Pain. That was all I could feel. That was all that filled up every being of me. Every little piece of my body. Every inch of my mind. The pain shot from my shoulders and grew as it reached down my spine and to my stomach.

Something is wrong..

I panted franticly and let my hand move to the side to try and find Jacob. I grabbed his arm and squeezed.

"Jacob.." I cried with a muffled voice. "Jacob..." I shook him lightly and he mumbled something.

Okay Renesmee, I told myself and rubbed the belly. My hands light touch made the pain shoot through my body with more power than before. Don't panic. It wont help!

I tried to take a deep breath but it felt like a fire burst out in my body and I screamed. The reflex created more pain as I inhaled a herd of fresh air that felt like acid. Jacob flew up.

"Renesmee?" he asked franticly and I nodded with tears in my eyes and he panicked. "What's wrong? Are they kicking?"

"Something's wrong Jacob," I cried and he froze.

"No," he mumbled and I saw tears from in his eyes. "We will make it," he said and put his hands on my stomach. I wasn't sure if he told me or himself that. He took a deep breath and gathered himself. "Did your water break?"

"I don't know," I sniffled and looked down at my big bruised stomach. My hand moved to the sheets lower down and I felt the wetness. "I think so."

"Okay," he nodded and lifted my white dress. I panicked a bit when he disappeared behind my stomach and mumbled something. "I have to call Carlisle."

"Don't leave me!" I cried and took his hand before he got out of bed.

"I have to call Carlisle!" he said and ran to the phone.

"Jacob!" I yelled as he ran out of the room. A strong pain formed in my spine and I clasped my hands on the sides of my stomach and screamed. It felt like they were franticly moving to get out already. They were in panic...

"Carlisle! It's Jacob, Renesmee says something is wrong and..." my scream of pain interrupted him and no words were needed. "..see you soon."

He ran back into the room and took my hand in his.

"When will he be here?" I panted and Jacob wiped the sweat away from my forehead.

"Soon, any second now. I promise. Now breath slowly in and out," he put pressure on the lower part of my stomach and the pain eased up a bit. I did as he said and could finally get a word out.

"How did you do that?" I panted.

"What?"

"The pain eased up."

"Carlisle taught me a few things," he said and this time I think he even felt the baby kick. "WOW!" he shouted and took his hand away as I screamed.

"He has to get here now, they want out." I cried. The thought of losing them was killing me. I can't loose them.

"Calm down. Everything will be fine," he kissed my forehead and moved down on the bed and put my legs up. "When did your water break?"

"I don't know," I cried at my failiure. "I was sleeping!"

"Okay calm down Renesmee," he almost yelled as my panic rubbed of on him. I cramped up as both of them now moved.

"NO! I CAN'T DO THIS!" I yelled. "Jacob I can't. It's too much," I cried when the pain shot through me again and I gasped. "..they are too strong."

"Yes you can!" Jacob yelled back and I went quiet. He knew what I meant by that. I wouldn't make it.

"Jacob.." I began.

"Don't! I know you can do this. Listen to me," he said and held my head up to our foreheads touched. "..you are the strongest person I have ever meet. There is nothing in this world that you can't do. There is no one in this world I admire, love, trust or believe in more than you."

His words made me believe in myself. It reminded me of what we both had been fighting for. What we had always wanted. A little piece of us both.

He gave me a questioning look like he was wondering if I had listened and understood. I nodded and he gently pressed his lips against mine.

"I love you," he murmured and kissed my forehead.

"I love you," I whispered and he moved down again. He folded my legs and lightly pushed them to my stomach.

"Now come on," he said and the place his eyes were set at made me feel very strange and exposed. "I'm here for you."

"But Carlisle.." I cried and cramped up again.

"Can you hold it in and not push?"

"No," I whispered. I wanted to hold it in until Carlisle was here. What if something went wrong?

"Then come on. I'm here for you and I will take care of everything to the best of my abilities."

"Jacob," I whispered and he looked into my eyes. "I'm scared," I admitted and held the tears back.

"Why?" he asked.

"What if I fail them?"

"You won't." he said without hesitation and it almost stunned me. The truth was I felt like if I began to push I would be slowly and painfully saying goodbye to him. I wouldn't make it..

Don't give up! I yelled at myself. You have fought so well until now. Don't give up on them! An image of the two little golden boys I had imagined filled my mind and I curled up to gather my energy and push.

"Good, now come on." He took my hand to help me gather energy and push. It felt like a heavy rock was pushing down on my spine.

"One.. Two… Three… Four… Five… Six.. Almost done.. Come on.. TEN! Relax!"

I grunted and almost threw myself down on the pillow again and gasped for air.

"Move." I heard Carlisle say and Jacob was at my side the next second, holding my hand. "We are going to pick up where you left of okay?"

"Mhmm," I muttered and a scream escaped my lips. Jacob kissed my hand and my father was behind Carlisle to assist him if anything happened. My mom came to my other side and was sitting in the bed. I felt a sharp almost pinch like feeling in my right thigh. My skin tingled for a few seconds and then I saw Carlisle move around more. The most nerve wracking thing was that the feeling in my skin had gone away.. I didn't know what he was doing. I wanted control. I wanted to know what was happening.

No time to be shy! my inner voice tried to lighten up the mood as I looked down at my stomach. My dads head and Carlisle's peaked out.

"Okay, I think you have to push about three more times and then the first will be out," he said and he handed dad an instrument back. Oh God.. had he used that? Can this get any worse? I turned my head to the side and saw the calender hanging on the wall.. Oh no. "..when I tell you to push you really have to give it your all. Okay?" Carlisle said and snapped me out of it.

"IT'S TO EARLY! THEY AREN'T SUPPOSED TO BE HERE FOR ANOTHER WEEK!" I screamed when I realised how early they were.

"They seem to be ready so you have to get ready. Now... three.. two...one.. PUSH!"

I curled up again and squeezed my mother's hand. Hissing noises escaped my lips as I gave it my all.

"Come on Renesmee, you can do it," she cheered me on but I only fell back on the pillow. The fact that everyone believed in me so much and I couldn't do it only made it worse.. I had never been the kind of girl who would ever give up and that is exactly what I am doing right now..

"Sorry," I cried silently to Jacob and gathered my energy for the next push. He shook his head and before he could say anything Carlisle interrupted him.

"It's okay Ness. Anything is progress and better than nothing," he assured me and dad handed him another instrument. He used it quickly and gave it back. "One more push."

I nodded and started to push right away. My body curled up in pain. It felt like something moved a little bit furthur down on my body and was now stuck. Panicked I fell down on the pillow and sniffled.

"GOOD!" Carlisle assured me. "Now just one more."

"One?" I almost gasped. He will be here in one?

"If you give it your all he will," my dad said and Jacob held my leg up as my mom held the other. I smiled to him.

"One more," Jacob smiled and kissed our hands.

"Okay Renesmee. One big push now." mom said and I held mine and Jacob's intertwined hands closer to my face.

"PUSH!" Carlisle yelled and I curled up. I clasped my hand on moms back and heard her shirt rip as I dug my nails into her back.

With every possible fibre of my existance I gave it my all. The pain had gone to a more bearable level since I knew that one more push.. and he would be here. My scream of pain drowned out as I pushed more and more.

Everything went quiet around me. All I heard was a ringing sound in my head. A huge comfort rushed over me as I looked at Jacob. His eyes were set deep into mine and an almost sudden emptyness came. Automatically my head fell back on the pillow and I closed my eyes. Right when I took a breath I heard a new person in the room do the same... and an almost sweet scream filled the room. With unsure eyes I looked up to see him.

"It's a boy," Carlisle smiled and held him up to me. A blinding light from the lamp behind them made me have to focus on him even more. Jacob went to cut the cord and Carlisle happily handed him over. My eyes carefully but protectivly followed him all the way as Jacob made his way over to me.

"Hey little guy," Jacob smiled to him. "..welcome to this crazy world." he chuckled and gave him a kiss on the forehead before he leaned him down to my chest. I watched in amazement as this perfect little person I had created moved around in Jacob's arms. His screams stopped the moment he opened his eyes and looked at me. But not the way Abel and Noah had looked at me.. he made eye contact. He saw me.

He squirmed around to me and Jacob put him down closer to my chest. We were now face to face. He smacked his lips and whined a bit until he felt my skin against his. I smiled at him.

"Anthony..." I whispered with a weak voice. Almost like I was trying out a new word. I had said the name out loud to myself before but never like this.. The name, word or whatever you want to say, now had a meaning. It belonged to him. To this little golden skinned boy with jet black hair and warm hazel eyes. He already had his fathers plump lips and fierce look. Until now his father, Jacob, had been the most beautiful man I had ever laid my eyes on. But this little boy in his arms won.

He's perfect. Almost impossibly so.

My smile went away when Jacob handed him over to my dad.

"Where is he going?" I asked with a hoarse voice.

"He is just cleaning him up for you," Carlisle smiled and moved down again. I nodded.

"Is he okay?" I whispered to Jacob who was back to holding my hand.

"He is perfect," Jacob cried silently with a smile as he kissed out intertwined hands. He continued mumbling 'perfect' over and over again. I smiled at him like I had done at Anthony.

"AH!" I flinched in pain as the other boy moved.

"Round two," Carlisle said and I rubbed my belly with the free hand mom had given me. "You will probably only need to push five more time and the next will be out. This one is not as ready as Anthony was. It's having some troubles."

I nodded in silent agreement. I already felt like I was hanging on by a thread and the pain was pushing me of the edge. But what could I do? Give up on William? No.. I already had his name picked out and the image of him grew stronger with the pain.

"You have to hurry," my dad said and I heard the panic in his voice.

"Why? Is something wrong?" Jacob asked.

My dad hesitated and the panic grew in me.

"DAD!" I yelled.

"The cord is wrapped aorund the neck," he said. "..the baby is suffocating."

"WHAT? NO!" I cried. "GET HIM OUT!"

"You have to push," Carlisle began.

"NO, IT'S TO SLOW! JUST DO WHATEVER! FAST! NOW!" I cried and looked over at the table with medical instruments where a sharp scalpell laid. "GET HIM OUT!"

"NO!" Jacob yelled when he saw me move towards it. "Just push okay? HURRY."

I curled back up and held Jacob's hand as we looked deep into each others eyes. When I looked into his eyes I could see the pain on my own face in them. I almost felt like I was sinking into those deep, safe eyes. As Carlisle cheered me on and Jacob mumbled words of encouragement it was like someone was screaming in my head.

DON'T LET THE BOY DIE! It yelled to me. And of course it was right...

Everything went in slow motion. I turned my eyes from Jacob and over to Carlisle before my head followed. The look on his face said it all. A smile broke out on his lips and the pain left my body. I felt like an empty shell that could crack at any moment. When no screams erupted in the room I panicked and grew weaker. My head fell back on the pillow but my eyes were set on the same place.. waiting for William Jacob Junior Black.

I heard Carlisle cut the cord again and still no scream. Everything started to feel dizzy and my hope faded. When Carlisle stood up he held him in his arms. But he wasn't moving.. at least not like Anthony had been. I forced my eyes to stay open and focus as the baby let out little whines.

"It's a girl," Carlisle smiled and held HER up and handed HER over to Jacob.

"Wow," Jacob mumbled and looked at her with amazement. My eyes still couldn't focus but I could finally see her when he leaned her down to my chest.

There she was. My eyes took in every inch of her with my eyes and she finally opened those beautiful eyes. They were such an amazing mix. I could see myself, Jacob and even a hint of green in some lights. Those perfect and unusual eyes were set on Jacob. Daddy's girl.

"Sarah..." I whispered and my voice cracked. I felt my lips tremble into a smile and I almost coughed a chuckle. "..she is so tiny."

Jacob chuckled with me and held her closer to kiss her forehead. "Just like mommy."

I tried to keep my eyes open but I couldn't.. I sunk into darkness.

I have been waiting to upload this and I just couldn't hold it anymore! So today is my birthday and this is my "celebration" with you all! ^^ Hope I did not disappoint!

Can't wait to hear your feedback. Promise to start uploading regularly again soon.