CH 30

"Patrick, wait up" Robin called as she jogged down the hospital corridor "Can we talk for a minute?"

"Sure." He replied closing his patient's file. "Everything ok?"

"No, not really" Robin stated avoiding his eyes.

"Is it the protocol?"

"No, not exactly. Nothing has really changed with that. I needed to talk to you about us."

"Ok."

"I um… Well, I need to apologize to you about something. Ever since I came back I haven't really been myself."

"That's to be expected, Robin."

"I know, but the way I have been behaving, it hasn't been fair to you."

Patrick tilted his head to the side in confusion "I'm not sure I understand what you mean."

"I came back and expected all the pieces to just fall back into place. And when they didn't, I tried to force them. I feel guilty about that."

"Robin, if this is about you changing your test results, we've been over this already. I don't blame you for what you did. There's no need to feel guilty about that."

"No, but I do feel guilty about you and Sabrina."

"Don't waste your time." Patrick said rolling his eyes

"It's not a waste of time. You love her. I am clear on that now."

"Robin, I appreciate what you're saying but it doesn't matter. It's done. I'm with you and Sabrina is with Ethan."

"You think Sabrina is with Ethan?" She asked pulling at his arm.

"I know she is. I saw them kissing this morning."

"Patrick, I don't think that was what you thought it was."

"What's that supposed to mean?"

"Elizabeth mentioned to me that Ethan is leaving town, if he hasn't already, to bail Luke out of one of his mishaps. What you saw may have just been goodbye."

Patrick thought back to the look on Sabrina's face when he saw her talking to Ethan that morning "I mean, yeah. I guess. She did look really upset about something."

"She was just saying goodbye to her friend, Patrick. Elizabeth assured me that that's all they are."

"Ok, but I'm not sure exactly what any of this matters."

"It matters because you love her and she loves you. The two of you should be together." Robin said looking at the floor.

"I really don't want to talk about this again" Patrick huffed as he began to walk down the hall.

"Wait a minute" Robin said following him "There's something else you should know…" Robin practically ran into the back of Patrick who abruptly stopped walking when he saw Felix huddled in the corner yelling into his phone.

"I understand that, Sabrina, but this is NOT how to go about it! Listen to me…. No… No, this is not you're only option. Ok, but making this kind of a decision without even talking… Sabrina… Please don't do this. Hello? Sabrina? Sabrina?! Oh my God!"

"Felix?" Patrick said touching his shoulder.

Felix jumped at the sound of Patrick's voice and spun around in shock "Pa… Patrick. Uh…"

"Is Sabrina ok?" Patrick asked concerned.

"Umm.. Yeah" He replied trying to steady his shaking hands. "I have to go" Felix began to walk past Patrick and Robin.

"Wait, if something is wrong with Sabrina I want to know, Felix." Patrick said blocking his path.

Felix took a step back and gave Patrick an annoyed look "As if you actually care." He snapped.

"Felix that's not fair…"

"No its not! You know what else is not fair, the fact that my best friend is about to make to biggest mistake of her life all over some guy that clearly was never good enough for her in the first place. THAT'S what's not fair! Now if you will excuse me." Felix bolted past Patrick and ran towards the elevator desperate to stop his friend before she changed her life forever.

Patrick exchanged looks with Robin before running after Felix "What the hell is going on?" He asked once he was at the elevator.

"I really don't have time for this right now, Dr. Drake" He replied while hitting the button to the elevator and redial on his cell phone simultaneously "Dammit, Sabrina, answer the phone. What the hell is taking this elevator so long?!"

"Felix, please! You're scaring me! What the hell is going on with Sabrina?!"

"She's pregnant" Robin whispered from behind him.

Patrick and Felix both turned around to see Robin standing there with tears in her eyes "What did you just say?" Patrick asked perplexed.

"That's what I was trying to tell you, Patrick. I didn't mean to Felix, but I heard you two talking when I was coming into the locker room this morning."

"Is this true?" Patrick asked turning back to face Felix.

Felix began hitting the button to the elevator again "I can't say."

"FELIX! Is Sabrina pregnant?!" He screamed.

"Yes! Yes she's carrying you child! Ok!" Felix finally confessed.

All the color in Patrick's face washed away and the world began to slow down "Wha… I don't understand. How… ?"

"Patrick, as much as I would love to stand here and explain the birds and the bees to you, I need to stop her!"

"Where is she?" Patrick asked as the elevator doors finally opened.

"Patrick, I have to go…"

"WHERE?!" He yelled again as passing staff members began exchanging worrisome looks.

"She's at the women's clinic on Smithfield Street." Felix sighed.

"Wait… she's….."

"Yes, she's going to have an abortion."

"No… why? Why would she do that?!"

"Oh gee, I don't know, maybe because the father of her child broke her damn heart. Just a guess." Felix said throwing up his hands.

Patrick turned again to face Robin with torment in his eyes "Go." Was all she said before Patrick jumped onto the awaiting elevator. The adrenalin that was flowing through his veins was not unlike the night he thought he was going to lose Sabrina and Emma to Dr. Obrecht and her diabolical plans. Once again, Patrick was on a journey to save his child and the women he loved.

"Miss Santiago, we're ready when you are." The nurse said standing in the doorway to the exam room.

Sabrina bounced her legs up and down nervously as she sat glued to the waiting room chair. She should have never answered the phone when Felix called. She knew he was going to try to talk her out of it. He didn't understand what she was dealing with. A child who was unplanned and probably unwanted by the father. A child who was sure to grow up around the whispers of how he or she was conceived and how its mother had broken up a happy home. Sabrina might as well wear a scarlet letter on her chest for the rest of her life because she was sure that was how people would perceive her. This was her only recourse.

"Miss Santiago?" The nurse called again.

"I'm ready" Sabrina answered as she slowly stood up and followed the nurse into the exam room. Sabrina stared at the table with leg stirrups protruding out of the end. She took a deep breath and swallowed away her fear. The sound of the exam room door closing behind her almost brought her to her knees.

"SABRINA!" Patrick screamed as he ran into the front door of the women's clinic. "Where is she?!" He began banging on the locked door leading to the exam rooms.

"Sir! You can't be in here!" The receptionist yelled from behind the glassed in counter.

"Sabrina!" Patrick ignored the receptionist and continued to pound on the locked door "Open this door! Now!"

"Someone call security!"

"Sabrina, please!" Patrick cried against the door "Please don't do this. I love you. I love our child. Open the damn door!"

"What the hell" said one of the nurses and she opened the door from the inside. The second Patrick saw a crack, he swung the door open and began running down the hall.

"Sir! You can't go in there!"

Patrick opened every door to every room he could find but Sabrina was nowhere to be found.

"I got him!" yelled a security guard as he charged towards Patrick and tackled him to the ground.

"Get off of me!" Patrick said struggling to break free. "I have to stop her!"

"It's ok, let him up" Said the attending physician as she exited the last exam room in the hall.

The security guard rose to his feet with Patrick tightly in his grasp. "Sir calm down!"

"Sabrina. Sabrina Santiago? Where is she?!" Patrick's voice cracked as his tears fell to the floor

The physician let out a sigh and gave Patrick an apologetic look "Sir, I'm sorry…. But you're too late."

The last three words Patrick heard caused his legs to give out underneath him. The security guard loosened his grip allowing Patrick's limp body to fall to the ground. He buckled over and grabbed at his stomach in anguish. 'No…" He cried. He was too late. His baby was gone. A baby that he had only known about for an hour yet already loved so much was gone and it was his fault. Patrick lay on the cold sterile tile screaming in agony for the second child he had lost in a year.