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"Look Janet he's smiling." Eddie exclaimed.
"It's probably just gas." Janet commented.
"It's not gas. You're smiling at your daddy aren't you Jake?" There was a quick knock at the door and Dr. Turner walked in.
"So is this the newest member of your family?" Dr. Turner asked walking over to Eddie and checking out the bundle in his arms.
"This is our son Jacob. Jacob this is Dr. Turner. He is the man who gave daddy the medicine that kept him alive so far."
"He is very handsome. He looks just like you."
"I think so too." Eddie told his doctor proudly.
"Janet can you take your son so I can examine your husband?"
"I would love to." Janet stood and reached over to take Jacob from his father's arms, a place the baby spent most of his time.
Today Jacob was six weeks old and the past six weeks have been the best of Eddie and Janet's life. Jacob was such a good baby. He only cried when he was hungry or really tired. Janet was primarily nursing Jacob but she pumped as much milk as she could so Eddie could feed him. It didn't surprise Janet at all that Eddie was such a hands on father. There wasn't anything that he didn't do for his son. He woke up in the middle of the night to feed him. He bathed him, read him stories, changed his diapers, held him when he cried and held him when he was happy. In fact he was always holding Jacob. Sometimes Janet felt like she had to wrestle Jacob away from Eddie just to hold him but she understand why Eddie always had to be with Jacob, he needed to be with his son as much as he could before he could no longer spend time with him.
"Your neurological exam looks good. Have you noticed any changes in anything whether or not you think that it's significant?" Dr. Turner asked.
"Well maybe a small one." Eddie admitted.
"What? Why haven't you said anything to me?" Janet asked looking very mad.
"I didn't think that it was a big deal." He mumbled.
"That's not your call Eddie. Anything that changes can be a big deal." She snapped.
"Eddie what change have you noticed?" Dr. Turner asked, temporarily halting their argument.
"My pinky finger on my left hand has been going numb."
"Does it stay numb?"
"No it comes and goes."
"What is the longest period of time that it has stayed numb?"
"Uhhh…four hours once."
"When did the numbness began?"
"About three weeks ago."
"What does this mean?" Janet asked. "Is the medication no longer working? Is the cancer back?"
"No the numbness does not mean that the cancer is growing again. The latest M.R.I. shows no new tumors and the current tumors haven't changed sized."
"I don't understand. Why are his fingers going numb?" Dr. Turner could hear the distress in Janet's voice.
"The tumors aren't growing but they are making themselves more at home."
"Excuse me?"
"The tumors are settling into the brain tissue and that's why you are experiencing new symptoms."
"Should I expect this to continue or worsen?" Eddie whispered.
"The symptoms will probably continue. As for worsening I can't answer that."
"Why the hell not?" He snapped.
"No one has survived on this medication as long as long as you have. In other cases the medicine worked and then stopped. We have never seen anyone go as long as you have without new tumor growth which is why I can't answer your question. We are learning with you Eddie."
"So we have no idea what could happen?"
"Not exactly no." Eddie nodded. "Now because of these no developments Eddie I'm going to recommend that you not be left alone with your son."
"Do you mean that I could hurt him?"
"Not intentionally but because we are unsure of how your symptoms will progress something could happen, like a seizure when you are holding him."
"I understand." Eddie nodded with tears in his eyes.
"I'm sorry Eddie. I know how hard this is for you but at least you're alive."
"But what kind of life is it?" He mumbled.
"What did you say honey?" Janet asked because she didn't hear what he said.
"Never mind. It's not important."
Dr. Turner refilled Eddie's medications, gave him another month supply of the chemo medication because since it was still in the trial phases it wasn't available at any pharmacy. They scheduled his next M.R.I. and appointment and Eddie and Janet headed home. During the ride home Jacob slept and Eddie acted like he was sleeping. He really wasn't in the mood to talk to Janet. He wasn't in the mood to talk at all. He couldn't stop thinking about the fact that he could hurt Jacob, his sweet innocent boy and he was having trouble dealing with that.
"We're here." Janet announced.
"Where is here?" He mumbled opening his eyes.
"My doctor's office. Remember today is my six week post partum check."
"Oh yeah." Janet opened her door and Eddie just sat in his seat, making no effort to move. "Are you coming?"
"Why would I?"
"Excuse me?"
"It's your appointment. Not mine. I'll wait out here for you."
"It's the end of January. It's cold and snowing. You can't wait out here."
"That's why there are heaters in cars Janet. I'll be fine."
"I really don't want to Jacob back in the room with me so I need you to come with me and keep him occupied."
"Come on Janet. He'll be fine." Janet sighed in irritation.
"What happens if I'm in the middle of a pelvic exam and Jacob starts crying? I very well can't stop the exam and get him so you're coming with me."
"Fine." Eddie snapped. He slowly got out of the car and followed Janet in the office.
Once Janet signed in she sat down next to Eddie and took Jacob out of his carried. Eddie was flipping through a magazine practically ignoring his wife. Some of the nurses came out and ohhhed and ahhhed over Jacob. When Janet was called back she attempted to hand Jacob to his father.
"Put him in his carrier." Eddie requested.
"I have to go. Take him please." Janet placed Jacob in Eddie's arms and followed the nurse back. After her weight was checked she passed by the window that looked out into the waiting room and she saw that Eddie had already put the baby back in his carrier and she felt tears fill her eyes.
--
Janet woke up to the sounds of Jacob's cry filling their dark bedroom through his monitor. Normally Eddie would be jumping out of bed at the first whimper but not tonight. She could tell that he was awake but he was making no effort to get up. "Do you want to feed him?" Janet mumbled sleepily.
"You're the one with the tits. Not me." Eddie snapped as he rolled away from her.
A surge of anger flowed through her but she chose to ignore it and deal with him later. She threw back her blankets and headed to Jacob's room, turning off the monitor as she left. "Hey my little prince." Janet whispered to her son as she lifted him out of his crib. "Are you hungry?" She grabbed a blanket and settled herself in the rocking chair next to his bed. He eagerly latched onto her breast and began to nurse. "I know that you are used to daddy coming in on these nighttime feedings and I'm sorry that he isn't here tonight. In fact I'm sorry about how he has treated you since his doctor's appointment. I think that he really afraid that he will hurt you. Don't worry I'll talk to him and he'll be back to your regular dad soon but he does love you." Using her free hand Janet wiped away the couple of tears that had fallen.
Since his appointment with Dr. Turner, three days ago he has been pulling away from Jacob. In fact he hasn't held his son at all. When he was hungry Eddie wouldn't feed him. When it was bath time he was always doing something else that he couldn't be pulled away from. It seemed that Eddie had done a 180º turn going from a very devoted father who couldn't stay away to someone who doesn't want anything to do with his son and it was scaring Janet more than anything.
Janet even felt like he was pulling away from her as well. During the last six weeks since she gave birth to Jacob, Eddie kept telling her how much he wanted to make love to her, how he couldn't wait until she was cleared by her doctor to resume sexual activity. She received her clearance three days ago and Eddie hasn't mentioned one word about making love nor has he made any moves on her. If he kisses her it is distractedly, usually on her cheek. At night, he is always in bed before she is, acting like he is sleeping. Janet has wrapped her arms around him or laid her head on his chest, depending on the position he was in and he never made a move to hold her and within thirty minutes he was on his side of the bed, as far away from her as he could be without falling out.
After Jacob was fed and burped Janet returned him to his crib and she returned to her bedroom ready to confront her husband about his sudden change in attitude.
"What the hell Janet?" Eddie snapped when she turned on the overhead light.
"I should be asking you that question."
"Whatever."
"We need to talk Eddie."
"Can't it wait until the morning?"
"No. It can't."
"Dammit Janet there is nothing to talk about. Just let me sleep."
"Baby, I'm worried about you." Janet sat on the bed and pulled Eddie up.
"There is no need to worry. I'm fine." He mumbled, not meeting her eyes.
"No you're not. You have not held Jacob once since your appointment with Dr. Turner and he knows it Eddie. He has been more cranky and fussy over these past three days then he has ever been before and it's because of you. He got so used to your voice and your touch and he misses it. He wants his daddy."
"Don't lay guilt on me Janet."
"I'm not. I'm telling the truth. Why won't you hold him?"
"He safer if I don't."
"That's ridiculous."
"You heard what Dr. Turner said. Jacob is not safe around me."
"That is not what he said. Jacob is very safe around you. We just have to take precautions in case you get worse. It's for you as much as it is for Jacob. If something happens to you and you are alone I may not be able to get to you in time and we can prevent that if someone else is here with you baby."
"It's better this way."
"What way is better?"
"Jacob has been getting used to my presence and that's a bad thing."
"I don't understand."
"I'm going to be dead soon so the less he knows me the better off he will be."
"No baby." Janet whispered tearfully.
"He might as well get used to being without me now while he is still young enough not to remember." Janet reached out for Eddie but he pulled away from her.
"Is that why you are pulling away from me?"
"I don't know what you are talking about."
"I've been able to have sex for three days and suddenly you're not interested. When you kiss me it's like you aren't there and you haven't held me at night. You sleep far away."
"Maybe."
"What has changed Eddie? Why are you pulling away now? You are exactly the same as you were before your appointment."
"I just had time to think about stuff."
"Eddie…"
"Look I've got nothing else to look forward to but dying. I wanted to live long enough to meet my son and I've done that so now I'm ready to die." Janet began crying when he spoke those words.
"Well I'm not ready for you to die and neither is Jacob."
"You may not have a choice."
"What happened to you?"
"I got cancer." He snapped.
"You are a fighter Eddie Latekka. You should have been dead months ago but you're not because you have been fighting to live for me and Jacob. You say that you have nothing else to look forward too well that's bullshit Eddie. Our anniversary is coming up in a couple of months. We have so much to celebrate." Janet sobbed. "Your son is changing on a daily basis. You have so much to look forward to with him. Do you want to miss the first time he sits up on his own, his first laugh, first word, first steps. Watching Jacob change is enough to look forward to so don't you dare give up. Don't you let your son down." Eddie just stared at her with tears shining in his eyes and then he shocked her by lying back down in bed and closing his eyes. "You've got to be kidding me." She mumbled.
"I'm tired." He stated rolling over and clearing ending the conversation.
"Please Eddie…don't do this." Janet begged through her tears but Eddie ignored her. "You know you may have given up on yourself but I haven't. I love you." She stood up, leaned over and placed a kiss on his head but he didn't move. Sighing, she grabbed her pillow and spent the night in Jacob's room on the floor.
--
"Hi Dr. Turner. Thanks for calling me back." Janet spoke into the phone. She had called his office first thing when she woke up asking for him to call her.
"Sure thing Janet. What's up? Is Eddie okay?"
"No he's not. Since his appointment with you he's been pulling away. He's really afraid that he will hurt Jacob and he hasn't held him since. He…says that he is ready to die. I think he is giving up. You told me a few months ago to watch out for any signs of depression and I'm seeing the signs." Janet explained tearfully.
"Do you still have the list of therapists that I gave you when we had that conversation about depression?"
"I do."
"These therapists specialize treating patients that have been diagnosed with a terminal illness. They help patients deal with there impending death and their fear and sorrow associated with leaving behind their lives and loved ones."
"I don't think he will agree to therapy." Janet mumbled into the phone.
"Probably not at first but if anyone can convince him to do it it's you Janet. He will do anything you ask."
"I used to think so."
"Also I'm going to call in a prescription for an antidepressant. I think that it will help him."
"I'll try to get him to take them."
"I want to see him next week. I'm going to transfer you to my secretary to make the appointment."
"Thank you Dr. Turner."
"Call me if you need anything else."
An hour after Janet hung up with Dr. Turner the pharmacy called to let Janet know that Eddie's prescription was ready. Not even bothering to tell him that she was leaving she bundled Jacob up and they both went to the pharmacy and grocery store. She bought the stuff for Eddie's favorite dinner hoping the smell of her Lasagna would lure him out of their bedroom.
When Janet and Jacob got home and dinner was started and Jacob was fed and down for his nap Janet grabbed Eddie's new pills and headed to their bedroom. She found him in bed watching T.V. By the looks of him he obviously hadn't even bothered to get out of bed long enough to shower or shave.
"Here. You need to take this." Janet said holding out her hand with the antidepressant in it.
"What the hell is that?" Eddie grumbled, making no move to take the pill from her.
"Dr. Turner called in a new medication for you."
"I can see that. I asked what it is?"
"It doesn't matter." Janet whispered. Eddie sat up and started to reach for the pill in Janet's hand but at the last second, so she wouldn't see it coming he reached for her other hand that held the pill bottle and he grabbed it out of her hand.
"Antidepressant? What the hell is this? I don't need this."
"Yes you do."
"I'm not taking it." He yelled.
"Eddie…" Eddie never let her finish her sentence. He threw the bottle against the wall with such force that the lid popped off and the pills scattered all over the room.
"I'm not taking the god damned pills." He screamed at her. "Do you understand me?"
"You're scaring me." She told him softly.
"I want to be left alone. Why don't you get that?"
"You're not dead yet so stop living as if you are." Janet shouted back. She stormed out of the room in tears.
Shutting off the oven Janet again bundled up Jacob so they could leave. Janet had to get out of the house. She needed to clear her head and get away from Eddie.
"Hey Laura, sorry to barge in." Janet said as she walked into her in-laws carrying Jacob's carrier.
"You and Jacob are welcome here anytime. Here let me take him." Laura took the carrier from Janet. "What's going on sweetheart?"
"Eddie…he's just having a really rough time these last few days."
"Janet…"
"I've never seen him like this before Laura. He hasn't been out of our room in days and I'm scared. I think that I need some time alone with him. Would you mind keeping Jake overnight tonight? I really hate to ask but…"
"I would love to keep Jacob. That's what grandma's do." Before Jacob was born Laura and Jack turned Eddie's childhood room into a nursery for Jacob.
"Thank you so much." Janet took Jacob from his grandmother. "You be a good boy for your grandma and grandpa. Mommy is really going to miss you tonight but I need some time with daddy and try to help him. I love you so much my prince and so does daddy." Janet kissed her baby boy's head and handed him to Laura. "There is some frozen breast milk in the diaper bag. There should be plenty to get you through until tomorrow. If you have problems or if you need me call and I'll…"
"Janet we will be fine. Jacob likes hanging out here, don't you baby?" Jacob yawned in response to his grandmother's question. "You call me if my son needs a swift kick in his ass."
"I will. Thank you."
After Janet left her in-laws she drove to the high school football field to think. Since his diagnosis whenever Janet needed a place to think but feel close to Eddie she came to the football field, a place that Eddie loved. As she sat in her truck, looking out onto the field she smiled as she recalled all of the football games she went to during her high school career to see her crush play. She'll never forget the hail Eddie play that put Knights Ridge High on the map. It was so exciting. If she only knew then what she knows now things may have been different. They could have spent more time together, had more babies, who knows what they're lives would be like today if they knew back then that they were meant for each other. Would they of caught the cancer in time to save his life or would he already be dead.
Janet knows deep down the reason that Eddie has lived as long as he has because of his love for her and Jacob and his strong desire to see his son born and get to know him She was terrified that because he is giving up the cancer will start to grow rapidly again and he would die son and she wasn't ready to let him go…not yet.
Sometimes during her visits to the field Janet would get so angry at God. Angry because her husband and son's father was dying way too soon, angry because she has been given this extra time with the man she loved. She was so grateful for every day that she got to spend with the man she loved more than anything but she knew because of this extra time it would be so much harder for her in the end when she lost him. She was so conflicted and she couldn't imagine how Eddie must feel. Suddenly her cell phone rang pulling her out of her thoughts.
"Eddie?" Their home number had showed up on her caller I.D.
"I need you. Please come home."
"Are you okay?" She started up her jeep.
"Yeah…I…please can you just come home?"
"I'm on my way. Do you…" Janet never finished her sentence because Eddie hung up on her. She was a nervous wreck as she drove home. He didn't sound like he had a headache. He just sounded defeated and her heart broke.
"Eddie I'm here." She called as she rushed into the house. When he didn't answer Janet searched the living room, dining room and kitchen. When she didn't find him she rushed upstairs to their bedroom and bathroom and found it empty so that left just one more place, Jacob's nursery. "Oh baby." She whispered when she found him sitting on the floor, staring at Jacob's crib with tears rolling down her face. She rushed in and sat beside him on the floor and she wrapped her arms around him. He allowed Janet to pull him to her chest and he clung to her.
"I don't wanna die." He cried into her chest.
"Then keep on fighting baby. Keep on fighting."
"I'm getting worse."
"It's just a numb finger, not the end of the road."
"My hand."
"What about it?"
"It's shaking."
"Honey?" He pulled one of his arms away from Janet and reached for his bottle of antidepressants that he picked up off the bedroom floor. Janet watched in horror as his left hand shook uncontrollably. "When did this start?"
"The day of my appointment with Dr. Turner. It started shaking on the way home."
"Eddie…"
"No matter what Dr. Turner says it's starting Janet." Eddie whispered tearfully.
"Don't say that." Janet begged as Eddie rewrapped his arm around Janet and they held each other tightly in silence.
"Sweetheart?" Eddie said a few minutes later.
"Yeah?"
"Can you understand why I can't hold Jake?"
"How bad is the shaking? Is it constant?"
"No. Only when I have something in my hand."
"Then you can still hold your son. Your right arm is fine. Jacob will be safe in your right arm."
"I can't risk it. I can't take a chance and hurt him."
"You won't hurt him."
"I can. It's a huge possibility. What about that shaken baby syndrome?"
"Honey it's only your hand that is shaking. Jacob will be fine. I trust you with him. You just need to trust yourself."
"I'm scared Janet. I'm so scared. What is it going to be like? Am I going to go to heaven or hell? Does heaven or hell even exist? Will I be able to watch over you and Jacob? There is so much unknown and I don't know how to deal. I pissed off. I'm scared and I don't know what the hell to do."
"Will you see a therapist?"
"What the hell is the point?"
"There are therapists that can help you deal. They specialize in helping people diagnosed with a terminal illness deal."
"Will it help me feel better? Will I be happy again?"
"I hope so Eddie. I really do."
"I'll do it."
"There is something else that might help you feel better." Janet said.
"The antidepressants?"
"Dr. Turner said that depression is to be expected. It can't hurt to take it." Eddie reached back on the floor, picked up and opened the pill bottle, shook a pill onto his hand and quickly swallowed it. "I love you Eddie." Janet lifted her face and kissed him softly.
"Where is Jacob?" Eddie asked once they broke apart.
"With your parents. I thought that we could use some time alone."
"Can you go get him? I just really need him, well both of you close to me."
"Of course I will." They untangled from each other and stood. "Do you wanna come with me?" Eddie shook his head.
"I'm not really in the mood to deal with my parents tonight."
"I understand. Do you need anything while I'm out?"
"Just Jake."
"I can do that." Janet reached for his hand and gave it a squeeze. "I love you so much. You know that don't you?"
"I do. I love you too sweetheart." Eddie cupped his wife's face and kissed her gently.
--
When Janet and Jacob returned home an hour later Janet was shocked to find the house full of candle light. Their dining room table had been set and in the middle were two lighted candles and a bouquet of daises. It was very romantic. "Eddie." She called.
"I'm in the kitchen. Go ahead and have a seat at the table. I'll be out in a minute. He called.
"Look what your daddy did. Isn't it beautiful?" Janet whispered tearfully to her sleepy son. It now made sense to her why Jack and Laura kept her at the house talking.
"Dinner is served." A freshly showered and shaved Eddie announced walking into the dining room carrying a box of pizza and Janet burst out laughing.
"Don't laugh. You know that I can't cook."
"Sorry." She giggled. Eddie returned to the kitchen for a minute and when he came back he was carrying two wine glasses full of milk which made Janet laugh even harder.
"I would have preferred wine but you can't drink it cause you're nursing and I can't drink it because of my meds so we are stuck with milk."
"It's perfect."
"Is he ready for bed?" Eddie asked nodding to Jacob who was comfortably sleeping in his mother's arms.
"He is. I had to wake him up to bring him home."
"Can I put him to bed?"
"He's your son. You don't need to ask and I think that he would like that very much." Eddie slowly reached out and took his baby in his arms.
"Will you come with me in case something happens?"
"You'll be fine."
"But I…"
"I trust you." Taking a deep breath Eddie left the dining room and carefully made his way upstairs with Jacob in his arms. Jacob was mostly in Eddie's right arm and his left arm was there for extra support. Eddie breathed a sigh of relief when they made it to the crib with no problems.
"Hey there little man. I am really sorry for ignoring you these past few days. I just got really scared and I shut down. I'm going to talk to someone to help me deal with what I'm feeling but there is one feeling, okay two feelings that I don't need help dealing with. It's the feeling of love that I have for you and your mommy. I love you both so much that it hurts. You two are the best things that have ever happened to me and I need to treasure what time I have left with you guys instead of worrying about what's going to happen." A tear slid down Eddie's cheek as he laid his son in his crib. "I love you little man. Sleep well."
When Eddie returned to the dining room he found his lovely wife sitting there waiting for him. As soon as she saw him she stood from her chair, wrapped her arms around his neck and hugged him tightly. "Thanks. I needed that." He whispered.
"I thought that you might."
"Come on. Let's eat before the pizza gets cold." They slowly broke apart and sat down. Eddie gave them each some pizza and then they linked hands as they ate. "I'm so sorry baby." Eddie told her as they ate.
"For what?"
"For the way I have been treating you these past few days. I hope that I didn't scare you."
"You did scare me. Especially when you threw the pill bottle across the room. I've never seen you like that."
"I hate that you had to see me like that."
"All is forgiven as long as you don't let it happen again."
"Deal." He lifted her hand to his mouth and kissed it softly.
After they were done eating Janet took their dishes to the kitchen to wash them while Eddie took a bottle upstairs to Jacob who had woken up. Since his left hand is shaking his plan was to hold Jake in his left arm and feed him with his right hand which worked out fine. Eddie was able to easily hold Jacob with one arm and when he rested his hand against his leg it didn't shake. Fifteen minutes later Jacob was burped and back to sleep and Eddie was back in the kitchen wrapping his arms around Janet's waist while she wiped the counters down.
"Hmmmm." She mumbled as Eddie placed soft kisses on her neck. "Jacob?" She managed to get out when his hands went under her shirt to caress her breasts.
"Sound asleep." Eddie grinned when he heard her moan softly. She tried to turn to face him but he held her tight. "Does that feel good?" Janet could only grunt in response. Eddie pulled his hands away from her breasts so he could raise her shirt over her head and pull her bra down over her breasts.
"Eddie…"She breathed as his hands pulled and tweaked her nipples and kissed her neck. She leaned against him and while she enjoyed the manipulation that her breasts were receiving she stretched one arm back behind her to grab his ass and the other she lifted up to wrap around his neck. Janet whimpered when he pulled one of his hands away and left a breast naked and alone but she soon was gasping in surprise when he slid that hand down her pants. "Oh…my…god." She moaned when his fingers found her clit.
"Easy there girl." He said with a smile when she began to grind and buck her hips against his hand. She was squeezing his ass hard and digging her nails into his neck. A loud moan from deep in her chest erupted as she climaxed around his hand.
As Janet came down from her climax she pulled his hand out of her pants and she was finally able to turn around and crush her lips to his, something that she has been wanting to do. As their tongues circled around each other Janet's hands unbuckled his belt and pants, slid his zipper down and quickly shoved his pants and boxers to the floor. When she finally tore her lips away from his eager ones she dropped to her knees on the kitchen floor and took her husband's large erection in her mouth while her hand moved in motion with her mouth.
"Son of a bitch Janet." He groaned. It took everything he had not to grab her hair. He had always thought that it was disrespectful to woman to do that. Since he has lost his ability to achieve his erection on his own they have learned that he could still get blow jobs as long as he didn't finish. If Janet stopped sucking in time he was still was able to keep it up so they could make love. "Janet…you gotta stop." He knew that he was ready to explode so with one last slurp she slowly pulled away and she reached for his hands to pull him down on the floor with her. "Holy hell woman. That was amazing."
"I'm glad you liked it." With a smug smile Janet pulled Eddie to her and they shared a slow, sensual kiss. "Upstairs." She gasped as his lips traveled down her neck.
"I don't think I'll make it." Thanking God that Janet was such a clean freak he gently pushed her back onto the kitchen floor, pulled her pants and underwear off with her assistance then he kicked his pants and boxers off as well, practically ripped his tee shirt off of his body and tossed it on the floor behind him.
Staring into his wife's blue eyes he lifted her right leg up off the floor, placed it on his shoulder and then he sank himself inside of her. Janet yelped in pleasure as he pushed deep inside of her. He loved the look in her eyes whenever they made love. They were full of love, passion and desire. Pulling almost all the way out and then sinking just as slowly back they never took their eyes off of each other. No words were spoken, no kissing and touching. They just concentrated that for a small amount of time they were no longer to separate people, they were one. When their orgasms hit them they both had tears streaming down their faces.
"Let's go upstairs." He mumbled into her hair when his breathing returned to normal. "I want to hold you."
"I want to be held." Eddie slowly withdrew from Janet, stood up and then helped his wife up.
"Let me grab our clothes."
"Leave them. We'll get them in the morning." Eddie grabbed her hand and they slowly made their way upstairs to their room and to their bed. They spent the next couple of hours kissing, touching and whispering into the dark until Jacob decided that he was hungry. Eddie went and brought Jacob to Janet to nurse and when he was done they laid him in the bed between them.
"Can you believe we made him?" Janet whispered in awe as she stared at her sleeping son.
"It's amazing. He is perfect. I am the luckiest man alive. I have a beautiful wife and the cutest son ever."
"We're pretty lucky to have you too."
"I love you my sweet, sweet Janet."
"I love you Eddie." They leaned forward over Jacob and kissed softly. They then linked hands and both quickly fell asleep while watching their son sleep between them.