Chapter 12: Tough Times
The whole time Brittany was on her way out to see her friends, she kept thinking about Santana. She barely even reached the bar before she turned around and went back to the hotel. She really wasn't deliberately not spending time with Santana tonight, she just didn't think it would be a problem. She made arrangements before she found out Santana was coming and if she knew it was going to be a big deal then she would have cancelled. She just assumed since they would have the rest of the week together then one night wasn't going to hurt.
"Hey" Brittany says quietly to Santana when she walks into the room. Santana is lying on top of the bed facing the other direction. She hears Brittany's faint greeting but she doesn't reply. "I cancelled on my friends" she tells Santana as she lies behind her and gently puts her arm over her girlfriend.
"Please don't touch me" Santana says, moving closer to edge of the bed away from Brittany.
"Don't be like that honey" Brittany says sadly. "We can fight but still comfort each other" she states.
"I came here for you Brittany and you were still going to go out" Santana sighs.
"I asked you to come with me and you said no" Brittany replies. She wasn't deliberately leaving Santana alone because she did ask her to join them.
"Because I wanted to be with you tonight on our own because I've missed you" Santana replies.
"We had last night on our own so I honestly thought tonight would be ok to go out and we would have the rest of the week to spend together" Brittany reasons.
"I love you and want to be with you but yet you would rather be with other people" Santana shrugs.
"You're being really unfair Santana because you know I love you" Brittany sighs. "It's a lot harder than I thought it would be to be so far away from everyone so I'm doing what I can to get by" she adds.
"I know it would be hard but you're acting like I'm nothing to you" Santana states.
"Indeed I am not" Brittany says defensively while shaking her head. "Ask any one of my friends here and they'll tell you that I talk about you nonstop."
"I'm glad you can talk about me but just not to me" Santana states annoyed while getting off the bed and walking over to the mirror to fix her makeup. It's not like she was planning on going anywhere so had to fix her makeup, she just needed something to do to distract herself a little bit otherwise she'd just break down.
"I admit I made a few mistakes and perhaps should have come home earlier and talked to you but I just lost track of time when we were out drinking and stuff" Brittany tells Santana. The thought of being alone in the hotel all night wasn't pleasant so when the others asked her out for drinks she went and it took her mind off of missing Santana. She realises now that maybe she could have left the bars an hour earlier and went back to the hotel and called Santana.
"There were days when we didn't even talk" Santana points out.
"You're acting like I can't have friends or go out with other people. I'm sorry that I don't sit in my hotel room alone all night waiting on us talking" Brittany sighs.
"I'm not saying you can't have friends; I'm just saying you could make more time for me" Santana states.
"You're talking as if I refused your calls and never spoke to you. Ok maybe we didn't talk every night like you say but it was at least every second night. You really are being unfair and also a little childish" Brittany points out.
"I'm being childish?" Santana questions, turning around from the mirror to look at Brittany.
"You never used to be this needy so what's going on?" Brittany asks.
"Childish and needy? Wow I really lucked out dating you. I don't think I could have met anyone better that would give me such nice compliments" Santana says sarcastically.
"Honey please don't take that to heart" Brittany says, regretting the way it came out. "I just meant, when I used to work late shifts at the diner or you worked overtime, there would be a few nights we couldn't talk. It wasn't ideal but we weren't pissed at one another" she reasons. It is lovely to talk every night with each other but they're also not the couple to get hung up about it if they don't. Brittany felt they knew each other well enough to know they loved one another without having to call and say it all the time.
"You're in a different state Brittany so I don't think asking you to talk to me every night is out of the question" Santana states.
"I really am sorry you feel like this. I honestly didn't know because we seemed to be ok in the beginning so I figured things were going ok because that's how they always went with us" Brittany replies.
"They weren't ok because I needed you and you weren't there for me" Santana sighs before walking towards the bathroom.
"Please don't lock yourself in there again, I want to talk" Brittany says while going after Santana to stop her from going to the bathroom. She gently takes Santana's hand in hers to keep her still. "Please babe."
"I'm going to pee, I'll be back in a second" Santana sighs.
"Oh, sorry…I thought you…you know what never mind. You go pee and I'll pour us some wine" Brittany smiles while letting go of Santana's hand. Santana then heads to the bathroom and Brittany gets them their drinks before sitting down on the bed to wait on Santana.
"Things can't go on like this" Santana says with a sigh as she leaves the bathroom and walks towards Brittany.
"Let's just take a moment to relax and we'll talk in a minute" Brittany says while motioning for Santana to sit on the edge of the bed.
"Brittany…" Santana sighs.
"Come on, just a second" Brittany states.
"Fine" Santana says before sitting on the edge of the bed. Brittany then moves behind her and begins to gently massage her shoulders.
"You're so tense in your shoulders" Brittany points out. Santana doesn't need to say anything, her turning her head to look at Brittany is enough to answer. "Yeah I suppose that's no surprise with how worked up we're both getting over our issues" she nods.
"I hate all of this fighting" Santana says honestly.
"I do too" Brittany agrees. They're silent for some time before Brittany begins to kiss the side of Santana's neck and across her shoulder.
"I don't think we should" Santana shakes her head but still doesn't move away from Brittany.
"You want to though, right?" Brittany asks.
"It won't fix anything" Santana replies.
"It'll show you how much I really do love you if you let me make love to you" Brittany smirks.
"Like I say, it won't fix what's going on" Santana tells Brittany.
"Ok fine, we won't have sex tonight" Brittany says before moving away from Santana to sit at the top of the bed. She knows sex can't fix their issues completely but she thought it would be a step in getting closer again and proving to Santana that she wants to be there for her.
"I do want to though, I just don't think it's wise right now" Santana replies while sliding up the bed to sit next to Brittany.
"You don't need to explain, it's fine" Brittany shrugs. There is an awkward silence around them for a moment as Brittany begins nervously playing with a piece of thread on her cushion while Santana just sits there wondering what to do or say.
"Since the day you left, I've wanted to have sex with you so badly" Santana admits embarrassingly.
"No, you haven't" Brittany says with a smile as she looks at Santana.
"I swear I have" Santana nods. "As much as I've been going through all different emotions, all I thought about was how amazing it would be to have you in my bed every night and to have sex with you" she adds.
"Why can't we just do that then since we're both here and in bed together?" Brittany asks. They're not exactly in bed but they're sitting on top of the covers next to one another so it's close enough.
"Because we have stuff to sort out" Santana replies.
"We'll still have stuff to sort later so why can't we just forget for a minute or so and have some fun?" Brittany suggests.
"A minute?" Santana chuckles. "If we do it I want it to last more than a minute" she says amused.
"I didn't mean literally that time frame. I meant like forget for a moment or a period of time, not a literal minute" Brittany smiles. "It's like what you said earlier when you went to the bathroom. You said you'd be back in a second but you were longer than a second."
"Ok, fair point" Santana says before moving forward and turning around to throw her leg over Brittany's lap to straddle her. She then gently places her hands on the sides of Brittany's face and kisses her.
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Brittany and Santana are just lying in bed together with their arms around one another. They're in a comfortable silence as they get their breath back and just enjoy being with each other alone. Sex is good and everything but it's moments like this that they really like where they can just relax in each other's arms.
"I never want to lose you Santana" Brittany says softly, breaking the silence around them.
"Then stop allowing it to happen" Santana states, the peaceful atmosphere around them quickly disappearing and turning awkward.
"Why are you picking a fight with me right now?" Brittany asks while moving her arms from around Santana and shifting further towards the edge of the bed. She just wanted a nice moment together where they could just lie in one another's arms.
"I'm not but at the same time we can't hide the truth so we do need to talk about things and how we feel" Santana shrugs.
"I know that but all I was asking for was some time together to just relax and then we could talk about things" Brittany states. She knows they can't put it off forever but it still felt quite sudden right now to switch like that.
"Ok, well I still think we should try and resolve things as soon as we can" Santana replies.
"I get that but I'm not sure how to right now. I'm still in this competition and you're still going to have to go home at the end of the week so I don't know what else to say to make things better at the moment" Brittany admits.
"I need to be with someone who wants what I want" Santana states.
"I do want what you want Santana. I guess I'm just not handling things very well but I'll be home in 3 weeks so it's really not long before we see each other again" Brittany says. "I haven't stopped loving you or wanting to be with you."
"I would never pick new friends over my girlfriend" Santana says.
"I didn't do that Santana. This is the first time you've been here so there was never anything to pick. I made plans tonight but I was coming back to the hotel to you. I was going to spend every other night with you. I was going to eat dinner with you every night even though we're meant to eat with the other competitors" Brittany replies.
"Oh wow, how lucky am I to have dinner with my own girlfriend" Santana says while rolling her eyes.
"I'm not perfect in any manner but I won't apologise for living my life. You know how much you mean to me but I wanted to give this competition a good shot and have fun when I'm still young. Just because I hang out with some friends when I'm lonely doesn't mean I don't love you or would cheat on you because I would never" Brittany says honestly. She knows she needs to make more of an effort to call Santana but she hasn't done anything else wrong. She's just trying to cope out here on her own.
"I just want to be able to talk to you a bit more because I really miss you Brittany and I love you so much" Santana tells her.
"I know and I miss you too Santana, I really do" Brittany states. "There's not a day that goes by that I don't miss you because I love you too but sometimes I need to take my mind off things otherwise I'll just sit alone in my room miserable every night."
"I just think you could put in a little more effort" Santana replies. "I know you find it hard here and I appreciate that but I still think you could do more to reassure me" she adds.
"I'm going to be better, I promise" Brittany nods. "You're here for the week so I'm going to make you my priority whenever I'm not in the competition."
"That's all I'm asking for" Santana shrugs.
"Ok" Brittany smiles before moving closer to Santana again and wrapping her arms around her.
Santana has been here for a few days now with Brittany and she can see Brittany is really trying. She doesn't leave to go to her daily challenges for the competition until she really needs to and she comes back to the room as soon as it's done for the day. She texts Santana whenever she gets a break if she can and she always spends dinner with her instead of eating with the other competitors. She doesn't go out at night with the others either anymore, instead she spends it hanging out with Santana or taking her out for drinks or to do something fun.
Brittany is getting a rare day off from the competition today so Santana is excited to have a full day with Brittany and not just time before and after the competition each day.
"So, what do you want to do today?" Santana asks happily while climbing onto the bed to sit next to Brittany who is glancing at her phone at something.
"Huh?" Brittany asks distractedly.
"I was asking you what you wanted to do today since we can spend the day together" Santana repeats.
"I don't mind, we can do anything you want" Brittany smiles with a shrug before going back to concentrating on her phone.
"What is it that's so distracting on your phone?" Santana asks curiously.
"Well Melissa and I seem to be cooking the same thing tomorrow for our daily challenge so I wanted to go one step ahead and really wow the judges with my dish more than she does so I was looking up secret ingredients that could give me the edge" Brittany replies.
"So, you were doing stuff for the competition even though you're supposed to be having the day off today?" Santana asks slightly annoyed.
"It's not like I'm spending lots of time doing it. You were in the shower and I had a free moment" Brittany shrugs.
"We're supposed to be having a fun competition free day today" Santana states.
"I know and we still are. Please don't make this into a big deal babe because it's really not. Like I say you were in the shower so I was just browsing the web for ideas" Brittany points out.
"Everything is about the competition and it's starting to piss me off a little bit" Santana says.
"For goodness sake Santana, I was looking up a couple of herbs for like 2 minutes. You were in the damn shower so we weren't going to hang out there so while I was waiting on you, I searched the internet for a couple of minutes. I know I haven't been the best girlfriend and I'm really trying to be better for you but you can't honestly be mad at me for looking at my phone for a few minutes" Brittany replies.
"I know you weren't really doing anything that bad right now but those two minutes were probably going to turn into 5 and then another 5 so when I get bored of waiting, I'll dry my hair and get organised for the day and you'll still be on your phone. Then when I'm sitting waiting on you to go out you won't have even reached the shower yet so our whole day will be delayed so eventually there won't be any point in going out anymore" Santana states.
"That's not true. I was literally killing some time until the shower was free but I wasn't going to be much longer. I think you're really starting to be quite hard on me Santana and I don't like it" Brittany sighs. She really has been trying the last few days but it never seems to be good enough.
"I have to be like this if we're to ever survive because I don't want to be always waiting for you or doing it your way because that's not fair. I don't always want to live by your rules only" Santana replies.
"It actually sounds like you're doing that to me and if I don't do what you want then you get pissed off" Brittany points out. "We're both adults here and we both get a say in this relationship so we can't go on trying to expect the other to do as we want. It's fair enough to compromise certain things but you fell for me for who I am I hope so I don't know why you want to change me."
"You're not you though, that's the thing" Santana states.
"You're not exactly acting like the Santana I first met either. I mean I remember when you were dating James. He was allowed to spend time with other people and I don't remember you getting so pissed at him all the time because he didn't do exactly what you say" Brittany tells her.
"Do you know what, let's just forget about today. You can do whatever the hell you like and I'll do what I want because I'm tired of us never getting somewhere with these conversations" Santana states before heading back to the bathroom.
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After spending most of the day apart, Brittany and Santana are both back in the hotel room together now. Santana had got organised for the day and went out on her own to clear her head. She took a bit of a walk and just spent some time thinking on her own. Brittany meanwhile, waited to see if Santana would come back before deciding she might as well make more plans for tomorrow's daily challenge since Santana didn't seem to want to spend time together anymore.
"I'm leaving and if you don't come with me then I'll know we're over" Santana states as she packs her suitcase. "If you stay here then I'll know this competition means more to you than I do."
"You cannot ask me to choose like that" Brittany says in disbelief. Of course, Santana means the world to Brittany but the competition is money and will help their future and let Brittany live out her dream. Brittany is so miserable working in the diner making very little money. She can't even afford to move out of her parents' home so for Santana to be ok with Brittany quitting all this to end back at square one is shocking and heart breaking for Brittany. Not only would winning the competition help Brittany but she was going to help Santana out. She wanted to buy a home for them and Santana wouldn't be stuck paying more rent than she could manage.
"I have to if we are to ever survive" Santana shrugs.
"Santana…this isn't that simple" Brittany sighs. "Are you honestly telling me you would be happier for my life to fail and for me to be miserable than to let me try and make something of my life. If I come back home right now I will be back in that diner, no better off and quite severely out of pocket for going home. The competition only pays for me when I'm here so if I quit, they're not going to pay for me to go home or anything like that."
"Is money more important than me?" Santana asks.
"You are the most important person in my life but I have no money. How do you honestly think we can have a future when I can't provide for us?" Brittany asks. "We can't buy a house together, I can't move out of my parents, we can't have a family. We'll literally be so miserable together so I'll never forgive myself if I don't try to achieve something here."
"We'll find another way" Santana shrugs.
"I have waited so long for a chance like this so I don't think another one is going to just turn up like that" Brittany points out. "Surely I should get to see this through because all of this sadness could be worth it in the end if I get the money and come home to you and we can be so much happier."
"It's me or the competition Brittany" Santana states seriously as she finishes packing and wheels her suitcase over to the door.
"I'm really sorry for hurting you so please don't do this. Please don't give up so easily" Brittany pleads with Santana. She knows she hasn't been the best girlfriend to Santana, she sees that now, but she honestly doesn't think she's been bad enough for Santana to break up with her.
"I just wanted you Brittany, I didn't want all of this nonsense" Santana sighs.
"I want you too and I don't want us to fight but I really don't think it's fair of you to make me choose when this competition could do so much for both of us" Brittany replies.
"I have to ask you to choose because I need to know where I stand" Santana states.
"You knew what all of this entailed when you signed me up for this competition so why did you do it in the first place if you want me to choose between you and it?" Brittany asks curiously.
"I didn't know it was going to be like this" Santana tells her.
"You have to have done because it clearly stated that it was 8 weeks long and would really take someone dedicated to it to go for it. Therefore, it implied it took a large amount of time and would be very stressful" Brittany reasons.
"What is it to be Brittany?" Santana asks.
"We can't ever get back together if you leave me now" Brittany points out.
"I'll take that as your answer then" Santana shrugs.
"I don't want to break up with you Santana so I'm not picking. It's up to you if you want to leave right now or not. You're basically doing the same thing back to me because you're either leaving me or staying with me until we ride these last 3 weeks out" Brittany tells her.
"I am leaving" Santana states.
"You've answered your own question then, you're leaving me" Brittany says as a tear runs down her cheek. She knew things were bad between then but she never expected it to end like this.
It's the next day and Quinn was just enjoying some time to herself on a day off from work when she got a text from Santana to tell her to come over. She didn't really think much of it so she got ready and went over to Santana's place.
"How was the trip?" Quinn asks. "Actually, what are you doing home already?" she asks when she realises Santana has only been gone a couple of days, not a week.
"We're over" Santana shrugs. She's putting on a brave face but she is upset.
"How?" Quinn asks shocked.
"Things just went from bad to worse so I told her it was either me or the competition and she picked the competition" Santana states.
"You actually asked her to choose?" Quinn wonders.
"I couldn't take it anymore so yeah I made her choose" Santana nods.
"You're my best friend and I love you but isn't that a little harsh. I mean it couldn't have been simple to just ask her to choose" Quinn states.
"Wow…" Santana shakes her head. "I can't believe my best friend is not siding with me."
"This isn't about sides honey because I've got your back, you know I have" Quinn assures Santana. "I just don't think your situation was as simple as being able to choose like that. I would do anything to have the chance of a better job and to set me up for the future because none of us are well off so I can see why Brittany needs to give this a shot but at the same time I know she loves you."
"I couldn't take it anymore so I needed to be clearer on where we stood so I had to ask her" Santana replies.
"I'm not saying you're not hurting; I'm just saying there was no need to be so final about everything. I honestly don't think Brittany meant to be so unavailable all the time. I think if I was on my own I would try to fit in instead of being alone and depressed" Quinn replies.
"You just don't get it Quinn" Santana says as she shakes her head.
"Ok maybe I don't but even though I knew you two were going through some things, I really didn't expect you to break up like that" Quinn admits.
Meanwhile with Brittany, she has just left her hotel room and is making her way downstairs to start off another day of the competition. She barely slept all night last night after what happened with Santana. She knew she hadn't been the best person lately but she really didn't think Santana would have been so final about everything. She thought eventually they would work everything out and she would come home with the money and they could live happily ever after. She realises that was just a fairy-tale and they never come true in reality.
"Brittany, you're late" George tells her. George is one of the runners of the competition so he doesn't like people not sticking to their schedule.
"Fire me then…oh wait you can't because I'm not even getting paid for this" Brittany shrugs.
"Take your seat please Brittany so we can get started" George states amused.
"Fine" Brittany sighs while walking over to her cooking area before taking a seat to listen to the introduction for the day. Everyone is looking at her because they're surprised by her behaviour this morning but she doesn't care, all she cares about is Santana.
The whole day of competing, Brittany is really off her game. Her mind is so distracted that she ends up burning half of her food and she ends up snapping at a few of her colleagues who get in her way. She doesn't take too kindly to the constructive criticism that she gets from George and the others either which isn't like her because she usually welcomes all feedback that can help her improve and give her a good chance at winning.
The competition has ended for the day now and all the competitors are getting cleared up before they go back to their rooms before it all starts again tomorrow morning. Brittany being so preoccupied about what happened last night ends up being the last one there still tidying up her things. George walks over to her and pulls up two chairs before sitting down on one.
"Brittany, why don't you sit down for a minute" George suggests.
"Ok" Brittany sighs before putting down the dishes and taking a seat next to George.
"What is going on with you?" George asks gently.
"Nothing" Brittany shrugs her shoulders.
"You're one of the most talented ones here so today's performance is a real shocker and that attitude you have today is doing you no favours" George points out.
"I'm really distracted today so I'm sorry" Brittany apologises.
"What's happened?" George asks. He genuinely wants to make sure Brittany is ok because it's so out of character for her. He wouldn't normally stay behind and talk to the competitors privately because it would look like he's giving them preferential treatment but he is really concerned today.
"This competition is so hard and I'm doing my best but it's cost me the love of my life. She broke up with me last night because I wouldn't go home with her. I wanted to go with her because she's my world but I have no money, I need this chance because otherwise I go home to a diner that pays very little and live miserably the rest of my life because no one wants me. So many catering companies have turned me down and I can't even build my own because I have basically 50 cents to my name" Brittany says bursting into tears.
"I know it sucks but sometimes these things happen. You need to be ruthless in a competition like this so there is no easy way to do it. I can't say much about how any of you competitors are doing because that wouldn't be fair on the others but what I can say is that you really are talented Brittany so please don't give up" George replies. He doesn't want to get involved in someone's private business but he can see how hard Brittany has worked so he doesn't want her to give up.
"What if I'm wasting my time here staying and I've lost my girlfriend forever because of something I'm no good at" Brittany states.
"All of you deserve to be here and we're only hard on you because we want to make you all even better. No one here shouldn't be here so I wouldn't give up with the competition right now" George tells her.
"I love my girlfriend though and she broke up with me because I stayed here" Brittany points out.
"There is only 3 weeks left and it is completely your decision but I think you can handle 3 more weeks to give yourself a chance" George says. He's not saying she will win it but they all are capable of doing well so he doesn't like to see anyone waste a good opportunity.
After Brittany finishes up for the day, she goes back to her room. She orders some room service and takes a bath to try and relax before her food arrives. She really doesn't relax though because all she can think about is everything that happened last night so she decides to keep herself busy until her food comes. When it does come, she sits down and begins to eat before calling Mercedes to talk to her best friend about everything that has happened.
"I know I didn't go about things in the best way but I never wanted us to break up and I never thought Santana could do something like this to me. I had a lot of making up to do and I get that but to break up with me because of a few missed calls. I made plans the second night she was there but that was the only time I was going out. I asked her to come with me and she said no so why am I being punished for that" Brittany states.
"You two will work things out" Mercedes points out.
"She broke my heart Mercedes, how can we?" Brittany asks. "I really don't think what I done was enough to justify splitting up with me. There is no way Santana hasn't made a few mistakes in a relationship before so it's not fair."
"You two seem as stubborn as each other" Mercedes points out.
"I just don't know what to do anymore. I want to be with Santana so badly but she gave up on me so quickly so maybe we do need a break or something" Brittany sighs.
"I think it's best to maybe stay there and keep going for these last few weeks and then re-evaluate everything once you get home. You two probably do need some time to really think about things so just stay there and do that while trying to win that money and when you get home you can see if things can be sorted out" Mercedes suggests.
It's been at least a week now since Brittany and Santana last talked. Brittany wanted to give Santana some space so she didn't call her for the first day or two but when she tried to call on the third day, Santana didn't answer. Brittany just assumed she was working or was busy so tried again later that night. Eventually after 5 days with Santana never answering her calls, Brittany assumed it was deliberate. She understands why Santana is probably doing it but it doesn't make her feel any better.
Brittany is currently at a bar right now with some of the others from the competition. One of her friends is at the bathroom and the other is getting them all some drinks so Brittany is sitting alone at a table. She was just minding her own business when a girl sat down next to her and introduced herself as Alexis. Brittany really wasn't in the mood to talk so she tried to get rid of her but the message didn't seem to be getting through to Alexis.
"So, do you have a girlfriend?" Alexis asks while placing her hand on Brittany's leg.
"Um…"
"I don't know why you wouldn't right enough, you are pretty damn hot" Alexis says as she gently massages Brittany's thigh.
"Look can you not do that please" Brittany says politely while removing Alexis's hand.
"You didn't answer my question" Alexis says completely ignoring what Brittany said.
"Come on, don't do that" Brittany says while lifting Alexis's hand off her leg once again.
"Answer my question then" Alexis smirks.
"It's complicated but I certainly wouldn't say I'm available" Brittany sighs.
"So, there is someone in your life then?" Alexis asks.
"Yes, I have a…someone" Brittany sighs at the last part of the sentence. She'd love to call Santana her girlfriend and she doesn't want to be disrespectable by calling her 'someone' but she really doesn't know what they are anymore.
"So, where is she?" Alexis asks.
"Can you just leave me alone please?" Brittany asks, starting to get annoyed with this woman and her lack of personal space.
"Brittany are you ok?" one of Brittany's friends asks as she walks over to the table.
"No, this woman is harassing me" Brittany states.
"I was only…"
"Leave her alone" Brittany's friend says while placing the drinks down and grabbing the woman by the arm to remove her.
"Ok, I'm going" the woman glares before leaving.
"Do you want me to call the security people to make her leave?" her friend asks.
"No, it's fine" Brittany sighs. "To be honest I think I might leave because I'm not really in the mood tonight and I just want to be alone."
"You miss Santana a lot so is it really wise to be sitting alone with your thoughts. Wouldn't that make you miss her even more and make you feel worse?" her friend asks.
"It doesn't matter where I am, I'm still going to feel like this" Brittany shrugs. "Thanks for inviting me out tonight but I think I am going to just go back to the hotel."
"Ok" her friend smiles. After Brittany says goodbye to both of her friends, she heads back to the hotel. She gets to her room and changes into something more comfortable before calling Santana. She doesn't have high hopes in her answering but she wants to try.
"It's Brittany again. I just really want to know where we stand so if you can, please call me back" Brittany says as Santana once again doesn't answer.
Brittany watches TV for about 20 minutes before her phone lights up. She looks at the screen to see who it is and when she sees its Santana's number, her whole face lights up. She doesn't waste any time in answering.
"Santana, hi" Brittany says cheerfully. "I've been trying to…"
"Stop calling me Brittany" Santana states seriously. "You're blocking my voicemail with all of these messages you're leaving so just stop."
"Please talk to me Santana. I really miss you" Brittany says as a few tears run down her face.
"That's not my problem" Santana states.
"I love you and I don't want this to be the end of us. I made a lot of mistakes but it didn't mean I didn't love and care for you. Please don't end things completely" Brittany says in tears.
"It wasn't me that did this Brittany" Santana says in the most confident voice she can. Brittany crying really does pull at her heartstrings but she wants Brittany to know she is ok and she isn't crying herself to sleep every night even though that's exactly what she does.
"Have you been really busy so couldn't take my calls or did you just not want to talk to me?" Brittany wonders.
"I have had some time but you ignored my calls so why shouldn't I ignore yours?" Santana replies.
"I didn't intentionally hurt you but you're intentionally hurting me now. Two wrongs don't make a right" Brittany points out.
"I still got hurt though" Santana replies.
"I didn't mean it though Santana. You do mean this otherwise you wouldn't do it" Brittany says upset. "I didn't look at your name flashing on my phone when you called and then hung up on you. I answered and said I was busy whereas you can clearly see I'm calling and you can't even pick up and say anything. Saying anything would be better than not saying anything at all" she adds.
"I'm not fighting with you anymore Brittany, it's mentally and emotionally exhausting me" Santana sighs.
"I'm not coping myself particularly well but if I come home now then you probably still wouldn't be with me so there's no point getting nothing out of this whole thing. I might as well stay here and try and win the money since I have nothing else now" Brittany states.
"We're not together anymore so your plans are not my business" Santana points out.
"So, we're definitely not together then?" Brittany asks for clarification.
"Doesn't look like it" Santana replies.
"So, we're single then?" Brittany wonders.
"I would say that's accurate, yes" Santana tells her.
"So, you're telling me it's a waste of my time in trying to fight for you?" Brittany states.
"You can do whatever you want Brittany, you usually do" Santana sighs.
"Ok well I'll see you when I get home then. It doesn't look like I will win this thing anymore because I've let myself down a lot this week in the challenges but I'm going to see it through and then I'm going to work on us. You might not want me anymore but I don't think I can be so final with my decision" Brittany replies.
"I need to go now Brittany" Santana says.
"Ok well, I love you" Brittany says.
"Goodbye Brittany" Santana says and then hangs up. It really hurts Brittany to hear Santana not say it back but what else can she expect. She did wrong and Santana can't just roll over and forget what happened so Brittany is trying not be so hurt when she knows she caused this.
Was it right for them to break up? Let me know what you think.