Renesmee POV

I decided to walk home since I felt the need to have some time alone with my thoughts. As I walked up to the house I saw Jacob looking freaked out as he talked to my dad.

Oh crap! I thought to myself. I should save him. When I was about to walk over to them my mom stepped out on the porch.

"Renesmee, could you come inside?" she asked.

"I will be in a minute," I smiled and kept walking.

"Please, Renesmee."

I hesitated but when I looked up at her she had that pleading look I can't resist. My eyes flew from my mom and Jacob who looked even more freaked out right now. With a shrug I ran up the stairs and my mom gestured for me to sit down on the couch next to her.

"So what's going on?" I asked and put my bag down. "Why are dad and Jacob out there?"

"Well.. they are talking about you," she admitted.

"Me? No, why? What's going on?" I started to feel uncomfortable and I know that Jacob is freaking out right now. I just know it.

"Renesmee," mom said and took my hand. "..are you and Jacob?" she gave me a look like I should finish her sentance. I did the same gesture by tilting my head and leaning forward. ".. being intimate?" mom muttered and let go of my hand.

I had my eyes wide open as I took in her words. Oh god Jacob is freaking out right now!

"No, mom," I whispered and my voice cracked. She gave me a look and I knew she didn't believe me. "No," I repeated myself and shook my head.

"Promise?" she asked and I squirmed in the couch.

"Mom, why? What's going on here?" I tried to avoid the promise. Because I knew I couldn't promise it. I didn't trust myself enough.

"Promise me you haven't...?" she said and I understood her question. Well that I can promise her! I thought she wanted me to promise to never do it.

"Mom, I'm..." I shook my head and blushed. "I'm a virgin!"

"Well I remember when I had 'the virgin conversation' with my dad.." she began.

"..there is a 'virgin conversation?'" I joked as a reflex and she ignored it.

"..I made that statement and two months later I had you," she seemed a bit emberassed by it.

"Why are we talking about this mom?" I blushed.

"Well if you do have," she sighed. "..sex. With him. Promise me to be safe?"

"Jacob hasen't been with anyone else mom," I admitted and blushed. "..besides do I even have to worry about that stuff? I'm half vampire."

"For pregnancy," she blurted out and it hit me like a truck.

"Oh," I mumbled and felt a bit dizzy. I hadn't given much thought to being a mom like the way I was now. Having kids.. with him. "Can I even?" I tried to chuckle but it turned into sniffles.

"We don't know Renesmee," she squeezed my hand and stroked my back.

"What do you think?"

"Let's not talk about that. We should get real answer instead.."

"What do you think?" I interrupted her.

"No," she said plainly and I looked at her through the tears. "..not with Jacob."

At that moment I realized.. I wanted kids.. and if I wanted kids I couldn't be with Jacob. I had to have them with someone else. NO!

"Is it crazy to give up kids for Jacob?" I mumbled with my head hanging in shame. You love kids, you don't give up on them for a chance of passion and love.. not for a guy.

..and I wanted kids.

"Renesmee," my mom pulled me closer and hugged me. "I would love grandchildren if that was possible but if it dosen't happen then it dosen't. I was even going to give up the hope of kids for love."

My crying came to a stop and I looked up at her. "What?" I mumbled. I had never heard about this and for some reason it hurt. But at least I wasn't alone in the choice.

"I didn't even think I could have kids with Edward. Vampire and human babies aren't that common," she chuckled and wiped my tears away. "..he didn't want you in the beginning."

"What?" I asked with trembling lips. Why haven't I heard any of this before!

"HE thought you would be like him. Like he saw himself, a monster." she looked down at her stomach and rubbed it with one hand. "..but when he heard you," she began.

"..he heard me?" I interrupted and she nodded with a smile.

"He fell in love with you. In that moment you were his world," she took my hand again. "..you liked our voices."

"I did?" I finally smiled. I wanted to know more.

"You were happy," she smiled down at her stomach. "..you loved me."

"I still love you mama," I said and cuddled up closer to her. "..always."

"I love you too," she kissed the top of my head. "..I died for you Renesmee," I placed my hand on her stomach for some reason. "..and I would do it over and over again. I was prepared to sacrafice myself for you then just like I am now."

When we heard Jacob and dad walk into the house she wiped my tears away. I admired her beauty and thought back to the way I saw her after I was born. Nothing more than skin and bones covered in blood. As she fixed my hair I grabbed her hand and looked into her eyes.

"I promise, safe. Until we know what can happen at least," I said and she smiled.

Jacob POV – Before Nessie arrives and during the conversation she has with bella.

After a meeting with the pack I went to pick up all the things and got them ready in Renesmee's room. I spent way to much time on getting everything ready and finally decided to go inside and check up on when Renesmee was getting home. When I walked over to the 'family' part of the house (since Renesmee has her own part of it) I saw Edward.

"Jacob," he walked up to me and shook my hand. "..take a walk with me?"

OH BOY! CRAP! YOU ARE FINISHED NOW JACOB! I panicked.

"Relax," he gave me a smile that never reached the eyes and we started walking.

"So, if you aren't going to kill me then what?" I joked nervously.

"It's about Renesmee," he mmbled and looked in pain.

"What? Has something happened?!" I asked franticly.

"No.. not yet," he mumbled.

WHAT? What do you mean not YET?

"We don't know what you two are capable of."

Huh?

"Kids," he finished.

Oh, kids.. DON'T THINK!

"Be safe, okay?" he pleaded and I nodded.

"Sure. You know we aren't even.. anything.." I stuttered nervously.

"Jacob I can read your mind," he muttered and clenched his jaw.

"So my genius 'Don't think' method dosen't work huh?" I nervously chuckled and saw Renesmee in the corner of my eye. God she is beautiful, I can only imagine our kids.

"You saw what Bella went through," he muttered and my focus went back to him. "..imagine her going through the same thing."

I gasped and took a deep breath as the thought hit me like a ton of bricks falling down on me. A part of me died inside.. thinking I could cause her that pain. No matter how much I wanted kids, no matter how much I wanted them with her it didn't matter. A world without her isn't a world worth living in. In that moment I felt so thankful that Edward didn't take her out of it before she came into it.

"Don't mention it," Edward gave me a pat on the back. "..I could never have done that to Bella.. but thank you."

I gave him a nod to show that I understood everything. My mind went to that awful time of my life. When I still thought Bella was the one.. How I hated that thing I thought was a monster.. how Bella thought it was a boy.. and how happy I was that it wasn't.

Both Edward and I laughed at the thought.

"I sometimes wish it was," he smirked. "..I'm happy she has you."

"Wow, thanks... dad!" I once again blurted out by how nervous I was. GOD! That was stupid.

"Yes it was," he laughed.

"Well.. do you know if she is capable of having kids?" I asked him.

"We are going away tomorrow to find answers.. There should be some answers from Nahuel's father."

"He is still alive?" I growled.

"Yes and right now he might be able to help us."

"Well.. when will you be back?"

"As soon as possible. We are stopping by in Brazil for a second honeymoon.. Bella and I figure you two might want some time alone now," he said.

Time alone... Renesmee. STOP!

"Please do," Edward pinched the bridge of his nose and walked over to the house. I followed and saw Renesmee hugging Bella.

"Hey," I murmured with a smile and hugged her.

"Awkward?" she whispered.

"You have no idea," I chuckled and kissed her.

"Well," Bella sighed and Edward put his arms around her. "..we are going to say goodbye to Charlie and start packing for the trip."

"Trip?" Renesmee asked.

"Yeah they are going to find some answers. Then on a second honeymoon. They figured we could use some space now," I mumbled.

"Guess I kind of ruined the last honeymoon," Ness mumbled.

"You made the last one," Bella hugged Renesmee. They both said goodbye before they ran off and we were all alone.

"Well, should we go to your room?" I asked her. The nervs were starting to kick in!

"Yeah, sure."

Now what might the reason be for Jacob being so nervous? ;)