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Okay sorry i havent updated i was busy with finals and then not having internet or a computer for awhile but if you are reading my other story then i will update that as soon as i can because i need the movie to help me and i dont have it with me currently. Thank you for waiting patiently

love, angelswatchoverme

I was sitting in my room getting ready to head out to the bridge when a thought came to my mind. I realized that it is very boring here when there is nothing to do. I walked out to the bridge and saw Spock and Jim just sitting in their chairs and they were having a conversation.

"Jim, I know it's a good thing that nothing is attacking us, but it is very boring having nothing to do." I stated and everyone in the bridge looked at me. "What? It is!" I exclaimed glaring at everyone and crossing my arms. Jim just laughed. "Don't you mean Captain, Lieutenant?" He asked smiling. "No, not really, not this time." I said quoting Spock from the Nero accident.

I was in a bad mood, because I was bored. I got an idea. "Why don't we go to New Vulcan?" I asked excitedly. "I do not think that is a good idea." Spock said. I glared at him.

"Why not? We have nothing better to do, maybe we could help rebuild buildings or something. I thought you wanted to go to New Vulcan to help the race anyway." I said huffing. I understand that I was acting like a child, but that is what happens when I am bored. Jim just looked at me. I walked up to Spock.

"Enjoy spending the night with Jim." I whispered into his ear, but I know Jim heard. They both looked at me in shock and I only smirked and walked away. I knew that they would give in. 5...4...3...2... "Jamie, wait." I heard Jim say as I was heading out into the hallway. "Yes, James?" I asked sweetly. "That is not right and you know that. Just because we aren't going to New Vulcan doesn't mean that you can act like a 5 year old again. You will let Spock back into your rooms and you will act like the adult you are." He said quietly.

"Look whose talking." I mumbled as he walked away. He stopped and stiffened but kept on walking.

I eventually got over my childish act and went back to the bridge. I sat at my station and looked at Nyota she was smirking. "What?" I asked. "I could tell by the look on James' face that you were saying that Spock was staying with him tonight." She said smiling and I nodded. "I didn't mean to snap and act childish I just want something to do, there is absolutely nothing to do." I said.

"Well why don't we go to the fighting room and practice?" Nyota asked and I smiled. As we walked down to the room, we were joking about males. "I swear it doesn't matter what planet they come from they only think about one thing." I said. "Even Spock, although he won't admit it." I said as an afterthought. I really hope James wasn't spying on this room right now. We started fighting, while talking about random things. We finally sat down to get some water. "You know, I bet James and Spock were spying on us." I said laughing.

"Well if I remember correctly, that sounds exactly like something he would do." She said in a serious voice, but still frowning. I just smiled at her.

"Maybe we should just ignore Jim and Spock. I'm serious about them becoming bunk buddies tonight." I said laughing as we walked onto the bridge. Everyone looked at us and Nyota burst out laughing at my comment. I just glanced at Spock, and went back to my station.

"Captain we're being hailed." Nyota said suddenly. Admiral Pike came onto the screen. "Captain Kirk, Lieutenant Kirk, I need to speak to both of you." Pike said with a serious face. I went and stood in front of the screen. "We have found your mother's killer." Pike said. "Killer? You and James told me that she died in a accident while she was off planet." I said glaring at both of them.

"We didn't want you to know that she was killed, we knew that you would end up leaving Starfleet to try to find her killer. We didn't want that to happen." James said quietly. "Well great to know, I've been lied too for 4 years." I hissed, somebody was holding me back from getting closer to my brother. I turned around and saw Spock. "Let me go Spock." I demanded.

"I'm not going to go near him." I said and when he let go I just walked towards my room. I was fuming, but I couldn't be near Jim, I didn't want to yell at him and take my anger out on him. He was just trying to protect me, but it hurt because he lied to me.

I was sitting on my bed when I heard the door open. "Unless you're a Vulcan with pointy ears or a woman named Nyota then you better leave this instant." I said not looking up from the floor. "Then I am glad I have pointy ears." I heard Spock say behind me.

"Shouldn't you be up there with your best friend?" I asked quietly since he always sides with Jim. "I realized that this is more important than that." he said and I was shocked that he thought that and I bet he was too.

"I don't understand why he would lie to me like that." I said quietly. "I have observed that the Captain cares deeply about your emotions and feelings. I understand that he was trying to protect you and make sure that you stayed in school. I would be wrong to say that I wouldn't do the same if it came to protecting you." Spock said and I turned to face him.

"Spock, why don't you want to go to New Vulcan?" I asked quietly.

"I would rather not see how many of my kind are still alive." Spock said. I looked at him. "Spock, I am sure that the older you is doing just fine at the job you planned on doing." I said smiling at him. I laughed at the look he sent me, his face was passive but his eyes were glaring at me. "What? You don't trust yourself with the job?" I asked loving the look he was giving me.

"I would prefer it if you would not joke about that." he said quietly and I stopped laughing. "Spock, what is wrong? You have been acting different since we left for this journey." I said wondering what made him this way. "It is nothing, it is just hard to concentrate when you are acting so emotional." He said and I looked at him. "What do you mean?" I asked coldly. "You have just proven my point." he said when my mood went from happy to angry within seconds. "Spock, what are you trying to tell me?" I asked.

"I am simply requesting you tell me what is causing you to act this way." He said putting his hand on my shoulder. "I DON'T KNOW WHAT IS CAUSING THIS SPOCK, IF I DID I WOULD HAVE FIXED IT ALREADY!." I yelled at him close to crying. I backed away from him and started to feel nauseous, and I couldn't keep it down.

I ran to the bathroom and lost my stomach. I hated being sick. "Maybe you should go see Dr. McCoy." Spock said as he helped me up. I washed my face and brushed my teeth. "I will later I am just going to lay down now." I said walking to the bed and laying down on the bed. "I know that my shift starts soon, and I will be there, just go back to your post, that is where you want to be anyway." I said quietly and when I heard the door open and close I buried my face in a pillow and cried myself to sleep.

I woke up, from a nightmare, with a gasp and I was soaked with sweat. I thought back to the nightmare.

(Nightmare)

"Captain Pike, you said you needed to see me?" I said as I walked into his office. "Yes, I do." He said looking at me sadly.

"Jamie, I'm afraid that your mother was on an assignment off the planet and the planet she was on suffered from an earthquake while she was on it." He told me and I felt sick. "What! Is she okay?" I asked trying to breathe, but when I saw his face I knew that she wasn't.

"Jamie, she didn't survive the earthquake." he said softly and I felt like I was going to pass out. "What are you saying?" I asked trying not to believe it. The door opened and James walked into the room. "James, tell me what is going on. Please." I begged. He looked at me, and I could see his eyes were filled with tears. "Jamie, she's gone. Mom is gone." he said trying not to cry. I started shaking my head.

"NO! James, you're lying, tell me you're joking." I begged crying and when he didn't respond I started pounding on his chest, but I had no strength in it. He just held me while I cried, finally letting it sink in. My mother was gone.

(Nightmare Ends)

I tried to catch my breath and it wasn't easy. I heard the door open and saw two people run in.

"Jamie!" Jim exclaimed coming to hug me. "Are you alright? What happened, I felt like something happened to you. Spock did too. Are you okay?" He asked all at once. Being twins, James and I could tell when something was wrong with the other twin. Spock and I were connected because we were mated, in Vulcan terms at least. I couldn't say anything, so I just shook my head.

I pushed past both of them, well I tried. Spock had grabbed my arm. "Jamie…what has happened?" He asked and I finally gave in and hugged him. "I went back to when I found out I didn't have a mother anymore." I said my voice muffled by Spock's uniform. I felt a hand on my shoulder. "Jamie, please don't go back to that time. That is why I kept it from you. Please." He begged and I just looked at Spock.

When I had enough strength to pull away I went to the bathroom to make myself presentable, when I got back out only Spock was in the room. "The Captain has said that you are allowed to skip your shift." he said his hands behind his back. I just shrugged.

"That doesn't mean I'm going to skip it. I'm actually headed up there right now." I said quietly.

"I would suggest that you see Dr. McCoy first, so that he can figure out what made you feel sick. That is all I ask of you, in return I will not argue about you going up to the bridge." He said before I could say anything. I didn't have anything in me to argue so I just nodded.

As I was walking out the door Spock grabbed my arm and pulled me into him. He then proceeded to kiss me senseless, which kind of surprised me. When we broke apart I smiled and walked towards the medical lab.

When I finally go to the medical lab I saw Bones. "Bones could you please check me over and see what is making me sick?" I asked and he nodded but didn't ask questions. I was in there for thirty minutes while Bones tried to figure out what was wrong with me. When he finally stopped looking me over he seemed shocked. "Bones what is wrong with me?" I asked worried by his look.

"When was the last time you had your menstrual cycle?" he asked quietly so no one could over hear the conversation. "I don't know." I stated while looking around and trying to remember. My eyes got wide when I remembered. "Two months ago." I said quietly hardly breathing.

"Jamie…I'm guessing you already figured this out…but you're pregnant." He said and I just stared at him. I gulped and walked out of the lab. I tried to think of how I could tell Spock and Jim. I was petrified that Spock wouldn't want the baby. If he didn't want it I don't know what I would do.

I was still thinking when I got to the bridge. "Commander, I would like to speak with you for a minute." I said quietly, after I had walked up to him and my brother.

He nodded and walked to the elevator with me. We stopped it before it could move. "Spock, I have something important to tell you, please don't speak until I am done." I said gathering my courage.

"I found out why I have been so emotional. It was quiet a surprise actually. Anyway I realized that I was late…two months late. When I told Bones this he told me what the problem was." I stopped talking for a minute and Spock looked at me. I had started crying, I was happy about this and scared.

"I'm pregnant. Two months pregnant to be exact." I said and held my breath waiting for him to speak.

He looked frozen but his eyes were wide. "Spock, say something please." I begged and he looked at my stomach.

His lips twitched upwards and I saw happiness in his eyes. I put his hand on my stomach. "You're going to be a dad." I said smiling while I hugged him, but he still hadn't said anything. "I am feeling shock, yet happiness." he said and held on to me tight.

"Now we just have to tell my brother." I said and he looked down at me with an impassive face.