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Gak. I always tell myself not to write these author note things, but I really need to write this. I've been holding this off for a while now, right now I am attempting to write the next chapter of this story. The thing is, I've been 'attempting' for a very long time now – I feel really guilty as this is my most popular and to be honest my favourite story at the moment – but the way I'm writing it... it's just not good enough for such a long wait every one has had... that's if people still even remember this story any more.
I'm going to try harder to update this story very soon, but over this planning and writing I have noticed something that I would like you to take in to account.
The last chapter I wrote... The way I wrote Zero. I really dislike it. It's way too girly too feminine, I was wondering if anyone thinks that it was too OC? I'm considering to rewrite that chapter to try and fix his personality. All the way through the story up till that point it had been angst, but the way I wrote that chapter just completely destroyed the whole way the story is viewed to me. If I do rewrite it wont change any events that happened in that chapter – hopefully – if it does, then please read that chapter (if I say that it is posted).
Do you think it ruined the last chapter? Please let me know, then I can decide based on my view and others. I went over this with DoujinGirl and she kindly pointed me to the fact that the way I wrote him is not entirely OC. In the anime he was very caring to Yuuki, what I think I ended up writing was a Zero with no glaring, just that almost motherly love he has for Yuuki. Or think of it as how he was when he was with Ichiru as a child – Constantly taking care of him when he was sick and loving him. His personality will be kind of different compared to how it was in the anime and manga anyway – as he went through a slightly different past... I've got a note book with 3 pages full of pink pen just explaining some of the back story... it's kind of incomplete too.
It's confusing for me to explain, but I still think I ruined it kind of.
Views please?
For why I haven't updated? A lot of stuff happened. A lot of annoying stuff. For starters, new friendships... that ended quickly and in bad ways... all round problems, too much time taken by tests and exams – so tired. Got ill quite a few times. Went off anime for a bit (trying to wein myself back in) – no worries though, Yaoi has always been a part of my life (even without most the anime). I've been tired for a very long time. I've got more tests and exams coming up soon but I'm trying to do my best to get back on track with the studying. If I can't do both then I'm not going to do well anyway. To sum it all up, life has been kind of tough, more emotionally than anything. It's nothing all that big, but it had too much drama and I just couldn't coup. You have no idea how things change in 6 months... it's so scary. But it's all better now :) - mostly.
I am going to try and update this story soon, this chapter will either be deleted or just kept – it depends. I am in no way stopping this story, I just thought I would let everyone know that, it has been a very long time since I updated... Way too long time, but I am actually trying my best to update. I've already rewritten the chapter twice, I think I'm a bit dodgy at the moment so I'm trying to make sure the length and everything is ok, but also how I'm describing things.
I will try my best. Please wait. I'm not deleting this story, packing my bags and leaving you with a half done job. Nope. I'll try and update some time soon.
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