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I took a deep breath. I wasn't good with words. I was him who filled my world with words. Him who filled books with how much he loved me but now it was my turn. My turn to change his world with my words. I let out the breath and uttered the first thing that came to mind.

"I love you," my heart quickened. I refused the urge to run and hide. I stood my ground.

He tugged my hand almost begging me to come over. I obliged. His lips found mine and I saw fireworks just like the million times before. When I pulled back there was a smile on my face and I felt better that I had in weeks.

My phone beeped and I looked at it. It was Lanie.

"Keep talking to writer boy. I'm going home. Call me when you want a ride back."

My hand was still enclosed in Rick's hand and he gave it a squeeze. I looked up and saw his questioning look.

"Lanie," I say simply sitting back in the chair. "She still calls you writer boy."

He laughed and winced. I cringed. I didn't want to see him in pain.

He gripped my hand tighter as if I would run away. "Why? Why did you..."

He didn't finish. He didn't need to. I knew what he was talking about.

"I was scared," the words tumbled out before I could stop myself. Now that I had started I couldn't stop. "I thought we were rushing into it. I didn't want to regret it in a few years. I thought..." I burst out in tears.

Castle looked startled. Even he had barely ever seen me cry. He opened his arms and motioned me inside. I went up to him and curled into his side. His arms encircled me and I finally felt whole again.

I cried until my eyes were dry. He didn't let go of me even then and I loved him for it.

He chuckled into my hair. "That's the second time you cried today," he whispered teasingly.

I pulled back. "How do you know that?"

He hung his head but the mischievous glint was back in his eyes.

"Castle?" I said in mock sternness. I could be mad at him after all this.

He mumbled something.

"What?" I asked.

"Alexis," he replied.

I was going to place my hands on my hips and act like I was mad but laughter bubbled up at his expression and I let it go.

He stared at me and then started laughing himself then, he winced. I stopped immediately.

I sat back down next to him and sighed.

"I love you," I whispered. I knew he had heard me.

His arms encircled me once more and he whispered back. "I love you too."

We sat like that, me explaining why I wanted to go to DC, why I ran away, why I came back. We talked until my heart was raw and bleeding. He kissed my hair.

I turned until I was comfortable and then fell asleep. I felt whole again. I was back with the man who loves me, who I love with my life. It would take some time but one day I would show him how much I love him. Not yet though. There were something's I needed to sort out first.

Chapter número four done. Sorry about the slow update but I had school bothering me. Holidays soon so expect quicker updates. Sorry about that. Review please. :D