A month has pasted since Dean gave up his hearing. It was really taking a toll on him. He couldn't never hear when Landon, Avery or Tyler entered a room he was in. He was always on alert searching the room over and over again.
He could never get up in the middle of the night, that was Cas's job now. He couldn't work because it was too dangerous. He stayed home, Cas brought home the bacon now. He had to keep telling himself that he was doing this for his daughter.
Avery and Landon looked at him differently. He would see Avery run into the room carelessly and yelled "Daddy!" at him. He would smile and opened his arms. She would run into the hug, but would just look up into Dean's eyes. She had so much she wanted to tell Dean for her day at school or day with her friends but she couldn't.
'Honey, you can always tell me your day, just use sign language' Dean would always sign to her.
She would nodded and go run off to talk with Cas. Sam had started staying with them and found a lady. He loves her to death. Her name is Madison. Yeah, the Madison that Sam killed because she was a werewolf. Dean wasn't the only person Castiel could raise from the dead. It was the human Madison. There was no werewolf in her anymore. Sam was happy. Madison was shocked to see that Dean one was gay and two gave up his hearing for his daughter. Dean was starting to hate his decision.
A year pasted since Dean gave up his hearing. Dani and Cassidy's first birthday. Dean tried so hard to be happy like everyone else truly was. Avery and Landon had just turned 11 2 months earlier and Tyler would turned 5 in 6 months.
Sam was still living with Cas and Dean, but Madison moved in as well. Avery and Landon had settled in on the fact that their father can never hear them.
As everyone sat around for dinner and chatted Dean sat quietly beside Cas. He really wanted to know what the conversation was about. He really just wanted to hear his voice again and hear his family voices. He tapped Cas on the shoulder when Sam got up to get Madison and him another drink.
'What are you talking about?' Dean signed.
Cas watched Dean's hands. He looked up into Dean's eyes and smiled. 'It was nothing, important.'
Cas had been doing that al lot recently. He would get lazy and not wanted to take the time to sign to Dean what's going on in a conversation. Dean smiled and nodded at Cas then stood up. Cas looked confused. Avery, Landon and Tyler looked up at their father. Dean looked down at his plate and clenched his fists. In one swift move he knocked the plate, glass, and silverware onto the ground. The utensils hit the ground with loud clanks, but the glass and plate shattered.
In Dean's ear it was nothingness. He stared at Cas with anger. Cas's eyes were wide. 'Fine, keep things from your husband.' Dean signed before walking off and up to their bedroom.
Sam heard the crash and ran back into the room to find the glass on the ground along with Cassidy and Dani crying. "What the Hell happened in here?"
"Dean stormed out of the room. He seemed anger over something." Madison said.
"Did he sign anything?" Sam asked Cas.
"When you left he ask what we were talking about, and I said that it wasn't important."
"Why the hell did you say that?"
"Because it wasn't important."
"Sometimes Cas you can be really dense."
"What is that supposed to mean?"
"Dean just wants to be a part of a conversation."
"That's kinda hard when he's…" Cas trailed off.
"When he's what?" Sam said and Cas looked down at his plate. "I didn't quite hear that, Cas. Were you going to say because he's deaf?"
Cas nodded. Sam walked out of the room and up into Dean and Cas's. Dean was sitting on the window seal bench looking out. Sam tapped Dean's shoulder and Dean flinched then looked up at his little brother.
'Just for the record, the conversation was stupid. You would have been glad not to hear that conversation.' Sam tried to smile.
Dean cracked a half smiled and looked at Sam. 'At this point I would have been glad just to hear anything at all.'
'I am proud of you Dean.'
'Why? All I did was let a wiccan take my hearing so in five years Cassie will be able to hear.'
'That's what makes me proud of you, Dean. It shows what a father would do for his children.'
'It was almost as stupid as selling my soul for you.'
Sam just stared at Dean. 'Don't say that. Don't ever say that.'
'I just want to hear Cas's voice again. I just want to hear Landon, Avery, Tyler, and your voice. I won't hear my twins daughters first words. I won't be able to speak to them and they can't talk to me. I can't be woken up in the middle of the night to hear their crying because they are wet or hungry or just need to be held because I can't hear. I…I...'
Sam watched as his brother he tried to sign fast enough so he didn't broke down into tears. Dean took a deep breath and calmed down a tad before signing again. 'I'm forgetting what my voices sounds like. I barely remember Cas's voice. So tell me how I'm going to last another 4 fucking years.'
Sam walked around to his brother and wrapped his arms around Dean's shoulders and pulled him into a hug. Dean sobbed quietly into Sam's shoulder. They stayed like that until Dean could cry anymore. Sam helped him into the bed and he walked down the steps to find Cas sitting on the couch with Tyler in his lap. Cas was distraught after all the events that had happened.
It was going to be a long 4 years.