After about twenty minutes of scrubbing foul language, genitalia, and a number of weird scribbles off my face I went back down stairs;I changed into more casual cloths instead of my formal attire from last night which I had slept in. I could still see a bit of black smudged on the corner of my lip that I couldn't get off no matter how hard I scrubbed, but I ignored it assuming no one would notice.

When I got back down stairs there was my boss, for the second time that week, nearly naked. This time it was boxers. I was actually surprised they didn't have little pink hearts on them, but the idea that I had thought about what kind of underwear my male older sibling and boss wore disturbed me on more levels than it was worth.

"Are you trying to show yourself off or something?" I looked at him sarcastically.

"Maybe I am and maybe I m not. If you don't like it you don't have to stay. I'm not changing. Besides I don't have any clean cloths. In fact, I usually don't wear cloths much at all come to think of it…." He replied.

"Yes you do. I never saw you even close to nude till 2 days ago." I looked at him skeptically.

He looked back at me as if I were a cat that had learned to use the toilet. "You know, my mask form has a default setting in case I'm naked, so I NEVER have to wear anything." He smirked "but of course you knew that." He grinned cruelly.

My eyes widened. I knew for a fact I would NEVER un-see that image. "….never mind." I said trying not to think about it, that hot feeling coming over me again. "Why the hell does THAT make me feel all hot?" I thought bitterly. Maybe I was getting sick or something.

"Anyway, I'm gonna make breakfast. Do you want something or would you rather just eat out of our neighbor's koi pond?" he said sarcastically.

I smirked a bit "well if you not making sushi again sure."

He rolled his eyes "Oh ha-ha real funny. I have no idea why I bother taking care of you or anyone besides road in this house for that matter."

"That's still not an answe-"he cut me off.

"NO" he said stomping off frustrated.

"Well looks like I win this time. 1 to 1 now." I thought snidely.

Despite our prior conversation we ate in silence. There really wasn't much to talk about. On top of that something about seeing him human, acting so normal, it was as if an unseen barrier had been broken. I shouldn't know. Yet there he was on the other side of the couch just like me.

Up until finding out I hadn't really thought of him as "human", and something about it was incredibly disturbing that I couldn't quiet put my finger on. When I thought about it too much my head began to ache. I knew it shouldn't be that big of a deal, but it was.

"Are you alright?" he looked over at me setting his plate down on the table.

My mind snapped out of its train of thought and stared back startled. "Oh no I'm fine…." I looked down at my plate. "What the hell is wrong with me? I do this kind of thing with him ALL THE TIME." But I knew it was different now. I just didn't know why.

"It's just…." He trailed off lost in thought for a moment "You've been acting very strange recently. Has something happened?"

"You could say that." I replied, trying to get off the awkward topic before it got worse.

"This is about me being human, isn't it?" he looked at me solemnly.

"What? No no, Adam it's-" I stopped. "Adam? Why did I call him Adam?" I thought panicked. "This is just great my brain is falling apart…."

"What did you just call me?" a look of stunned euphoria crossed his entire body. "Don't tell me- you, you remember…." .

I could have sworn I saw tears at the edge of his eyes, but I wasn't entirely sure. I had hit a nerve somewhere, and I felt something twinge inside me to, but I ignored it.

"No I d-mh!" I couldn't move.

His back was arched over me, my hands pinned behind my head as he kissed me passionately, the sudden clash of flesh leaving me bewildered and confused. Part of me really wanted to know what was going on, and why, but the majority of me didn't want to move anymore, like my muscles had melted away to nothing and all I could do was feel this moment without opinion or remark. He managed to slip his tongue past my lips, my mouth weakly accepting it as it tangled with mine, a familiarity crossing over me that was almost frightening. For a moment I was lost in the sweet taste of his mouth and the fast pounding of my heart when reality returned as he slid his hand up my frail nightshirt. I pushed away quickly with my feet crawling onto the far end of the couch.

"What the….hell was that…." I gasped for breath panicked, my body flustering in all kinds of heat and confused.

He stared at me with those big gold eyes of his, as if he was just as surprised as I was. This time I was sure I saw tears. "I…." he looked away bitterly. "I'm sorry….you don't, do you? That's just my luck…." He stood up abruptly "If you'll excuse me-"

"NO!" I grabbed his arm yanking him back to the couch. "Don't use that excuse on me again! I want an answer for that RIGHT NOW."

He remained silent, as if he'd suddenly become mute. I could feel the heavy pulse of his heart through his wrist and the tightness of his muscles to the point he shook. Then he relaxed. "It's nothing. I just haven't been called that in….a long time." He smiled weakly "Let just forget about it."

"You just kissed me. You KISSED ME. There must have been a reason! And you put your tongue in my mouth…." I narrowed my eyes.

"I already told you." He said quietly, looking into my eyes for a second before shifting them away. "We should get dressed. We're meeting Sheryl and Road in an hour at his wife's house and he asked for you to come as well. You should hurry."

"I'm not letting you change the subject. Since when is your name Adam, and why-" he cut me off.

"Later. MAYBE." He said. "Let's just leave it as something I had wanted to try for a while for now." He smiled a little as he walked away. "and maybe just succeeded a little."

"Hey wait what do you mean by succeeded?!" I chased him up the stairs, but he just laughed. He didn't answer any of my questions no matter how much I prodded him about it.

I ended up just laying in my room wondering what the hell had just happened to me. I knew from that moment things where never going to be the same around here. Not by a long shot.

Our ride to Sheryl's wife's house was another awkward silence, and it didn't get better when we got there. Sheryl talking about marriage with me again though was almost a relief compared to the previous afternoon, but I wasn't in the mood for his girlyness.

Lucky for me though, Road had chosen earl, or Adam I suppose, as her target instead of me. She seemed unsurprised at seeing him human, and I began to wonder whether I was the ONLY one who didn't know. Maybe the whole thing was a joke and they'd just hired some guy off the street. I wouldn't be surprised considering my family.

I hadn't been paying much attention. Sheryl had been going on and on to Adam how I had my pick of women and whether I was allowed to get married. He just wouldn't quit on the subject.

"Fine with me, if he's willing." Adam replied, smirking a little as he peered at me from behind the brim of his hat.

"I think not." I glared at him and Sheryl. I didn't want him involved in this issue to, and something about him agreeing made my skin crawl. It was odd, he was acting like nothing had happened earlier.

"What are you guys talking about?" Road said, running up to me.

I looked at her mockingly "About cutting this annoying hair of yours."

"No like it!" she screamed "if you cut it I'll kill you!" She pounded on my chest, hitting one of my scars.

I grimaced as the pain jolted through my body.

"Does it hurt where Allen cut you?" she looked up concerned.

I smirked back through the pain. "Worried?"

After that the rest of the afternoon took a turn for the serious side of things; I would occasionally chime in here and there, but it was mostly a review on all that had happened in our last battle with the exorcists. The only curious thing was the 14th, and it seemed it was a touchy subject.

As it turns out he had been one of us; More surprisingly though, he had tried to take us over by killing Adam. He was clearly a threat, but it bothered me I didn't remember him. You'd think you would remember someone who had killed you in a past life, along with all of your kin. Maybe my memories really where messed up. Thankfully Sheryl didn't know much either, and that put my mind at ease.

It wasn't long before it was time to leave, and I debated whether it was worth it to stay at the family house tonight or not. At first I thought I might stay with Road and Sheryl, but I quickly realized I wouldn't be able to sleep if I stayed. On top of that it seemed that Adam was off somehow. Ever since the pianist was mentioned a deathly silence had crossed over him that seemed unnatural considering his usual upbeat and eccentric attitude. I was still waiting for an answer to this morning as well. He wasn't getting out of it, but I sure as hell wasn't gonna mention it around the rest of the family.

We headed outside and back into our vehicle, and he stared idly out the window as we headed home.

"Now who's acting strange?" I said.

"Is it strange to be quiet?" he said emotionlessly.

"For you, yes." I looked over at him. "You where bouncing off the walls this morning, then you where crying, then you where normal again like nothing happened, and now your acting like someone put your pet in a blender and made you watch."

He laughed bitterly "Well I guess when you wear a mask all the time you forget how obvious emotions can be if you don't pay attention. I wouldn't expect you to remember why I'm upset." We stopped abruptly.

"If you'll excuse me, Tyki, there's someone I have to see. I'll be back in a few minutes." He exited out the door into the light rain outside.

As he walked away from me I looked at how diligent he was, as if he were struggling to walk with chains around his ankles. I had never seen this side of my brother. For the first time since I'd found out I really believed it was real.

"He's human after all." I thought. "When you act like that you don't look like the villain who's made the world his enemy, Earl."

"Outside the rain's fallin' down
There's not a drop that hits me
Scream at the sky but no sound
Is leavin' my lips
It's like I can't even feel
After the way you touched me
I'm not asleep but I'm not awake
After the way you loved me."

-Sleepwalker(Adam Lambert)

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