When I started liking Gakupo, I could only think of him in a way that a friend should. I denied it at first, then we started to hang out more junior year. As much as I loved him, I didn't find out until it was too late. Gakupo had started singing with Luka more, and didn't have time for me. For weeks, I felt abandoned. After almost a month, Gakupo came up to me and apolygized for how busy he had been. That night was the night when I realized I really did like him.
That night we rented a movie and sat down on my couch to watch it. As sudden as the feeling was, I was happy on the inside knowing that I came up with what feeling I felt for Gakupo. I finally admitted it and promised myself that I wouldn't tell him. He was probably dating Luka and happy. I don't want to mess that up is what I told myself that night. I don't know why I asked him this.
"Gakupo, are you and Luka dating?"
"No were just friends. We aren't really even friends, just buisness partners."
"Oh. So what were you doing this whole time?"
"The company wanted me to make songs with her, and only a few got into the recording stage. I've been singing for the songs that passed."
"Oh, sorry to bother you about it."
"You don't bother me at all Kaito." That was the end of that night and he left when the movie was over. Here we are 4 years later and I still haven't told him that I liked him. I've even wrote a few songs about him in my spare time. I feel like I could just explode with frustration as I wrote one of them. I thought of Gakupo as perfect and questioned why we weren't together. I recieved a phone call from Gakupo as I was writing. I picked it up.
"Kaito are you busy tomorrow night?"
"I don't have any plans, why?"
"I was wondering if you would like to come to dinner at my house and hang out like old times."
"Sure, I'd love to." Tomorrow was going to be amazing and yet sad. Every time I'm around Gakupo, all I can think about is how I want to be able to hold him and love him like others have been able to.