A/N: I want to first apologize to my readers. I know that you hate Bella in this story and you have every right to hate her. I hate her. But Bella was me for the longest time. I was stuck between two lives, trying to figure out which one was the one I wanted. I wish I'd only had the gumption to not choose either and figure my own life out. So I beg of you, please hear Bella out. It'll make Bella's life much more clear and understandable in the end.

My inspiration for this chapter came when I listened to "Trouble" by Coldplay. There's something about Chris' confessions about how sorry he was to whoever he wrote that song to which made me write this chapter. Then listening to "Everything's Not Lost" by the same band made me realize that maybe, just maybe Bella could figure out all her problems.

Trouble - Coldplay

Oh no, I see,
A spider web, it's tangled up with me,
And I lost my head,
The thought of all the stupid things I said,
Oh no what's this?
A spider web, and I'm caught in the middle,
Oh I turned to run,
The thought of all the stupid things I've done,
And oh, I never meant to cause you trouble,
And oh, and I never meant to do you wrong,
And oh, well if I ever caused you trouble,
Oh no, I never meant to do you harm.

Jasper

I wanted to hate her. I wanted to just forget about everything she'd ever done to hurt me but for some reason I couldn't do it.

I still loved the bitch.

Yes, I called her a bitch. That's exactly what she was being at the moment. I had no idea if it was something I'd said or done to make her feel overwhelmed but I couldn't help but feel like it was partially my fault that all this was going on.

Alice made me swear on my grandmother's grave that the conversation we had that night never took place.

I was packing to leave for California. Rosalie and Alice both suggested that I get away for a while. They were kind of stuck in all this and felt like the children in the middle of a nasty divorce. I didn't mind the fact that they still stood beside Bella. I would have also if she hadn't of pushed me away. I figured when they said that I needed to get away, it meant take a job somewhere for a while. Apparently, they had other plans.

My doorbell rang in the back bedroom as I placed the last of my work clothes in a duffle bag. I was going to fly but I figured a couple of days on the road could help me clear my head.

"Hello Jasper," Alice said as she stormed my door. She held in her hand bags of food from a local restaurant down the road from my place.

"Um, hi?" I said as she walked right past me and into my kitchen.

"What is all this?" I asked.

"Well I figured I'd give you some sort of going away dinner. Sit, I'll find some plates and forks."

She moved around my kitchen with ease and then sat down at the table beside me. She dished the food out and after everything was sat in front of us she smiled.

"So what are you going to do about Bella?" she asked as she poured a glass of wine for the two of us.

"I'm not going to do anything. She's made her decision and I have to respect it."

She snickered. "Do you actually think that Bella knows what she wants right now?"

I thought for a moment and shook my head no.

"I don't either. Today, after we went shopping, she ran into a friend of hers. He gave her his number. She thought about calling him until I talked her out of it."

I sighed. This wasn't exactly what I needed to hear at that exact moment.

"So what are you are you saying?" I asked, picking at my food with my fork.

Alice took a gulp of her wine and smiled. "Bella is lost, Jasper. I've known her for quite some time and I know for a fact that she has no idea what she wants or where she wants to be in her life right now. Her dad was her whole world and she needed him to survive. Even though she had you, it didn't feel right without her father in her life."

"So what am I supposed to do about this?"

"I think that we need to come up with a way for her to realize that she needs you in her life."

I had no idea what to say.

"Alice, I'll be honest. All this is just too much. I fought for her once, thought I had her and then she decides to do this to me. I just don't know what to do except walk away. I feel… defeated."

I glanced down and tried to hold in my frustration for the situation but it began spilling over my cheeks in the form of tears. Too many of those I've cried for this girl and I wanted it to stop.

But it couldn't.

Alice scooted closer to me and I could feel her hand touch my arm. I looked up at her with tears and said, "I'm such an idiot for hanging on."

She shook her head. "No, you are just in love and it's hard to see someone you love and care about make stupid and ridiculous decisions. How about I do something for the two of you that I think you both need. Call and see if you can cancel that job. I'll get you another one from a client of mine. I'm sending you and Bella on a vacation. She won't know what's going on until she gets there and she is forced to talk to you."

I sighed heavy, wiping the tears off my cheeks.

"What if this doesn't work?"

"Then we'll know that we really have to let her go. But please, Jasper. She needs us even though she's pushing us away."

"Okay, where are we going and when do we leave?"

"I'm getting the two of you a cabin in Vancouver. It's near the populated area but also far enough out that the two of you can have some sort of privacy. And you'll leave in two days. I'm going over to see Bella when I leave here. I'm going to convince her that I wanted her to go stay up at mine and Aro's place in Vancouver for a week to wait on a contractor to come fix our plumbing."

I laughed a little. "I'm the contractor huh?"

She nodded and smiled wryly, "Yes, you are."

I felt apprehensive about this whole trip but if there's anything I've learned, if you get Bella out of her comfortable zone, she's more willing to try. I thanked Alice and began packing for the trip that could make a huge difference in mine and Bella's lives. I just hoped it worked.

Bella

The little pixie was not going to take no for an answer.

"Alice, I just can't pack up and leave. I know it's the summer but I missed so much school last term that I'm trying to at least get some of my accredation hours in for my certificate. I do have to keep those up you know."

"Duh, so this will be a great opportunity to get your head clear. And it's only a week. I'm going up with you to take you to the cabin and then I have to meet Aro in town."

Apparently Alice and Aro were considering expanding their business into Vancouver and just purchased a nice cabin near town that needed work. She wanted me to cabin sit while the contractor worked on the plumbing and whatever else was wrong with it. I felt like something was up but Alice looked so sincere that it was so hard to tell her no.

"Fine, I'll go but no funny business. The first moment I think you are up to something, I'm gone."

"You got it," she said, grinning. Something was definitely up but I wasn't one to turn down a free vacation. Ever.

So all night long I packed and got ready for us to leave the next day. We flew from Seattle to Vancouver and as we drove up the trail to their new cabin, it wasn't anything the way I pictured it. I was thinking rustic and full of dust with leaking logs. This cabin looked like something out of a HGTV special on the top ten houses in the middle of the woods.

"Alice, I thought you were talking about a log cabin you know, or something else. This is beyond amazing."

"Thanks," she said. "Aro and I spent a week up here while thinking of expanding our business. It actually belonged to some diplomat from Canada and he decided that he would rent it out for vacationers. After Aro and I spent that week we knew we had to have it. It took some convincing but we got it."

I sighed. The tall pines didn't do a good enough job of hiding it from the rest of the world and as we pulled around to the garage side, I could overlook a ledge that held a clearing large enough to see the Vancouver lights. I could definitely use this vacation.

"My other car is here," she said as the garage door opened. "It's my baby, my Porsche 911 that Aro got me on my birthday a couple of years ago. I'm leaving you the keys to it. Be safe with it and for the love of all that is holy, if you get it dirty, wash it please? Aro always takes it out and by the time he brings it back, it's covered in mud. You cannot muddy up a Porsche."

I laughed. Of all the things for Alice to worry about, she was so concerned about mud on her Porsche. But I nodded and said no mud.

We walked a flight of steps in the garage to the kitchen area. It was magnificent. I could imagine making so much food in a place like that. The counter space was amazing. I already started feeling better, more like myself.

"I would give you the grand tour, but I honestly have got to go. Explore, anything you need you use it. If I don't have it, get it and I'll pay you back. You just enjoy your week and let me know if you need anything."

I nodded. "Thanks for this mini vacation," I said.

"You are quite welcome."

She left in such a hurry I forgot to ask her for the keys to the Porsche. I looked all over the place and couldn't find them. So I reached for my cell and tried to call her but my signal was bad. Great. I was stuck in a house with no signal and no keys to a car.

I searched the house and found her land line and tried calling her cell but all I got was her voicemail. She must not have had any signal either.

I sat down on the couch and looked at the vaulted ceilings. This house was so Alice from the window treatments to the chandelier that hung in the foyer.

I jumped when the house phone echoed through the house.

"Hello," I said as I answered the phone, "This is Bella."

"Bella, hey, so sorry about the keys. I'll bring them to you first thing in the morning."

"It's okay, hey um, did you leave any instructions for the contractor or anything? I forgot to ask that."

"Oh he knows what to do, I've already talked to him. He'll be there first thing in the morning."

"Okay, well I'll see you then."

"Bye Bella, call me if you need me."

I walked through the house, surveying the place that would be my home for a week. I found the room that I assumed was Aro and Alice's. I didn't even want to think about sleeping in there. It just seems rude to interrupt someone's personal space. I trudged down the hallway a little further and found a guest room that I felt like suited me. It held a queen size bed and had a great view of the city lights.

That night I found chicken breast in the freezer and tons of fresh vegetables in the crisper. It was like Alice had someone prepare the house for me before we got there and I was grateful for it. There was fresh bread in the breadbox and I made myself a huge feast. I put the leftovers in the fridge, drank the last sip of my wine and started out to the balcony to stare over the lights of Vancouver.

For the first time since my father died, I felt better about a lot of things. My happiness soon turned to frustration when I sat down on the chair on the balcony and realized that I was making a mess of my life.

My father had always told me to ask for help if I ever needed it. He knew that I was a very independent person and yet when I met Edward, all that changed. I turned into an very dependent person and when my relationship with Edward ended, I had my dad to fall back on. He didn't mind because I was his little girl but I feel like in some ways I was letting him down by depending on Jasper.

Jasper let me be my own person though. As I looked over the lights of Vancouver, I realized that I'd made a huge mistake by pushing Jasper out of my life. But it was too late. Jasper was gone to California and there wasn't anything I could do about that. I had to learn to pick my life back up and not worry about anyone else for a while. I'd already pushed Edward away enough to where it didn't matter if he came back or not.

I closed the balcony door, headed to my room and dressed for bed. As my head hit the pillow, I looked up to the ceiling and said, "Dad, I'm so lost without you. Can you help me realize what I need to do? Show me, give me some sort of sign of the direction my life needs to go in?"

I closed my eyes and drifted off to sleep, thinking of Jasper and how I would do anything to have him back in my life again. I had so much to make up for.

I woke to the sound of a doorbell going off. It took me a moment to realize that I wasn't dreaming and that it was morning. It also took an extra second for me to realize that I wasn't in Forks anymore. I thought it was Alice dropping the keys of to the Porsche but why didn't she just come on in? Then I forgot that the contractor was coming to fix the plumbing in the house.

I flung my over coat on and fled down the stairs to the front door, screaming "coming" to whoever couldn't stop ringing the damn doorbell.

I pulled the door open, and said, "I'm sorry I must have over…"

Standing in the doorway with his tool belt on and a smile on his face was Jasper.

I was speechless as he reached behind his back and pulled a bouquet of flowers.

"I'm here to fix some issues with someone's … house."

He laughed. And I've missed that laugh so much it hurt.

"You're the contractor huh?" I shook my head and reached for the flowers.

"Alice, I swear little woman, you are so going to get it when I see you again," I whispered under my breath.

Jasper stepped forward, lifting my chin with his finger and said, "You and I have a lot to talk about, and a lot to work out. But I'm willing if you are."

I nodded and lifted my head up to the sky, saying, "Thanks Dad."

Everything's Not Lost - Coldplay

If you ever feel neglected,
If you think all is lost,
I'll be counting up my demons, yeah,
Hoping everything's not lost.
When you thought that it was over,
You could feel it all around,
Everybody's out to get you,
Don't you let it drag you down.
Cos if you ever feel neglected,
If you think that all is lost,
I'll be counting up my demons, yeah.
Hoping everything's not lost

A/N: Don't assume that everything is okay. They still have a lot of things to work out. The rest of the story will be about them working out the issues that they have and there will be fights, and make ups and trust me the makeup sex will be amazing. Thanks to those who've stuck this story through and I'm sorry that I had to turn Bella into a bitch, but she'll have her retribution.

I'll also be honest about something, I almost considered pulling this story, but decided against it. It's because of you, my readers I voted against it.

Oh and about Edward, he isn't exactly gone yet…