Author's Note:
So this is a very short fic that kind of came to me, it's already done but I will post it over a period of time just so I can get feedback from those that wish to give it. This is sad, angsty, and will have mentions of death pretty much through out.
Hope you all enjoy it either way though. Just for an update on everything else (if you're a regular reader of my works) everything is on hold except for Parent Trap (and obviously this one of course.) until I get settled in the new place.
"You're leaving me?" Ray breathed out, barely above a whisper as his voice trembled and his heart sunk into the pit of his stomach.
He had tried to look, stare, into Kai's eyes, but the other man had his head downcast, as if his feet and the ground beneath them were more interesting.
"W... Why? What did I do wrong?" Ray had finally found his voice, grabbing hold of Kai's arm in an almost death like grip, his claws digging into his flesh though Kai didn't even flinch; he deserved all the pain he got for doing this to Ray.
"It's not- "Don't give me that bullshit, 'it's not you, it's me' line. Cus guess what, I already knew you weren't going to be easy, this was never going to be easy, but I thought we were doing good... I thought we were happy." Ray's speech had started out strong, like a fire, until his words burned down, and he once again felt the crushing weight in his chest; maybe Kai wasn't happy?
"I was going to say, it's not that you did anything wrong." Kai still spoke evenly, his smooth voice the same as it always was, as if doing this had no ill effect on his person.
"Then why?" Ray pleaded, his voice cracking.
"You know why... Ray... You're fixing to be twenty-eight, while I'm still... Like this!" He motioned to himself with his free arm, the anger now evident in his ruby eyes as he showed off the body and stature of an 18 year old boy.
"We talked about this before though, it doesn't matter to me." Ray shook his head, a smirk on his lips as he realized Kai was just having another one of his unnecessary panic fits about this, it was no different when he had turned twenty-five and Kai had tried to call things off then.
Kai shook his head hard, running his free hand through his slate colored bangs. "It may not matter to you, but it matters to me. I can't just sit by and watch you keep aging, when I can't. Eventually you're going to go gray, and people are going to notice. Then... One day... You won't be here..." Kai fought around the lump in his throat just to finish that sentence.
"Damn what other people think, it's not like you have ever cared to begin with. And I'm not that old yet, we still have time." Ray tried, no one can say he never tried, but Kai simply shook his head again at him with a sigh; he wasn't backing down this time.
"And what are we going to tell people when you're thirty and I still look like this? We can't very well go off and tell them 'my boyfriend's immortal, he's actually the same age as me'. They'd hunt me down and experiment on me, that's how I got in this mess to begin with in case you forgot.
"And you think it's going to be easy, has been easy, to watch everyone around me age like normal? It'll be hard enough to watch Tyson and Max age and go, but don't ask me to watch you do it!" Kai snapped angrily, finally showing some emotion, but it wasn't the kind Ray was really looking for.
Ray's mouth had fallen open, speechless for a comeback. He wanted to, but his words were stuck in his throat as tears formed in his golden eyes. What he wouldn't give to be by Kai's side, but clearly Kai couldn't, wouldn't, be by his any longer.
A silence loomed over them and now it was Ray's turn to stare at the ground beneath their feet, the grass bending in the gentle breeze. Having come to their spot in the field not too far from the park they all used to train in when they were teens, they were supposed to be out here on a date, how did it end up like this when it had been going so well before?
Kai had been watching Ray for a reaction, his ebony bangs having almost covered his entire face from view. His hand was still clamped around Kai's arm, but now it was slightly trembling instead of the death grip it had moments ago.
"I'm not... I didn't want to hurt you..." Kai's voice was carried by the breeze, and if it wasn't for Ray's heightened sense of hearing he wouldn't have heard the words at all.
With his free hand, Kai brushed Ray's bangs back and gently tucked them behind a pointed ear. Tears finally broke free, running down Ray's face and he pushed his cheek into Kai's warm hand, who brushed the smooth skin with his thumb, receiving a purr from the other; he was going to miss that sound.
Kai stepped forward and placed a kiss to Ray's cheek and then his lips, where he lingered longer than he should have before he pulled away. His arm was free now, so he took the opportunity to step back far enough where Ray couldn't grab him again, their eyes locked as he continued to step back from him.
He watched as Ray bit into his bottom lip, knowing full well there were more words he wanted to say, more reasons for him to stay. And it hurt, it was the worse pain he had ever felt as he watched the man before him get his heart crushed. It was his fault, Kai knew, he shouldn't have ever done this, but that night when Ray had come to him all those years ago, he just couldn't say no.
"I love you." Hung in the air between them, Kai's back turned as if the words weren't going to be able to hurt him anymore if he couldn't see Ray's broken face.
"I love you too." Was stuck in his throat, unable to say the words he knew Ray wanted to hear but couldn't bring himself to say.
He kept walking down the hill and out of sight, leaving Ray alone where the remains of their picnic sat just behind him. The sun was starting to set, the sky changing into reds and oranges, as if the world was catching on fire. Any other time Ray would have marveled at the sight, but this time he collapsed under the setting sun onto the grassy hill top, his tears full force as he felt his entire being shatter.