My eyes widened as I whipped my head around to see Cyborg standing there. I froze still straddling Beast Boy.
"Raven… Beast Boy," Cyborg growled out his name cutting his now glaring eyes to him. "How dare you lay a hand on my little sister!?" He took a step forward as his face turned a shade of red. I couldn't help the nervous chuckle that escaped my lips while I moved off Beast Boy's lap. He grabbed his uniform standing to pull it on.
"Now Cyborg calm down…" I whispered wrapping my cloak around my body somehow staying calm despite this very interesting situation and keeping my emotions stable.
"Yeah man. This isn't what it looks like!" I cut my eyes to BB annoyingly as if to say 'oh really?'. Looking back at Cyborg I noticed a vein popping out from his head. I clutched my uniform to my body under the cloak, already knowing he was going to explode. Before he had a chance, however, Robin and the others decided to walk in. Starfire gasped her eyes trailing Beast Boy's body in admiration and giving me the unrealistic urge to hiss at her for staring. Beast Boy crossed his arms over his chest in a very masculine way, causing my cheeks to redden remembering what happened only a few moments earlier.
"Oh? Because it looked like you two were about to have sex on the couch!" Cyborg's face was completely red with a mix of embarrassment and anger. I felt my face heat up even more unable to look anywhere but the floor. Beast Boy stepped closer wrapping his arm around my waist making sure to keep my cloak closed. I felt someone's eyes burning into my body and looked up to see Robin. His eyes, though covered by his mask, were locked on mine in righteous fury. His hands were balled at his side and I could almost hear his teeth grinding together. My eyes started darkening as guilt filled me. Robin, I whispered in his mind and was met with a wall.
"You two were doing what?" Jinx said her eyes wide with shock. I looked down before running out of the room, my heart beating fast. What was wrong with me?! About to have sex with Beast Boy? I don't love him! I screamed in my head as I ran into my room. I collapsed against the locked door my heart beat finally slowed. I heard the call of my mirror and grabbed it. Laying it on my mattress, I began to get dressed. I pulled on a soft pair of sweat pants and a simple white tank top before getting in position hovering my bed. I closed my eyes and slowly began to chant my mantra. When I opened my eyes I was in Nevermore. Strangely enough I had landed in Depression's world. Her room was much like my own except for the bed. Where I had a soft purple comforter and sheets, hers was black. I walked out of her room and looked around. The land outside her one room house was bleak. Gray, stormy skies and barren except for the portal that led to the meeting place.
"Depression?" I called out worriedly. Not sensing her, I made my way to the portal and through it. Once on the other side I saw all my emotions there sitting in a large circle waiting on me. Everyone had a solemn look to them, none even bothering to change out of their cloaks as they normally do when I wear civilian clothes. I took my place between Knowledge and Happy. "Okay guys what is going on?" I looked around and was met with silence. I sighed and turned to depression. "Okay, you first. Why are you depressed?" She looked up from underneath her eyelashes to reveal her tear stricken face.
"We hurt Robin," Guilt spoke up, her voice filled with well, guilt. I heard a scoff and turned to see Revenge.
"That jerk deserved it!" I heard a chorus of agreements.
"No one deserves it," I heard Kind whisper and her voice was soft. I sighed and rubbed my head. I heard someone clear their throat and looked at Knowledge.
"I believe Raven is here to ask more about what happened with her and Beast Boy," she said. I nodded my head.
"I believe that is partly my fault," Lust said sauntering to sit in front of me. I glared at her, my eyes flashing red. She grinned at me. "Come on Rae, you know you enjoyed Beast Boy."
"That doesn't give you the right to take control!" I hissed out. She grinned again wider.
"But Rae Rae I didn't take control. You two did that all on your own. You woke me up Raven. I didn't start anything." I bit my lip.
"So what made him and I kiss? What caused me to give into him if not lust?" I asked my heart beating in my chest.
"I did," I heard a voice from the edge of the clearing. I looked around to see Love standing there. She was dressed strange. The right side of her cloak was a deep green color that instantly reminded me Beast Boy's eyes. The other side was that deep blue that matched Robin's. I felt my heart skip a beat as I realized exactly what this meant. "I am in love with Robin and Garfield." I felt my heart stop before scrambling into full speed and I blacked out.
I awoke later with a pounding headache and parched throat. I groaned as I sat up, my mind surprisingly quiet after Love's confession early. I walked out of my room not bothering to change and, instead of taking the elevator, I took the stairs hoping to avoid everyone. I was wrong however when I stumbled upon a scene. I heard a moan and peaked over the balcony to see a head full of flaming red hair pressing someone against the wall. I sighed expecting to see Robin with her but instead… there was Beast Boy. My eyes widened and a gasp escaped my lips. No….
Beast Boy's POV:
I sighed watching Raven run from the living room. I shot a glare and Bird Boy and began following her hoping to calm her down. Not that I was technically calm myself. I mean… I was just having a serious make out session with Raven… I groaned internally remembering her body pressed against mine. The way we fit so perfectly, her little moans, her soft skin… I shivered in response taking the elevator up to our rooms. I can't believe we almost…. I sighed at that thought and knocked on her door. Not hearing a response I typed in the security code and the door swished open to reveal a passed out Raven. Her mirror was glowing and I knew that she must be in Nevermore. I sighed and planted a kiss on the ruby jewel on her head, feeling my heart skip a beat. Could I possibly love her…? I sighed and made my way out of her room and into my own. Once entering I was met with a pair of almost lime green eyes and jumped in the air.
"Jesus Starfire!" I screamed placing my hand over my racing heart. She smiled apologetically and looked down. I began sweating nervously. "What are you doing here," I whispered moving to my dresser to put on my shirt. I felt her hesitation and turned to find her nibbling her lip. My body, normally that would have reacted to her, stayed relatively quiet. If anything my fear spiked. What the hell was going on!
"Beast Boy," she started and I couldn't help but compare her innocent voice to Raven's sultry rasp. "I have come to a rather… confusing revelation. I have, as you put it, captured the green eyed monster when it comes to you and Raven." Her eyes were glued to the floor as she whispered this to me. I froze on the spot, my mind racing. I had pictured this moment a million times in my head and now I was at an absolute lost for words. On one hand I had waited for her to show some tiny miniscule sign that she wanted me. I had spent months chasing her, trying to will her nativity to understand that I wanted her without being straight forward. I should be smiling, taking her in my arms and kissing her! But… I wasn't and I didn't know why.
"Star..." I started not exactly knowing what to say. She looked at me with teary green eyes. "Have you talked to Robin about this," I asked stuffing my hands in my pockets. She quietly shook her head.
"I wouldn't know what to say, BB," She whispered and fidgeted with her fingers. "I know you and Raven are serious and I shouldn't have said anything… I am sorry." With that said she took off flying out the door. I cursed under my breath and took off chasing yet another girl. I chased her into the stairs and screamed her name grabbing her arm. She turned to me her eyes full of tears. I did the only thing I could think of… I kissed her. It was a soft innocent peck at first. I went to pull back, my heart thrumming in my chest. She bit her lip and backed me into the wall.
"Star wait," I warned too late as she put her lips to mine kissing again. I returned the kiss a little confused. I didn't feel the passion I thought I would and deepened the kiss searching desperately for the love. All I felt from the kiss was pure lust. She moaned lightly and I barely registered a gasp. I jerked my face away and looked up eyes wide to see Raven staring at us. Starfire turned to look at her, her own gasp making its way out of her lips.
"Friend Raven!" She gasped her eyes immediately filling with fear. I reached to stop Star but stopped seeing the clear pain written across Raven's face. She closed her eyes before teleporting away but not before saying "Congratulations you two." Starfire looked to me confused and I sighed rubbing the back of my head. "Beast Boy what is she saying?" I sighed again and rubbed my head.
"Come on. The others should know." I turned to walk away and out the door without another word.
Back to Raven
I teleported to the roof, my heart beating wildly in my chest as I looked up at the stars. Be happy for him, my head whispered to him even as my heart broke. I clenched my teeth against the tears before regaining my composure. I knew everyone would find out now and silently teleported to the living room sitting on the couch. Robin and Cyborg had been doing different things, reading and video games, and looked in to see my face. Robin's composure, though still relaxed, hardened slightly. Cyborg looked concerned but before he could question me BB and Starfire made their way in the door.
"We need to talk," Beast Boy said sitting down close to me. I scooted away and pulled the hood of my cloak up. A solemnness spread through the group. "Where is Jinx?" I looked to see the pink haired witch missing. Cyborg then explained that she had went to bed after being worn out from the fight. Beast Boy nodded and looked to the floor his eyes determined and thoughtful as he considered what to do.
"We never really dated," I said flatly my voice emotionless and lifeless. Though it had only really been… two days everyone it felt like much longer. I was so tired and drained… I felt broken. I looked up to see a shocked team and crossed my arms over my chest.
"WOAHHHHHH timeout! You two weren't dating," Cyborg asked standing up. "Because it sure as hell looked like you were!" He screamed and Beast Boy winced.
"We only dated to… to make Rob and Star jealous." He looked up to see everyone's eyes even wider. Sighing he turned to Star. "I… loved you Starfire. I long time before you and Robin got together three days ago… wow it's only been three days." He laughed nervously looking down at the carpet. He ran a hand nervously through his hair and looked up at Robin. "I kissed Starfire about 30 minutes ago because she confessed to being jealous of Raven and mine's relationship. I would be sorry if not for you kissing Raven today." I closed my eyes against the memories. Everyone was quiet and I looked up to see Robin studying me.
"Beast Boy you said loved…" Star whispered causing me to drag my eyes away from Robin's. Beast Boy sighed again and ran his fingers through his hair.
"Star…I didn't feel love in our kiss. I felt want but not… I am sorry. I guess… I realized I don't love you like I did. That perhaps I got tired of waiting or realized that I really love another." He whispered his eyes a dark green. I watched Star's eyes fill with tears and she looked at Robin. Robin faced her and stiffly stared at her.
"I understand Beast Boy… I always had a crush on you… but I chose Robin because I loved him. I was jealous… very jealous. And I am sorry… I was confused but you are correct about the lack of love. I felt nothing as well." She nibbled her lip and Beast Boy smiled a smile of relief. I felt my heart beat quicken. He doesn't love her, my mind whispered to me and I looked at the floor. Cyborg had stayed quiet through this but decided to butt in.
"So if you two are fine and dandy, what about you two…" he broke off looking at Robin and me. I bit my lip and looked up to meet Robin's eyes. He was looking straight at me and had a solemn look.
"I…" I opened my mouth not knowing what to say. I sighed and looked down. "I fell for Robin over the course of our friendship. I love him… to a point… I need to talk to him alone…" He stood but first Star grabbed his arm.
"Even if you two do not… date, I do not wish to anymore." My eyes widened at her words and Robin let a small smile escape. "I have discovered I do not love you like I once thought." Robin lightly kissed her forehead before walking out. I started to follow but Beast Boy grabbed my hand. I looked up at him, my eyes confused. He bit his lip and gave me a boyish grin.
"I want to talk to you after him," he whispered his eyes trying to convey its importance. I nodded tentatively and followed Robin out the door. He stopped a little ways from the door and turned to face me. I stared at him not knowing exactly what to say.
"Why were you and Beast Boy making out on the couch if you two don't like each other?" I was startled at the direct question and looked up trying to keep my gaze level.
"We were trying to make you two jealous." He laughed humorlessly and shook his head.
"Raven… if you two were trying to make us jealous why do that when we are not there?" I sighed at being caught and looked down. Seeing through me and feeing my turmoil of emotions he smiled lightly. "You like him don't you?" I nodded with sad eyes, barely keeping the tears back. He crossed to me and enveloped me in a hug. "I love you," he said simply stroking my back. The tears did fall then at the complete confusion. I should be happy! I should be jumping in his arms and kissing him in a very un-Raven like way. But instead I was sobbing and crying because damnit I liked Beast Boy! I looked up at Robin, my eyes full of tears and doubt. He stroked my face and grinned lightly. "Don't you love me?" He teased and I looked down my cheeks reddened.
"Of course I do," I whispered my hands shaking. "I just… I like him." Robin's smile faded lightly but was still there. I bit my lip guilty. "It happened so easily… I don't even know how…" Robin continued to rub my cheek.
"Raven... it is okay. He was there for you when I was not. You two have obviously gotten close over the past few days. Even before this I believe deep down you liked him. Rae…it's your choice. You can give us a chance… or give him a chance." I shook my head.
"He doesn't even like me that way," I whispered my heart aching at that thought. Robin smiled lightly.
"Why don't you ask him?" He nodded behind me and I saw Beast Boy looking sadly out the window of the Commons room. Even though he was a great distance away, I found myself unable to breathe watching the moon dance across his features. I bit my lip and turned back to Robin. He smiled and leaned to lightly kiss my lips. I tentatively kissed back, not unable to deny the way I compared his kiss to Beast Boy's. It felt lesser in some way. "You can tell me in the morning," he whispered and smiled walking off to bed. I turned to walk back to the living room to see Beast Boy watching me. I crossed my arms self-consciously. I walked to stand by his side and watched the waves rolling on the coast.
"Where's Cy," I asked quietly.
"Well he left for bed. It is roughly midnight… how'd your talk go," he asked his voice deep. I shivered and looked down.
"He admitted he loves me." I sated simply. I felt him tense beside me.
"Congrats. I am going to bed." He began to march off and I desperately grabbed his hand.
"I said I didn't know… I… Garfield I think I am falling for you… I know you do not feel the same," I looked up to see his eyes wide and I looked away dropping his hand. "I am sorry." I phased through the ceiling and to my room. I had just laid on my bed when I heard the annoying sound of a fly buzz around my room. I looked up to see Beast Boy phase to human. I blushed tentatively looking away and went to roll over but was stopped by him jumping me.
"Eep!" I squeaked as he landed straddling my hips and pinning my arms.
"No more running Rae," he said his eyes guarded. "Now what did you say downstairs." I looked up and answered truthfully.
"I said I am falling in love with you." He studied me for a second before a heart stopping smile broke across his face. Before I had a chance to question that smile he pressed his lips to mine in an earth shattering kiss. I gasped and gripped his hair in my hands pulling him closer. He flicked his tongue against my lips. I pulled back to look up at him not knowing what to say, and panting.
"Raven, I love you." He said and kissed my shoulder. "I love you." Another kiss. "I love you." He continued kissing up until he got to my lips before kissing me again, pressing me deeply into the mattress. I let myself get lost in his kiss, feeling a fire spread through my body. Oh Azar, I moaned internally pressing tighter to him. A few minutes later he leaned up and looked down at me. My face was red and I was pretty sure my lips were swollen. "Would you mind if I slept in here," he asked smiling boyishly. I blushed and nodded.
"Let me change," I whispered walking to the bathroom. Once there I looked in the mirror to see a girl that was barely me. Her skin was glowing, her eyes sparkling and her lips red and swollen. I blushed realizing she was me and ducked my head changing into soft shorts and t-shirt. I knew that I would have to make a choice but as I looked in the mirror and saw myself happy I was almost positive I knew my choice. I made my way to see Beast Boy in bed, his clothes across the floor. I chuckled and laid down to have him pull me into his muscular arms. He was bare except his boxers he wore and I blushed.
"Raven, no matter what choice you make… I love you Raven and I will never ever give up on you as my friend." He pressed his lips to my neck before drifting quickly to sleep. I smiled softly and whispered I love you too before falling asleep to the soft snores of his.