Zen took you by the hand and waved goodbye to his fellow cast members. He made a bee-line for the door with you following closely behind him. A whole bunch of people waved at him, congratulated him on a job well done, and a few others made lewd comments about him not joining the after party because you were in town. He waved goodbye to most of them and thank them for the compliments but didn't let this slow him down. He put you on his motorcycle and trapped the helmet on your head over the beanie.
"Make sure your ears are covered." he said, checking the helmet on you. He wrapped the scarf tightly around your neck and made sure the ends were tucked into your coat. He put on the other helmet and headed home with you.
It was late at night and the roads were deserted. On the way home, however, you spotted a 24 hour pharmacy and signalled him to pull over. Coincidentally, as soon as he pulled over he got a call on his cell. He laughed and thanked the person on the other line before going into the pharmacy with you. You got what you were looking for, paid, and headed out. You felt nervous and terribly quiet. He hadn't told you how he felt about what probably was an unplanned pregnancy.
"The guys from work got me a gift for tonight's performance" he said to you as you walked back out from the pharmacy together.
"Oh?" you managed to mutter out.
"You'll see in a bit" he said, putting you back on his motorcycle. He drove for what seemed like 10 minutes longer than what it took to get home but you weren't very familiar with the area. He pulled over at a large building that looked very much like a fancy hotel. He stopped to drop you off at the entrance and asked the valet where to park the bike. "Wait for me inside while I park, Princess, it's cold."
You nodded but waited outside. For some reason, even him leaving to park his bike seemed to pull at your heart. You never wanted to be far from his touch again. He parked nearby, luckily, and basically jogged towards you. Did he feel the same way about being apart? Or was it just cold? He took your hand and led you inside the hotel. He checked in at the front desk and laughed when he was told it was a suite.
"The guys at work got us a suite babe" he said, getting the key for the room.
"That's really nice of them" you say, taking off the coat, the scarf, the beanie, and the gloves and holding onto them instead. Once inside the hotel it became really warm, really fast. They directed you to an elevator which you proceeded to get into with Zen. It was so late at night it was just the two of you out there. As soon as the elevator doors closed he pulled you into his arms again. "You're quiet Princess"
"I know…" you say, breathing out and leaning your head on his chest "It's just… it's been a long day for me"
"I know babe…" he whispers into your ear. "We'll figure everything out, okay?"
"Okay"
The elevator doors opened inside of a spectacular suite. Huge windows plastered the walls to a magnificent view of the city. There was a kitchen, rest area, and a king-sized bed. You both stepped out of the elevator and Zen heads over to look at the view of the city. You put the clothing items you were holding on the couch and remembered your recent purchase at the pharmacy. You grab it but take a second to look around the room, walking over to stand next to Zen, looking out to the balcony.
"This is beautiful" you say, leaning your head on him. You look up to his face and find his gorgeous features illuminated by the glint of the moon. "You're beautiful" the words leave your mouth before you finished your thought. He smiles while you blush. You weren't lying. He was beautiful. He turns to you to hold your hand and finds the pregnancy test you just purchased. He looks at it and his eyes travel to your face.
"How do you feel about this?" he asks you
"I… I'm scared" you admit. "I'm terrified" He takes the test from your hands and throws it onto the bed. He holds your hands in his and rubs them gently. He is looking at the floor, as if trying to find the right words to say. You distract him. "How do you feel about this? You haven't said anything" that was even scarier to you.
"I am scared also." he says, still rubbing his fingers gently on your hands. "I am scared of you traveling across dimensions and not being able to come back to me. I am scared that if you are carrying my child, I won't be able to see her. That I might not even meet her. That I won't be with you for everything that you'd have to go through... doctor's appointments, cravings, what if you get sick, what if you need money, what if… I can't be a father?" he stops talking. You are dumbfounded over how much he's thought about this since you've told him. He drops to his knees and wraps his arms around your torso, his head resting on your abdomen. "Most of all, I'm scared of how much I want this despite… everything. I am scared, I am scared that I won't be able to protect you, that this might be bad for your health, and I'm just… I can't imagine not being able to… to just be there for you. For her." his breathing became jagged while talking. Is he crying?
"Her?" you ask. Your voice rough on the back of your throat. You had not realized he brought you to the brink of tears.
"I dreamt of a little girl" he explains, looking up at you with teary eyes.
"A girl?" You gently wipe away his tears and drop down to your knees to be on his level. A little girl. A little girl that looked like Zen. You hadn't realized how much you'd like that.
"It wasn't a lucid dream, I don't know if it's real or not… It happened after I met you"
"You never told me that… "
"I have a lot of dreams, they don't always come true and… well, I didn't want to scare you" he confessed. You run your hand through his hair gently. He wipes away the tears that sneaked through the corners of your eyes.
"It might not be though" you mumble, remembering what the doctor told you.
"That terrifies me as well" he says, pulling you into his arms. His warm embrace made it feel like everything could work out... even if you didn't have the answers. Even if he didn't have the answers. You could hear his heart beating fast in his chest - yet the sound was comforting. He was here with you. He was holding you. Everything would work out one way or another.
"I'm scared to... even find out" you say. Any answer at this point would just open a rabbit hole to another set of problems.
"One step at a time" he whispered. "We don't have to do it now if you don't want to."
You didn't want to… but you had to. Anxiety and not knowing made you even more flustered. You held onto him until your knees were asleep and you couldn't feel your legs. You never wanted to let him go. He held you with the same fervor, his fingers gently caressing your back, your hair, your neck - as if trying to help relax you. After a while, you let go of him and stood up. You had to get some answers. You took the test from the bed and headed to the bathroom. You had to take a second to admire it - it had creamy marble floors, a mirror that took over almost the entire wall area, a spacious shower, and more impressively, a large jetted tub. At least 4 people could fit into that tub. You put the test on the sink and stared at it accusingly. As if it was the test's fault that you were going through this. You shook the idea off your head and told yourself to stop procrastinating. Just do it.
You followed the instructions and 5 minutes later you were waiting for the results. You felt your knees were weak while you waited. You put the test on the edge of the sink and hover over it, as if that will make it show you results sooner or if it can make you influence them in any way. A knock on the door drew you out of your thoughts.
"Princess, can I come in?" he asks through the door. You opened it for him and he slides in, standing behind you but looking at the test over your shoulder. It was such a menial thing, yet it felt like he'd was protecting you from the results of the test.
Then you saw it. It was a sharp, clear result. Two pink lines showing a positive test. While this didn't completely rule out the possibility of a serious disease, it was certainly a step closer to the answer: you were pregnant. You looked up in the mirror and saw Zen's face. He had a grin from ear to ear and you couldn't help it - your mouth followed his and you found yourself smiling.
"Stop…" you begged him, teasing, unable to get the smile off your face. "What are we going to do?"
"We're not going to worry about that" he said, turning you around to look at you directly instead of through the mirror. "Something wonderful has happened. We are not going to worry about anything right now. This is a happy moment. This is the happiest moment of my life." His eyes twinkled in the light like iridescent rubies.
"You're so unfair… how can I not be happy when you are like this?" you say, letting him bask you in the glory of his happiness. You pushed most of your worries away. "We really need to go to a doctor still though, I need to be certain"
"We'll go tomorrow. We'll do our best to make everything work out" he said, lowering his lips to yours. It was a long, drawn-out kiss. A kiss that symbolized love, affection, protection. It was slow at first but suddenly he bent back your head across his arm and began to kiss you with an abrupt eagerness that made you embrace him as if nothing else mattered. His incessant mouth parted your keen lips, allowing you to bask in the glory of his expert attentions on you. It had the power to clear your head of any remaining concerns and fill it up with nothing but silver hair, pale skin, and crimson eyes. He let you regain your balance swiftly before letting you out of his grasp.
"I need a shower Princess. It's been a long day. Would you care to join me?" he asked, almost a murmur from his lips, yet he walked over to the shower to began running it.
"I'd rather try this jetted tub... " you say, feeling redness going over your cheeks. This, at the very least, felt completely real, and whatever bravery you had was only fueled by the smile that appeared on his lips after hearing your suggestion.
"As you wish" he said, letting the hot water begin to fill the tub.
Fade to black
After a few minutes of catching your breath, you both finished rinsing off and stepped out of the tub to find that a decent amount of water had spilled over. Luckily there were enough towels to cover the floor and more. Zen grabbed the bathrobes and slipped one to you as well as a towel for your hair. At first you thought he was very considerate but then you realized he did the same thing and wrapped it around his head. You couldn't help back laughter when you saw him with the towel on his head while he did his best to dry the floor.
"What's so funny Princess?" he asked, moving a towel with his foot on the wet floor.
"Nothing, nothing... " you say between giggles as you help him finish drying up the floor "I just think you look kind of funny with the towel on your head"
"I look funny?" he says, arching an eyebrow "I think the word you were looking for was extremely handsome"
"That too" you say, approaching him for a quick kiss on the lips. You intended to just give him a quick peck but he wrapped his arms around you and swept you off your feet for a longer kiss.
"Let's get some room service. I'm starving and I'm sure you haven't eaten" he said carrying you out off the bathroom and dropping you on the bed. Too late you realized you didn't tighten the robe securely enough and once he put you on the bed it opened, showing him your nakedness. You made a prompt motion to close the robe again but noticed him staring at you as he grabbed the phone.
"You're the most beautiful thing I've seen MC" he says, while he waits for someone to pick up on the other line. He walked around the room and handed you the room service menu. "Yes, hi, this is the penthouse suite calling. Is your kitchen still open for room service orders? Perfect. I'll take a lamb kebab and a beer, yeah, yeah that's fine. And I'll also take… give me one second… do you know what you want princess?" he asked. You had a second to look over the menu and handed it back to him, pointing at what you wanted. He nodded and ordered it for you. He thanked the person on the phone and hung up. "Food will be here in about 20 minutes" he said, jumping onto the bed with you. He caressed your arm but soon his hands were touching you everywhere until he settled for embracing you and drawing circles on your back.
"Zen… I don't… I don't actually look like this in my dimension" you say, touching his hair gently. "When you tell me I'm beautiful, I worry you wouldn't be so attracted to me because I am/have [insert whatever physical attribute you would insert here]"
"MC… you're beautiful in every dimension. It is you who I love"
"But this… this isn't who I am"
"MC, would you not love me if I looked different?"
"I would"
"Then you know… besides, I know what you look like in your dimension. I've seen you in my dreams and I've known it is you. You're beautiful in both dimensions"
He always knew what to say. He was too perfect. You nuzzled your face in his chest.
"Thank you Zenny... " you whisper, dropping the subject "I wish we could stay like this forever" you say, lying in his arms.
"Me too, MC, me too" he said, holding onto you.
The food came in timely and you both ate enthusiastically, talking about things here and there. Your life back in your dimension, his coworkers, even the weather. It was such a simple moment of sharing food and talking simply about life that you wished would never end. You loved this man so fiercely.
"Oh, I completely forgot" Zen said, suddenly going to his feet to grab his phone.
"What happened?"
"Luciel asked me to have you call him as soon as you came back" he said, dialing the numbers out of his phone.
"What? Did he say why? Did something happen?"
"Something happened. He was rattled for a few days about a week ago and since he's been somewhat more distant than usual. He called me then and asked me to have you call him but he didn't say what for. I tried getting it out of him in case it had anything to do with you traveling between dimensions but he said it had nothing to do with that so… I don't know. He said you'd know what it was about."
Your heart skipped a beat. It had to be about his brother and V.
"Have you talked to V lately?" you asked Zen as he waited for an answer from Seven on the other line.
"No, V hardly ever comes into the chatroom anymore since Rika died… and I mean, I get it"
"Zen, its 4am… I don't think Luciel will-" you begin saying before being interrupted by Zen.
"Hey, Luciel. Yeah I know what time it is, you're always up anyways. Yeah. Yeah. The premiere went really well. Thank you. Aha, yes, thank you. Hey, listen, MC is here and you said you wanted to talk to her… Hello? Luciel? Yeah. Yeah she's here. You want me to put her on the phone? Alright." he said, and handed you the phone with Seven in the other line.
As usual, if you want to read the whole chapter, you can find it in Archive of our own (AO3). I don't post sin in fanfiction due to their TOS.