Jacob POV

As I started the car and drove into town I couldn't think about anything else but her intoxicating smell that filled the car. Everything about her was sweet, innocent and pure perfection. God how I have missed her..

"So how was the trip?" Renesmee asked and I snapped out of my thoughts.

"Uuh.. It was awesome." I mumbled.

"Oh boy.. that sounds like a fun trip!" she said looking at me and laughing. Her smile was the best.

"No, no it was fun. It was great. We went to the beach everyday and partied a bit." I almost tried to convince myself that I didn't think of her every second I was there.

"What?" She said shocked

"Yeah. What?" I heard the almost frightened tone in my voice. What did I say wrong?!

"Nothing," she went quiet. "Did you...hook up?" she said and playfully punched me on the arm.

"No! I would never!" I assured her.

"It's cool Jake. I'm not gonna judge."

"Yeah.. Of course. Cool." I said and wished she would have gotten mad and told me she loved me...Or that I would have the courage to do so.

"Drive faster!" she demanded and laughed.

"Whatever you want princess," I said and smiled at her.

When we finally arrived we went straight to a store to pick out some clothes. Great! I thought and dragged my feet towards the store.

"I really want to look for a dress in here." she said and grabbed my hand and dragged me into the store. She ran up to the first row of clothes and started looking. I just admired her beauty. Her long beautiful hair. Her...well...body...in those tight clothes. It wasn't like her to wear stuff like that. But I didn't mind. It was like she just changed more and more since her last birthday.

After being in the store for a while and doing some (apparently) 'much needed shopping' she had thrown a big pile of clothes over my arms. Since I was 'so strong' I could hold them. Who can say no when a beautiful woman compliments your looks? Who I ask... WHO!

"I want to try this on." She said and lifted up a top and threw it over my arms. Thinking of her in that...I lowered the pile of clothes I was holding.

"Could you just fetch me the clothes as I go in the dressing room?" she asked with her perfect voice as she skipped over to the changing booths.

"Umm...yeah, of course." I could just feel the pain of not having her right now, not kissing her. The desire for her grew every second.

She ran into a dressing room and I could see the clothes on the floor as she undressed herself. I just sat down on one of the cushins with a thud.

"Could you give me that blue dress?" she asked with her hand sticking out at the top of the door. "Jake?"

"Uum...yeah...sorry!" I couldn't focus. But Ihanded her the dress.

She came out and looked at herself in the mirror and fixed the dress a bit.

"Well...what do you think?" She asked and smiled.

"Uhhh...It's perfect...your... perfect." It was a strapless dress. Short and blue. A dress...and she was so sexy in it. God! I felt like a pig thinking of her like this but I just lusted after her.

"OMG! Jake..." she said and looked down..

"Shit," I hissed and covered up my pants. Well she could SEE that I thought she looked sexy in it. Dammit!

She smiled and giggled with her hand over her mouth looking at me with sympathy.

"I'm sorry." I said looking down at the ground. "So sorry...I...I dont...maybe...should I go?" I said with shame..

"No. I just...got surprised. I didn't knew you saw me in that way," she said and all of a sudden everything got serious again.. I stood up, knowing it had gone away and it was all clear.

"Renesmee...I..don't just feel for you...like THIS." I said and looked down at my pants and laughed. "You must know right?"

"I...I..." She couldn't finish because a worker came in all chipper and asked how everything was going. Now it was awkward again. Great.

"Um...everything is fine." We said.

"I'll just get that," Nessie said and pointed at the big pile of clothes laying on the chairs. The women who worked there looked very happy while Renesmee looked sad and walked back into the dressing room.

"Here." I said and gave the women the stuff. She was young and looked at me strangely.

"You are Jacob Black right?" she asked biting her lip.

"Yeah. Do I know you?"

"No I've just...we hung out a couple of times in a big group," she said with a smile. She was pretty, sure. But nothing like Nessie,I thought and smiled. She misinterperated that.

"Could I get your..." the girl couldn't finish.

Renesmee came out of the dressing room. "Should we go Jake?" she said mad.

"Yeah...If you want to." I said confused.

We walked awkwardly to the casher.

The girl typed up the price and packed everything down in a bag. Renesmee's phone ringed. She answered and walked away a little bit.

"It's good seeing you again Jake." The girl said and I could finally remember her. Emma.

"Yeah it's good seeing you too Emma."

She smiled. And looked up at me. I remember that I had kind of had a crush on her. Even though I had imprinted on Nessie.

"Listen if its cool, could I get your number?" She asked

"Yeah of course. Do you have a pen?" I just wrote it down for the heck of it. And I mean it. Thinking of what just had happened I didn't know if Nessie ever wanted to see me again really.

"Thanks. So...I'll give you a call maybe?" she asked.

"Yeah, sure. Whenever." I said casually.

"Jake..." I heard Nessie say. " Can we go now?"

Her face was so sad. She looked so upset. "Yeah, ofcourse, " and got her stuff and said goodbye to Emma.

As we walked to the car and drove home we were silent. Me thinking how I had just screwed up everything.