My eyes were set on the house as Jacob drove us up to it. Before he could even stop the car I got out and ran to the door.
UNLOCKED! I said triumphantly to myself and ran inside. The familiar and comforting smell wrapped around me again.
"HOME!" I smiled and twirled around. Buddy came running in behind me and went straight for the couch where he laid down for a nap.
"You are so cute," Jacob laughed as he carried our bags inside. He scooped me up in his arms and kissed me.
"Thank you Mr. Black," I smirked as he put me down again. The relief of being home finally got to me and I yawned. Right away I laid down beside Buddy on the couch.
"Home sweet home huh, Buddy?" I cooed and scratched behind his ear as he purred. He curled up on my stomach and we fell asleep.
Then it came back.. the dream, the babies, the fear. I ran to them. Before I got there they disappeared. I stopped to a halt and looked around. The darkness and red eyes closed in on me. But this time it was different. My eyes admired the familiar children on the
Then it all came rushing back.. The dream, the babies, the fear. But this time it was diffrent. It wasn't Noah and Abel. My eyes scanned the children who were sitting on the ground. It was me and Jacob as kids. A hissing sound came from all around us and when I looked they were back.. the red eyes and darkness. Fear struck me and I almost stumbled back. But the kids.. I had to save them. And it felt strange because I wanted to save them both.. not just Jacob, but myself. It was a new feeling to care about myself over him. But it wasn't us.. Instinctivly I threw myself forward and started running towards them. Every step felt like I had lead in my feet. It took so much energy from me.
"No!" I shouted to the threat around us as they came closer.
"No!" I shouted even louder when the children started to disappear. "NO PLEASE!" I didn't want them to leave. I... loved them..
A sharp pain struck me and I fell onto the ground. I held my hand over my stomach where the pain was the worst. Almost like I was holding myself up as I crawled towards them. Tears fell down my face as I pleaded for them to be safe. Like it would help.. The pain grew stronger the closer I got to them. Just when I reached a hand out towards them, the threat was almost wrapped around us, I smiled when my hand was about to grab them...
"NESS!" I heard and everything went away. "WAKT UP! It's a dream," Jacob shouted and shook me. I snapped out of everything and came rushing back to reality. As I saw Jacob's face it all came back.
He stopped me from saving them.
"No," I started to cry and he wrapped his arms around me. "..I'm sorry," I cried and franticly held myself closer.
"Shhh. Sorry for what?" he whispered and stroked the back of my head. I tried to catch my breath and pulled away from him. He continued to stroke my back as I calmed down. "..take deep breaths."
"I tried. I just couldn't..." I tried to gather my thoughts and put them to words but I couldn't even do that... Let alone save whatever it was I felt so protective of in my dream.. "I'm so sorry."
"Come here," he murmured and held me closer. He wiped away my tears as I kept crying. "..It's okay."
"I'm sorry, Jacob."
"I am to," he mumbled.
"...for what?" I asked. He had nothing to be sorry for.
"I don't know. What are you sorry for?" he asked confused and I started to feel calm by his oh so charming way to break the tension.
"I'm sorry," I chuckled through my tears and pushed back my hair from my face.
"What's going on?"
"I don't know!" I sobbed and he chuckled as my face fell back to his shoulder.
"It's okay. Things in our world rarely make sense," he chuckled and kissed my forehead. "I'm here."
I curled up in his arms even more. He stayed still as a statue as I calmed down. All that surrounded me, all that moved me, was his breaths and heartbeat. I slowly fell back asleep and there it was..
"Run," the threat hissed to me as I was once again running to the children. As the sharp pain once again hit me they all laughed tauntingly and I ignored it. I got back up and ran to them. But once again.. before I could get to them Jacob woke me up.
"NESSIE!" his voice brought me out of it again.
"I'm up!" I yelled in a reflex and wrapped my arms around him. "I'm sorry."
"It's fine... but what's going on?" he murmured and held me closer.
"I don't know..." I mumbled and curled my head into his neck again as my arms were wrapped around him..
Then it hit me.. I pulled away and looked at him in shock, he only looked concerned and confused. Without hesitation I got out of bed but stopped when I felt a bit light headed. I shook it of and ran into the bathroom. With every step I took I felt a hope build up in me.
I dug through the cabinets and drawers franticly until I found it.. a test.
I tore the package open and held it in my hand as I read the instructions.. When the first instructions went along the lines of 'Remove the test from the package' I threw them away and just took it. Was this made for a twelwe year old? I know I have to take it out before I pee on the damn stick!
When I had taken it I washed my hands and concealed it behind my back as I walked out until I carefully, almost displayed it, on the table next to Jacob. But he didn't seem to notice.
"Renesmee?" he whispered and I held a finger up in front of his lips.
"Wait," I whispered and cupped his face in my hands. "..just wait."
"O-okay," he mumbled.
There we were. I stood there holding his face as he wrapped his hands around my back. The moonlight filled the room and I counted carefully in my head. When three minutes had passed the moon had moved across the room. I carefully, with hope, walked over to the table. With a deep breath I picked it up. But I couldn't look.. Instead I shut my eyes and walked over to Jacob. I held it up to him with the answer facing away from us.
"Oh," he mumbled in shock and I nodded. I wanted him to read it. But if I did I could be playing with his heart. A big risk. Before I could ask if he was ready he carefully moved to the side to see the answer. It wasn't just a pregnancy test for us. It was like playing russian roulette with our emotions. If it was negative, it would crush him. But if it was positive.. I looked up at him and saw a tear fall down as he looked at the test. I beathed heavily as he looked deep into my eyes.
"We are having a baby?" he whispered. His words caused a rush of warmth to go through me. But I couldn't believe it..
"We are?" and even though I whispered it my voice cracked. I looked at the test and there it was. A little plus sign was on the screen. "..we are." I now stated. How such a little thing, such a simple sign, can change a life.
"We are having a baby," he cupped my face and stood up. "..we are having a baby." Even more tears gushed out of his eyes as a smile covered his lips. He sat down again and pulled me down on the bed beside him. His big hand carefully lifed up my shirt as he placed feather light kisses on my stomach.
"Thank you..." he mumbled as I was still on shock.
"We are having a baby," I said and finally took it in.
"..thank you, thank you, thank you." he cried and placed his cheek against my stomach as he hugged me. I felt his tears fall down on my skin and I stroked his head. His whole body almost convulsed with the tears. "..thank you." he gave my stomach one long kiss and looked up at me. He smiled sweetly and crawled up to my face. As his hand cupped my face he slowly pulled in for a kiss. A softer kiss than he has ever given me before. I closed my eyes as the kiss intensified when more tears came from him. When he finally pulled away I let my eyes flicker open. He wiped away tears with his thumb that I didn't even know I was letting out.
"...thank you," he whispered to me. I placed one hand on his cheek and pulled him in for another sweet kiss. Then it all hit me.. the possibilities of the outcome. Horrific scenerios swirled around in my mind.
I felt hopeless, depressed, angry, scared.. but most of all.. happy.
"..thank YOU," I smiled and he chuckled. He went back down to my stomach and kissed it.
"I will protect you from everything," he said happily and stroked my stomach. "..I love you so much." I laid back and watched the ceiling.
Happy, I told myself.. and I was. But still scared.
I fell asleep as Jacob murmured sweet words to my stomach. To our baby.
The morning.
I woke up by Jacob talking to my stomach. He was still wrapped around my lower body and murmuring sweet words to it. My hand was still buried in his hair and I soothingly brush my fingers along his scalp and smile. He looks up at me in surprise.
"Sorry, did I wake you?" he murmured.
"No," I shook my head.. "..well yeah." I chuckled and pulled him closer. "..but its fine. It was a nice way to wake up."
He smiled and never let one of his hands leave my stomach. I smiled and pulled his face closer for a kiss. No matter what is going to happen... it will be worth it.
"We have to tell Carlisle, he has to check on the baby." He had so much enthusiasm that it almost shocked me. Usually he never wanted to leave the bed..
"I just woke up," I mumbled and pulled him closer for another kiss. He reciprocate the kiss with as much passion as I excepted... but that was only because as I was kissing him, he was carrying me out of bed.
"Well I can carry you there," he insisted with a smile.
"Are you going to carry US?" I smiled and kissed his cheek.
"Oh, almost forgot about you little guy. Sorry," he said to my stomach and I laughed.
As he carried us through the forest I closed my eyes and imagined the baby. Maybe at least one of the golden boys I had dreamed of. When we arrived he put me down in the hallway.
"Where is mom and dad?" I asked Alice as she came running out of a room. She wrapped her arms around us both. She knew..
"They will be here in about five minutes," she smiled. "..Carlisle is waiting upstairs."
I smiled at Jacob as he took my hand. We walked upstairs and there Carlisle was.
"Renesmee," he smiled and hugged me. He shook Jacob's hand and we walked inside. "..you know the routine." he pointed to the table and we walked over.
"You have done this before?" Jacob whispered, like it would help.
"Yeah.. It was nothing though. Help me up?" I asked and he lifted me onto the table.
"Pull up your shirt please," Carlisle said as he got the machine. I carefully pulled up my shirt and looked at my stomach. To human eyes there wasn't a difference.. but to mine.. it was life changing.
"..let's see." Carlisle said and put the cold gel on me. He moved the wand over my stomach and the screen blurred in black and white.. then I heard it. Jacob grabbed my hand tighter.
"Wow," Jacob whispered in my ear.
The heart. It was like music to my ears. Everytime it beat I blinked, almost in fear of it stopping.
"What's wrong, Doc?" Jacob asked and I saw Carlisle. He looked intense as he moved the wand around. Carlisle held his hand up as a gesture for us to be quiet.
"There is two heart beats..." he whispered after a while. For a second, I registered his words as meaning something was wrong with the baby, but then I looked at the screen. All of the sudden I could see something as he paused the screen. He pointed his finger in two circles around two little things that looked like peanuts. I chuckled happily and Jacob squeezed my hand.
"Twins?" he murmured to Carlisle.
Twins? My golden boys? It meant so much to not be just blessed with one.. but with two. But it also made it risky.
"Twins," Carlisle smiled and wiped the gel away from my stomach. But I only focused on my little peanuts. Carlisle smiled at us and gave Jacob a pat on the shoulder before he walked outside.
"Twins," I whispered to Jacob as the door closed behind Carlisle. Our eyes tore from the screen and we looked deep into each others eyes. A little pool of tears was gently resting on his waterline. We both chuckled happily and he kissed our intertwined hands. I showed him the dream I had, of the children, us. But only the good parts. I didn't feel like ruining this moment.
"You knew," he chuckled and kissed me. He wrapped one hand behind my head and placed our foreheads together. "..thank you."
I clasped on hand on my stomach and he put his hand on mine. We smiled at each other and kissed again.
"..I love you," he whispered and placed another feather light kiss on my lips.
"I love you too," I smiled. It was like only me and him existed. Nothing else. Just the essence of us both growing inside me.
Then we both felt the smell. "..they are here," I smiled and they both walked into the room. My mom looked confused as my dad was smiling.
You cheater, I grinned at him.
"What's going on..." she began but stopped as she saw the monitor. It was still paused on the babies... wow... babies.
She looked back at me and then dad. "... YOU KNEW!" she scolded him as he chuckled. She tore away from dad and ran up to hug Jacob. She embraced him with a big powerful hug while the one she gave me was like a butterflies wings gently embracing me.
"..I am so happy for you," she whispered and cupped my face in her hands.
"We truly are," dad smiled and embraced mom. "..but let's leave them alone." Dad whispered to mom and she had a hard time looking away from the monitor. But he got her out. I smiled to Jacob and took his hand.
"Help me down?" I asked and he gently carried me down from the table. He kissed me softly and hugged me. I placed my head on his shoulder and my eyes caught our reflection in the mirror. He was smiling back at me in the mirror and we pulled away.
The mirror wasn't something that I loved. I had never felt as beautiful as my perfect vampire family but now.. I was pleased with the woman looking back at me.
"Thank you," Jacob mumbled again and leaned his chin on my shoulder from behind. He kissed my cheek and I leaned closer to him.
CLICK!
We both looked to the side and saw Alice with the camera.
"Sorry..." she lowered the camera and we smiled. "I'm so happy for you guys!" We both smiled as she hugged us. I looked over Alice's shoulder and saw Rosalie walk inside. She looked a bit nervous and unsure. I held my arms out to her and she smiled.
"I'm really happy for you," she smiled and hugged me. She looked a bit unsure at Jacob and threw her arms around him. "..you too."
Jacob looked at me with shock over Rosalie's shoulder. I shrugged my shoulders as she pulled away. Emmett came stomping inside with his eyebrows raised.
"Stealing my wife, Jacob?" Emmett scoffed and Jake shook his head. He seemed to think it was all strange and took it with full seriousness.
"Just saying congratulations to the parents," Rosalie smiled and hugged Emmett who was in shock. I just assumed Alice had told EVERYONE.
"Parents?" he gasped and looked at me and Jacob. "..and I missed the moment when these two found out!" he pointed to my parents who had entered the room.
I thought you were going to give us some time alone, I smirked to dad who chuckled.
"..oh man!" Emmett sighed angrily. He shook his head and walked up to Jacob. "..guess a 'Congratulations' is in order." he gave Jacob a pat on the back. Jake almost stumbled over and muffled a grunt by Emmett's hard pat.
"Don't be such a kid Emmett. We will have enough of those running around soon," Rose smirked and hugged him. Jacob tried to hide the fact that Emmett's pat hurt and slowly scooted over to me.
"This is a safe zone right?" he whispered to me and I nodded.
"So this is where everyone is," Jasper came inside the room with a smile.
"Jasper, Jacob and I are..." I began but Emmett interrupted me.
"..HAVING A BABY!" Emmett said proudly and I frowned at him... "..you will get to tell other people. I want some time in the lime light."
Both Jacob and I shook our heads.
"No," Jacob muttered to him. When Emmett raised his hand he almost backed away but he only flaled it around in a 'Cut it out' gesture.
"Didn't need anyone to tell me that. I can feel it!" Jasper smiled and hugged me. "..I'm almost bursting with happiness man!" he hugged Jacob who once again got a hard pat on the back.
"Man I'm never going to be able to hold our children if this keeps happening," Jacob moaned and straightened out his back.
"Sorry," Jasper smirked and gently hugged me.
"Yeah, good job man!" Emmett said and was about to give him another pat on the back but backed away with his hands up. "..sorry."
"Don't worry," I grinned and gently patted Jacob on the back. "..he will heal."
"Not so sure about that," he grunted and we all laughed.
"Please tell me I will get to dress them up!" Alice dragged me over to a chair and insisted on me sitting down. I happily did so.
"Well of course," I smiled and Rosalie rushed over to us.
"..and please tell me I will get a say in the name picking this time!" she blurted out and I flinched back, completely offended by her words.
"So Renesmee isn't a good name?" my mom walked up behind her and she cursed silently.
"I like names like Emily and uh I don't know.. Rosalie." she said and we all laughed. "..classic names. But I love Renesmee. It fits her perfectly!"
"..yeah," my mom smirked and walked over to me. They all continued talking as I motioned for Alice to come closer.
"What?" she whispered.
"The Volturi," I whispered and she shook her head.
"Don't worry. I will take care of everything," she assured me and I relaxed. ".. now time for more pictures!" she jumped up and down with the camera in hand and pushed Jacob to me as I stood up. "You will want to remember every second of this moment!"
I rolled my eyes as Jacob, to my surprise, took my hand and happily posed for the picture.
"Show me the love," she said to me and I smiled to Jacob. His smile made me chuckle.
"What?" I asked him.
"Guess there won't be another six months at Dartmouth?" he grinned and I laughed.
"Oh stop it," I nudged him and he hugged me tighter. I looked myself in the mirror once more. At me and my children. I smiled.
So I am really happy with my decision to finally give you what you want. KIDS! :D I really hope you enjoy it and I can't wait to hear your feedback. And if you hate it then please be kind ^^
And help with baby names please? :)
Lots of love, m
Btw Im going by this picture : .se/imgres?um=1&hl=sv&sa=N&tbo=d&biw=1366&bih=628&tbm=isch&tbnid=qQxM_8rrQ5ltgM:&imgrefurl= . &docid=g-8ZkICRdwZs6M&imgurl= display_pic_with_logo/474871/474871,1304527361, &w=450&h=352&ei=s0DjUJzxLoWo4gS9wYCADw&zoom=1&iact=hc&vpx=671&vpy=126&dur=39&hovh=198&hovw=254&tx=143&ty=118&sig=110605228682294168131&page=1&tbnh=142&tbnw=182&start=0&ndsp=21&ved=1t:429,r:4,s:0,i:99
So if I write like one of those numbers in the start or ending of a chapter then that number represents how big she is according to those pictures.