Bella's p.o.v
So as the days pass things get easier, not a lot easier but it's a slow progress I get that. I'm not expecting things to go back to the way they were straight away and I think Mami understands that now; so I still clear the table but she helps me … it's the little things that are helping me more than anything but to be honest sometimes I feel like this could all just be an act, and sooner or later she's gonna go back to the way she was.
I've been lying awake for about an hour now with Lucy beside me I snuggle closer into her and place a gentle kiss on the end of her nose; she scrunches her nose up and it makes me kiss her in the same spot again … she's so fucking cute it's unbelievable!
"Mmm baby" She says in that sexy morning voice she always has as she starts to place gentle kisses on my neck.
I moan in delight as she starts to nibble on my pulse point "fuck baby" I moan as she starts biting harder before smoothing the spot over with her tongue.
"I hope you guys aren't having sex because we're leaving in 30!" Britt shouts laughing.
Lucy pulls away much to my disappointment but one smile from her and I sigh in contentment as she places a few lingering kisses on my lips before pulling on a tight fitting shirt and jeans which make her ass look H.O.T !
"You know babe, you don't need to wear clothes really I don't mind" I offer cheekily wearing a sly grin as she comes to sit on my lap.
"Oh so you wouldn't mind people looking at this naked body then" She points with a smirk on her face.
"No! No one's getting to see this; it's mine" I say demandingly, no one gets to check my girl out or I will go all Lima heights.
"All yours huh?" She whispers sexily into my ear sending a shiver down my spine.
"Mmm mine" I say pulling her into me nibbling her ear as she squeals before jumping off the bed,
"I'll see you downstairs babe" she laughs making her way out my door.
As I get changed I mentally prepare myself in the mirror … I take a deep breath before walking down the stairs.
"Are you ready mija" Mami asks softly,
"Si mami" I say nervously getting into the car; Lucy trailing softly behind me.
As we approach the big building I take Lucy's hand in mine I grip it tightly and she seems to understand my anxiety as she gives me a soft reassuring kiss as we make our way into the big elevator.
We enter a very professional but warm looking room, I follow the others and take a seat on the big leather sofa before a collected mid 30's woman comes in taking a seat directly opposite.
I can feel my heart pounding as I shift nervously on the sofa feeling as though the wall is closing in on me slowly.
"Are we all ready to start today's therapy?" The woman asks politely and everyone agrees; yes, I'm at a fucking therapy session which I got roped into by mami she seems to think it would help but I'm so nervous I can barely think. "So I've read over the notes, who would like to start us off; how about you Lucy give it us from your perspective."
I notice Lucy look my way before taking a deep breath then clearing her throat.
"Okay um… so I first saw Bella when I went over for dinner because her parents are friends. When the door opened and I saw her for the first time I remember getting butterflies, it's silly really. She looked so so immaculate I think is the word… so put together, and so confident. But- but then I saw her eyes and I knew straight away I guess. I knew it was a cover but her eyes were still so beautiful, but they were darker, sadder, scared most importantly lonely." She takes a minute to wipe her tears away and compose herself … all I want to do is hold her but I can't right now and it breaks my heart. "Then when we had dinner and I notice how they treated her, spoke about her, spoke to her. It made me furious to see them treating her like that, to see how they could be so hard and ruthless against her. Then when we were in the bathroom I went to help her get the glass out of her hand; she made a snide remark to herself about not being able to do anything right… and I – I looked in her eyes and all I could see was hurt and pain; I just wanted to make it go away and fix everything … fix her" She says as she starts to sob on the sofa , not being able to help it I reach over and pull her into my arms as she cries against me I whisper soft comforting words in her ear placing gentle kisses on her lips and she calms down slowly.
"I can tell this hurts you Lucy" The therapist speaks softly as she jots down in her notebook.
"It does… I know love at first sight seems ridiculous but I had it with Bella and I truly believe she's my soul mate. The thought of her unhappy and hurting kills me and I would do anything to see her smile, I feel her pain every time I look in her eyes and I lost it … I couldn't let them hurt her anymore because I love her… I love her more and more each day. When I think I can't love her anymore shell say something or do something and I just I fall deeper in love with her." She finishes looking softly at me, I don't even notice I'm crying until she wipes the tears from my face and takes my hand in hers.
"How do you feel about what she just said Bella?" The therapist asks as I shift nervously.
"I love her and I want to be better, if not for me then for her… she means everything to me" I say confidently. "I'll be honest when I first started falling for her I was scared, everything I loved seemed to leave and the connection I felt for her… I didn't know if I could handle it if she left so I tried to keep my walls up. But it's hard when she can tear them down in just one look, but now … now I'm not so afraid anymore. Of course I still am afraid but I guess that will just go away with time." I speak thoughtfully as the therapist jots down notes in her diary.
"Well I can honestly say, if you too continue to communicate and respect each other… hold onto each other because I can tell a love that strong is hard to come by these days."
Thanks for reading I know I haven't updated in a while but to be honest I'm trying to sort myself out, that was part one of therapy I'm gonna do a part dedicated to Britt and another with Santana to give them their own part. Please review It means a lot and if you have any advice, ideas or questions review or pm me im always happy to add them in thanks again.