I don't own these characters. I only play with them.
Author's note: I am actively seeking a beta reader. Know anyone who might be interested? Have them PM me. And on with the story:
Bella's Point of View
I found myself watching Jasper whenever he was near me. I focused on him to the exclusion of almost everything except blood. He was everything to me. He was my rock, my passion, my love, my partner, my home yet I was too afraid to tell him and I didn't have the experience to know how to show him.
I made sure I had blood every day to keep the fragile control I held over my emotions. I know the others thought I was doing well. It didn't feel like it to me. I felt the rage constantly and thought I was doing a little better than they told me the average newborn did, I wasn't in total control. I expected it so I pushed the rage down. I didn't let it control me. I felt the confusion from all the stimuli overwhelming all of my senses constantly but I accepted it. This was how being a newborn felt after all. I knew from mine and Jasper's talks before I was changed.
That control was enough until Peter started. He did everything he could to scare me. I guessed he wanted to see my shield again. He jumped out of trees in front of me. He startled me when I was reading. He even jumped off the roof. No place was safe.
It eroded the fragile hold I kept on the rage. Piece by piece, bit by bit, I lost the tenuous bonds that kept the rage down. When it didn't work with me Peter started on Jasper.
It was two days later. Jasper and I were taking a walk. Peter waited till we were heading inside and tried to jump off the roof and onto Jasper. I wasn't expecting it and I felt something in my head snap.
A shield went around Jasper, but another shield wrapped around Peter. My vision was tinted red. I tossed him from tree to tree asking with each impact,
"Do you think it's smart to scare the newborn?" thump, "Are you having fun now?" thump, "Is this what you wanted?" thump, and I held him midair squeezing the shield down on him. "I am sick of this shit and you will quit now or I will turn you into one squished vampire." I loosened the shield. "Do you understand?" "I said, "Do You Understand or do I keep squeezing?"
The red haze faded enough that I could hear Jasper begging me from inside his shield for me to drop Peter but I didn't.
"Not until he agrees to quit it," I told Jasper.
"Now do," squeeze, "You," squeeze, Understand?"
At his nod I let both shields go.
"I need to hunt, Jasper,"
Jasper walked up to Peter and with a right hook, put Peter on the ground.
"Thank you for protecting me Darlin, but it's not necessary. Let's go hunt," Jasper said.
We ran into the forest and I took the first two elks I could find.
"You did well Bella You've been controlling your emotions very well. You were bound to snap at some point, especially with Peter pushing you."
"I feel the rage all the time," I admitted
It's normal Bella. You're doing really well for a newborn, exceptional really."
Jasper's Point of View
Bella was feeling depressed, frustrated, and uncertain. I didn't know if I should try to control her emotions for her or if I should leave her to sort them out on her own.
"Bella let's blow off some steam and go for a run." I decided to help her without my gift. I reached out a hand. She took it and we ran to the top of the mountain and watched the sunrise.
Her emotions were better. The rage was still there, along with annoyance but there was also happiness and comfort. As we stood there she approached me and would her arms around me. We stayed for hours, well into the day.
"Are you ready to head back now?" I asked eventually.
"Let's go."
When we got back to the house Bella avoided Peter. She was still angry and probably didn't want to risk snapping again.
"I miss sleep," Bella said.
"Let's go upstairs and I'll hold you. We can relax and watch a movie."
She put her hand out and I took it. Together we walked up the stairs and I could have cared less what we watched with Bella in my arms. My body burned for hers. It was all I could do not to try to seduce her there in the bed. I could feel lust from Bella too but she wasn't ready to act on it yet.
Bella chose the latest version of Pride and Prejudice. I enjoyed the feeling of her in my arms, the scent of her hair, the feel of her body against mine. At the end I couldn't have told you what happened in the movie if I hadn't read the book.
Bella's Point of View
Later that day Peter approached me cautiously. With Charlotte standing beside him he fell to his knees: "Please mistress, he said, Don't hurt me again I'll be a good boy, I promise." he begged.
I forgave him and we were all friends again, though I still held a little caution towards Peter.
"Hey," Peter said, "Let's try video games today, I think you can manage your strength enough.
We played and talked smack back and forth. It was fun but it reminded me of my time with Emmett. I didn't allow that to taint the experience. I had a great time. Charlotte came in and laughed at our antics. Jasper joined us and I moved to his lap. He laughed and seemed to enjoy himself with us, especially when he took my controller and beat Peter a couple times for me.
After a while longer we changed games to one we could all play together. That's when the laughter and teasing really began. We played till late in the night. When I got tired of playing I put my controller down and curled more tightly into Jasper's lap. He smiled down at me and got his character killed. Before his game restarted, he kissed me gently on the cheek.
"My beautiful mate," he said, "I love you." his controller was discarded as we kissed, first gently then with more passion.
"Get a room you two," Charlotte laughed and I was jolted out of the erotic haze that was Jasper and me together. If I could have blushed I would have. I picked up my controller and rejoined the game. With a sigh, Jasper did as well.