I should probably put this in just in case so

Trigger warning: suicide attempt

When Rose arrived home she went straight to her room, ignoring her mom's calls. She collapsed onto her bed and curled up into a ball, crying until there were no tears left to fall. She rocked back and forth, praying for sleep to come and take her away from this hell. It was all just too much. Her head still ached, she killed her best friend, and she had no way back to the Doctor. Everything she had was quickly fading away. After a few hours she was still wide awake. She heard a knock on the door and Pete came in. He sat down next to her on the bed.

'Rose, we need to talk.'

She uncurled herself from around her pillow and sat up, trying to wipe her face clean.

'I need to know what happened today.' Pete said softly.

'I know…' replied Rose. She took a deep breath and started into her story, beginning from the moment they got the call, to her mistakes, to when they got back to Torchwood. She left nothing out.

'I was just tired and distracted.' She finished. 'I shouldn't have said anything. I just…lost it.'

Pete sighed and rubbed his face.

'We can't afford to lose it Rose…not in a situation like that.'

'I know.' She sniffed, biting her lip.

'Rose…you've been distracted a lot lately…you haven't been performing as well as usual. I think…I think it's time you took a break. Just for a couple of months. So you can get your head straight again.'

'WHAT?!' Rose cried jumping up. 'No you can't do that I'll be fine, I can focus I promise!'

'No. You need a break. We can't afford any more mistakes like today. We were already on shaky ground with the Sontaran, now we might be facing a full fledged war.'

'YOU THINK I DON'T UNDERSTAND THAT!' she shouted. 'I killed my best and only friend today you think I am going to make a mistake like that again? I deserve a chance to try and fix this!'

'No Rose. You need to rest and clear your head so you can focus again. I'm putting you on suspension for three months. Then, if you are ready, we will welcome you back with open arms. But until then, you are done.' Pete got up to leave.

'Dad you can't do this! I have projects on the run! The dimension cannon-'

'The dimension cannon is part of the problem! It's not even part of your department. You shouldn't be spending all of your time on it, especially now that we know it will never work! There is no way back you are stuck here Rose!' and with that, he walked out of the room slamming the door behind him.

Rose collapsed back onto her bed. Somehow more tears managed to form and for the third time that day her body wracked with sobs. She had lost absolutely everything. Her best friend, her job, and any hope of getting back to her Doctor. She had nothing left. And she knew what she had to do.

Rose lay in bed for a few more hours until she was certain the rest of the house was fast asleep. Leaving her final note on her pillow, she hopped into her car and took off for Torchwood. That was her best bet. She had access to whatever gun she wanted there. It will be so easy. Funny. She thought. The Doctor hated guns. Good thing he will never find out...
She arrived at Torchwood and snuck in through the back door. Luckily, she made it up to the armoury without meeting anyone. As she reached the door, the pounding in her head intensified. She couldn't focus she could barely get the door open.

Come on Rose just a few more minutes. You can do this. She managed to pull herself over to the cabinet marked 'handguns' and she grabbed the first one she laid her hands on. She loaded it up and placed the barrel against her temple.
'Alright Doctor!' She sobbed. 'This is it. If there's anyway, any possible way you can get back to me, I need you right now! It's now or never Doctor!' She cocked the gun. Her head felt like it was being split in two and she slid to the floor, unable to stand. It hurt so bad. So much pain. You can end it Rose. Just pull the trigger. You only have a few more seconds. She took a deep breath, what would be her last...then she heard it. The sound she had craved for so long, the sound she had imagined hearing so many times since she had been trapped here. The TARDIS. She looked up as the TARDIS materialized just a few feet in front of her. A few seconds later the doors flew open and out ran the Doctor. Her Doctor.
'Rose Tyler you know I hate guns! You drop that right now!'
The gun slid out of her hand as he ran forward and scooped her into his arms. She knew she should be completely ecstatic to be back in those arms but she was still in so much pain.
'It hurts Doctor' was all she could manage to whimper.
'Oh my Rose. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry.'
He lifted her and carried her into the TARDIS. It was chaos. Sparks were raining from the ceiling and Rose could feel her shuddering even through the Doctors arms.
'Oh she's not liking this. I'm sorry Rose, but we have to get out of here now.' He said placing her in the jump seat and beginning to pilot the TARDIS back to the proper universe. Sparks continued to rain from the ceiling as they rocketed through the vortex. Then suddenly, everything stopped as they found a gap and arrived back in the proper universe. Rose gasped.
'Rose! Rose! Look at me are you okay?' The Doctor abandoned the controls and ran over to her, lifting her head.
'It stopped! It doesn't hurt anymore!' She laughed. 'Doctor! You're my Doctor!' She threw her arms around him and hugged him tight, tears of joy beginning to spill over. The Doctor held her right back, determined to never let her go again.
'Rose I...I'm so sorry. I should have tried harder there must have been a way I just...I never thought you would...'
'Me neither. I thought about it a lot since the day we were separated but I never thought I would. Not as long as there was hope I could somehow get back...but then a lot of stuff happened and I just...I snapped.' she started to sob and the Doctor just held her tighter.
'Do you want to talk about it?' The Doctor asked after Rose had calmed down a bit.
She shook her head.
'Not right now. I don't want to ruin the moment. Maybe tomorrow...'
'Whenever you're ready Rose.'
'But Doctor...how did you get through? We tried everything. It was impossible!'
'To be honest I don't really know...'
'That's a first.' Rose teased.
'Oi! The TARDIS did it on her own. It was a pretty bumpy ride, mind you. I think I should run some tests on you and the TARDIS. You up for it?'
'...guess so.'
'Rose we don't have to do it right now. It can wait until tomorrow.'
'No it's okay. It's just...today has kind of been an emotional roller coaster.'
'Mmm I can imagine. It can wait until tomorrow. You must be tired. Come on.' He said releasing her from the hug and grabbing her hand. 'I believe the TARDIS has kept your room waiting!'
'You're joking!' Rose laughed and followed as he pulled her down the corridor.
'Nope!' He said popping the 'p' as they arrived in Rose's old room.
'It's exactly the same!' Rose exclaimed. 'Oh you are brilliant girl!'
She felt the TARDIS give an appreciative hum. Rose yawned. She was much more tired than she was letting on.
'Okay! Into bed you! You have had quite a long day.' The Doctor pulled back the covers and Rose hopped in.
He tucked her in and then turned to leave.
'No!' Rose exclaimed grabbing his hand. 'Stay. Please. Don't leave me.' The Doctor smiled and slid onto the bed next to her.
'No. I won't leave you. Never again.' He whispered, wrapping his arms around Roses waist and pulling her close to him.
Rose smiled up at him, then yawned and closed her eyes.
'Rose Tyler...I love you.' But she was already fast asleep.

Sorry for the wait but you know exam week and whatnot. But I have my last exam tomorrow so then I am free to write yay!

Thanks for the reviews they make me do a literal :D face so they are always appreciated.

Buuuuut I can't decide whether I should have them visit Jack or if she should see her mom again so if you aren't interested then I won't but if you are please tell me! yeah i should stop talking now. thanks for reading :)