I am soooo sorry to all my readers. I got busy and then writers block and then I didn't watch Star Trek as much. For some reason this site isn't uploading my documents so I have to Copy and Paste. Anyway after seeing the second movie I am back and ready to write. Thank you to all the people who have reviewed and put this story on their favorite list and follow list. It means so much because this was the first ever story I put on fan fiction and it is no where near done. Anyway, I only own Jamie Kirk, oh and the baby currently in her stomach! Sorry if this chapter isn't as good as everyone hoped. Enjoy!
The day after we arrived on New Vulcan, I was walking around without Spock and I knew that the other Vulcans had heard about my pregnancy because all of them were looking at me. Some of the looks I received were curious, but others were glares. I truly was expecting the glares, after all Vulcans and humans didn't always have the best history and Spock was bullied as a little boy because he was half human. I really am hoping that our child looks more Vulcan than human, because humans don't act as bad towards Vulcans, as the Vulcans do to us. If my child manages to look more Vulcan, then maybe Spock and I can save it some of the pain he went through as a child. Plus, I love Spock's ears and eyebrows and I think that they would look adorable on a baby, I mean come on everyone has got to love the eyebrows and ears. I noticed that while I was in my own thoughts, that Nyota had come up and was walking next to me.
"Did you notice all of the stares you were getting back there?" She asked me when she realized that I was paying attention again. "Yes, I did. That is what got me thinking in the first place and then I started hoping that my child wouldn't have to go through what Spock did. I was praying that the baby would look more Vulcan than anything so she or he won't feel inferior. Then I thought about Spock's ears and eyebrows and how cute they would look on a baby. Even you have to admit that the baby would look adorable with the Vulcan ears and eyebrows." I said and she nodded laughing. "I agree the baby would look adorable." She said and I smiled.
"Spock, wants the baby to look more human, he doesn't want to send the baby to the academy that he went to unless that's what he or she wants. He is scared that no matter what, no matter how Vulcan our baby looks, it will get teased and tormented even worse than he did." I said quietly. "He is never going to let that fear go. I think that, from what you have told me, that it affected him too much as a child." Nyota said and I nodded at that. "So what else were you thinking about while you were staring off into space?" She questioned and I laughed. "Truthfully, I'm wondering if my kid will have my eyes or Spock's, and I certainly pray that this baby does not look like James. Can you just imagine Spock's face if the baby ends up looking like James?" I asked her smirking and Nyota thought about it and then busted out laughing, causing all of the Vulcans nearby to stare at her.
"You have to be careful about your emotions here, remember Vulcans aren't known for showing their emotions and I pray that my child does not learn that habit. I know Spock may not be able to help that, but I really wonder if they learn to control their emotions or if it comes naturally. I really hope that it doesn't come naturally, I want my child to be able to express what they are feeling. I mean I don't want them to act like James, by any means, I mean he just does things through his feelings and sometimes its not the best choice to make." I said and she smirked at that. We eventually started walking back to the ship where everyone was staying, obviously, and I saw Spock waiting outside of the ship, most likely waiting for me.
When we reached the ship Nyota went inside, while I went to stand next to Spock. "How was your walk?" He asked and I smiled. "It was nice, although, I noticed that some Vulcans didn't really appreciate a human that got pregnant by a Vulcan. I mean I had expected the glares, but expecting them and still having it happen is a very odd experience. You think they would like us a little more I mean we saved them and tried to save the whole planet." I mumbled glaring at the ground
"You are worried about what will happen to the child when he or she reaches proper age to come to the academy if they choose to do so." Spock said instead of asking because he already knew the answer and I nodded. "I am worried about that too, but if our child is anything like you, then I highly doubt that they will take it kindly." Spock said and I looked at him. "Well if the baby is anything like you then it will be angry and not tell anyone, instead will just go into their room and stay alone the rest of the day. Which is what you used to do before I finally figured out why you did that." I said smirking and him and he gave me a small smile. "I know if you have anything to say about it, our child will show their emotions more freely than I do. Even though Vulcan emotions are a lot stronger than human emotions." Spock said smartly, almost like he was mocking me, which I am pretty sure he was but I let it go because he barely ever teases me and I love it when he does.
"Well, I don't know about you, well I do but anyway, I am tired and am going to go take a nap. I know that you aren't going to be tired until tonight, so I will leave you to it, go meet up with your future self, or even your father. Ask him questions about being a father." I said quietly before hugging him and going inside the ship to head to our I got inside the ship I saw my brother on his way out. "James? Where are you off to?" I asked him quietly and he smiled. "Oh you know, just going to see what else we can do to help out around here, now that we are on a little better terms with the Vulcans. I really want to keep this peaceful harmony, it can come in handy in the future, probably, who knows." He responded smirking and I just raised my eyebrows.
"Okay, that's fine, I'm too tired to try to get it out of you, so I am going to go take a nap and sleep until whenever my body has decided that it is fully reenergized." I said yawning and walking past him. "Night Jamie." My brother called walking out of the ship. I was passing a lot of people, I didn't realize that so many people stayed on the ship during the day. I was so happy when I finally made it to the room, because as soon as I was inside I crashed onto the bed and was asleep before my head hit the pillow.
When I woke up there was an arm wrapped around me and a sleeping Vulcan beside me. I smiled slightly before slowly getting out of Spock's arms so I didn't wake him. I went to the bathroom but as I saw my reflection in the mirror out of the corner of my eye, I stopped. While I was only around the end of three months give or take, I wasn't sure actually, I noticed that my baby bump while tiny, was noticeable in my mandatory uniform, but now it looked a little bigger. I also realized that the mandatory uniforms aren't going to fit me much longer, they are too tight and constricting. That was when I realized something else, I could possibly be on this ship when I give birth, depending on the missions. That thought caused me to start panicking.
I never thought about this before, but now that I'm pregnant I realized, I want life on the ship to be boring, if something happens, and we get attacked, then I can't do anything. It'll be a risk, which means I wouldn't be able to help, and that could mean me losing my family and friends. As my thoughts got worse and worse, I started panicking even more. My mother ended up giving birth on the shuttle, because my dad was still on the ship saving everybody. What if something happens to Jim and then Spock has to take over and they make me leave the ship and I give birth without either of them there. I wouldn't be able to do that. I was honestly so out of reality that I didn't realize Spock had entered the bathroom and was behind me until he touched my shoulder and I jumped looking at him. "You are scared." He stated and I shook my head giving a fake smile.
"I'm not scared. I'm fine I promise. I am going to get ready and go for a walk." I said quietly leaning up to kiss his cheek before going and changing my clothes. I quickly left the room before Spock could question me more. As I was walking down the hallway, I passed James but I rushed by him before he could ask what was wrong. I had thoughts that I needed to sort out and I needed to calm down. I saw Nyota heading towards the cafeteria, but I grabbed her arm and pulled her with me. "What's wrong?" She asked and I looked at her. "I just need to go on a walk, I need to think, but I don't want to be by myself at the same time." I said and she nodded walking with me. "Jamie, what happened?" She asked after we had gotten off the ship, I just looked at her.
"I don't know honestly, one minute I am thinking about my stomach being a little bigger and how I would have to get new uniforms, and then suddenly I was panicking about whether or not I would be giving birth on the ship, and then I was thinking about how my mother gave birth and if something like that happens to me. If I lose Jim and Spock and they aren't there when I give birth. I just started panicking, I don't even know what happened honestly." I said and she looked at me. "Nothing like that is going to happen to them, they are too stubborn, and you know that." She assured me and I nodded smiling slightly.
"I know it's probably that irrational fear of something happening, I heard that a lot of women get it when they are pregnant." I said and she quietly laughed. "So have you thought of any names?" Nyota asked and I nodded. "Well, kind of I don't think Spock wants a Vulcan name for the baby, but I still thought of some unusual names. If it is a boy I want to name it George, but that is an old fashioned name, but also the fact that if the baby looks Vulcan it would be an odd name for a Vulcan names. Anyway, no matter what Spock says I have decided that this baby will have a Vulcan first name. I do have a few I have thought of." I said rubbing my stomach gently and she looked at me.
"Well what are they?" She asked and I grinned. "Let's start with the boy names. I have decided on the names Torin, meaning 'the doer or maker'. Avarak means 'one who raises hope'. Lyras is my favorite one because it means 'being who carries emotion'. Talok, is nice, it means 'precious'. Satok, which means 'fine male'. Seldon, which means, 'free from the resistance'. Finally there is Selik, which means 'from the soul of the star'." I said going through all of the male names I chose.
"I like Lyras too, I think it'll make an interesting name for a part Vulcan. Now what about the girls?" Nyota asked and I grinned. "First is Aloran, which means 'beloved student'. Lorian, meaning 'bearer of information', Metana, 'gift from the clan'. Tes, meaning 'to prosper', Savel, meaning 'storm star'. Saya meaning 'brilliance.' Finally, Selon, meaning 'from the star fire'." I said smiling. "That is a lot of names." She said and I nodded.
"I have a feeling it is going to be a boy and I am going to ask Spock what he thinks of the name Lyras Tiberious, for our baby if it is a boy. I want him to have something from my father, and if we have another child, I would use Spock's father's name in that name. My favorite female name however is Tes and I would make her middle name Nyota, so it would be Tes Nyota. I also believe we will be using my last name." I said and Nyota grinned hugging me.
"I bet Spock will love the name, maybe your brother will too. So you think it's a boy?" She asked me and I nodded. "I do, I just have this like instinctual feeling that I am going to have a little boy. With green blood, pointy ears and awesome eyebrows. I wonder if he would have dark hair too, or my hair color. I don't know whose eyes I want him to have." I said rambling. "Well you are obviously feeling better." She said and I nodded as we turned around and headed back, after a few minutes I saw Spock, James, Sarek and Spock Prime all standing together talking. "Okay I can tell them all together." I said dragging Nyota over.
"Spock. I have thought of a name for our child, I have a feeling it is going to be a boy, but I have a girl name too." I said and they looked at me. "Lyras Tiberious." I said simply and Spock Prime didn't look shocked but the other men sure did. "I still don't understand human jokes." Spock said and I looked at him. "I'm serious. If we have a boy, I want him to be named Lyras Tiberious." I said and he looked at me, his eyes questioning. "I don't understand, what is so bad about the name Lyras, besides being very unusual. I like the Tiberious part though." James said smugly. "The meaning of the name Lyras is 'being who carries emotion'." Spock Prime said smiling and I grinned as James tried not to laugh. "I think that name is perfect." James said and Spock looked at him. "And the girls name?" Spock asked and I smiled. "Tes Nyota." I said simply and Spock didn't say anything, for a minute.
"Why must they have a Vulcan name?" He questioned and Sarek looked at him. "As much as you dislike this fact Spock, he will always be ΒΌ Vulcan, this will be his heritage. This is one of the worlds he is from." I said putting my hand on his cheek. "And when others try to illicit an emotional response from our child or a physical one, because of our child only being one fourth Vulcan what then?" Spock asked me quietly and I looked at him. "Either he will be acting logically, which he will get from you, and not give an emotional or physical response, or he will act illogically, which he will get from his uncle, and I will be cleaning cuts that are on him." I said sighing towards the end. Nyota was smiling, Spock was just staring at me and Jim was grinning proudly. Spock turned to his future self. "I am assuming, that you know how our child will be?" He asked and Spock Prime nodded.
"Yes, but I can't give away any information that could alter the course you are setting." He said and Spock looked at his father, who gave no physical response. "I understand Spock that she is leaving you with no option as to what your child will be named." He said and Spock turned to look at me again and I smiled at him. "I think Spock, that no matter how small his Vulcan side is, with how little are left of the Vulcan community, he should always have something of it. I want him to grow up being proud to be a Vulcan and a human, I want him to be both sides evenly." I said and he nodded his head once.
"If I agree to this will you answer my inquiry about why you were upset this morning honestly?" He asked and I nodded. "I was just panicking at the thought of giving birth on the ship and something happening so you and Jim wouldn't be able to be there with me. I don't want to be like my mom and give birth with just a medical team helping her." I said quietly and he nodded. "Then I shall agree to your name choice." He said his hands behind his back and I nodded. I have a feeling that Lyras Tiberious is going to be a little handful when he is born. I am positive I am having a boy, and if I am not then I will feel very bad about calling my daughter a boy.
Thank you guys once again for reading. I am going to get back into this again. Also when I have free time. I really hope you guys liked this chapter
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