honour her and cherish her? In sickness and in health, be faithful to her as long as you both shall live?

He stayed quiet for a moment. My eyes were fixed on him, don't do it Randy, I gripped the side of the wall tightly, don't do this, please, oh please. I can feel a lump at the back of my throat, just say you can't do this, please. I was pleading in my mind, I was shouting to myself to speak up, I desperately wanted to tell him, but the words wouldn't come out, they just wouldn't. I pressed my lips together tightly, trying to hold back a sob I was so terrified to let out. "I do" He answered, my heart sunk. He turned around, collected the ring and put it on her finger.

"I now declare you, husband and wife" The priest announced. "You may kiss the bride" Everyone stood up and started clapping. Ted was standing by Randy's side. He turned his head and saw me. I used my wrist to wipe the tears from my eyes. Sam's eyes wondered around the church and landed onto me. As soon as my eyes connected with her, I ran from the church. I didn't need Randy to see me. It was hard to see, I went round the back of the church and just collapsed.

They belonged to each other now, not me, They were married, the thing I have feared for so long has happened. He doesn't even know how much I love him.

They got married! Fear not, this isn't the last you have heard of Randy and Mickie..
Don't be mad guys, this is all leading up to something bigger!
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