CH 27

"Can you zoom in there?" Sabrina asked as she and Ethan were looking at surveillance footage on his laptop in Sonny's living room. They had been getting reports back from Sonny's team for a few weeks now and still hadn't gotten a good image of the mystery woman living with Edwardo Mendoza. They were either blocked by security or the woman in question was always hiding her face. That alone convinced Sabrina it was Lily.

"It's too grainy" Ethan replied.

"Dammit" Sabrina said frustrated.

"Hey, it's ok. We'll keep trying" Ethan said placing his hand on her shoulder. "We both know Sonny isn't going to give up either. I mean, this was his first wife."

"Yeah… That's got to be a little strange for Olivia. I know they are trying to build something with each other again. To have his dead wife come back…" Sabrina's voice trailed off as she realized the irony.

"I guess you would know something about that, huh?" Ethan asked.

"I guess so." She whispered. It had been over a month since her and Patrick's roof top rendezvous and nothing had really been settled. She was focused on finding Lily and Patrick was busy trying to help Emma's relationship with Robin. Sabrina got the occasional 'We need to talk' text from him but every time they tried something or someone intervened. Maybe it was for the best she thought. "Ok, let's get back to the task at hand. Has Sonny determined why this Mendoza guy is so heavily surrounded by security?"

"We assume it has something to do with his connections to Hernando Rivera's cartel but from what we can gather, that died when he did. I'm thinking Eddie here decided to build his own little empire. Colombia would definitely be the place to do it."

Sabrina smirked "Now THAT is ironic."

"How do you mean?"

"My mother faked her own death and gave me away to get away from her husband the mob boss and her father the mob boss only to end up with another one? Doesn't sound right."

"Good point. Hadn't really thought about it like that."

"Well that's all I've been thinking about." She sighed.

"Can I ask you a question?" Ethan asked.

"Sure."

"Have you thought about how you're going to react when we actually do find her? Are you going to blame her for what she did?"

Sabrina looked at Ethan and then back to the grainy image on the computer screen "I honestly don't know. I understand why she did what she did. At least I think I do. I guess I would have to hear her side of it before I knew for sure. Losing who I thought was my mother at such a young age… I don't know. I guess I've always felt it was a void that I needed to fill somehow. Never in a million years did I think it would be in this way though."

"Yeah" Ethan nodded "That makes sense."

"I think the best thing I can do is just be face to face with her."

"Is Patrick going to be ok with you going?" Ethan asked.

"It's not up to him."

Ethan grew quiet and looked down at the floor "It's ok, you know?"

"What?"

"You wanting to be with Patrick."

"Ethan…"

"Hear me out. You have spent the past few months putting everyone else's happiness before your own. Isn't it time you go after what makes you happy?"

"I…" Before Sabrina could answer she heard the soft buzz of her phone vibrating. She picked it up and saw Patrick's face on the screen. "I'll be right back" She said walking into to foyer for privacy. "Hello?"

"Yeah, it's me. Where are you?" Patrick asked.

"I'm over Sonny's. We're going over some leads into Lily's whereabouts. Why what's up?"

"Is Ethan with you?"

Sabrina could hear Patrick's jealous through the phone "Yes. If you're calling me to talk about that…"

"No I'm not" He interrupted before taking a deep breath. "Soon that won't matter anyway."

"What do you mean?" Sabrina questioned.

"I'm telling Robin tonight. I'm telling her everything, Sabrina. Everything."

"Patrick is that really necessary?"

"I have to be completely honest with her. I don't want her to think I cheated on her."

"Well technically we did."

"I think once I explain it to her, she'll understand"

"Patrick I don't think…"

"I don't want to hear it, Sabrina. You're not talking me out of this. I love you and I want to be with you. I will continue to say it until you believe me."

"I do believe you, Patrick." She sighed

"And you love me?" He asked

"You know I do."

"That's all I needed to hear. I'm telling her tonight. I'll be as gentle as possible but she has to know. Robin is a pretty level minded person. I think she'll understand."

"You think so, huh?" Sabrina asked thinking back to her conversation with Robin in her living room.

"Yes I do, why? You don't?"

"I think Robin loves her family more than anything and will fight like hell to keep them. At least that's the impression I got when she practically threatened me in my own home a few weeks ago."

"Wait, she did what? You told me she came to see you but you didn't tell me what she said. She threatened you? How?"

"You should just ask her. I have to go."

"Wait… I love you" He said.

Sabrina tried to blink away her tears "I know."

"Tell me you'll wait for me."

"Patrick…"

"Please. Tell me." He pleaded.

Sabrina paused and closed her eyes. She couldn't fight him anymore. He was right this entire time. They belonged together regardless of who thought otherwise. He was willing to make this big of a sacrifice her and for their love. Patrick was choosing her and Sabrina was finally willing to let him. "Ok… I'll wait." She smiled.

"I love you so much. I promise this will all be over soon. I'll talk to you later."

"Bye" She said as she hung up the phone.

Sabrina began walking back into the living to continue going through footage with Ethan when she suddenly felt the room begin to spin. She grabbed onto the doorframe to keep herself up and buckled over in a state of dizziness.

"Hey" Ethan said running to her side to help her up "You ok?"

"Yeah.. I… I just got really dizzy all of the sudden"

"Come on, sit down" Ethan said guiding her over to the couch. "Better?"

"Yeah a little. That was strange." She said finally getting her bearings.

"Not so much. Your stress level must be through the roof. Have you eaten anything today?"

Sabrina searched her brain but couldn't come up with an answer "I don't think so" She chuckled.

"Ok, let me see what I can find in the kitchen." Ethan said getting up from the couch.

"That's not necessary. I'm supposed to meet Felix at Kelly's in like 20 minutes anyway. I'll get something there."

"Are you sure?" Ethan asked concerned.

"Yeah, I'm sure. I feel fine now." Sabrina stood up slowly and waited to see if she would get the same feeling as before but there was nothing. "See, all better" She gathered her things and headed to the door.

"Ok but call me if you need anything" Ethan offered.

"Will do" Sabrina smiled.

"Hey come on in" Patrick said opening the door for Robin.

"Thanks." She said entering the home they once shared and sitting on the couch. "I'm assuming this isn't about Emma since she's at Mac and Felicia's."

"Um no. This isn't bout Emma. I was hoping we could talk"

"OK, what about?"

"Us" He replied

Robin smiled thinking Patrick was finally coming around. After months of distance and his mind being elsewhere, maybe he was finally beginning to remember how much they loved each other. "Yeah I would like that."

"Ok well…" Patrick began walking back and forth thinking of a way to start. He knew what he wanted to say, he just needed to think of a way to say so that he didn't hurt Robin any more than he was about to. "I know that since you've been back things have been at a bit of a standstill, and I'm sorry for that."

"It's ok, Patrick. I knew it would take some time."

"There has just been so much confusion and uncertainty. And most of that is my fault. I've been a little... distracted lately. I didn't know exactly what I wanted but I do now." Patrick sat down on the couch next to Robin and took her hand into his. "You already know all there is to know about my relationship with Sabrina but I think I have to kind of clarify my feelings so that you understand where I'm coming from."

Robin slightly flinched at the sound of Sabrina's name. Why was he bringing her up now? "Patrick, I understand how close you and Sabrina were. We don't have to rehash that."

"I think we do." Patrick sighed.

"Why?"

Patrick lowered his head and took a deep breath "Because… Sabrina and I… We um… we had a moment recently where we got close again."

Robin lightly nodded her head as if she were reading his mind "You slept together?" She said plainly.

"Yes" He whispered.

"When?" Robin asked wiping the tears from her eyes.

"A little over a month ago."

"Wow…" Robin stood up and walked towards the patio doors. "She didn't mention that when we talked."

"Yeah about that, what exactly was said between the two of you?"

"Um, nothing much."

"Really, because Sabrina took whatever you said as a threat."

"A threat? No, Patrick. I just gave her a bit of a history lesson. That's all. But that's really beside the point. I'm glad you're being honest with me."

"That's good, because there's something else you should know…."

"I'm dying, Patrick" Robin blurted out.

"What?" Patrick stood up with a look of confusion on his face.

"You heard me. I'm dying." She confessed again.

"Wha... how? I don't understand."

"I went almost 2 years with the wrong combination of meds. That's how."

"Yeah but we ran tests when you came back. Everything was fine."

"No it wasn't. Since you've been honest with me, I need to be honest with you too. I had the test results changed."

"I don't understand, Robin. Why would you do that?"

"I was trying to buy myself some time with my family, Patrick. I didn't want to come back just to have everyone treat me with kid gloves. And I thought if I had some time and got back to work, I would be able to find a new protocol."

Patrick looked at Robin with tears in his eyes "Have you?"

"No, not yet. I'm not giving up though. I've come too far just to lose it all now."

"How long?" He asked barely above a whisper.

"Six months definite. A year if I'm lucky" Robin chuckled "Luck… as if that has anything to do with it."

"What can I do?" Patrick asked running his fingers through her hair.

"This, what you're doing right now. You can just be here for me. That's all I need. Just my husband and my daughter. My family. With you, I can get through anything." She replied falling into his arms.

"Yeah… of course. I'll be here." Patrick slowly wrapped his arms around Robin. He looked out of the glass of the patio doors in disbelief. Just a few minutes earlier he was prepared to tell her he wanted a divorce. Now she was telling him that all she needed to get through this scare was his love. How could he deny her that? She was the mother of his child. He couldn't deny her anything. Patrick would have to put his wants and desires on hold to help Robin find a way to save her life.

"Took you long enough" Felix said as Sabrina approached the table at Kelly's.

"Sorry. Ethan and I got caught up in this search. Did I miss anything?" She replied taking a seat.

"I should be asking you that. Are things heating up with you and the Aussie?" Felix asked.

"No Felix. The Aussie and I are just friends. How many times do I have to tell you that?"

"Depends on how many times the two of you decide to play tonsil hockey" Felix smirked.

"Funny. But that won't be happening again. Actually…" Sabrina smiled coyly "I think Patrick and I are getting back together."

Felix practically choked on the soda he was sipping "Shut up! For real? Please don't play with my emotions."

"I'm serious. He called me earlier and said he's asking Robin for a divorce."

"And you're finally going to stop pushing him away?"

"I can't fight him anymore. Or you for that matter. And Ethan was right."

"How so?"

"He said its time I start doing what makes me happy."

"Girl I've been telling you that for months." Felix said rolling his eyes.

"I know but…" Sabrina was interrupted by the buzzing of her phone. "Hey" She smiled "How did it go?"

"It… went" Patrick replied somberly

"Is everything ok? How did she take it?" Sabrina asked.

"I um…." Patrick struggled to find the words to break her heart.

"Patrick, what's wrong? She's not going to contest the divorce is she?"

"No, I didn't exactly get that far. I told her about us but… Sabrina I don't know exactly how to say this."

"Say what, Patrick? You're scaring me."

"I'm sorry, Sabrina but I can't divorce Robin right now. I talked to her and…"

Sabrina dropped the phone from her ear in the middle of Patrick's sentence in a state of shock. She looked at Felix who was sitting across from her with concern on his face.

"Sabrina? Sabrina?" Patrick called into the phone with no response.

"Girl, what did he say?" Felix asked.

Sabrina hit the end call button on her phone without bothering to listen to whatever Patrick was saying on the other end. "He chose her" She whispered.

"What? No, that's not possible. Call him back" Felix demanded.

"No, Felix. He's staying with his wife. It's over." Sabrina sat stone faced at the table wondering how her life could go from bliss to heartache again in just a matter of hours. Her head became cloudy and the stomach began to tighten. "I think I'm going to be sick" Sabrina said before running into the bathroom of Kelly's. She spent the next half an hour on the floor throwing up and crying.