When Rose opened her eyes she was back in her room. Her parallel universe room.
"Oh God no. Please no. Please."
She ran out of her room, down the stairs and into the kitchen where Jackie sat sipping her tea.
"Mum. No no no no no." Rose started to sob.
"Rose, sweetheart what is it?" Jackie asked her daughter, walking over to her and wrapping her in a hug.
"I dreamed...he. He got back. He came back to me mum. The Doctor. He took me back. I thought...it felt so real."
"Oh Rose I'm sorry. I'm so sorry."
"That's what he woulda said..."
She sobbed into her mother's shoulder. She could still hear him calling her name. It had felt so real. She was sure he had come back for her but she was wrong. She was stuck here, forever with no Doctor and no hope.
"ROSE!"
His shout jolted her awake. Her eyes shot open and she looked into the face of a very concerned Doctor.
"Rose are you okay? You were crying and shouting. What's wrong? Did you have a nightmare?" Rose was gasping, still trying to catch her breath.
"I was...you weren't...it was..." She managed to gasp.
"Woah woah woah just breathe. I'm right here it's okay. It's okay." He pulled her into his arms. She rested her head against his chest, hearing the comforting sound of his double heartbeat. He held her tight until she had calmed down enough to talk again.
"I dreamed that you didn't come. That this was a dream and I was still alone. So alone."
"No Rose this is real. This is very very real. I'm right here, I'm back and I will never let you go again." He said pressing a kiss to the top of her head.
"I love you Doctor." She sniffed.
"Quite right too."
She scoffed at his choice of words.
"And Rose Tyler...my Rose." He lifted her head so he could look into her eyes. "I love you too." And he pressed his lips to hers.
It was the most glorious feeling in the world. He had longed to do this for the two years they were together, and even more after they had been separated. They quickly deepened the kiss as Rose moved her hands up to tangle in his hair, and he held her even tighter around her waist, bent on eliminating any space that remained between them.
She kissed him with more passion than he thought possible, throwing all the hurt and pain of the last two and a half years, all the passion and longing they had felt towards each other since the day they met, into this one kiss.
It was several minutes until they finally broke apart.
"Miss me that much yeah?" Rose smiled her gorgeous tongue in teeth grin.
"Oh Rose Tyler you have no idea."
She giggled and cuddled back into him. They just sat there enjoying each others presence for a few minutes until the Doctor broke the silence.
"Nice as this is Rose, we should probably run those tests now. And we have a lot to talk about..."
"Yeah, right. Might as well get it over with." Rose uncurled herself from the Doctor and stood up. He followed suit and grabbed her hand as they walked to the infirmary together. The TARDIS led them straight there, and once inside the Doctor patted the bed and Rose hopped up.
"Okay I'm just gonna take some basic DNA scans, take a blood test and give you a little checkup." He said popping the 'p'.
"Wow Doctor you really live up to the name!" Rose laughed.
The Doctor chuckled and began the tests.
Several minutes later, the Doctor had finished running every test he could think of, and then some. They had retired to the TARDIS library with a cup of tea while the machines ran their scans. They were cuddled together on the couch still enthralled with each others presence.
"So Rose..." The Doctor began. "There are some things we need to talk about."
"I know." She replied. She had been dreading this conversation since she had gotten back.
"What happened...?" The Doctor asked.
"Well quite a few things actually." Rose began. She took a deep breath and willed herself to stay strong. "First and foremost, you. I was never the same after we were separated. I was deeply depressed for the first few months, hardly did anything at all. Then finally I came to my senses and snapped out of it. 'Have a fantastic life' you said. So I tried to do that I really did. I got a job at Torchwood and was soon the head of a field team, which included that universes version of Jack Harkness. We had started work on a dimension cannon and everything was going good for about two years. Then one day I came into work to the news that the walls between the universes had become stronger and the dimension cannon would never work. Strike two. I felt guilty because I hadn't worked hard enough on it. If I had it would have been ready in time, but I didn't. I hated myself for that. I then devoted every moment of my life towards that cannon, I didn't sleep or eat. Well I couldn't eat really. For a few days near the end I could barely hold down food and my constant headaches got consistently worse. Strike three. And then..." She stopped to take a few breaths trying to hold it together. The Doctor pulled her closer and placed a kiss to the top of her head. Rose pulled away. She registered hurt in the Doctors eyes.
"You're going to hate me for this." She choked out the tears beginning to fall.
"Oh no I could never hate you! Besides I doubt it's any worse than the things I've done..." He opened his arms to let her back in, and she obliged giving him a grateful look.
"And then...a couple days later, we had a small Sontaran invasion. It should have been easy to handle and it started as such. But then stupid overtired me had to run her mouth and...and...I killed Jack." She managed before the tears came in full force.
"Oh Rose..." The Doctor held her tighter.
"It should have killed me but he knocked me out of the way. He's dead because of me. "
The Doctor just placed soft kisses to the top of Rose's head, letting her finish.
"And then, because of that, I was suspended from my job. That broke me. I had lost basically everything that kept me going in that universe and...I just needed an escape."
"Oh my Rose. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. I should have worked harder at getting back to you, I-"
"No, Doctor stop. You always blame yourself for everything, even if it's something you had no control over. That was all me, it was not in any way your fault okay? And now it's over and I just really want to forget about it."
The Doctor looked like he was about to protest, but he stopped himself.
"Alright yeah. I will never speak of it again if that's what you want."
"Thank you Doctor." She smiled at him.
"Just...promise me. Please. Never try that again. Because I couldn't bear to lose you another time."
Rose turned to look at him and was surprised to find tears in his eyes. She pulled herself up to give him a slow loving kiss.
"Never again. I promise." She said once they broke apart. They smiled at each other, leaning in for another kiss when suddenly a beeping noise filled the room.
"Scans are done!" The Doctor exclaimed. "We'd better go check that-"
"I think the scans can wait a while..." Rose said before pulling him in for another kiss.
I'm really sorry for the wait. Just procrastination you know. Sorry.
But I seriously need to know if you want me to write them going to meet Jack and talking to her mom again. Seriously if just one person says yes I will do it.
So please review and tanks for reading!