Jacob POV

During this hectic and scary process I had doubted my abilities. I was sure I would fail them... but we had made it.

I had my daughter in my arms and watched her look at me for the first time. Nothing could stop me from being happy right now. Her little almost green eyes were dead set on me as she looked just like Renesmee did when she first saw me. It brought such amazing warmth to my heart.

"She is so beautiful," I whispered and looked over at Renesmee. Her eyes were flickering as they were set on Sarah. The weakest smile I had ever seen formed on her lips and went away quicker than it had appeared. She slowly closed her eyes.

"Renesmee?" I mumbled in disbelief and almost chuckled. "Renesmee?" I muttered and leaned down closer to her. I tried my best to listen to her breaths but Sarah's strong beating heart drowned it out.

"BELLA!" I yelled and she came to my side as I handed Sarah over.

"Hello beautiful," I heard Bella say as she walked away. I went straight back to Renesmee and cupped her face in my hands.

"Nessie?" I whispered and stroked her cheek. "CARLISLE!" I yelled when I got no response at all. "HER HEART IS SLOWING DOWN!"

Carlisle came to my side and checked her pulse. He opened her eyes to check the pupils and when his little routine took to long I pushed him to the side. I started doing CPR.

"Wake up," I mumbled and pressed down. "Wake up.. wake up.. wake up... come on! WAKE UP!"

"Jacob," Carlisle said in a soothing voice and put his hand on my shoulder. "She is not gone yet."

"Do something before she is!" I demanded and kept pressing down on her chest. "Come on," I felt tears coming down my cheeks but I held them back. I had to concentrate on hearing her heart.

"Step back," Carlisle said and he had something in his hands.

"What is that?" I asked.

"Defibrillator," he said quickly and began a horrible process. Her chest almost flew up as he pressed it down. Again and again and again and again..

I backed away sat down on a rocking chair that Esmee had brought over. Her lips were slightly parted and her eyes shut.. she looked so peaceful as she was slipping away from me. There was nothing I could do. I couldn't stop it.

I stomped over to Edward who was holding one of the babies.

Will they grow up like I did?

"I don't know. I don't have Alice's gift.." he mumbled and the baby cried as he squirmed toawards me. "..you should take him and go. Being in here..." he looked over at Renesmee with pain. "It's making them worry."

"Come here," I said softly and Edward handed me Anthony. Bella held Sarah as we walked downstairs. I sat down on the couch as Bella seemed to want to keep Sarah away from me. She wanted her all to herself. Just when I was about to protest Anthony put his little hand around my finger.

The universe could have gone up in flames.. it wouldn't have made me look away from him at this moment. As his little hand squeezed my finger with an unusual strangth, nothing like Abel and Noah, I smiled. He was already a strong boy. His eyes seemed to inspect my finger as he moved it around and I kept balance. If I didn't he would have poked his eye out. He moved it carefully towards his face and took in the scent. It seemed calming to him. He put his cheek against my hand and curled closer to my chest. When I moved a finger around he for the first time chuckled. The sweetest, purest chuckle I had ever heard. He moved my finger around and with the full row of perfect teeth he bit me. I smiled even bigger at him and he seemed to think the taste was quite good. In surprise at his reaction I looked at my hand and noticed I still had blood on it.

"Oh," I mumbled and Alice came rushing in.

"Is she going to be okay?" Bella asked and stole my line. Alice froze up as she saw the babies.

"I haven't seen anything," she mumbled and Rosalie came inside behind her.

"May I come in?" Rosalie asked and we were all surprised. I stomped over to her and her eyes were set on Anthony. I handed him over and she seemed in shock as I ran upstairs.

Carlisle was still trying to keep Renesmee going but her heart.. it was still slowing down.

"Why is it slowing down?" I asked and walked up to her.

"Her body can't heal all the damage and keep going as normal. We have to keep her heart going," he explained and put up a drip of blood. "Her human insides are to fragile and weak."

Emmett and Jasper rushed into the room with equiptment.

"Here," Emmett handed him something that was linked to the machine as Jasper and Edward were setting it up. Carlisle placed it over her mouth and I died a bit inside.

"She can't breath?" I started to hyperventilate.

"Jacob you have to calm down or leave," Jasper said.

"I'm not going anywhere," I growled and breathed heavily. I took a threatening step towards him. Edward and Emmett took my arms to hold me back. "LET GO OF ME!" I yelled and they pushed me out of the room.

"The babies need you," Edward growled and shut the doors. Emmett stayed outside the door like a guard and I hurled myself up towards the door. He stood right in front of me and pushed me back down.

"Don't think so buddy," he growled and I snorted.

"You want me to rip your head of? Cause I'll do it," I growled and he didn't move a muscle. Alice came up behind me and pulled me to the side.

"Let's not fight," she muttered and pointed downstairs. "..the little people are waiting for you."

I of course wanted to be there for them. More than anything. But I couldn't just leave Renesmee. Their mother. My soul mate. I felt like I was abandoning her. But I had to take care of them.. Nessie would never forgive me if I didn't. Because she would wake up. She would live to kick my ass for not spoiling our kids with attention. She would find out and have me neutered.

I hung my head in shame and walked downstairs where Bella was sitting on the couch with the babies.. My children.

"Look," she smiled and moved the babies so they could see me. "Daddy is here."

I smiled at her words and sat down beside them all. She handed me Anthony and kept Sarah all to herself again. Guess she likes to have a little baby girl with some of her features. I chuckled at the thought and rocked Anthony back and forth.

"How things have turned out," she whispered and kept looking at Sarah. The light form the fireplace made her skin shine lightly and she really looked beautiful. Haven't thought of Bella like that in a long time.. I just saw so much of Renesmee in her.

"Yeah," I mumbled.

"You thought I would sit like this with our child didn't you?" she chuckled and I blushed.

"Yeah," I said again and looked at Anthony. "..well I never thought you would be my mother in law. That's for sure.."

"Can't say I ever imagined it like this either," she chuckled. "..but look how great it has all turned out." she held Sarah up a bit.

"Perfect," I smiled at Sarah. My daughter.

"She looks so much like Renesmee," Bella smiled and stroked her cheek. "..just look at that face."

"It's a gorgeous one," I smiled.

A couple of days later

Renesmee was still in the same condition. We had her on machines as her body healed up. Which I hope would be soon..
Carlisle had assured me that she would be fine. All she needed was time. I was happy to give her time but I was scared that she would miss something. All she had missed so far were a few baths, meal times and laughters. I was no big loss but I know how she works.. she will be sad for missing a single second.

"Are you okay man?" Paul put his hand on my shoulder. The pack and imprints had come over to meet the babies and bring my mind to 'happier places' as Emily said. Charlie and Billy had already melted over them.

"I'm fine," I mumbled. "..I just wonder when she will wake up."

"I'm sure it won't be to long," he comforted me. "..Doc said she had made great progress already."

"You talked to Carlisle?" I asked in surprise and he nodded. "..well strangers things have happened."

I walked over to the couch where Rachel was sitting with Sarah. She was still crying from when she heard her name, she had rocked her back and forth and whispered her name. Both Anthony and Sarah were the perfect mix of everyone. Behind every line on their face there was already a story and piece of someone. And they had finally started to look more like little people rather then babies. Anthony's hair was fuller, longer but still just as jet black. Small curls from Charlie and my side had started to form in it. Sarah's hair had grown more and her lighter waves had come in. Edward and Renesmee represented themselves in the light coppertone in her light brown hair. But the most prominant mark on them were from me.. their skin. A perfect light russet color. Anthony had a few shades darker skin while Sarah's was more like honey. But the gold still shines through. Just like Renesmee and I had imagined them. So perfect. So beautiful. Just like before they were born they were still growing irregularly but so fast. Maybe I was imagining it but Sarah's eyes had lost their green shade more and more.. I was probably imagining. I haven't been getting much sleep lately.

"She is really beautiful," Rachel whispered and rocked her back and forth.

"Like her mother," I smiled and looked at my daughter, fitting perfectly, in my sisters arms. Sarah clasped her hand around Rachel's finger.

"Yes. You will see her soon," Rachel whispered to Sarah and stroked her cheek.

"Did she just...?" I began.

"Yeah," she smiled at me. "..she is truly amazing." Rachel kissed my cheek.

I heard Anthony fussing in the kitchen where Edward was feeding him. When it came to food he was just as crazy about it as I was. He was a bit more outspoken while Sarah was a bit more reserved. He liked to laugh and be in the middle of things as they happened while Sarah liked to observe and laugh on the side lines. Which was good in its own way.. she could easily overshine anyone.

"Need more milk," Edward came out with an empty bottle in his hand while Anthony laid perfectly in his arms. "..need to pump."

"I got it," Bella took the bottle and ran up to Renesmee. I should probably be the one to do it but I couldn't bring myself to go up there when I didn't have to. Sleeping in there was no problem. I sleept better when she was there. Incase she woke up I would be there. But to just be awake with those machines.. I can't.

"You don't have to," Edward said and handed me Anthony. "He missed you."

"You missed me little guy?" I smiled at him.

"You are his favorite thing in this world so far. After food of course," he smiled and walked away. For the first time since they were born I let out a true chuckle.

"You like food huh?" I whispered to him and we smiled. Rachel cuddled up to me and Sarah reached for my arm.

"You will see her soon," I whispered to her and kissed the little perfect hand. "..soon."

I myself didn't even know if that was true. But I knew I couldn't explain everything to her. She was smart already but not that smart. The emotional pain would kill her. So I had to keep my mind to myself. I don't even know if I could handle the thought of her not waking up. Just hearing the machines on the floor above was killing me. I knew I had to sooner or later. But not now.. only when she woke up or we were sleeping.. or if we would have to say goodbye.

Sad chapter but I thought I would squeeze in one before the next one that I have some ideas for. Hope you enjoyed it!

And if you didnt then please be kind ^^

love, m