Bella p.o.v
So were all still sat here and I just realised when I thought I couldn't love my girlfriend any more she fucking makes the impossible happen, she's everything and more and I will not let her go. Ever!
"So Brittany, Santana how do you feel about what Lucy just said?" The therapist asks moving her glasses back into place.
"I just, I feel ashamed that I didn't do something sooner" Brittany says sighing and placing her head in her hands, I see the resource in her eyes and I know she's being honest.
"Why didn't you?" The woman asks point blank to Brittany and I notice her head start to shake as she looks upwards trying to stop any tears from falling.
"I-I don't know… it's not like I have any excuses that can justify why I didn't protect her. When I said my vows to Santana I made a promise to not only be her wife but to be a step mother to Bella and It's fair to say I've done a crap job of it so far. I … I guess I was so caught up in everything, in work, in being San's wife I just I'd got this perfect picture of what I wanted our life our family to be. I think I just wanted to convince myself we had this perfect life/ this perfect family because that would mean for once in my life I had finally proved to people that I may not be as smart as them … but that I made it and that I could have the perfect life by being a successful dancer, being a great wife, a mum-"Brittany spoke with such sincerity that I could forgive her in an instant … no wonder mami can never say no to her.
"Yeah a mum to everyone but Bella" The therapist interjects sharply
"Yeah ... a mum to Bella, I think because San had always protected me, been there for me and supported me not just physically but emotionally it was hard for me to believe she wouldn't do that for her daughter. I mean … she's just always been so loyal; admittedly fierce but she would do anything for the people she loved and that was one of the things I love most about her. I think I just didn't want to accept that she would treat Bella that way because that wasn't who I fell in love with" Brittany says letting out a deep breath and I see my mami scrunch her eyebrows together like she always does when she is trying to stay strong and keep her walls up, I do the same thing.
"So I see Brittany, you yourself had issues with this because of how much you love your wife ... so what made you change your mind and actually say something?" She asks curiously making a few notes down in her book.
"Honestly … it was the night Lucy and her family came for dinner. A glass broke by accident and Santana yelled at Bella and told her she couldn't do anything right. That was when I was pulled out of this daydream of mine. Santana was always the one to tell me I was a genius and I was not stupid and that I was priceless, I was worth more than I could ever know. And um-I'm sorry" She pauses to wipe her silent tears which are falling before closing her eyes and taking a breath. "To see Santana say that to her daughter, it made me remember how people used to make me feel and I wouldn't wish that on anyone because it fucking hurts. Especially because Santana was always the one to protect me from it, it made it worse and I can honestly unfortunately say… that was the first time I've ever been disappointed or ashamed in her in all my life." She finishes and I see mami run out the room before anyone can stop her.
Instead of running after her Brittany comes over to me and takes my hands in hers. I look in her eyes and I see her regret, I see her love, and I see her promise.
"I may not be able to change the past Bella, but I sure as hell can promise you I'm gonna be a mum to you, and I PROMISE I will never ever ever let anyone in this family get away with treating you like that again because I love you Bella Lopez and I'm going to prove that to you every day and I don't ever want you to forget it, understand?" She speaks with such conviction that all I can do is nod in return as she pulls me into a bone crushing hug after what seems like minutes she pulls away before giving me a wink and offering to go and find Mami. As I take Lucy's hand I wait in the chair for mami to return … hopefully.
Brittany's p.o.v
I can't describe what I'm feeling, relief? Resource? It could be a bit of all sorts but I'm gonna show that kid she has a family and I'm not ever gonna let her forget from this day forward.
I look over the road into a small garden where I notice Santana sat on a pine bench staring into space.
"Why are you out here?" I ask softly as I join her on the bench, I notice her nervousness as she starts rubbing circles in the palm of her hands.
"I just had to get out of there" She replies timidly, I know what I've said hurt her but she had to hear it.
"Well we have to go back now it's your turn" I say confidently as she looks away before shaking her head to the ground.
"I don't know if I can, I don't think I'm strong enough to handle it" She whispers with a tear dropping from her saddened eyes and I decide on a bit of tough love.
"You listen now Santana and you listen well. It may have been hard for you to listen to what I had to say in there but it's therapy for your daughter. She has had to be strong her whole life and she has gone through more than any girl her age should have gone through; now if you remotely love your daughter you will get your ass back in that room and be strong for her. Prove to me that you're still the same girl I fell in love with all those years ago" I speak harsher than intended and she gives me a firm nod before giving a thought and starts to walk with me back towards the therapy room.
"Britt?" She grabs my arm just before we go in, "were gonna be okay aren't we?" she asks shakily and I know there is no point in lying.
"I don't know Santana, I honestly don't. If you can prove to be the same woman I fell for then yes were gonna be great… but if not then, then I don't know" I say looking away as I notice the panic in her eyes.
"I'll be better I promise baby, just don't leave me baby, don't leave me ever" She pulls me in for a strong embrace and I hold her to let her know I'm not leaving.
"I love you Santana, you just have to show me your sill my Santana" I say giving her a soft reassuring kiss and I know with her against me… that my loving wife is still there.
Hey guys so sorry I haven't updated in a while I've been camping which means no internet! My spine literally hurt when I woke up but I'm back now I hope you enjoyed the chapter please R+R , to answer any questions Britt and Santana were there through Lucy's bit last chapter I just want to focus more on each character thanks again, and questions , advise , ideas pm me or write in a review. Till next time