Forgive me everyone. I will be re-editing Chapter 4: Rising as I have recently released that I made some errors in the sequences of events.
I have been...well...to be blunt...emoing. 2010 has been a bloody hell of a year to me...and I've suffered pain that I had never expected and so many things had happened that had changed the course of my life. To release the pain, I focused on this fanfiction but instead of focusing on the story, I had been focusing on the events to release my pain.
For that I beg your forgiveness. It was also the reason why I had not been able to continue "My Queen". Heh, Lelouch and Kallen had been united there and it was time for them to heal their pain. But to heal their pain, I must heal my own. And I didn't want that.
As a son of a diplomat, I cannot reveal what are reasons but they have been deeply hurting me nevertheless. I too have worn the mask. Actually two masks to be exact. One a more cheerful and innocent face that wants everyone to be happy...the other...well...everyone has their dark side. I know I am a prideful person although to keep it in I put on a humble front and try to keep it that way. Heh, it is harder than I had thought. I guess that's the reason why I like Lelouch so much even though I initially despised him.
And through that time, I have made many errors and things I thought to be right had been wrong and now...my heart is filled with hate and bitterness...and dare I say it? Despair. Sometimes I wonder, how easy it would be to end it all, all that bitterness, all that pain with but...a single action.
But a good friend had convinced me that the only thing I will achieve is bringing sadness to those I love. She told me I was selfish...selfish that I was willing to end my own pain by hurting everyone else. Of course, she didn't slap me like Kallen did...heh, I'm glad I didn't try to kiss her though the thought had occurred to me.
However, she told me to as Lelouch said..."Live On" to Kallen. And at that moment I realised for the first time I might be in love...or correctly said...fell in love. I dunno. But whatever it was...I realised that brooding was not goin to help.
And this was one of the mistakes, I made.
I am really sorry. You guys on fanfiction net have been the friends and the fuel that makes me feel that I am not worthless and I thank you all for it. And thus, I must really ask you to forgive me. Chapter 4 will be re-edited and I will upload the next chapter on My Queen as soon as I can.
I give you my word that I will be give you a good story. Heh, I know I sound seriously arrogant, I think I am. It's a fault that I guess I must try to fix. Forgive me and thank you for your support.
The new chapter 4 will be uploaded right after this. Forgive me.
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