Bella's p.o.v

They always say all good things come to those who wait … well I feel like I've been waiting a pretty long damn time and had nothing good.

I sigh to myself as I climb into bed putting my headphones in … as Avril Lavigne comes on I think to myself this song describes perfectly how I feel.

I couldn't tell you why she felt that way,
She felt it everyday.
And I couldn't help her,
I just watched her make the same mistakes again.

What's wrong, what's wrong now?
Too many, too many problems.
Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs.
She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.

Open your eyes and look outside, find the reasons why.
You've been rejected, and now you can't find what you left behind.
Be strong, be strong now.
Too many, too many problems.
Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs.
She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.

Her feelings she hides.
Her dreams she can't find.
She's losing her mind.
She's fallen behind.
She can't find her place.
She's losing her faith.
She's fallen from grace.
She's all over the place.
Yeah,oh

She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.

She's lost inside, lost inside...oh oh yeah
She's lost inside, lost inside...oh oh yeah

After singing softly with the music I decide eventually that I'm thirsty and considering I've been in my room how long … about 4 hours now and its 11 at night.

As I make my way past the living room into the kitchen I see my mami and Britt curled up on the sofa.

"I've never been so ashamed of her" I heard my mami say coldly

"San don't say that she's your daughter" I heard Brittany say softly stroking mami's hair with one hand whilst holding red wine with another.

"Really Britt Really! Did you see her tonight she embarrassed us in front of our friends … I'm so ashamed of her."

"Santana stop saying that; She didn't even do anything wrong… you know what I'm going to bed I don't want to be near you right now." Brittany spoke sadly shaking her head walking off to bed as I sprinted into the kitchen … she stood up for me; I'm torn right now because the little hope that I should feel , I don't all I feel is worse.

"Britt wait" I heard my mami plead as she came out the door

"not now Santana!" Brittany said harshly as she slammed her bedroom door shut.

As I fill up my glass of water I think about the word. Ashamed. There's no worse word in my opinion as it slices right through me more than the glass did cutting me… you know that there's no hope left when you hear that word she may as well have beat me instead ; I can tell you it hurts less.

"D'you feel better now… you've managed to ruin everything once again well done." Mami sneered forcing her way past me; I took a step back narrowing my eyes "all you do is ruin everything".

As she went passed me up the stairs I took in a deep breath gritted my teeth and walked up the stairs.

Going into my room I pulled out the bottle of tequila from my draw and started to drink and drink and drink before putting on my shoes and leaving the house.

"When you see my face hope it gives you hell hope it gives you hell" I started to sing sharply whilst walking down the road nearly falling over every five minutes.

"Well hey there gorgeous aren't you a beauty" I sexily say as I see an amazing looking blonde.

"Bella?" Oh shit I know that voice.

"LUCY LUCY IS A BEAUTY NANANANAWHAY!" I started to chant as I walked up to her pulling her into a bone crushing hug.

"Bella you're drunk" She stated angelically… did I mention she's beautiful.

"I love cuddles Lucy don't you?" I mumbled into her chest wow she's comfy. Unfortunately for me she pulls back.

"Hehe yeah I do… but I think we need to get you home" she chuckles taking my hand and starts leading me down the road.

"I don't wanna go home … I hate home; jackasses the lot of em ; part from Britt's she's not that bad" I slur out … her hands so soft soft soft.

"I know beautiful I know" She sighs and places a peck on my lips.

"Why are you being nice to me? … No one likes me; I'm a waste of space" I furrow my brows together looking up at her expectantly.

"I'm nice to you because you've done nothing against me; why would I not like you … all I see is a beautiful mistreated girl who I've known not even a day but I can't get enough of."

I stop and look into her eyes trying to find some sign that she's lying … that she doesn't mean it but all I can find is kindness and love.

"Come on were at my house now; you can stay here tonight okay". She says opening the door for me … god she really is something I think as I follow her into the house as we go upstairs.

"Um Luce … d'you have anything I could sleep in" I ask hesitantly as she hands me a coffee sobering me up quicker than what I thought.

"Sure Bell's" she throws some sweats at me that smell like strawberry's … god I love how she smells is that weird?

I start to strip off not even thinking…

"Bella!" Lucy says out of shock.

"What?"

"Your back what … who did this?" She speaks softly tracing her hand across my bruises as I shiver.

"It doesn't matter" I say brushing it off.

"Okay … look you don't have to tell me now ; but you can talk to me you know" she whispers as she starts to kiss down my back going to my ribs kissing each bruise before leading me onto the bed kissing me passionately. I hold her tight pulling her against me I want – no I need her closer … I've never felt this before.

She pulls back adding another peck before cuddling into me.

" I can see it in your eyes Bella … you want … no you need to be loved and I'm going to do that; im going to give you back what everyone took from you. I'm going to make you happy , you'll see I'm not going anywhere" She mumbles as she falls asleep with her head on my cheast leaving me wide awake thinking

Is there hope; could she be my happily ever after …

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