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Chapter 18: Frustrations

August 6th 2006, Miami-Beach

Hotch was nervously wandering around the hallway of the hotel. He told JJ they shouldn't be together while they were on cases and it made her mad. She felt like she was just being used and she stormed off after dinner with the team. Hotch tried to keep her from going, but he couldn't stop her. He understood her frustrations. He knew he had been using her ever since Jack was born. But it wasn't a bad thing. JJ was his escape from his problems and she reminded him why he was alive. But now he had no idea where she was and he was worried sick. He had been calling her non-stop but her phone was turned off. He had never been so angry at himself. He didn't intend to yell at her. He wanted to keep his relationship with JJ on the down low, but that didn't mean that he wanted to hurt her.

He suddenly heard a familiar giggle coming from the elevator. He immediately ran to the elevators where he saw JJ walking with a young and handsome guy. JJ looked at bit drunk and Hotch knew she wasn't thinking straight.

''JJ?'' Hotch called out angrily. But his anger was manifested because he felt extremely jealous.

JJ looked up and she saw Hotch standing in front of her. She stopped and turned to the guy next to her. She had already forgotten his name, which she didn't really care about. ''Hi, Hotch!'' she greeted happily. She passed him by and ignored him. But Hotch pulled her back by the arms. JJ turned around immediately. ''Don't!'' she warned.

''What are you doing?'' Doug asked when Hotch grabbed JJ's arms.

Hotch pulled his credentials from his jacket and showed them to Doug. ''FBI. I suggest that you leave this girl alone. She is off limits.''

''Fine. I'll go!'' he said and he left in a hurry afterwards.

''Seriously?'' JJ asked.

''I was worried sick about you, JJ. You left without saying anything.'' Hotch tried to explain as he followed JJ. He knew they were approaching her room and he wasn't about to let her go without talking.

''JJ, can we talk?''

She turned around again. ''Do you want to apologize to me?'' she asked, hoping he would.

''Why would I?''

The anger was frustrating the hell out of JJ. But somehow Hotch always got what he wanted. She loved him and she still hadn't told him. It pained her when he took distance from her. He was also her best friend and she was afraid of losing that forever. ''You don't get to decide when we are together!'' JJ said loudly as she opened the door to her room. She let Hotch walk in and closed the door behind them.

''I don't do that, JJ. I just think it's best when we…'' he tried to say but JJ interrupted his sentence.

''Yes, you do. You either show up at my apartment or you text me.'' she hinted. ''Do you have any idea how that makes me feel?''

''Yes, I do because I don't want it to be like that.''

JJ sat down on the edge of the bed. Hotch sat down next to her and put a hand on her leg. ''I don't want to lose you, JJ. You're the only thing that's keeping me together right now.'' Hotch whispered.

She gazed into his eyes, knowing he was serious. The softness in his voice made her shiver. It was a familiarity she never wanted to let go. ''I don't want to lose you either. But I don't want be your booty call, Aaron.'' she said, rising from the bed.

She stood frozen in the middle of the room while the sexual tension started to grow. That always happened. They had been having an affair for five months and it never went away. It was becoming stronger the more they were together. And it sometimes got in the way during work, and that was never supposed to happen. But it just did and there was no going back.

Hotch stood up and stopped in front of JJ. He put his hands on her waist, gripping the material of her shirt. He gently pushed her against the wall behind her. He covered her body with his own as he heard her moan when his hands went under her shirt. He leaned down and he softly kissed her neck all the way up to her jaw, until he found her lips. The kiss turned from soft into a hungry one. But he knew this wasn't the way to resolve their issues. He didn't want JJ to believe he was with her for the sex. It was so much more than that. And because of that, he decided to pull away from her.

''We shouldn't do this.'' he whispered against her smooth and tempting skin. ''It's not right.''

''I know.'' JJ agreed. Her chest was still heaving from the excitement she felt. It was always a rush when he was so close to her. ''I think I am going to change into something more comfortable.''

''Of course.'' he said. ''Do you want me to stay?''

''Only if you want to.''

''What do you want?'' he asked with a smile, knowing the answer to his question.

JJ smirked. ''I want you to stay.''

''Great.'' he said, sitting down in the chair. He watched as JJ started to take off her clothes. He knew each part of her body very well, but he still admired her beauty. He knew he would probably never stop admiring her. She was one of a kind and he knew she wouldn't believe it if someone told her that.

JJ turned around when she was in her shorts and tank top. It felt extremely comfortable after the a long day of work. ''What are you looking at?''

''You.'' he answered simply. He pulled JJ onto his lap when she passed the chair. She straddled him as he cupped her face. ''You're so beautiful.'' he breathed out.

''Oh,'' she said, not knowing how to respond.

JJ leaned down and kissed him on the lips while his hands moved down her body. She brushed her lips against his and stopped for a moment. ''Should we do this now?''

''Hell yeah!'' he groaned out. And like every other time he got lost in the blonde beauty. Her simple yet graceful touch turned his world upside down. It made him forget who he was.