Bella p.o.v

Fuck … is the first thing I think when I wake up ; my head is absolutely pounding … what the hell happened last night ; oh wait I remember I got fucking drunk and made a complete ass of myself in front of Lucy.

Last night she was there for me when no one else was … she cared for me ; stop it Bella you've built up so many walls she can't just knock them down I curse myself silently.

Speaking of which where she is anyway.

As I start to make my way downstairs I notice the sound of singing which makes a smile tug at my lips, I peep round the corner of the door to see Lucy, Quinn and Rachel singing and dancing round the kitchen whilst making breakfast. Lucy looks so happy ; in her pj's her hair up in a messy bun … she is the definition of beautiful and right now watching her dance , well I can't take my eyes off her she's captivating.

Wake me up before you go-go
Don't leave me hanging on like a yo-yo
Wake me up before you go-go
I don't want to miss it when you hit that high
Wake me up before you go-go
'Cause I'm not plannin' on going solo
Wake me up before you go-go
Take me dancing tonight
I wanna hit that high (yeah, yeah)

They're all good singers actually; especially Rachel … to see them all like that though, huge smiles on my faces makes my day and kills me at the same time.

You see that's all I want ; to have a family like that … I see Leo , Lara , Britt and my mami do that a lot but never when I'm there ; and well dad … yeah safe to say I don't think I'd ever do that with him.

I think it's probably just best that I left ; I guess at some point I have to realise that I'm never going to be anyone's first choice.

I start to sneak my way to the front door when I feel an arm on my shoulder.

"You're not sneaking out on me are you" Lucy asks with a full on smirk with one eyebrow raised god I could kiss her now.

"No … um … um no , no I just think I should get home ; you know leave you guys so you can have your family time" I say hastily trying to convince myself and her.

"Bels don't be silly were making breakfast for you too now come on; we have pancakes!" she beams excitedly pulling me into the kitchen.

When I go in it looks all beautiful set up with a glass of orange juice in each place; it's displayed so elegantly that part of me is afraid to go near it.

"Oh hey Bella I hope you like pancakes" Quinn says with a smile ushering me to take a seat next to Lucy.

As I notice it's not the seat at the end I start to panic a little "I um … are you sure it's okay for me to sit here" I point at the empty seat as Lucy pulls me down into it gracefully.

"Well where else are you gonna sit?" Rachel laughs and I pretend to laugh too … this is the most uncomfortable position I've ever been in, but when Lucy looks into my eyes I immediately relax into the chair and start to eat silently.

"So Bella what d'you want to do when you leave school?" Quinn askes casually and I nearly choke on my food … no one ever speaks to me when I'm eating let alone actually be interested in me.

"Oh I um" I start noticing them all looking intently at me "probably be a lawyer" I mutter.

"Yeah but what's your dream … what are you passionate about?" I hear Rachel ask inquisitively.

"Yeah what do you love to do?" Lucy encourages me …. You know what fuck it; they are nicer to me than my own family so why not treat them with some honesty.

"Well I um … I love to read; but my passion … my passion is singing, it's like a way to escape you know? I just … to sing … that my dream." I say with passion and hope.

"So why did you say law?" Quinn asks knowingly I see the look in her eyes.

"Because … because if I can do that and become successful; then maybe one day my mami will be proud and love me again" I say honestly my voice laced in hurt… then I realise I've said it ; fuck this family are tearing my walls down fast !

"Honey I'm sure she loves you and is extremely proud of you" Rachel says comfortingly as Lucy puts her hand on my leg to comfort me … sending a wave of shock through my body.

"Haha … I wish you were right" I say bitterly "but that's okay who needs family right?" I say psyching myself back up and helping Lucy take the dishes in.

As I go to collect the rest I feel Lucy pull me back and pin me against the door before I can even speak I feel her lips on mine and once again it's an explosion … its magical each and every time just like fireworks.

I moan pulling her into me when I hear the one the one thing I don't want to hear.

"Is she here? I swear to god when I find that girl I'm going to kill her" I hear my mami steaming as I pull away from Lucy closing my eyes and taking a deep breath before going into the living room.

"Oh there she is! Guess what … so there we were having breakfast when no one was fucking there to clear the fucking table where the hell have you been?" She shot angrily and for once in my life I feared her more than my dad.

"I w-was h-here" I say hesitantly.

"Oh really ? well how selfish of you… what makes you think that Rachel and Quinn even want you here?" Mami spat angrily.

"I um .. I don't kno-" I start to say but get cut off

"That's right they don't so apologise and then you're coming home" She says yanking me hard towards her.

"Im … s-s sorry" I tremble never seeing my mum this mad at me.

"oh honey its okay we liked having you" Quinn says sympathetically.

"Haha don't worry Quinn you don't have to lie"

"Don't talk about her like that … she's supposed to be your daughter; Bella is staying here again tonight" Lucy speaks defensively grabbing me and pulling me out of my mami's grasp.

"Bella I'm giving you to the count of 3 to be out of that door!"

"I'm sorry … I should go" I say sorrowfully looking at Lucy before heading to make my way out of the door trying desperately to hold in my tears.

"NO! you are staying here" Lucy says picking me up this time and locking me in her room.

"Lucy open this door now!" I shout .

As she opens it I try to get away but she's too quick locking us both inside.

"I can't let you go home … not when this is happening … and not until you tell me how you got those bruises" She says chocking back a sob.

Great now I have to tell her …

Sorry its been a while but I've had some stuff going on … needless to say I'ts not great but im getting through and ill try to update asap . thankyou for reading and please review it really does mean more than you know