Luffs!

SPOV

I never knew mail could be so stressful. A few months after returning to Lima, and Blaine and I are preparing to leave it again. The thought scares me. I've only just found a family and a place to be, and now I have to leave them? And what if I can't go with Blaine? What if he goes and finds someone else? What will I do then? Once I've finished stuffing the unopened letters under the mattress, I stand and jump as I see Julie standing in the doorway. "What on earth are you doing, Sebastian?"

I feel myself go red. "I, um…I just…nothing. I'm not doing anything."

She snorts, walking closer. "Really? Because it looks like you're stuffing college letters under the bed."

I sigh, sitting down on the bed next to her. "I'm sorry."

"You're freaking out, aren't you?" she asks, looking at me with the stare that makes me believe she can see right through my skin. She puts an arm around me. "Come on, tell me what's going on."

"You're right," I admit. "I'm freaking out. This whole college thing…I just don't know. What if I don't get into any place that Blaine does? Or what if I don't get in anywhere at all? And what am I going to do? I've just now found a place I'm safe and loved, and now I'm supposed to just leave it. I don't want to lose this."

Julie smiles, rubbing my back gently. "Sebastian, sweetheart, you aren't going to lose us. No matter what happens or where you go, we'll always be here for you to come back to. You have us forever. As for the other part, I'm sure you'll get in somewhere good. You're a bright boy, Sebastian. Now what's this about Blaine?"

I swallow, pressing closer to her. "I don't want to hold him back. He wants to go to New York, to the same place as Kurt and Rachel, but I don't want to be far away from him. I love him so much. And I'm afraid that, even if I do go with him, he'll change his mind. Find someone else. Someone less broken."

"Oh honey," Julie murmurs, hugging me tightly. "Blaine loves you more than anything. And not the usual kind of love. The way Blaine loves you is much deeper than that. He's not going to change his mind. He will always love you."

"But he could still love Kurt!" I interrupt. "The only reason they broke up was because they were long distance. What's going to happen when they're not? I don't think I could survive that. He means everything to me."

Julie's fingers lightly wrap around mine, trying to calm me. "Sebastian, have you ever spoken to Blaine about this?" I shake my head. "Well you should. I'm sure he'd like to know how you're feeling. But honey, I really don't think that's going to happen. Blaine loves you in a very special way. No matter what happens, or how far apart you end up, Blaine will still love you just as much. I know that you're used to people leaving, but he's not going to, and neither will we. Everything will be okay."

I take a breath, nodding and hugging her tightly. "Thank you."

She smiles. "You're welcome. Now, what do you say we take those letters back out and open them together?" I nod again, retrieving them from under the bed. "Let's start with the easier ones first. Like…" she picks one out from the pile. "Lima Community College. Want to open it?" I nod, taking it from her and tearing open the envelope. It's an acceptance, as is Ohio State University, the next letter fished from the pile. "Look at that!" Julie says. "You've already got options."

"The others are all from New York." So we continue through the pile until only one letter remains: NYADA. My fingers run over the envelope, but I can't bring myself to pick it up.

"Maybe you should wait for Blaine," Julie suggests gently. "His came in the mail today too. You can open them together."

I hesitate. "You don't think I'll disappoint him if I don't get in?"

Julie smiles. "I don't think you will ever disappoint him."

I reach over, hugging her tightly. "Thank you." Then, just as suddenly as she appeared, she is gone. A few minutes later, Blaine returns, grinning as he holds up a letter.

"Guess what came today!" he says excitedly.

I smile, holding up my own letter. "I know."

He sits down beside me. "Should we open them, then? Together?"

I look away for a moment, gathering my strength. "Blaine? Before we open them, will you promise me something?"

"Anything," he says. "What is it?"

I bite my lip. "Promise me that, no matter what these say, we'll still be like this. Doing things together. Please. I need to hear you say it."

Blaine frowns. "Sebastian? Is that what's been bothering you lately?"

I nod slowly. "Things are finally good. If that changes…I don't think I could handle it. I'm sorry for being so weird, I just…I don't know what to do."

He wraps his arms around me, kissing me softly. "Sebastian, nothing will change, no matter what is in these envelopes. I love you, and I'd never abandon you. No matter what happens, we'll work it out. Everything will be fine."

"Okay," I say softly. "Let's see." I clutch my letter tightly, trying to will my fingers to open the flap, but seem unable to. "You do it," I tell him. "I can't."

Blaine nods, taking the letter from me. "Then you open mine." That much I am able to do, and he counts to three before we tear open the envelops. I watch his face as he reads my letter. He frowns for a moment before grinning. "You're in, Sebastian!"

It takes me a minute before his words reach me. "You're accepted…" I start before looking up at him. "What did you say?!"

He laughs. "You're accepted too." I grab the letter from him, reading it myself. A slow smiles sneaks across my face, and I can't seem to wipe it off. I also can't process that this is real. I look around for a moment, expecting someone to jump out and tell me this was all a big prank. Is it April 1st? But there it is, right under the official NYADA letterhead.

Dear Mr. Smythe,

We are pleased to inform you that you have been accepted to the New York Academy of the Dramatic Arts.

This is real. I'm really in. Blaine squeaks in surprise as I wrap my arms around his waist, hoisting him up from the bed and spinning him in a circle. He laughs. "Someone's excited."

"Of course I'm excited!" I reply. "We both got in!"

He hugs me tightly. "You did it. Now you don't have to worry. No matter what happens, your future is bright." I laugh, pressing my lips to his as passionately as I can. We fall back onto the bed together, and we stay tangled up until Julie calls us down for dinner.

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