Wide Awake

Chapter 23

The End Is Near

Nightmares are terrible things. They're dreadful, horrible things that remind me of things I don't want to remember.

The day before the comet, I had a grand total of seven hours of sleep for the previous three days. My nightmares got significantly worse each day. Deidara, who had come and started sleeping next to me, was extremely worried. As was the rest of the Akatsuki since I didn't even try to hide the slowly forming bags under my eyes.

The nightmares always consisted of my fears. I replayed my brother's car accident in my mind, even though I hadn't seen it. I saw Kayan's suicide over and over again. I see Tenshi and Akuma morphing into me, but then turn into something dark and horrifying.

The way I was coping was music and the fact that I only had another day left before everything was over. I hadn't decided what I was going to do yet. But, my choices were heavily influenced by the Akatsuki.

They didn't want me to die, not at all. So I was originally thinking that I would fight. I would kill Alice. But, then I realized something. The Akatsuki would be leaving me and there was no chance that I would see them again. Not a third time. There was about as much of a chance of that happening as me singing for the Akatsuki. Not a chance.

The Akatsuki leaving also gave me nightmares. It was truly traumatizing to watch them die repeatedly in my mind. Whether it was their canon deaths, or a death that me fucking up the storyline could cause.

I had actually sat down and thought about everything. All my conflicting thoughts, my various decisions and what I caused, and what me just being alive did. The answer I came to in the end, was that I should be the one to die. Not Alice.

But something that Tenshi and Akuma had said to me made me want to fight. And words from the Akatuski made me want to fight. So, I decided, that I was going to kill Alice. I wasn't going to just roll over and die like a weak bitch.

I was not going to die. At least not before Alice.

But my future after Alice dies… I wasn't sure. I wasn't sure what would happen. I was supposed to move back in with my parents soon a whole city away, if I kill Alice I'll have murdered someone and in this world, that's not acceptable.

Only time would tell I suppose.

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Later in the day, I found myself at my brother's funeral. The Akatsuki (The ones who didn't look weird came) were around me like body guards, and Violet and Kirai were inside my little circle of people. I had briefly informed Violet that Jack had an almost obsessive crush with her, and Violet had broken down crying. Kirai herself was even shedding tears. But I think that I took the prize.

I wasn't crying, not on the outside. On the inside, I was flooded with tears that I would let out when I was out of the public. But on the outside, I was blank. I wasn't showing anything.

"Itami?" I turned my head to look at my mom, who was standing outside my bodyguards.

"Yeah?" I questioned as Itachi moved out of the way so my mom could get to me. She didn't say anything; instead she pulled me into a hug. I blinked, slightly shocked, but my shock didn't show.

My mom cried as she hugged me. It was weird being hugged; I wasn't used to my mom hugging me. When my mom finally let go, what felt like hours later, she looked at me with tears in her eyes. Before anything could be said though, the air suddenly got very tense. And I knew exactly why.

I turned around, shrugging my mom off me, and I turned to face my dad. We stared at each other for what also seemed like hours. Then, he spoke.

"This is your fault." he growled. My morons looked at each other, debating whether to hurt him, but I stepped out of my moron circle and walked up to my dad.

"I may have been the reason that they left the house that day, but I'm not the one who taught them how to drive like maniacs." I retorted icily. My father went to punch me, but he was so slow compared to what I was used to. I just took a step back, and the old man fell from the momentum.

"You don't scare me anymore, I'm sick of your shit." I stated, turning my back to him as he stood back up. I walked over to the Akatsuki, ignoring him as he swore and insulted me.

Everything I had been through really changed me.

When we got back, later on, I went upstairs and locked my trapdoor. Then I took out the handgun and just looked at it. Inside the gun there were six shots, meaning I could miss Alice five times.

I placed it back into the box and put it on top of my dresser before I threw myself onto my bed. I sat there for awhile before I stood and walked into my bathroom, grabbing sleeping pills. I took a few, and soon I was unconscious in sweet oblivion.

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The next day, I woke up late in the afternoon because I had taken more pills than I should have. I exited my room after changing into a blue tank top, ripped jeans and my usual black sweatshirt. I left my hair down as I clomped downstairs. I entered the living room to find the Akatsuki discussing how they were going to be leaving later today when the comet was overhead.

I sat down next to Deidara eventually and leaned my head back, staring at the ceiling. I was deep in my thoughts for a while until Hidan snapped me out of it by throwing my phone at me.

"It's making fucking noises." he informed me. I unlocked it, seeing I had a text. The text was from an unknown number, which made me uneasy. The text that greeted me when I opened up the messages almost stopped my heart.

'We have your friend Violet. Meet us at the top of the High-rise Institution Corp. building when the comet is almost at its peak, alone.' I read. My eyes narrowed and I exited the message as Deidara looked over, sensing I was tense. I was almost shaking from anger, but I was holding it in. If the Akatsuki knew, they would come with me and miss their chance at leaving.

"What's wrong, un?" he asked, and immediately everyone's attention was on us.

"It's nothing." I dismissed, standing. Deidara stood and grabbed my arm.

"There's something, you wouldn't have tensed up if there wasn't, yeah." Deidara argued.

"You guys don't have to worry about it, by the end of tonight you guys will be gone. It doesn't concern you." I retorted, pushing by Deidara and shrugging my arm out of his grip.

"It does concern about us Itami because we care about you." Konan pointed out.

"Everything is fine, it will be fine. I don't need any help." I stated, exiting the room. I stomped upstairs again and fell into my conscious, where Tenshi and Akuma awaited me. And I bickered with them for a bit until it was sunset.

I finally left my room, only to find all the Akatsuki were gone from my living room. I checked the house before finding them in my backyard, preparing to leave.

"The comet's almost here." Sasori informed me when I approached them. I looked up in the sky to see that the comet was already a quarter of the way through the sky.

'Are you going to go and save Violet?'

'Of course she is, she just needs to say her goodbyes first.'

'Tenshi is right.' I informed them as I looked at the Akatsuki. I could feel overwhelming sadness welling in my heart from the fact they were leaving, but I didn't show it. Instead I nodded.

"When will you be leaving?" I questioned.

"As soon as the comet is overhead." Pein stated, giving a few of the members looks. Most pointedly one was shot at Deidara.

"I have something I have to do, so I'm saying goodbye now." I told them.

"Goodbyes are fucking final, bitch." Hidan snorted.

"And we will see you again." Konan added with a look of determination on her face.

"You could come back with us, yeah." Deidara suggested. I shook my head and turned around.

"I have to do something, and by the time it's finished you'll be gone. Besides, I've already fucked up your world." I stated as is started towards the house.

"We will see you again, yeah." Deidara announced, and I could feel all their eyes burning into my back.

"Goodbye." I replied, opening the door and stepping inside. I walked upstairs and grabbed the handgun from my box before exiting the house, via the front. I took my hummer and drove to the building where I had to meet Alice.

I used the stairs to get to the top floor so that I wouldn't get stuck in the elevator, if that was Alice's plan. Upon reaching the top floor the comet was just about overhead. I walked out into the middle of the roof and looked around, not finding anything alive other than me. Although, there were vents everywhere along with puddles and cans.

"So you came." I turned and looked to the source of the voice. Across the main street was another building the same height as the one I was on. Standing there was Alice along with Sasuke, Jugo, Karin, and Suigetsu.

Why were they on the other building? And where was Violet?

"Aren't we going to fight? You're the one on the other building." I called back. I could feel the handle of the gun hidden in my sweatshirt pocket.

"You'd win in a hand to hand combat match. Look more closely at your surroundings, Itami." Alice retorted. I blinked and looked around. My eyes landed on the puddles and cans.

Why would there be cans up here? And it didn't rain, why were there puddles? I looked back to Alice as she grinned. I realized something. This was a set up. There was no Violet being held hostage. That was just a way of getting me here.

"Those puddles are gasoline, and those cans are filled with it. One flame and you're being blown to hell!" Alice laughed. She pulled a lighter out of her pocket and flicked it open. She lit it and pulled out a roll of tape. She taped the button down.

"We're leaving now, you have this under control." I heard Sasuke say to Alice as I watched her make sure the lighter wouldn't go out. Then the four ninjas were gone in a flash.

"Bye, Itami. It was fun." Alice called, throwing the lighter across from her roof.

And unfortunately, her throw made it across the large gap.

AN

So, next chapter will be the last. Anything can happen at this point. It's just Itami and Alice now.

Also, I MADE A YOUTUBE. The link is on my profile (Hopefully) I only have one video up now, but in the future I hope to do videogame playthrough, minecraft videos, and animations that I've done myself. But that won't be for awhile.

Q-How do you want the story to end?

A-School. No. I got back in September. I just, I DON'T WANT TO. I have A summer homework I haven't even started yet, and I don't know the essay format since I wasn't in the Pre-AP class because I'm just unlucky.

Sayonara!