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A/N: Thanks to dewdroplotus - This chapter is Kanda's recall about how Allen and he had killed the Noah Neah. I went a different route with recall then I normal have done. With the patience of dewdroplotus, he had mentored me through the process on how to write more with transitioning and backtracking, instead of using a full situational flashback. Though, I still have a lot of practicing ahead of me. So again, thank you dewdroplotus for putting up with me and helping me in my struggles with it.Also, thanks to all the readers who have stuck with me with this story. Feel free to review, I would love to know what you think of this chapter.

THE CAVE: CONTINUUM

Part Three

It's after midnight on the third day into their voyage to Japan. Before they had fallen asleep, Kanda and Allen discussed whether or not to leave their isolated paradise and venture out to see the rest of the ship. Kanda's perfectly content spending his time in bed with Allen, even though normally it would be Kanda dragging Allen's ass out of their cozy quarters.

Before running away, it had been a little over a month since they had seen each other, but more importantly it's the circumstances behind what had caused their separation that has Kanda apprehensive about letting Allen out of his sight.

Darkness surrounds Kanda when he awakens, sweating, his heart pounding with heaviness and aching from a nightmare. He feels the bed next to him to make sure Allen is still there. Touching his lover's warm body he automatically rolls over to face Kanda putting his arm over his abdomen. He sighs with relief, Allen is here beside him – it had been a nightmare.

His chest aches, and a lump forms in his throat as he thinks, 'damn, it was so vivid and real as if I had relived the horror of exorcising the Noah out of Bean Sprout.' Even now he can feel the life draining out of him as he remembers the ordeal that had been more than his soul could bear, terrified he would never have Allen in his life again.

Before he had met Allen he dealt with the emptiness in his life, but how could he possibly deal with the dark hollowness again now that Allen had filled that void?

Kanda pushes himself up in a sitting position in bed. His lover rolls over facing away from Kanda, scooting his naked body closer to his thigh, curling up, continuing to sleep peacefully. Looking down at his beautiful husband, he remembers the times Allen and he had met in the cave. He had mediated, but he had also watched this white-hair British teen go inside himself to deal with the demon that possessed him — the Fourteenth Noah.

Leaning his head back, he closes his eyes thinking what his poor Bean Sprout had endured to rid that damn fiend who had resided inside of him. It had been the first time he'd lost Allen, on that nightmarish day, the day he had learned how to battle the Noah and rid him from Allen's body forever.

Yes, that damn Fourteenth, the one who had caused all their heartaches. He had waged war with the Fourteenth Noah, Neah, who had been irritated by Kanda's continuous interference as he tried to overtake Allen's body. Neah had had Allen chained and in control before Kanda's coaxing and demanding voice had summoned him to return.

What had angered Kanda more was watching his lover struggle as he fought hard and strong against Neah to resurface to get back to him. The minute he had known Allen returned he had gathered him into his warm embrace to stop the trembling of his fragile body.

Fuck, these bouts with the Fourteenth had drained both of them physically and emotionally. Not once had he contemplated turning his back on Allen, but instead they had agreed they needed outside help, and a mutual decision was made to seek that help from Komui.

Komui had spent months researching for a way to rid the Noah from overtaking Allen's mind and body, when finally he had a break through which excited both of them with a new hope. However, there had been one catch, Komui wanted to see Kanda alone to discuss it which had distressed Allen.

Komui had felt it advisable with Neah lying beneath the surface, listening to all the possibilities about how to get rid of him, could had posed a problem later and made it harder for them to fight the Noah.

Allen had understood it was prudent he didn't know, but Kanda had felt his apprehension about the whole thing. He pulled Allen into his arms to ease any discomfort when he told him Komui had meant no offense to him. He remembers looking into Allen's shining silver-grey eyes when he had tilted his head up with his fingertips and asked him to trust and have faith in him.

Just remember how much I love you … Allen's words still rings in his ears. Kanda sighs heavily, he had known in his heart Allen had faith in him and was ready to let go anytime it was needed to end their nightmare. Kanda touches his lips with his fingertip remembering the firm passionate kiss he had placed on Allen's lips; he had wanted him to know how much he loved him back.

Staring into the darkness, he recalls Komui explanation to him about what had to be done to rid the Fourteenth from Allen's body. Even now he shutters thinking about it … the insanity of it all. Komui had to be fucked up in the head to even conceive he would be able to do such a thing to his Bean Sprout – insane, the plan was insane.

After hearing the plan, Kanda had grabbed the back of the sofa to keep from falling to his knees. Slowly he had sat down and covered his face with his hands leaning forward as if sick. Komui had placed a hand on his shoulder and he didn't even flick it off nor remove his hands from his face as he sat in turmoil.

Komui himself had said it sounded ludicrous, but he had believed it enough to take the idea to Zu Mei and Bak for their input. They came to the same conclusion Komui had – it was the only way to rid the Noah Neah permanently.

He had pulled himself upright, seated tall once again, resigned to the fact this had to be the only way to free Allen and if Zu Mei had felt this was the only way too, than he would do it. But if he fucked this up, he had sworn he'd kill himself somehow – he couldn't live without the white-hair teen by his side.

Link had been at Central and wasn't due to return for a few days. Komui had felt with Link away it had to be done now before he returned. He remembers looking Komui straight in the eye and had agreed to do it, but this fear he felt inside of him, he knew it had to be done soon before he lost his nerve.

Kanda's dark eyes had flashed a warning glare at Komui, if he fucked it up he himself would slice him up with Mugen, for Komui had promised him he would be right outside the door, ready to help Allen. Komui had done this procedure numerous times before, but Kanda had watched him performing it only once.

He had been anxious to get back to Allen and get this over with, and had given a nod to Komui then turned and walked out of his office. Once he had closed the door he had leaned against it, his legs had shook as if they would give out on him. To calm himself, he had taken deep breaths and gathered the strength he needed to go back to their room and face Allen as if nothing unusual was about to happen.

When he had reached their room, he placed his sweating hand on the cool door knob and took a deep breath than opened the door. Allen had lied on his bed and hugged his pillow, actually sleeping peacefully for once. He closed the door quietly and looked over at Allen. Now seeing him, he had doubts if he could actually go through with the plan.

He had walked to the bed and sat on the edge as Allen's eyes opened and he smiled at him with that damn real smile that had stolen his heart. He gathered him into his arms and had buried his face into those silvery white locks as he told his lover he loved him.

Even now he can hear Allen's words being whispered into his ear, I love you to Kanda … and Kanda … I have faith in you. He chokes hearing those words in his mind, and his heart aches as he thinks about the faith his lover had had in him without even knowing what laid ahead.

To allow room for Kanda to lie down next to him, Allen had moved over. Kanda had lain on his side and had brought him into his arms and kissed him. He had known Komui was already outside the door, and his stomach churned and rolled inside as he felt full of fear and remorse for what he had to do.

Allen had moaned as their hot lips devoured each other and Kanda rolled on top, deepened his kiss and probed hungrily, desperately. He withdrew his mouth from his lover's plump pink lips their combined saliva drooling, and then he took Allen's face in his hands.

Neither had been good at hiding anything from the other, and he had sensed Allen knew something was about to happen. It's when he looked into Allen's eyes he had seen the manifestation of understanding, and Allen had given him an encouraging smile which had helped ease some of his torment in his soul.

Tears had clouded his vision as he planted kisses on Allen's face and lips and his hands slid down caressing his throat before he placed those hands around Allen's neck and had tightened his grip. Allen had given a small cough into their kiss as Kanda's hands became tighter on his neck.

Kanda's heart pounded in his ears and his pulse had raced as he took all the emotional strength he had to tighten his grip even more around his lover's neck. Allen had started to have difficulty breathing, his heart slowed in its beats. It had killed him to see Allen trying to stay calm and had not fought to be released.

He had felt the lack of blood pumping through Allen's veins under his thumbs, and there had been nothing he could do to ease his lover's pain. He had watched as Allen struggled to keep his eyes locked with his and Kanda had whispered, "I love you" as a single tear flowed down his cheek.

Feeling the anxiousness clenching his insides, he bites at his lower lip as a slight quiver shakes his body. His nightmare … so vivid in his mind … he still sees Allen losing consciousness, struggling to keep calm for him. His lover had managed to keep the shine in his eyes, the smile on his face and mouthed, I love you to him before those plump pink lips started turning blue.

Kanda realizes he's struggling to breathe, inhaling raggedly as he remembers the worst part now branded into his mind. He had watched those beautiful shining silver-gray eyes turning dull as life slipped away from him, ending with that rare beautiful smile he had loved so much still on his face – he was gone.

He had held his lover's limp body in his arms holding back the need to scream out, when a pain so intense, it had electrified his whole body. Another sharp piercing pain had shot through his chest, swelling bursting in his mind like a loud wail of heartbreaking mourning that demanded release.

He had rocked back and forth hugging him, burying his face into Allen's neck inhaling deeply that tantalizing scent of his lover. Right now, the sharpness of the pain he had had in his chest returns and he still hears his own screams inside his head, What have I done?! Bean Sprout … damnit, Bean Sprout, I'm so sorry!

He had finally found his voice and yelled to Komui who rushed into the room and slammed the door against the wall. Allen's lifeless body held in Kanda's arms, his head lolled back, his dull eyes looked at nothing, but his smile had still been on his face. Komui himself had fought to keep his composure at the sight of Allen.

Komui had immediately snapped at Kanda and ordered him to work quickly with him. They had laid him on the floor for a firmer surface. Komui had made sure Allen's passage way was open and breathed into him than he started pumping Allen's chest, counting and repeating the procedure.

He had looked in Komui's direction, but he was still in shock as he sat on the floor, trying to pull himself together over his loss. He couldn't stop the waves of despair that had been overtaking him … he can't lose Allen … he had meant everything to him.

The agitation showed on Komui face and it had shaken Kanda. Kanda had shouted at him demanding to know what was wrong. Komui had stayed in control of his emotions even when he looked into Kanda's confused worried eyes and told him Allen wasn't responding.

Kanda had held in the panic he felt and pushed Komui the fuck out of his way, and yelled that Bean Sprout was coming back to him even if he had to beat him, he's coming back. He wasn't going to let his Bean Sprout escape him that easily, fuck he loved him and there's no way he could live without him.

Komui quickly moved out of his way, and Kanda's abilities had shifted into gear with manic energy to save his lover. Kanda can still feel his hands as they had pumped Allen's chest and then breathed into his mouth. He had gotten angrier with no response from Allen, yelling at him to get the fuck back here. He wasn't going to let the son of a bitch leave him here alone; he was supposed to come back to him. This hadn't been part of the plan.

Kanda had knelt next to him his fist pounded frantically on Allen's heart to start it then breathed air into his lungs. He remembers screaming at Allen's lifeless body, you can't die on me Walker! Get the fuck back here, as he pounded his heart again and again, and then had covered his mouth over Allen's again continuing breathing into him. He had kept his panic down, but his heart was raw and sore.

Then there had been movement, a strangled cough, and Allen's chest rose at the breath of air Kanda had blown into his lungs as he started taking on life. He had pulled back and saw as Allen's beautiful eyes slowly opened to look at him.

He had grabbed him, pulled him up into his arms and cradled him. He remembers the exact words Allen had whispered into his ear, Is this anytime to be making out with me, when I was dead? The stupid dipshit said the craziest things, but he didn't care and had squeezed him tighter to him as his own heart continued racing ecstatically.

Komui had urged Kanda to get Allen to the infirmary quickly to get medical care for him. Kanda had scooped him up into his arms and headed with Komui to the door, and told Allen he had fucking took long enough to get back to him – he had scared the daylights out of him. He remembers how grateful he had felt to have him back and had seen that wonderful drowsy smile on his lover's face again.

Kanda arouses from those dreadful memories and looks down again at his lover, his chest expanding with emotions. Allen had crept into his life, then into his heart, and those bitter memories now had been exchanged for beautiful ones.

Yes, this beautiful young teen, his husband, had also brought out feeling inside of him that had been trapped for many years. Without really trying, Allen had chiseled at the hard icy exterior he had kept and he had discovered the vulnerable, warm Kanda locked inside.

Now that he has been released from that emotionless prison he had locked himself into, he could breathe, he could see color, he could see life, and a future for them both. He's determine that nothing will ever send him back to that bottomless black hole of a prison - feeling nothing, numb, and hollow inside.

Yes, they are on the run from the Black Order and Central, but to them they are now free, free to love one another openly as husband and husband. Allen is everything to him, as he knows he is to Allen. For Allen's eyes opens a window that allows him to see his lover's soul and his love for him – an endless love. When he had decided to reach out and take hold of that love, his world changed … it had changed for the better.

Shit, his heart's aching, his throat's constricting, and his eyes are wetting, 'this damn little shit is making a wimp out of me,' but he's loving every minute of it. Allen's alive, naked and warm beside him, with his back pressing against his leg in the fetal position. Right now he has a strong urge to scoop him up into his arms and make love to him all over again.

Kanda slides back down under the covers, his cool arm slips around his warm lover, his husband, his friend, his everything. His heart is full of passion, his body is hot and ready, and he wants his lover. Allen scoots his back closer against Kanda's front feeling him hard and stiff. With his arm draped over Allen he draws him in closer to him inhaling him. An emotion of love and thankfulness fills his chest, his heart rapidly beating inside.

Allen slowly opens his eyes, slightly rolls into Kanda to look up at him with sleepy eyes and a warm smile. "I love you Kanda Yuu," purrs Allen, melting away all the fear and terror he had had in his heart.

Kanda's heart warms and flutters as he whispers a rare sentiment into Allen's ear, "I love you to, Allen."

That's all it takes for Allen to be set on fire. He squirms to face Kanda pressing his moist warm lips to his as well as his body against Kanda showing he's also firm and hard, ready for his lover.

"Kanda, you set my soul on fire," Allen muffles into his kisses on Kanda's lips, his body arouses even more as he rubs against his lover's thigh, drowsily.

"Maybe we could go outside later," Allen whispers into the air, as Kanda smothers him with wet, delicious kisses. "It might be a better idea if you just fuck me," Allen dreamily says, lost in Kanda's hot embrace.

"I can easily accommodate that request," Kanda says in low husky voice as he pulls back to look at Allen with his dark blue eyes smoldering lustfully at him.

To be continued …

A/N: I know this chapter I have moved angst to it, but I wanted to bring in how Kanda and Allen had won out over the Noah Neah. The next chapter will have more humor in then this one. Thanks for hanging in there with me.