Rihanna - Stay ft. Mikky Ekko

A few weeks later.

I woke up once again by Buddy cuddling into my arms, coaxing me to hold him. I opened my eyes and saw him with a toy in his mouth. He proudly put it down by my face and waited for my reaction.

"Is that for me?" I smiled and scratched his back. "..thank you."

"YES!" Jacob jumped into the room. "..he did it right?"

"Did what?" I smiled and sat up with Buddy and the toy.

"He did!" he said and pointed to the toy. "..I have tried to make him do that for a long time now."

"Well why don't you join me on complimenting him?" I suggested and he sat down beside us.

"Gladly," he smiled and stroked his back too. "..good boy. Girls will always be happy if you bring them things. Especially shiny things."

"Don't listen to him." I pouted. "..girls will love you no matter what!" I said like it was my son I was talking to. Crazy cat lady already..

I cuddled down with Buddy in my arms.

"Don't go back to sleep, school starts soon!" Jacob pleaded.

"Oh! I almost forgot. PHEW!" I gasped and he kissed me.

"Breakfast is ready on the table," he grinned proudly and I grabbed his face for a passionate kiss. His hands grasped and caressed the sides of my body. When our bodies got closer Buddy moved away to not get crushed. Jacob finally got access to lay on top of me and he grinded himself against me. I pushed on Jacob's chest so he went on his back and I straddled him. When it all intensified I pulled away.

"Thank you," I whispered and lightly kissed him again. I went to eat while Jacob stayed in bed, playing with Buddy.

Downstairs on the kitchen table was a plate of bacon. It was the most declicious thing he could make. I happily ate it all up quickly and got ready in a couple of minutes. The routine for school days was always when he heard the door of my shoe drawer close, he came rushing down the stairs to drive me. But when I did it today he didn't..

"Jacob?" I yelled and got no answer. When I ran upstairs to check on him he was sleeping with Buddy on his belly in bed. I kissed them good bye without waking them up and decided to walk.

I could run to school and be there in a matter of minutes but instead I decided to walk. It was nice to have some time to myself. Even though I had never really enjoyed spending time without anyone of the people I love I felt like I needed it now. So much had happened. I needed time to process it. I looked at my ring.

I stopped to a halt when I for the first time really thought about it...

"I'm married," I whispered to myself with a smile and admired the ring on my finger. It shined beautifuly in the sunlight. I wonder what the big fuss was about. Why mom had gotten so scared. This was one of the most amazing feelings I had ever experienced.

Sure getting married was somewhat of a risk. You NEVER know what can happen. I was always somewhat afraid of losing the friendship Jacob and I had if we actually became a couple.. but then on the other hand I dreamed about it every night. The only thing on my mind was being with him in every way possible. To belong to him forever.

I felt incredibly privliged to just have him as a friend, but to have him as a husband was truly a blessing. I'm really just married to my best friend. I would never have to choose between hanging out with my friend or boyfriend. Jacob was everything I needed, wanted and craved.

I wonder if I would have believe it if Alice told me all of this would happen a year ago.. then I was just a little 'teenage' girl who was hopelessly crushing on the incredibly handsome friend. Now I was... dare I say woman?

It suits me well, I thought to myself in a smug way. Married woman in fact! Take that past awkward Renesmee!

TWEET TWEET!

My phone vibrated with that annoying bird noise. I only had it because it always made Buddy go crazy and run around looking for the bird he thought was making noise.

-Where did you go?

-I walked to school. You and Buddy looked so cute. Didn't want to wake you up! :)

-Really wish you had.. you don't start for another ten minutes. If you get back I could make it up to you.. ;)

-How? ;)

-I had something in mind ;) Now hurry.. the clock is ticking!

-If I run home now I will miss school. And I won't miss school for a pointless quicky! :(

-OUCH! Plus who said quicky..? ;) Come on.. I know we could have some fun in five minutes.

-Five minutes? Very tempting :D

-300 seconds of passion ;)

-300 too much! Now I have to go to class. Entertain yourself ;*

I put down the phone with a smile and saw Lynn waving me over to her and Kyle. They were casually sitting on the steps of the school.

"I MISSED YOU GUYS!" I smiled and threw my arms around them both.

"You missed us on your honeymoon? I always imagined Jacob to be a beast in bed," Kyle teased.

"Ignore him! I won't give it to him for a week just for that comment," she grinned and he sighed. "..now tell me how was the honeymoon!"

"Amazing! OH! We got a cat," I smiled.

"Is that code word for something?" Kyle teased again. Lynn looked back at him and he gave her a pleading look.

"But what does that mean?" Lynn asked.

"Exactly how it sounds," I said and picked up my phone to show them a picture. "..we got a cat."

"OH HE IS PRECIOUS!" Kyle sounded like a girl and both Lynn and I gave him a look. "..whatever."

"Well he is precious," Lynn agreed and gave Kyle a comforting hug.

"By the way where are you two going to collage?"

"Don't know. We haven't decided yet. You?" Lynn said as we started to walk into school.

"I have no idea," I lied. I really wanted to tell her the truth about everything.. but that wouldn't be possible as long as the Volturi were around.

"Really? Thought your family would already have houses built up around your new collage. That aunt Alice seems a bit crazy like that," Kyle teased.

When we had put away our things I really started to feel some anxiety build up. I didn't even want to say good bye to them when we had diffrent classes. I kept Lynn busy talking to me.

"..Lynn hurry! Class starts soon," Kyle pleaded and pulled her hand.

"FINE!" she sighed and didn't even plan on saying good bye to me. I pulled her back into my arms and slammed her against me.

"I wish I could take you with me," I whispered and took in her scent. When she pulled away she gave me a werid look.

"Is everything okay?" she whispered and I nodded.

"LYNN!" Kyle moaned.

"WOULD YOU JUST..." Lynn snapped at him and he held his hands up. "..text me if you wanna talk." she said and I nodded.

"Can we go now?" Kyle asked softly. She nodded.

I watched them walk away hand in hand. Lynn had recently colored her hair into a platinum blonde since Alice didn't allow her to keep her crazy blue hair for the wedding. It had a very beautiful shine in the light as they walked away hand in hand and it got me thinking..

I wonder how it would feel to see them move in together, get engaged, get married, have kids and grow old. It was hard enough to imagine Lynn with grey hair but the thought of HER changing that much almost scared me. While they would change and grow into new people Jacob and I would forever be frozen in this. As Rosalie said 'Never moving forward'.

I was always scared that I one day wouldn't be enough for Jacob. Would we be able to stay together. My heart said YES while the realistic part of my brain says ANYTHING CAN HAPPEN.

Could it really be just us two forever? The thought of losing him scared me. I think I mostly wanted kids because I knew how much he wanted them. To see him hold a little piece of us both with a smile on his face. I would keep fighting for it.

In my world, living forever with endless possibilities wasn't the worst thing.. but not the best thing either.

"Hey, Ren, class started like ten minutes ago," Chuck interrupted my thoughts and I looked up at him. I followed him into class and got detention for being late. And just when my day couldn't get worse... I had to sit next to Nate.

He looked down in his book and I took a deep breath before I walked up to the table and sat down.

"Hi," I muttered quickly and opened my book. Luckily we only had to read today.

"Hey Ren," he mumbled. "..look I'm so.."

"Don't" I interrupted him and shook my head. "..it dosen't matter how sorry you are. You should have respected me and Jacob enough. I welcome you into my home and you..." the rush of warmth went through my body when I re lived the feeling of his lips against mine. "..I don't even want to think about it."

He sighed heavily and sunk down in his chair. Every breath he took made me feel so... I don't even know. It got worse with every second and the ticking of the clock was screaming in my head. Before the bell could ring I excused myself and rushed out.

"Oh God," I gasped and leaned against the wall. My breath was racing away with my heart. Something in the way he.. is... makes me feel like I can't live.

"Ren?" Nathan's soft voice brought me back to the painful reality. "..are you alright?"

"I'm fine," I mumbled and covered my face with my hair. "..go."

"Renesmee can I please apolagize? Let me be selfish if that's what you think I am by pushing this on you.. but I need to apolagize."

"Fine," I muttered and held my breath. "..apologize."

I heard him slowly walk closer and I squeezed my eyes shut. His breath hit me like a ton of bricks.

"Renesmee, I Nathan.." he began and I chuckled. ".. am really sorry for hurting you. And I'm even more sorry if I cause trouble between you and Jacob."

"..go on," I held back a smile and looked up at him. He was so close.. so painfully close. He swallowed hard as his heart kept beating faster and faster.

"..I'm sorry for being an asshole. Because I really want to be friends. Please forgive me."

"..fine Nate," I mumbled and looked away as he got closer. I was raised to not feed on humans and when I wanted to rip their throats out I tended to be nicer.. the two don't really go together. But what about me and him did? Everything was just so intense.

"..but I won't apologize for kissing you Renesmee," he said and my heart went crazy, pounding in my chest. "..because I need you to know that I feel something for you."

"..something?" I mumbled as a reflex.

"...I know you feel it to," he mumbled and I looked up at him. His piercing blue eyes went right through me. They caused a cold rush to go through me.. unlike Jacob's... his only made me warm.

"...Nate I don't know if you actually came to the wedding but it happened," I mumbled.

"..I don't care," he said and got even closer. I squirmed against the wall in discomfort. "..love is not just something you take, its given.."

"..love?" I interrupted him and dared to keep my gaze deep into his eyes.

"..I love you Renesmee Cullen," he murmured.

He dosen't even know you! the better side of me screamed.

He is weak! Take the opportuinity, my inner monster growled and my eyes went straight to his neck.

KISS ME! I wanted to shout. I wanted a reason to press my lips against that skin.. He was my guilty pleasure.

"I can tell you love me too," his voice sounded like it was under water as his heartbeat drowned it out. "..just by the way you are looking at me right now." He cupped one hand around my cheek and I couldn't move.

"Don't come closer," I almost hissed. Apparently it sounded very intimidating because he stopped.

The ring of the bell brought me back to reality and I took a deep breath and walked away.

"Renesmee!" I heard him yell as I walked away. Everyone rushed out of the classrooms and I looked down as I walked out. People kept bumping into me as I didn't even care where I walked.

I wanted out.

I needed out.

It felt like I walked into a brick wall and I looked up.

"JACOB!" I gasped and threw my arms around him.

"Nessie what's wrong?" Jacob asked.

"Nothing," I lied. "..I just missed you."

"I missed you too," he chuckled.

"RENESMEE!" I heard Nate yell again and Jacob's body tensed up. He came rushing from the corner behind us and stopped when he saw Jacob.

"What Nate?" I asked as Jacob kept his hand on the small of my back.

"You forgot this," he said and handed me my bag.

"Thanks," I muttered and took it. When I turned to Jacob his look almost scared me. He looked at Nathan with utter hate and disgust. "..we can go now," I said to Jacob and tried to push him with all my power. Even that wasn't enough to move him.. "..Jacob."

"Yeah," he almost growled and still let his eyes pierce through Nate. And he wasn't smart enough to back down from Jacob. He gave it right back. Finally I pushed him enough so we could start walking.

"What was that all about?" he muttered as we walked to the car.

"He apologized," I mumbled.

"and..?"

"and what?"

"Did you accept his apology?" he asked and held the door open for me like nothing had happened.

"Yeah," I answered and sat down.

"He thinks it would all be fine by just apologizing?" he almost laughed. But it wasn't like he thought it was funny.. it was intimidating even for me. He leaned down so close that his breath hit me like a truck.

"..if he every lays so much as a finger on you again I'll rip his head of," he growled and slammed the door shut.

As he walked over to his own side of the car I looked at Nathan across the parking. He gave me a light wave and I pushed out a smile to him.

Jacob got in the car and punched the gas right away. I really hated it when he was mad..

"You know that I'm yours Jacob," I murmured as he drove away. "..and I can protect myself. I would never let anyone else touch me."

Then what was that thing inside? Remember? Nate's hand wrapped around your cheek? my inner monster taunted me.

I'm not always weak, I told myself.

"I know," he growled. "..but the thought of someone else touching you disgusts me."

"So what.. if I had been with someone else before you then you wouldn't touch me?" I growled like I wanted a reason to end it.

Don't go on Renesmee, I told myself.

"..because you wouldn't have been the first one to fuck me? Someone else would have used me up and I would be no good for you and your ego anymore,"

Well done Renesmee, I sighed in my head.

I anticipated the worst. Him stopping the car and telling me to go to hell.. and sure enough.. he stopped the car.

"That's not what I meant," he almost whispered and looked at my hand as if he was asking to hold it. "..you are my everything Renesmee. I know I'm not always the best with handling feelings. I wish I was better but I never had a mom to tell me how to treat girls," he looked up at me.

What are you doing Renesmee?

"..imprinting is not the only reason why I love you, its only something that can assure you that I will give my life for you. That there is no one else in this world who can make me feel like you do," he said and held my hand. "..but it brings out a primal, feral and animalistic instinct to be overprotective. When that side kicks in I see you as something I own. And I know that isn't the case. Please forgive me?"

"..take me home," I mumbled and leaned closer to him. He gave me a questioning look. "..I just want to get in bed and hold you."

He gave me the sweetest smile I had ever been given and we drove home.

Do I need him to say this everytime I get carried away by Nate? Because I could never make him do that. I wouldn't want him to have to fight for me. Because I am his.

Jacob carried me inside the house as we kissed. The sound of someone clearing their throat brought us back to reality.

"Mom," I mumbled and he put me down. "..dad."

"We need to talk," mom held back a grin and had her arms crossed.

"About what?" I asked nervously and we walked over to the couch to them.

"Dartmouth," dad smiled as we sat down.

"What about it?" Jacob sighed.

"Well.. If Jacob is going with US.. It's best if.." my dad began.

"..he is a Cullen," mom finished with a grin.

"WHAT?" he shouted.

"See, I told you he would take it well," dad said sarcasticly.

"Yeah why?" I frowned. I didn't mind but I sure knew he did..

"Because since HIS father can't come with us we have to take responsibility," mom explained.

"Trust me," Jacob snarled. "..I can take care of myself."

"Carlisle and Esmee will be our adoptive parents. We are all adopted. So are you," mom continued.

I slowly turned to Jacob with a pleading look. "..would it really be the worst thing in the world?"

"Come on," he sighed and sat down with his head hanging in his hands.

"It will be great," I assured him and sat down beside him. "..we can both be Cullen Black."

"It's pretty much the only way you can get in," my dad nodded at moms statement.

"We have the money and if anyone asks our relatives have been there before," dad continued.

Jacob took my hands and looked deep into my eyes like my parents weren't even in the room.

"Is this important?"

"Kinda," I nodded carefully. "..but I don't want to torture you."

He took a deep breath and played with my wedding ring.

"Then we are Mr and Mrs Cullen Black I guess," he sighed. I threw my arms around him and let out a squeal of happiness. When I pulled away I cupped his face in my hands and kissed him over and over again with such power that I almost fell down into his lap. He got a firm grip of me and laughed.

"Thank you," I smiled and kissed his face all over. "..thank you!"

I saw that my mom clearly wanted to hug him and I moved so he could get up. When he stood up and held his arms out mom went right in for a hug.

"Thank you for making her so happy," she whispered and hugged him tighter. When she pulled away dad went in for a handshake.

"Welcome to the Cullen family Jacob," dad smiled.

"Thanks," Jacob chuckled.

Here in my posession I have the heart and love of the most perfect man ever. He would sacrifice anything, walk through fire, die a thousand times and rise from the dead, just to make me smile.

And you are playing with his trust, my inner monster reminded me.

So there it is! May i introduce you to Mr Jacob Cullen Black ;) haha. I was worried that i would get hate beacuse this chapter so if you dislike the whole name changing thing please be kind ^^ alot of people sent me messages saying they wanted them to have the same last name so here it is. lol sorry. Wish I could make everyone happy but its impossible :/