AN: In this chapter there are adult themes, and opinions shared about those adult things. It might seem preachy, but I promise that trying to promote those views are not my intention. Like most parents, Harry and Ginny are just trying to teach their children. Sorry if you totally disagree with their opinion, I hope you can see past it and enjoy the story anyways.

Chapter 4: The Best Worst Night of Our Lives

Kids, We made a lot of mistakes back then. All of these choices led us to the best worst night of our lives. At the time I thought it was the best night of my life, but looking back I know better. It was a massive mistake.

Once I got my flat, your mum and I started spending a lot of time there instead of the Burrow. She told me that it was easier to be away from her family. There wasn't much to do there, so we'd cook, or clean, play cards, read together. Those weren't bad decisions; in fact, it was probably good for both of us. But I know now that I shouldn't have been alone like that when she was depressed.

When she was sad we both forgot sense. She needed comfort, and I wanted to do anything to make her happy. We were idiots.

That day I had been expecting her but she came much later than usual. It was nearly eight when she came over, and she was a complete mess.

She'd obviously been crying-her hair was up in a messy bun, face a blotchy mess, and eyes pink-but she looked beautiful never-the-less.

"What's wrong?" I asked taking her in my arms.

"I miss them so much." She sobbed.

"I know." I tried to sooth her. We sat on my dinky little sofa clutching each other. And one thing lead to another...

…

"Well... Did you...?" Lilly said. All the children shared faces of mixed emotion: surprise, disgust, and a little curiosity.

I looked at Ginny She looked back, her lips pressed together in opposition. She didn't want to reveal this part, but it was necessary. She gave a curt nod with a grudging expression.

"Yes, kids, we did."

They blanched, shaking their heads.

"Ugh, too much information Pop." James shook his head in disgust.

"Sorry, but it's necessary." I shrugged.

"Oh my gosh! Did you get pregnant and give up the baby?" Lily said wild with accusations. "Do we have a secret sister or brother somewhere out in the world?"

"Whoa, whoa Lil." Ginny held up her hands. "I didn't get pregnant!"

"We weren't that stupid.

"Oh, thank Merlin!"

We both shuddered.

...

So your mum wasn't pregnant, but it was still an absolute horrid thing to do.

But I didn't feel that way at all in the morning.

I'd never felt so happy in my entire life. I couldn't imagine ever being sad again if I lived to be a thousand. The sun was shinning and I turned to see your mother sleeping. She was the most beautiful thing I'd ever seen.

I had no idea that she wouldn't feel the same way.

…

Ginny interrupted here. "Now that's not true. When I awoke, I was happier than I'd ever been. I felt incredible, but then reality set in. That's the thing kids, you can do so many things that will make you happy, but they come at a price. There are always consequences." Ginny sighed shaking her head. I still wish we had waited, so much, children."

…

Yes, so while your mum was having this realization, I was in the kitchen whistling away and frying bacon. It never entered my mind that she'd be anything but as elated as I was.

What a shock waited for me when I had gone to see if she was awake and there she was in my room, stumbling into her clothes, and crying her eyes out.

I was so startled. "Ginny! What is it? What's wrong?"

"I'm a horrible person," she said. I put my hands on her shoulders, but she pushed me back. "No, Harry, don't!" she said. "I don't know how you can even look at me."

I was amazed. "What are you talking about?"

"I'm the most disgusting, selfish, horrible girl in the world," she said.

"What? No, you aren't." I tried to hold her again, but she slapped my hands away. "Ginny you're the most beautiful wonderful woman ever. I love you." She buried her face in her hands and sobbed harder.

"Oh Harry," she said over and over, rocking back and forth. "I've ruined everything."

"No, Ginny, stop talking like this," I was finally able to wrap my arms around her. "What is this? Please, tell me. I need to know, so I can fix it."

I waited until she was ready to speak and she looked me in the eyes. "I love you, Harry," she said, "so much, with every fiber of my being."

"And I love you." I was still so confused.

"But what we did, everything last night," she shook her head, "that wasn't out of love, I was using you as comfort."

"I don't care," I said, and I meant it. "It was still the most amazing night of my life."

She cried harder.

"But, Harry, don't you see? We just gave up our first time together, and it wasn't even out of love. It was completely selfish."

"Ginny, I'm sorry. I'm sorry I took that from you."

"No, no, no," She said. "You gave me everything. I'm the one that stole it from you. You're so loving, and I'm horrible."

"Ginny, stop this," I said. "I don't care. So what, you took it, I never wanted anything more than to give it to you."

"Oh, Harry." She shook her head. "You're so selfless." She got up. "I can't do this to you any more." She headed for the door.

"NO!" I grabbed her arm. "Don't leave!"

"I have to," she said."You deserve so much better. I'm sorry that I took everything from you. Tell the next girl I'm sorry."

"No, Ginny, don't." Now I was almost crying. "I need you. I love you."

She gave me one sorrowful look, and then pulled out her wand and disapparated.

Crushed, I plummeted to the floor and let the tears take over.

…

The kids looked at us with puzzlement.

I turned to Ginny; she hated talking about this part. She frowned at me. "Breaking up with you was the hardest thing I ever did."

"I don't get it," Lilly said.

Ginny sighed. "Kids, you can only give up your virginity once, to one person. And when you do, you should do it out of love. Your father did just that, he loved me and so I gave him the best part of me. And I loved him too, very much. But when I took the best part of him, it wasn't out of love. When I came to realize that, it broke my heart. I couldn't believe what I had done to him, and it made me see that dating him was wrong in the first place. We had to break up. I was a complete mess."

"Wow, I didn't know you two were so old fashion," James snorted.

Ginny shot him a nasty look. "James, you'll understand when you're older and more mature."

"But weren't you the same age I am now?" James said.

"Exactly. You don't have to make the same mistake we did," Ginny said.

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