A/N: ...Hello. So the A/N I posted...The one saying that I would update soon?... it seems that, that was quite some time back from now. He, he? Sorry. This has kind of been half done but not edited for about 2 months now, I just didn't get round till editing it the other day. And when I do get round to editing it turns out I've got exams to study for... So instead of studying I've been playing Sims 3 and writing. Smart idea. No matter, I will study soon after I have posted this, and then I have to go through a few different projects =.=.
For replies on the A/N chapter, thank you for sharing your views on it :) It seems that people weren't as bothered as I expected and I, in the end, did not have enough time to even consider rewriting at least the last 3 to 4 chapters (The start's good. I like the start). I may do it at a later date it really depends on how much time and english writing power I have XD.
I hope the length of this is OK for how long I was gone and how long I fear I might be away for.
Beta read by the amazing DoujinGirl - Thank you for putting up with me! She helps this story a lot :D
Disclaimer: Do not own Vampire Knight.
Time to just move on with the chapter :)
Zero's head slammed itself back against the tree bark, unruly silver locks unsettling themselves at the contact.
A small sigh parted from his lips, his eyelids hiding his lilac irises.
It was going to rain soon. Yet, he made no move to leave the patch of grass he had been seated in for the past few hours.
This was freedom.
Something away from the stuffy house that held so many memories, some good, but most terrifyingly bad. He could feel the claws of madness gripping at him whenever he sat in a room alone.
Kaname was constantly busy, always working on new things or taking care of someone. What ever he had gained when he first came back had been lost again and all Zero could do was sit silently and not disturb the other pureblood.
He didn't tell him that he was still in pain from the spell.
He didn't tell him that he was still in pain from Cross Academy.
And he definitely did not tell him how unsteady his mind set was becoming.
The plan.
That was all he was living for now.
After that he would simply float away in to the wind.
The incident with Yuuki had taught him that, that was the best thing to do.
Those two... they really looked good together; Their eyes, Their hair and their statuses...
They were like the prince and the princess.
And him?
The lonely pawn under many different cloaks: A Knight, a Rook and a Queen.
But once those covers were torn off he would be just back to what he was at the start, a measly pawn to be put out and sacrificed.
After all, that was all he was. An object to be used then thrown away, it's only purpose to try and advance the users position slightly.
That's what he was doing.
Advancing Kaname, making sure that the brunette became the ruler to the whole game. That was the least he could do for the one he loved.
He squinted his eyes together as he felt a large glob of wetness land on his cheek.
Slowly opening his eyes, he managed to make out the harsh lines of water flying to the ground, creating small splashes on even the grass.
Blinking a few times, he noticed that it was not just one glob of water that had hit him... he was all but drenched in the rain.
"Damn it..." The silvernette whispered harshly to himself, the whole time he had been thinking he hadn't even noticed that it had started raining, not even to this extent... They would become worried, he knew it. He would have to leave quickly and hope that no one would be home.
Kaname had been very touchy on letting him out of the mansion, when he was around he would constantly be around Zero, making sure he knew where he was at all times. Sadly this did not make up for his lack of presence.
He swiftly pushed himself off the ground, his hands gripping at the tree to try and aid him with standing on now sloppy ground.
Looking upwards he tried to assess how long it should be till he was back at the mansion. He hadn't gone that far away from it, but he had needed a place where there wouldn't be the constant paranoia of someone constantly hovering over him.
Just as he was about to push his body away from the tree, he felt it.
A sharp throbbing pain.
It flowed through his body, running through his blood stream like a house on fire.
His finger tips twitched, his knees shock a little, bending slightly in an effort to break any fall to come.
His head inclined forwards, temples burning immensely, eyes scrunching together as his head made it's descent to the muddy mess below him.
Upon impact he was still not spared as his body slid a few inches through the sloppy mud, finally stopping with his chin sinking in to it. It hurt, but no where near as much as his insides... Acid could only recreate the feeling that his blood was doing to his body at the moment.
He could only groan weakly as more rain slapped down on to his body, his already drenched shirt was now coated with layers of mud that even the rain could not wash away, his lips were slightly parted, only to be bit down on to keep any more of those noises from escaping.
It hurt.
Like hell it hurt, why did his damn body have to be so weak when his mind was so set on doing something?
If he could punch the ground he would of done so the moment his whole body had collided with it.
The pain seemed to just get worse the more he lead there... He was just so tempted to curl up in to a ball and lie there... but that'd be know good... Those in the mansion were waiting and if he didn't get back sometime soon, they were sure to notice that the empty neglected windows were missing him.
Digging his fingers in to the ground he didn't care if the dirt got stuck under there and never came out again, he was never the type of vampire to care about a little bit of dirt like Kaname was... Besides in the condition he was in, he couldn't give a damn in the whole world for how the staff or Kaname would reacted upon seeing his drenched and dirtied body. The pain was too much to worry about that.
Using his fingers an anchor he pushed off of the ground with that one hand... the throbbing got worse from there, but he just moved his body up on to his knees, stings of pants leaving his lips before pushing up on to shaky feet.
The rain did very little to help him up, it felt like the whole world was pushing him back down in to the dirt.
"Where I should be..." The whisper left him without even noticing as he stood trying to steady himself on wobbling ankles.
Quickly he shock his now brown tinted locks, there was no time for that; he had to get back to the mansion – that was where he should be right now – he will just return to the dirt when all this madness was over.
So slowly, with one hand raised to cling to his chest tightly in some attempt to contain the inner pain that could be seen so clearly, he took a shaky step forward, planting his foot deeply in to the mud, a growl leaving his lips as half lidded eyes stared unfocused at the ground in front of him.
This was going to take a long time.
Kaname sat stiffly in his padded arm chair, his eye attached to the window showing him what the outside world had to hold, a slight frown forced his eyebrows to tilt down by a notch. The fact that there was only a slight frown showing surprising the many occupiers of the house as his aura was something made out of pure anger and murderous intent.
When the brunette had first arrived home, he was expecting to find his lover curled up on one of the many window stills, he was also expecting to actually feel him somewhere in the house and he was most of all expecting someone to point him to where his love may have gone.
Instead of all of the above, he was left with nothing, window sills empty, only a cold feeling of lackingness coming from the house and to finish it all the people of the home knew nothing to where he had gone to. It was clear that his security had been rather lax in his absence, and that there was not a mistake that would be happening again.
His hands tightened slightly on to the arms of the chair, he had only arrived home a short while ago, and it had been raining quite a bit when he was just leaving his car, but now it was ten folds worse, if it wasn't for the clinging of Yuuki then he would of probably stormed through the rain... but her argument was rather valid.
Kaname was never one to show much to any signs of his real emotions, but right now they were so raw that his hands and formed a clenching positions, his teeth were grinding against each row and his eyes were border-lining red. These signs had worried his children very much.
Juuri had nervously shifted in her seat on the plump sofa in one of the many living rooms, while Haruka sat silently seemingly unaffected by his father's anger, he however put his energy in to stroking his thumb over the back of Juuri's hand in a comforting manner. He after all knew that they had nothing to fear, Kaname was a man who would could kill his enemies with little movement or thought, but his family was something that he would never hurt without a good outcome.
Yuuki however did not know this, she had only ever seen Kaname as the sweet wonderful man who she clung to in her time of need and comfort, he rarely spoke, but when he did he only said what was needed to be said, and that was often all she needed to hear. Seeing him so angered about something that she didn't see as much was so confusing...Zero disappeared every hour at the academy, why would it matter so much more now than it did then? If anything he could take care of himself a little better now... Kaname didn't need to waste his efforts on keeping him so close...
"Where did he go?" It was the first time anyone had spoken in the three minutes pause that had come after Juuri rather bravely announcing that Zero was no longer in the home. However Juuri's reaction this time was less brave than the first.
"...Otou-san..." She started, but as she opened her lips to speak again nothing came out.
"Otou-san, Okaa-san seems to of gone out for a bit, I don't think he has gone very far..." Haruka came to his lover's aid in the hopes of maybe smoothing over his Father's mood a bit.
"And why is it that he has left, despite my orders for him to stay in our home?" Kaname cut the air swiftly with his reply that came not a moment after Haruka's reasoning.
"..." The room was short for words. There were times when Kaname really was too angry to see the line between family and staff... This was one of those many times, his children had no blame for him though, their mother was not meant to leave the home.
Yuuki could only sit there shaking slightly, her fists clasped tightly in to little balls that shock every now and then. An onslaught of words were running through her head, almost all not her own. But it felt like they were becoming her own. It was only Kaname's change from the mood she had been used to for so long at the academy to now, that she was able to push her own thoughts forward.
"Whyy...?" She forced out, her head was down so her hair hid her eyes... that word, it was an odd mixture of her true feelings and HER feelings... Both the same word but very different reasons.
Kaname's head snapped towards the girl who he had spent most of the time in the last few years looking after carefully, he had found that over time she was very predictable... But right now he did not know what to say to her, the word she had spewed sounded weird... almost accusing.
"Whyy... Why is he not allowed to leave...?" It seemed more difficult for her to push out those words, it was as if her mind was full of so many that she didn't know what was actually her own and what were fake cheap rip-offs that would never amount to what her true words were trying to describe.
"Yuuki... You know that he has been sick late-" Kaname was cut short.
"That's no excuse. He was sick often at the academy.. I saw... you never cared then when he disappeared, why would now be any different?" He was wrong before, her voice didn't sound almost accusing it was very accusing. It made him hold a flinch within himself.
"Those were different tim-" Yet again.
"No. He was weaker then. In pain all the time. He would constantly be pulling himself in to a tight ball and seemed to be on his death bed every day of the year. Now he is stronger. He was allowed before, but why not now...?" Yuuki's mouth was now open and panting rather hard.
Kaname was stunned for words... He never knew that Yuuki noticed that much after being apart from Zero when she was placed in to the night class, but then again she had probably seen a lot from being with Zero since just before Cross Academy...
Knowing that she was right this time, he let her stand and walk off, she seemed... weaker?... out of breathe?... tired?... he didn't know how to put it but she looked considerably depleted compared to what she was when he had first arrived home. Then again.. she had been a bit off since Zero had been revealed to be her grand mother... she would have constant mood swings and would often start saying something but would stop and just stand there confused... It worried him greatly, but he could do very little as she didn't seem to know what was happening herself.
Either way, he could only watch as she swayed past him and out the door, leaving him in silence with Juuri and Haruka wearing a type of disapproving frown that was coated in a mask of shocked.
Since then, Kaname had been seated in his office neglecting his much needed and undesired work and taking to a new hobby of staring at the window, or rather glaring in his case. It was the only thing he could do, he had tried to calm his nerves with blood tablets and the glass had crashed to dust from the very contact of one finger. For a short moment he had only stood dumbly staring at the dust like substance covering the ground... It was rare for him to let his anger leak to this point...
From there on he decided that it would not have a good outcome to touch anything else in the room, and instead took to his place in a strong but comfortable arm chair that was pointed at an angle to the window. The window had been cracked and uncracked many times in the few minutes he had first sat there glaring, to the point where he was having to try and pull his aura in on himself to stop that from happening, sadly it did not work as the murderous intent still emitted from his form. So he gave up on trying to stop it from happening and instead tried to locate Zero.
He came up blank.
It was very weird for him, he could feel Zero near by, he knew he was there but no matter how hard he tried to look he couldn't pin point it exactly... The bond had been a little bit muffled since his lover had gone through with the change, with time though it would slowly fix itself back to the full benefits that it could have... Or at least he would force it to, he would not have living like this for much long.
The brunette took a deep breathe all of a sudden... He felt it, a small stab of pain in his chest accompanied by a slight warming feeling that had him spring up from where he was sitting. Closing his eyes for a moment he could almost see where Zero was, he was approaching getting closer... at a slow pace but he was getting here...
Moving swiftly the pureblood pushed open the door with little ease and quickened his steps to the stairs of his home making his way towards the two large marble doors, doing their perfect job to keep all the rain out, no matter how hard it started to beat down.
Opening one of the two with a favourable swing, he was met with his love standing there on the front step... In any other case he would have been happy to see him... but there were no way that to describe the way Zero looked... well maybe one. Beat up.
And that angered him a lot, just the thought that the silvernette could have been hurt, right from under his very nose... That stinging feeling before had gotten quite a bit worse, it had now became a harsh throbbing, and from the way that Zero was gripping to his shirt for dear life, he was starting to understand where said pain was coming from.
Not wasting any more time he quickly pulled the smaller male in to the house, placing his hand on the small of his back and using the other to secure their hands together. He started to slowly move him in to the house and threw the many halls, but it was taking too long and the pain seemed to be increasing the longer they took. So like any caring lover, Kaname simply hoisted him up in to his arms and carried him briskly towards their shared room.
Zero of course started to kick and free himself, but the aura that the Pure blood gave off let no room for questions and complaints, he could feel himself being forced in to submission from the sear force of Kaname's anger. From then on he could do anything but bite his bottom lip and keep all the pained whimpers from leaving his mouth, he knew that Kaname could feel it... But he was going to make sure that his lover didn't think that the pain was actually as bad as it was.
In all honesty, the brunette was angry... From the moment he had seen Zero at the door, drenched from head to toe, even mud plastering itself to both his clothes and face, if it wasn't for his appearance and the clear pain he was in, he would of started lecturing him... Maybe even yelling a little... But as his appearance and pain suggested, he would leave that until later. Zero was his lover and he had to care for him like any lover would.
Reaching their room, Kaname headed straight towards the conjoining bathroom, just to the left of the room behind a neatly carved wooden door. Without so much as touching the door it opened, the wood around the handle seeming to crack a little at the atmosphere brought over the rooms.
Shortly after Zero was placed in to the large bath tub and forced to sit back against the side, but in truth he did no need to be forced as all he really wanted to do was to melt in to the side of the tub and hope that this would never be spoken of again. He could only watch through hazy eyes as his lover collected towels from a cupboard above the sink, he knew that his wish would not come true from the moment Kaname knelt down by the side of the bath, a serious expression fixed on to his face.
The Brunette moved towards the silvernette's shirt, unbuttoning he buttons with little care in it, if anything he was more or less just ripping the buttons from the shirt, effectively ruining it probably beyond use again. When the shirt was finally off Zero's form and his pants were pulled from his skin, Kaname finally spoke.
"Care to explain why you left our home?" To the wind what Yuuki said, he did not have time to think through such logically things at the moment, all he could think about was the thought that his lover had disobeyed him purposely and left their home and safety.
Running water filled the silence between them as Zero just stared forwards blankly.
As the water started to slowly fill up towards Zero's chest, he finally lifted his head back and gave a loud sigh, before slowly turning towards Kaname, a slight growl coming from his lips at the effort it took to move surrounded by water and filled with pain.
"I was bored... This house bores me." The dull tone came from Zero's lips, and reacting the way he expected he could see Kaname's eyes narrow slightly, and it was just that slight narrow that had him worried... What if... No Kaname wouldn't, he may not think or see him how he wants him to, but he would never do such a thing to such an important part of the plan. That's all Zero could pride himself on for now.
"You were bored... Zero. We have spoken about this. You are not to leave our home, what if something happened you? You are in no state to protect yourself." The brunette's voice was surprisingly calm as he picked up a sponge and started to rub Zero's bare chest in comforting circles. It felt good... Kaname could tell, even though Zero tried so hard to keep his expression so neutral a small tint in his cheeks had appeared, and Kaname could tell it was not from the warm water.
"I can take per-" Zero was cut short.
"Look at the state of you Zero!" Small splashes of water hit both the wall and Zero's face. "This is not taking care of yourself! You're soaked! And you're in pain! Don't think just because I didn't mention it that we wont discuss it!" The calmness he had before left his voice quickly and became something that made Zero wish to flinch away. So harsh, accusing, and blanketed in a small layer of disbelief.
The silvernette's head lowered slightly in shame, the hair covering his eyes did very little to hide from Kaname's vision, he felt no shame in being before him in a bath tub with nothing hidden, but when he could see through him so much... It made him feel so worthless, like he couldn't do anything on his own... And that worthless made his question his part in the plan.
Kaname kept quiet, watching Zero drown in his own despair. Almost all the mud had been washes off his lover's body, now all that was left was creamy skin surrounded in a bath of muck. Even as unappealing the water was he still couldn't help the need to comfort the younger, so without caring for the vileness between them he leaned his head on to the silvernette's neck.
"You've been so down recently." He voiced with a calmer tone as he gave a long lick to the others neck, he could feel the shudder that pasted through the silvernette's body, "If I didn't know any better I'd say you were doubting us." It came out as a playful taunt, but Zero stiffening at that phrase seemed to go unnoticed.
Slowly trailing his tongue across his shoulder, he found two small parallel patches where the his pale skin was far paler than normal, it had recently become his favourite spot for both his pleasure and Zero's reaction. Suddenly giving a hard suck to the suck for a moment, causing a loud groan from his lover before he pulled away watched the pale area now glow with a red hue.
"Kaname..." Zero started a harsh growl leaking from his lips, "Don't you dare get any ideas..." He muttered slowly lifting his head to look towards his lover.
Kaname only chuckled in reply, before pulling away to look at his lover. Zero had his eyes clenched shut, tousled silver locks splayed out in various directions while light shivers trailed through his form. He looked so fragile. No matter how much his lover ever tried to hide it from him, it was at times like this where he saw how different Zero was in comparison to the many masks he wears.
Lifting his hand he brushed his fingers across a pale cheek, watching with interest and Zero flinched away from the touch. That was three times now. Three times Zero had removed himself from his affection out of fear, as much as he wanted to investigate it, now was not the time.
Slowly Zero's eyes pulled open from their squeezed motion, to see a pair of wine orbs watching him, clouded in thought. Forcing his body to relax slightly to the brunette's touch, he just watched to see what would happen next.
The still glazed eyes stared blankly at Zero's form, fingertips slowly trailing from the cheek down to the now reddened mark on the usually glowing skin.
"Kaname..." He quiet mutter left his lips.
"Hm?" The said person hummed in reply, the glazed appearance disappearing rather quickly but in no way suddenly.
"The plan..." Wine orbs moved from the marking he had made up to his lover's face.
"Why do you need to think of that right now?" He forcefully pushed, eyes hardening while looking in to Zero's eyes.
"Sorry." His lover's eyes averted from his own looking to the white walls of the bathroom, little droplets of the brown bath water still splattered on the normally pristine surface.
"There's no need for that." Moving from his position beside the bath Kaname held Zero by the armpits pulling him from the now cooled water. "You must be tired." He stated while shifting his lover to bridal style in his arms.
As much as Zero wanted to disagree with the statement, he could feel the depths of sleep building up in his mind. It wasn't his body that was feeling tired it was Kaname's power that was making him that way, he hated when he did that. But right now, his mind was so full it'd probably of fallen asleep without the extra prodding of his partner's power.
"Oh and Zero?" The brunette paused by the door leading out of the bathroom, "don't even think that I've forgotten the pain you were in earlier." He could feel the figure in his arms stiffen as he continued in to the bedroom, "If I didn't know any better I would say you left out a lot of information about the spell when you told me about it..." That one was whispered close to his ear, from his sleepy state he just managed to recognize what was being said, his skin went paler than normal, tensing his body, while he eyes could barely stay open any more.
Laying down the body gently on to the bed he pulled the red duvet over his lover's figure, before moving down so they were face to face and whispering - "Also. Don't think that, that silly excuse for me drinking from you will last much long." With that he placed a light kiss on to his forehead, and moved away from the bed altogether.
From his sleep, Zero let out a string of muffled grumbles that sounded similar to swears and curses aimed at the other pureblood.
"Sleep well my love." Was the only reply to answer the mumbles, not even a chuckle of usual amusement could follow.
Yuuki's hands clenched rough as she leaned with her head towards the wall in one of the many hall ways.
Not for her life could she understand what was happening to her, she didn't think she had done anything to warrant a demon in her head. Or at least, that's all she could think it was.
She didn't understand how she would just sit there quietly listening to a conversation and then suddenly all these different thoughts appear in her head, rarely ever is she able to force out her true thoughts against them. Like she had done earlier that evening. The sense of pride she had felt for herself when she was able to force her true feelings out and to even lecture Kaname... But the voices had just seemed to get louder from there, stomping and destroying what little thoughts she was clinging to and replacing them with HER thoughts now her own thoughts...
It was painful to say the least, there was always a sharp sword stabbing at her temple or a demon pressing down on her tongue, she did not want it, but some times she would just open her mouth and the most horrific things would run off her tongue. She in no way wanted to say them... But when it came to Kaname and Zero... There always seemed to be some sort of hold on her... No matter how hard she pushed through it, it was still there daunting over her... But those were the scariest thoughts... because in truth she believed at least half of them. Morally they were wrong, but in terms of what she wanted they were spot on to the T... And sometimes that bar between morally right and what she wanted blurred and bended until what she wanted was exactly what was right... and no one would take that away from her.
"What's wrong?" A deep voice made her jump out of her thoughts and accidentally smash her forehead in to the wall.
Turning slowly while rubbing her forehead she was met with someone she never expected to see here, or rather someone she never wanted to see again.
"R-Ri... Rido!" She could help but scream out as she took a step back.
There before her, stood a tall pureblood, redish hair in the dark stages of brown, one eyes blue while the other one a redish Kuran brown, he wore a simple dress shirt and dress trousers that were ruffled slightly and had probably been carelessly thrown on... But then again it looked more like he slept in them. His mismatched eyes just stared forwards at her seeming to be missing something that he had last time she had seen him.
Kaname stood in his study. It was a rather contrasting scene to what it was earlier. Instead of sitting in a chair glaring out the window he stood with his back to it, the moon casting a far shadow of both him and the trees outside on to the pale red carpet. His aura was not one of death and anger, but instead calm and controlled to not show what he was feeling about where he was staring. A conjoining door to his study lead to where his silvernette was sleeping, it seems that going outside and being bathed had taken out more from him than he had first thought, as even with only a slight push of his powers, Zero had fallen asleep before anymore questions could be asked. Sadly that left him in a state of confusion and wanting answers.
For the past few hours now he had been standing with his hands clasped tightly behind his back, back straight as a plank while watching the shadows of the trees gently sway back and forth with little interest in the beautiful picture, instead his brain was clouded by so many thoughts and unanswered questions.
The pain he had felt... The spell they had used should have been completed by now, by doing so the affects of the transformation would be nullified and all pain from the turning would be completely gone and Zero would of just returned to his normal pureblood self. That was what Zero had told him.
He was now sure that many details had been left out of this spell... but not only that, many thoughts which travelled through Zero refused to reach him through their bond or through Zero speaking to him. It worried him... His lover was showing clear signs of pain and depression yet he did not say a word to him, the person who loved him dearly.
"Really?"
If purebloods laid eggs Kaname would have had half a dozen at that voice.
His eyes shot quickly around the room before landing on something in the shadow... A small bird's shadow stretched out before him, sitting on one of the empty swaying branches before.
Well at least he knew that Zero would never lie about that...
But it had him wonder how her eyes could also have a mouth.
"Oh... Kaname my dear... Thinking that a bird is talking to you?"
That time Kaname turned swiftly on his heels and faced towards the window. And there she was, in all her praised beauty and glory with the bird sitting delicately on a held out finger, it had been so long... But purebloods never truly did fade in the beauty of power after all.
"I assume you are just visiting?" The brunette spoke in a proud and clear voice towards the finger in the moon light.
"Not yet... Just simply checking in... I would have just watched but it appears that your thoughts are becoming quite silly."
He could hear the humour and mocking in her voice, no matter how much he got used to it he could never help himself to get slightly offended or even sick to his stomach by listening to the woman.
"Silly?" Kaname carefully inquired.
"Of course. After all you seem to be thinking that a little spell could do so much to him."
"Then what else can be the cause. It is only logical. No matter how much you consider it a 'little spell' even you know how much affect it can have..."
"True...But young Kaname do you not understand what you are blindly missing?"
Kaname's face remained neutral.
"Really? You do not know... Oh how did I even consider it smart to leave him in your care."
He watched as the women pulled up a sleeved hand that was not a branch for the bird and brought it towards her lips, shielding her expression from him.
The brunette could really not understand her, she was not making any sense to him, there was nothing that could possibly cause pain to Zero as it was now.
"Well for starters, I can tell you that it's a lot worse than what you think... and for seconds did you ever consider that it may be something of the mind simply showing a physically form?"
"That's nonsense. His mind his perfectly fine how dare you-!"
A cruel laugh cut him off, mocking his very words that seemed to almost offend the woman.
"His mind has never been perfectly fine. And after all he's gone through would it really be any better than before... Oh no... It's gotten a lot worse now..."
Kaname took a step back for a moment, the women had trailed off and had muttered something harshly to herself after, he could feel the women's closed aura expand quickly and all he could do was stare at the figure in the moon light.
All it took was the second that he paused his stare to blink, and the women was gone... Nothing left behind but her harsh laughter ringing in his ears, it was painful to hear but he could do nothing to stop that awful noise.
A/N: there it is :) I hope that was long enough for everyone I tried me best to make this chapter extra long for people, although I still think it's a bit too short for such a wait.
I also have to apologize for any grammar or typo errors that come up in this chapter, as you see recently my grammar has disappeared to the point where I end up writing paragraphs (6 - 10 lines average), with about 1 to 2 full stops in them =.=. I did however reread this chapter quite a few times and tried to write some sections slower than others, so I think I got most the typos that I normally end up stupidly writing (I reread some of the old chapters of this story, and God. How do you guys even survive, I was correcting a word per a line), but I think me and spell check may have still missed some.
There's a bit of a bumpy patch in the middle that I don't think I edited so well... but I think it's manageable so it shouldn't destroy the reading so much.
I'm afraid that do not know when I will update next, I have tests coming up... so for the next about 2 months will just be tests and me trying to avoid dying from some sort of cold that'll become increasingly deadly in my zombie study form self.
Thank you for reading, please review and sooo sorry!