So, I've been writing lot this week meaning I finished this chapter earlier than I usually do and I'm doing absolutely nothing so I thought I'd post it. I'm hoping this will kinda explain why Santana is being the way she is and maybe you won't be that upset with her anymore :) Thanks for following and favoriting and reviewing and especially reading! Greatly appreciated!
Quinn woke up and slowly opened her eyes. She looked over at Santana who was turned away from her still sound asleep. She rubbed her eyes and carefully stretched herself so she wouldn't disturb Santana again and looked at the clock. Seriously? Quinn thought to herself when she noticed it was only a little after 6. Quinn gently removed the comforter from herself and sat up to swing her legs over the edge of the bed. She sighed and ran her hand over her face after rubbing at her eyes. When she stood up she swiftly made her way to the curtain divider of Santana's room and stole a glance back a Santana to make sure she hadn't disturbed her and quickly made her way out.
Quinn shivered a little, making her way over to her bag by the couch to find her sweatpants. She quietly made her way to the bathroom and once in there she looked herself in the mirror and just rolled her eyes at herself. She sighed and finished readying herself for the morning slipping on her sweatpants and brushing her teeth, all the while wondering about how today was going to end up going. Quinn couldn't promise she wouldn't be upset with Santana but it was probably best for them both if she kept her mouth shut.
She couldn't help wondering why Santana even brought anything up if she didn't reciprocate Quinn's feelings, she didn't think she was being too "weird" this weekend but then again she did tell Santana she expected things to be different between them ever since the wedding. Quinn's never taken too kindly to the way Santana behaved towards her but it's not like she was any better so she never had any room to complain, so when she finally did maybe something clicked for Santana.
Quinn shrugged at herself with a sigh and made her way out of the bathroom. She opened the door and ran her fingers through her hair as she made her way out and nearly plowed over Rachel who was quickly making her way towards the bathroom, not paying attention to where she was going.
"Oh my god, Quinn, I didn't know anyone was awake yet!" She whispered rather loudly, trying to collect herself.
Quinn giggled at the expression on Rachel's face. The girl was never capable of keeping herself contained, "I didn't either, sorry." Quinn said quietly stepping aside so Rachel could go in the bathroom herself.
Quinn made her way over to the fridge and searched for a moment before she found a bag of mini muffins and grabbed a water. She quietly opened them and sat at the island in the kitchen and waited for Rachel to come back out of the bathroom and join her.
As she popped the last one in her mouth she heard the door open and Rachel came out and beamed at Quinn who turned around to greet her as she made her way to the kitchen as well. She fumbled around with the coffee maker for a minute before she turned around and made her way to the island across from Quinn.
"I'm starting to think you made it your mission to scare me to death this weekend, Quinn. Two mornings you've been here and two mornings you've succeeded." Rachel said with a grin.
Quinn smiled and shrugged, "I don't know, maybe I just like seeing how many ridiculous faces you can make in the span of a weekend. It's entertaining."
Rachel scoffed and swatted across the counter at her, "Hey!" Quinn laughed and Rachel calmed herself before she asked, "So, are you and Santana good? I noticed she didn't make you sleep on the couch again."
Quinn looked down and thought for a moment, "Yeah, I guess." She shrugged.
Rachel studied her for a moment, "The reason I ask is because I heard you two arguing again after she got home…"
Quinn stiffened when Rachel said that, "What'd you hear?" Quinn asked quickly trying to cover the panic in her voice.
Rachel shrugged, "I didn't hear the start of it so I'm not even sure what it was about, you just sounded upset again." Rachel said still studying Quinn, "I wasn't eavesdropping though, I promise." She added quickly with a small smile.
Quinn visibly relaxed at Rachel's words and shrugged in return to answer Rachel's question, "Oh, well, Santana just…being Santana again."
Rachel gave her an understanding smile and turned around towards the cabinet to pull out two coffee mugs, "I can talk to her if you'd like, seems to work for me."
Quinn shook her head as Rachel made her way back towards her with two full coffee mugs as Quinn said, "She'll get over it." Hopefully.
Rachel shrugged and handed Quinn her mug and Quinn nodded a thank you as Rachel said, "You know, it'll probably be awhile before anyone else gets up or before Kurt gets home. Wanna watch a movie or two?" She asked already making her way over to their movie collection.
Quinn walked over to join her and said, "Wouldn't hurt I guess…just no Barbra." She said in a serious tone that had Rachel glaring at her.
Rachel quickly pulled out a DVD that Quinn couldn't see and made her way over to the TV. After they both settled on the couch, Rachel skipped through to the main menu and Quinn saw why Rachel didn't let her see the selection before she put it in.
"What the hell, Berry?" Quinn tried to sound angry by bringing back the use of her last name.
She received a giant smile from Rachel who said, "I have a Funny Girl audition coming up, Quinn, I need to study!"
Rachel was beaming as she turned back towards the TV and Quinn sighed, "Fine, but I'm choosing the next one."
It was almost 11 when Quinn's movie had finished. Rachel made her way to the bathroom to get ready for the day and Quinn snuck back into Santana's room to retrieve her phone from the night stand. When she walked in she saw Santana sitting on the edge of the bed rubbing her eyes.
"Didn't think you'd be awake yet." Quinn stated as she slowly walked over in front of Santana to grab her cell. Santana jumped a little, slightly startled.
"Christ, Fabray." Santana said with a raspy voice, "I just woke up…how long have you been awake?"
Quinn laughed and sat down next her to, "Since six. Had a nice movie marathon with Rachel."
Santana laughed quietly, "Always a fun time…when do you leave?"
"6:15." Quinn sighed, "Why?"
Santana shrugged, "I thought maybe we could hang out today…without Berry. Forget about what happened last night?" Santana looked over at Quinn with a somewhat shy expression that Quinn wasn't used to seeing.
Quinn looked back at her and sighed again as she searched Santana's eyes, "There's nothing to forget about."
"I told you not to be mad, Q. If we leave things like that then things will always be like…weird." Santana said softly.
Quinn looked at Santana for a beat, "I'm not mad I just don't understand what your issue is." She said and turned her attention to her phone case on her lap again.
Santana watched her fumble around with it for a minute, "I don't have an issue," She thought for another moment, "You, Kurt and Rachel are the only people who actually give a shit about me and put up with my shit. And I need you to escape from them when they start to drive me insane. Also, I know me and Berry are probably your only real friends. Can't afford to lose either of us." Santana said trying to lighten the mood a little bit.
Quinn rolled her eyes, "You don't know unless you try." She mumbled.
Santana continued to watch Quinn's actions, "What makes you think I'd want to try?"
Quinn scoffed, "I'm not as big of an idiot as you might think, if you didn't care about me you would've thrown me out the door as soon as you figured out I have feelings for you." She said quietly still not looking up.
"At what point did I say I don't care about you?" Santana asked reaching for Quinn's phone and yanking it from her hand so Quinn didn't have a distraction from looking at her.
Quinn sighed and thought for a moment but she knows Santana never actually said she doesn't care about her. In fact she said she didn't want her to think that. She hesitated before she said, "You said it was a one time thing for you-"
Santana interrupted her, "Yeah, I did, but I also said I respect you more than just using you for a one night stand." Quinn just looked at her, she didn't really know how that made sense. She came in and out of it believing it was just a one night stand yet she respects her more than just using her as a one night stand? Quinn's face contorted into one of confusion and when she didn't say anything it was like Santana could read her mind, "Quinn, one night stands are supposed to be just a random fling where you put feelings and shit aside no matter who it is and then basically forget about it. I've had plenty, I know how they work…Our situation wasn't and hasn't been like that."
Santana paused and kept looking at Quinn who was desperately trying to find something else to look at so she didn't have to meet Santana's gaze, "I haven't just randomly had sex since Junior year, the only person since then has been Brittany," Quinn jerked her head towards Santana with a furrowed brow as Santana continued, "I knew that was gonna change eventually, someone else would come in, slip me their number but every time I had absolutely no desire to go back to the phase in my life. It didn't feel right."
Santana paused again but before she could continue this time Quinn spoke, "Why are you telling me this?"
Santana laughed, "Wow, I'm starting to think you're really not as smart as everyone thinks you are," Quinn rolled her eyes but Santana continued with a more serious tone, "God, I can't believe you're making me say this…I never thought about having feelings for you and I still don't to be quite honest but when we were dancing and shit, talking…going to your room…it felt right, like I wanted it and I guess in the back of my mind, you're right, I knew that you did too like it wasn't just random for you." Santana finished softly but with a slightly irritated tone to her voice probably because she's actually talking about her feelings and telling the truth…to Quinn.
Quinn still had a confused look on her face, "How could it feel right if you don't even have feelings for me that doesn't really make sense…" She asked trailing off with slight hesitation.
Santana thought for a moment, "Because it felt safe...I guess. We've always had that kind of friendship where we can beat the shit out of each other or have heart to heart conversations but no matter what it was we were always okay when it was all said and done. I'm not ready to be in a relationship but I was ready to move on and I don't know, I just felt like you were someone I could do that with but not fuck everything about us up in the process. And I think in doing so it helped us take a step up in our friendship, like brought us closer. I just want another best friend to be that safe place for me and I can be for you and when we're with each other just forget about all the other stupid shit going on. But no more sex." She finished quickly and turned to Quinn.
"By the way I hate you for making me say that," she chuckled and Quinn returned a small smile, "But that's why I wanna hang with you today, move along from our old friendship and whatever you keep going on about and just be best friends again." She finished with a sigh and looked to Quinn for her response.
Quinn processed everything Santana just said and lightly rolled her eyes. Finally she stood up and turned to face Santana, "Fine, if you say so…" She quirked an eyebrow and reached around Santana to grab her phone off the nightstand where Santana placed it earlier.
Santana narrowed her eyes, "Well don't sound so excited, damn."
Quinn shrugged, "I'm just trying to figure out if you really even know how a stable relationship works based on what you just said about our friendship I don't know." Santana glared at her confused and Quinn said, "'Kay, well, I'll go get ready!" She turned on her heel with a grin as Santana continued to glare at her. She smiled at Rachel who was back on the couch as she grabbed her bag and headed towards the bathroom. So she knows Santana cares about her more than she thought which is definitely a start and something she didn't think was going to happen after their talk last night.
She was still grinning as she readied herself and got into the shower, if Santana actually thinks she's going to just let this go after what she just told her then she's got another thing coming. Santana may not have feelings for Quinn and may not be up to the idea of being with Quinn but she does care about her, seemingly a lot, but she basically admitted that Quinn feels safe like no matter what they go through it'll be okay and that's all Quinn needs. She did it on Valentine's Day, she can surely charm her way into Santana's heart instead of just her pants this time, right? If Santana is allowed to have her own special avoiding the truth way of thinking then Quinn can have her own positive she'll be able to finally win Santana over way of thinking as well.