Two weeks later – (7)

Alice had decided to throw me a baby shower so today I had to get out of bed. Which I enjoyed but my family was in pain by just looking at me. As I undressed I looked at my body. I had lost some more weight, I could see my ribs and I had bandadges around my ribs from the broken bones. They had finally started to heal but it was hard when my body needed energy for just being now. I was living for three. I put on a cute maternity dress, a button up shirt underneath and a cardigan to cover up my skinny shoulders poking out and Rosalie did my hair and makeup. It felt great to look (somewhat) good again. It was like covering up the pain. Alice had put out flowers and candles all over the place. The smell of lillys filled up the room.

Rachel, my family and the pack was there. They all brought gifts of course. What else did you expect when Alice had thrown a party.

When I walked down the stairs everybody said hello and wanted to touch the belly. Jake never let go of me and looked so proud when they all touched my stomach. I don't know if he was pretending to be happy or if he actually was but either way.. It made me relax.

"Hey, sister!" Rachel smiled and hugged me. "How are you?" she looked at my tummy.

"I'm okay." I smiled. I was starting to believe myself when I said that.

"You are getting really big!" Rachel smiled.

"Yeah. About to pop any second almost!" I laughed and we walked over to the others.

"Hey, Seth!" I lightened up and gave him a hug. Seth was the nicest person I had ever meet. So sincere and thoughtful.

"Hey, Ness. How are you?" he pushed out a smile. I guess Jake has told him.

"Hanging in there."

"Should you be standing?" he walked me over to my seat at the table. "You should rest."

"Thanks." I sat down slowly and felt the babies move.

"Everybody ready for dinner?" Alice smiled to everyone and got good responses. Her and Rosalie placed the food out on the table and my family was getting the food ready since they didnt eat. After a while they sat down and talked with everyone. The dinner was very pleasant and filled with conversation and laughter.

Getting some food felt great. Keeping it was another thing.. Everything went to the babies which was good but for some reason nothing for me. Guess the babies were like their father. Hungry and always loving food.

The conversation around the table turned to pregnancy.

"The best thing about pregnancy is definetly the sex drive women get!" Paul laughed and raised his glass. He must have had a few to many. Everyone laughed at him.

"It's awful! You are fat and mad all the time but the slightest touch will get you going!" Rachel laughed and Jake flinched when she said that.

"I can't say I experienced any of that.." my mom laughed and blushed.

"That came after.." my dad smiled and pulled her closer. I rolled my eyes.

"Did you get cravings for crazy food too?" Rachel asked mom.

She laughed and looked at dad. "I guess you can say that.."

"It's like you are so happy about the baby but everything else sucks about pregnancy. And the pain when you give birth... MAN!" Rachel muttered.

"Oh, come on. Child birth isn't that awful! You will survive." Paul laughed.

"Well.." my mom joked and the room lightened up again and the conversation subject changed.

When everyone had eaten and talked for a while Alice jumped up and clapped her hands. "Time for games!" she ran over to the couch are and gestured for everyone to sit down. We all walked over and Jake and I sat in the couch.

"So what games are we playing?" Jake asked.

Alice smiled and ran to the kitchen and came back with a tray of baby food.

"Put this on.." Alice smiled and handed Jake a blind fold.

"You know I'm married right?" Jake teased and Alice rolled her eyes. He put it on and got ready. "Okay. What now?"

Alice handed me a bottle of baby food and a spoon. "You are going to taste diffrent baby foods and guess the taste of them."

"Oh no.." Jake mumbled and everyone laughed. I got a big portion of food on the spoon.

"Open your mouth. Here comes the choo choo train!" I teased and everyone laughed.

When he tasted the food his face turned in disgust. "Cab driver feet?"

Everyone laughed. "NO! It's supposed to be banana and pears." Alice giggled. "Now you have to finish the whole jar!"

And sure.. He chugged it down. Not willingly and with joy but he did. Anything to please the crowd.

"Another one..?" I teased him and he got the blind fold of and moved away while everyone laughed. "Seth?"

He frowned but was a good boy and participated in the game and we opened gifts.

After the games were done we all sat and talked for a while. I started to get tired and the pain started to come. After every time I ate the babies went crazy and kicked. It made me feel sick.

Bathroom..

My dad ran up to me and carefully lead me to the bathroom. He held my hair back and I threw up.

"Enough for today.." he whispered and stroked my back. I stayed in there for about ten minutes before I felt okay again and when I walked out everyone was gone.

"Bed?" Jake asked and dad handed me over to him. I said goodbye to everyone and Jake carried me up to the bed. I curled up and he laid down next to me. I searched for his lips in the dark and only got a quick peck. I went back for more but he pushed me away.

"Ness.." he moaned.

"Please..?"

"No.. and please don't ask me." he muttered and turned over. He curled up and laid down on his pillow. "Good night."

I wrapped my arms around the belly and felt them kick. I flinched but tried to hold it in. The pain was constant for about thirty minutes and I could not take it anymore.

"Jake?" I whispered. He turned to me right away.

"What's the matter?"

"It hurts.." I mumbled.

"Come here.." he pulled me closer and started to rub my belly. It helped a bit but not much. I was mostly just happy to have him close. I was afraid he hated me for doing this. For convincing him.

"You didn't convince me.. I just wanted to. I pretty much waited until you just asked." he murmured. I looked at him. His face was covered with pain. "I was dumb to agree to it.."

"You.. Don't want this anymore?" I cried and held my hands on the tummy.

He sat up and took my hands. "No no no. That's not what I meant. I promise." He kissed my hands. "I want this more than anything. But I can't stand seeing you like this. You are my world. You are my life. You are the only reason I'm still here." He started to cry and held my hands to his mouth and kissed them. "I just can't stand the thought of losing you.."

"You won't lose me."

"I can't live without you... And I won't let my children grow up without a mother like I did."

When he said that I broke down and cried. I pulled him closer and he laid down on my arm with his hand on my bruised belly.

"They won't have too.. You won't have too.." I kissed his head and comforted him until he stopped crying and fell asleep.

I had thought about how this might effect him but I never thought the pregnancy would be so hard. And I never thought he would have to fear the things he is afraid of now. I knew I not only had to fight for my children, but for Jacob too. For Sarah.

More pregnancy chapters or straight to the birth? ;)

And please help with names.

Love , m