Renesmee POV

"WAKE UP SLEEPY HEAD!" Alice's happy voice woke me up as she pulled the covers of me. The sun felt like acid, it shined so bright.

"Alice," I moaned and pulled the covers over my head.

"Renesmee Carlie Cullen if you don't get up I will take away all of the beauty related things in this house. I put them here and I can take them away!" she threatened.

"Take them," I muttered and cuddled up. We both knew she never would. She loved it when I dressed up and did my makeup.

"That's it!" she said and all of the sudden her cold arms had scooped me up. Then I was sitting on the little chair downstairs.

"Alice! What the hell?" I muttered and wrapped my robe tighter around my body.

"I think I have found your dress!" she smiled proudly and I woke up completely.

"What?" I smiled and stood up. "..well show me!"

She happily got another little scrapbook out of her bag and flipped to page number fifty six. There it was. My dress.. I took the book from her and sat back down.

"Alice, its perfect," I whispered and admired it.

"Well I have more you can look at. Don't just pick the first one!" she whined and handed me another book that I declined.

"No, this is my dress!" I pouted and pushed her book away. She stomped her little feet and put the book on mine.

"See, that wasn't so hard!"

"But this is perfect too!" I sighed and looked at the new dress. "..Alice."

"There are a few more in that one," she said and started flipping through the pages. All of them were perfect in their own way. I could imagine myself wearing each and every one of them. How could I ever choose? I didn't want to ask Jacob since I wanted to surprise him. As a last resort I picked up the phone and called mom.

Help me choose the dress?

Number 1. Hayley-Paige/Bridal/Fall/2012/Style-6254

Number2. wedding-dresses-style/rivini-Kennidi-2000000001142338

Number3. wedding-dresses-style/tara_keely-2200-2000000001943626

Number4. wedding-dresses-style/romonakeveza-2000000001209628

Number5. wedding-dresses-style/ines-di-santo-2000000001407030

Number6. wedding-dresses-style/carol_hannah_whitfield-2000000001904944

Number7. wedding-dresses-style/moniquelhuillier-2000000001406337

Number8. wedding-dresses-style/priscillaofboston-230288

And remember that shes gonna wear Jacobs mothers dress. Vote for her dress to!

Number1. wedding-dresses-style/ines-di-santo-163126

Number2. wedding-dresses-style/jennypackham-2000000002013485

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"Well.. we don't have a date set yet so I guess the dress isn't that important yet," I pouted and put the books on the table.

"You guys looking for wedding dresses?" Jacob came downstairs and I threw myself over the coffe table where the books were. Everybody muffled a laugh and I leaned back to shut the books.

"It's bad luck," I muttered and shut the last one. Jacob came and sat beside me. "So when do you want to get married?" I asked him with a smile and leaned my head on his leg.

"Whenever you want."

"I was thinking in like four months?" I hope he didn't think I didn't want to marry him at all.

"Like I said," he leaned down and kissed me. "..whenever you want."

"Then four months it is! What about September 11? It's your birthday and the day you two fell in.." she looked at my dad and coughed. "..you meet."

When did he even sneak in?!

"I think a month is better," dad said and sat down.

"Why so?" I asked.

"Because then it will fit better with your schedual and school," he smiled.

"Fine," I muttered. "..but can't we make it so its one month from when we got engaged at least?"

"That's in like two week," Jacob said surprised and I nodded. "..I love it," he finished and kissed me.

"Then two weeks it is," Alice said and flipped through another book that she handed to me. "..better hurry up!"

"I will have a dress till then," I chuckled and took it.

"Well I have to go to work now," Jacob said and stood up.

"Stay here with me," I begged and held his hand.

"I'll be back before you know it. I promise," he kissed my hand. "..take care of this little lady while I'm gone," he said to the others and they smiled.

"Bye," I mumbled and watched him walk away. Alice noticed it and smiled at me.

"You two are perfect for each other," she giggled and packed away some of the books into the bookshelf.

"Yeah," I smirked. "..I think we are."

As I looked out of the window I felt the sun warm my skin. I saw my dad sparkle in the light. Where we lived it usually wasn't sunny enough for them to sparkle but it was almost always warm. I looked at Alice as she danced across the floor, passing the window and my dad. Their skin sparkled together. It was very rare to see them like this.

I cuddled up on the couch and motioned for my dad to sit next to me and the next second he was. I leaned my head against his shoulder and hugged him.

"Dad," I mumbled.

"Yes?"

"Can you tell me about when you found out about me?" I whispered with an unsure voice. He swallowed hard and froze up.

"You have to understand one thing," he began. "..there is nothing I love more than you."

"I know dad," I smiled. "..now tell me."

"I was crushed," he muttered and looked away.

"Why?"

"I thought you would be like me, a monster." he looked at his reflection in the window.

"What do you mean by monster?" I mumbled quietly.

"Carlisle has made me into the man I am today. A better man," he almost looked in pain. ".. but there was a time when I tried to live as a 'normal' vampire does."

"Meaning?"

"Human blood," he muttered and my throat burned.

"Innocent?" I asked with a shaky voice.

"Never, only people who tried to hurt others."

"Then why were you a monster? You probably saved more lives than you took."

"That's what I told myself but it isn't true. When you take someones life it dosen't matter what THEY did with that life... you still took it away."

Even though I had never heard about all of this and I was shocked I didn't understand why he tortutred himself like this. He probably saved more lives than he took like I said. Plus he has changed now..

"You are not a monster dad," I mumbled and shook my head as he looked at me. "..you are my hero."

He smiled at me and brushed my hair from my face. "Thank you."

"Did you always hate me dad?" I muttered like it was painful to just say it.

"No," he said right away as he clenched his jaw for a second. "When I heard you.." he began to relax and took my hand. "..I knew you were anything but a monster. You were capable of control and already had a soul. More than I could ever say about myself.."

"Dad," I interrupted him and shook my head. "..you have a soul."

He shrugged his shoulders and continued. "..You were like your mother. Pure."

"When did you hear me?" I asked. For some reason the family never talked about life before me too much and I was intrigued. And I thought its time for it. I mean I am somewhat grown up and getting married. Not too sure about kids of my own but...

"A little while before you were born. You liked our voices and adored your mother," he smiled proudly and squeezed my hand.

"How was my birth?" I blurted out and his face went back to the painful look.

"Not the norm," he muttered.

"Was it terrible?"

"Sort of," he said and looked away. "..your mother didn't go into labor. She got hurt and I had to get you out..." he abruptly stopped talking.

"Finish?" I pleaded to him.

"..she was dying. I couldn't change her until you were out."

"I killed her," I finished for him.

"You gave her a reason to fight," he said instead.

"That's just a nicer way to put it," I muttered.

"..I wanted to get rid of you at first. Because I never in a million years imagined you being so wonderful," he took my hand to his heart. ".. you gave us all a reason to continue... being."

"You all had each other, you had love." I pulled my hand away but he held it still.

"You gave us ALL another reason. A better reason. I mean why did you think she fought for you? Died for you? She loved you before you even were."

"I killed her," I mumbled again.

"Yes, she couldn't get the nutrition she needed and was starving. You craved blood. But the second you understood what you did you tried to stay still to not hurt her. You two have been protecting each other since the start."

"Guess you were a bit mad at us both at that point?" I tried to chuckle.

"I was only angry at myself. But see how wonderful everything has worked out," he kissed my hand.

"I love you dad," I mumbled and hugged him.

"I love you more Renesmee."

/Did you like it? :) And I havnt decided about the wedding and future yet. I mean like should they have kids and stuff but please leave what you think. It would be kinda of nice to have their kid at the wedding but in my eyes Ness and Jake are such young free spirits. Kids at a young age would feel weird. Or maybe not. So please help me out with that! I think i have deleted like 10 whole chapters beacuse i have changest my mind again and again lol.