Two weeks later

Jacob and I were lying outside on the grass with the warm sun caressing out skin as the kids ran around on the grass. Everyone had now left and I have to say…my good bye to Nahuel was awkward. He didn't even look at Jacob or dare to come too close to me. At least he was somewhat happy about the fact that he had apparently gotten a new little sister. His father who kept "breeding" half vampire half humans was now fed up with only getting girls so this was going to be his last. Her name was Raina.

I think Joham, his father, wanted a man to stand by his side, amonster that could walk in the sunlight and torture in his name.

And Nahuel was anything but. He was a nice guy… just not my nice guy.

"So I'm your nice guy?" Jacob murmured with a smirk and I cuddled up to him closer.

"I wish I could control it better." I muttered.

"I thought I was your bad boy." He smiled and pulled me closer for a kiss. I rolled my eyes and gave him a quick peck.

"You have been my bad boy for two years." I said with triumph. Our two years anniversary was approaching and we hadn't yet made plans for it.

"Two whole years." He smiled and closed his eyes. "Should we go back to Brazil?"

"Mmm.." I murmured and laid my head on his chest as I closed my eyes. "That would be nice."

"Some time alone has never been bad." He chuckled.

"Do you think I even need to call Alice and tell her to book it?" I giggled.

"Probably not." He laughed.

Some time away on our island would do us good. We really needed some alone time right now. But leaving the kids would be hard. Buddy walked out on the field and lightly nudged my head for attention.

"Come here." I smiled and put him in between Jake and me. "Guess what? We are going back to the place where you were born."

Jacob laughed. "He can't understand you."

"It's a cat thing." I said and mocked him and his 'It's a wolf thing'.

"DINNER IS READY KIDS!" I heard Esme yell from the kitchen and the kids carefully ran up to the house. Jacob started to get up and I held him down.

"Are you a kid?" I asked him.

"No but she said dinner." He said innocently and I let him go. Jacob helped me up and I walked inside with him and the kids.

"Smells good." I said when I felt the smell of Rosalie's special Chilli Dog Casserole.

"Your favorite." she smiled and put it on the table. "Want some? I can put out an extra plate."

"No. I'm fine." I said and kissed her cheek. "Hey have you guys brought in the boxes yet?"

"It's all unpacked. Something special you wanted?" she asked and put out some salad on the table.

"My old diary's." I smiled and she looked surprised.

"They are in the bookshelf upstairs. In the little cabinet." She smiled.

"Thanks." I said before I ran upstairs. Right in front of me was a big sofa with an even bigger window behind it. To the right were a little corner bookshelf and a small cabinet in the bottom. I bent down and found the one I was looking for right away. My fingers slid across the pages as I read the text. I remember it like yesterday.

It was the day of my sixth birthday and I was sitting on my bed and writing in my diary like I did every day.

11 september – My sixth birthday

Dear Diary,

So since today is my sixth birthday my parents have decided to throw me a party. Even though I'm excited about it I'm still upset over something…Jacob.

I know he has been spending a lot of time with the pack and dad has been a bit off too now that I think of it. But I don't know how I can function without Jacob. He is my best friend in the whole wide world. I miss the nights we spent awake whispering to each other so my parents wouldn't hear us. Our hunting trips when we made a game out of it and I usually won.

Lately my heart starts racing away every time I see him. His smile makes me smile. The scent he left on my pillow after he had taken his naps in my bed made me sleep better at night.

Jacob and I have a special bond and I hate that its slipping away.

Ever since I started changing and growing up it became tense between dad and him who made it tense between me and Jacob. I hope it's just something he is going through and that everything will be back to normal soon.

Last time I hugged him good bye I even noticed his heart racing away. He feels the same way. Whatever it is that I feel.

I think I might be falling for him. But how could he ever feel the same for me?

Anyways…I have to go now. Got a big birthday to celebrate!

Love, Renesmee

I lightly chuckled at what I had written and my mind wandered off to that day.

Three years ago

I put down my pen and looked at the pages. A tear fell down from my cheek and onto the paper and landed right on Jacob's name. When I flipped through the past pages his name was on almost every single line and it was covered in hearts.

I looked out the window when I heard someone approaching and saw Jacob. With a smile I put my book away and ran up to the window. I lightly tapped on the window and he looked up at me with a smile. We both waved and he pointed towards the front of the house. I nodded and ran to the dresser.

I looked around for something pretty and threw on a dress that Alice had suggested and brushed through my hair before I ran downstairs.

"JACOB!" I gasped quietly when I saw him at the door. With light steps I ran down the stairs but something was different.. He wasn't the happy Jacob he was a second ago when I saw him outside.

"Hi." I said shyly and waved to him.

"Hey." He said quickly and continued talking to my dad. They seem to have had a heated discussion.

"Renesmee, could you give us some time?" dad said and I nodded before I walked to the kitchen.

I pretended to make some breakfast for myself while I listened to what they were saying.

"Why is he coming here?" Jacob hissed.

"Because he is our friend. He can come anytime he wants." Dad replied.

"But him! On her birthday?"

"What's wrong with that? He is her friend too. Just like you are."

Jacob got quiet.

"I don't know if he feels that way! He hasn't seen her in years." Dad said all of the sudden. "Even if he does its HER choice. Not yours."

Wait…were they talking about me?

"Edward please..." Jacob pleaded quietly.

"Jacob she is my daughter. I don't care if you imprinted! It's up to her now." Dad said.

Imprinted? Jacob has imprinted on me? But that means…he loves me. But as a friend or more?

"You are right." Jacob sighed.

NO, NO! I wanted to scream. Tell him I'm yours!

"I know I am." Dad said in a cocky way and walked into the kitchen. Right away I continued to pretend making breakfast. "So how are you birthday girl?" he smiled.

"I'm great, dad." I smiled and realized I was pouring milk ON my sandwich. "Or maybe not." I said and pulled away.

"I will take care of it. You go outside." Dad smiled and started to clean in vampire speed.

"Thanks" I murmured and walked outside where Jacob was standing. "Hey again." I smiled and he hugged me.

"Hey. How are you?" he smiled and pulled back after the hug.

"I'm… fine." I said and we started to walk outside. "You?"

"Same here." He mumbled as we walked down the stairs. When I looked up I saw him.

"NAHUEL!" I shouted and ran to hug him. His strong arms wrapped around me and a weird rush came over me when he nuzzled his face in my neck and my heart started to race. He put me down and looked me up and down.

"Long time no see." He smiled.

"You can easily say that." I giggled and took his arm in mine as we walked up to the house. "Let's say hello to everyone!" When we walked past Jacob I heard a growl rise from him and they looked intensely at each other. "Are you coming Jacob?" I asked and he stopped.

"Yeah." He mumbled cold and walked inside with us.

"MOM! DAD! Nahuel is here!" I shouted and they both ran into the living room and greeted him. The rest of my family came too and I watched Jacob stand near Nahuel and he almost inspected him.

"So how was your trip?" mom asked as we all sat down. I sat down next to Nahuel on the couch and had Jacob on the other side.

"It was very pleasant. Huilen decided to stay behind since I decided to come here on such short notice." He said and took both of my hands in his. "But she wishes you a happy birthday." he smiled before he let them go.

The conversation went between a million different things and went on for quite a while. Alice even had to leave to start preparing for the party, that's how far it went. When Alice is (what she considers) unfriendly and leaves… time is something you don't have a lot of.

I heard Rosalie and Esme walk into the kitchen and after a while the smell of Rosalie's special Chilli Hot Dog Casserole filled the room.

"OH!" I said and jumped up. Nahuel looked surprised at me. "WAIT HERE!" I said and ran into the kitchen. "Could I have some of those?" I asked Rosalie and she handed me a small plate with her casserole on it. I walked back to the living room and handed Nahuel the plate. "This is my favorite human food. Maybe you will like it to." I said and blushed.

Oh god this is such a dumb idea! I thought over and over again as he chuckled and took a bite.

"This is really good!" he smiled and took another.

I lit up and smiled with triumph. "I know right!" I sat down beside him and glanced at Jacob. His face wasn't covered in a smile like it usually was. It made my smile go away and I saw my dad give Jacob an angry look. Instead I turned over to Nahuel again and joined in on that conversation again.

When it came to the party it was just how I wanted it. A small, intimate party at home with the family. Balloons, candles, flowers and other decorations filled the room and music helped out with the awkward tension between Nahuel and Jacob.

We had a lovely dinner and everyone drowned me with gifts. I loved them all of course. Jacob stayed in the shadows except for when I blew out the candles on the cake. He then lifted me up by the hips and I had to make sure the candles didn't set me on fire. It was just his touch that made me warm like that.

Conversation led the rest of the night and when people started to go home and I had said good bye I decided to go for a walk. Nahuel suggested walking with me and my mom approved.

We stayed quiet until we came to the end of the trail where the roads only went to left and right. In front of us was just the forest. Nahuel took my hand as we jumped up and when I thought he would let go he didn't.

"Am I making you uncomfortable?" he asked and squeezed my hand. The truth was it somewhat did. But at the same time it didn't. I had always felt like I belonged to someone and just now when I had started to realize who it might be everything got confusing again. Maybe Jacob only cared for me in the friendship kind of way.

"No. I'm fine." I said and decided to test the theory as we kept walking.

"I have a gift for you." He smiled and let go of my hand to reach into his pocket. He handed me a sparkling diamond bracelet and helped me put it on. "Do you like it?" he asked.

"Yeah." I smiled. "It's pretty." I said and watched his bracelet next to the one Jacob had made me when I was younger. It was a beautiful bracelet but… a bit too much. I liked simple and meaningful things. "Thank you." I said and hugged him. When I pulled away he held me closer and looked into my eyes. I gave him a questioning look.

"You are very beautiful tonight." He murmured and I felt my heart beat faster.

"Thank you." I stuttered quietly and felt his heart. This wasn't anything I disliked or wanted to get away from.. His touch felt.. good. But he was no Jacob.

The next second his hands cupped my face and he pressed his lips against mine. It made my body want to wrap my arms around him and pull him in for an even deeper kiss but my heart yelled NO! I carefully pushed away from him as we both gasped for air.

"I'm sorry." He panted and slowly let go of me. "I'm so sorry."

"It's fine.." I mumbled and wiped my mouth. "I just.." I took a deep breath to gather myself. ".. I'm not interested in anything like that." I lied to him.

"I can wait." He mumbled and looked deep into my eyes.

"It's not about.. time." I breathed quietly. My words would hurt him. "It's about someone else."

He took a step back and sighed. "The dog." He muttered.

"HEY!" I hissed and felt my body go into defense mode. "Watch it."

"How do you know you will want him then? In a couple of years you might change your mind." He said.

"No. I won't." I mumbled and started walking back to the house. "I have to go."

When I got back to the house my family were sitting inside and laughing as they talked about old times and Jacob sat in the corner on a big chair. As he saw me his face lit up and he ran up to me.

"Hey. Where have you been?" he smiled.

"Just.." I kept walking towards the stairs. "Nowhere."

"Oh.. Okay." He mumbled and I took one step up and turned around to him. "Well.. I haven't given you my gift yet." He smiled.

"You don't have to." I chuckled. For some reason I felt guilty of what had just happened.

"Come here!" he smiled and pulled me up the stairs and into my room. "TADA!" he smiled and held his hands out.

"I have seen my room before you know? Or is my gift your awesome stair walking skills?" I teased and he rolled his eyes.

"Look!" he smiled and pointed towards my bed. Over it there was a big picture. A picture I had been looking at for a long time now but haven't had the money to buy. I refused to take my parents money since I wanted to take care of myself.

The picture was of Marilyn Monroe who I had been obsessed with for a while now since Rosalie had pretty much taught me everything about her. In the picture she looked so peaceful and I don't think she was aware of the fact that anyone was taking a picture of her.

"It's perfect." I mumbled to Jacob as I walked towards my bed and admired the picture.

"Do you like it?" he asked and walked after me.

"I love it." I breathed and felt him stand even closer to me. My eyes dropped from the painting as I secretly watched him behind me in the window. He was looking at me and I saw him take a deep breath.

Now is my time, I thought and turned around to him.

"Thank you." I said and wrapped my arms around him for a hug. As my hand slid down his arm and into his hand his eyes traced from my eyes and down to my wrist. His eyes locked on the bracelet.

"What's this?" he asked and broke the moment.

"Nahuel gave it to me." I mumbled in anger.

"Oh." He said and played around with the bracelet next to it that he had made. "Maybe you should throw this one out. It's getting old." He muttered.

I pulled back my hand and took Nahuel's bracelet off. "No. I would rather keep it." I said and placed my arm around my wrist and Jacob's bracelet.

He smiled proudly and bit his lip to not chuckle. "Okay. Whatever you want." He murmured.

The moment was back. I took a deep breath and carefully started to lean in to him.

"RENESMEE!" I heard from downstairs.

"OH GOD!" I hissed and Jacob laughed. Maybe he didn't even get what I was trying to do. "I WILL BE RIGHT DOW!" I yelled and walked own. "WHAT?" I asked mom who was sitting on the couch.

"Nahuel is leaving. Don't you want to say good bye?" she asked and pointed towards the door.

"Sure." I walked over and hugged him good bye. "See you around I guess." I mumbled to him.

"Yeah." He breathed and walked out without saying anything else. I rolled my eyes and looked at mom again.

"Happy?" I asked her.

"Renesmee Carlise Cullen!" she said sternly and stood up. "He saved our lives. Show some respect."

"Sorry." I said quietly and ran back to my room. Jacob was nowhere to be found though. When I looked out the window I saw him and dad talking. It was once again a heated discussion and I decided not to care.

I had enough of this day! I thought and threw myself on the bed. All I want to do is forget about everything for a few hours and sleep. And that's exactly what I did.

Present time

I closed the diary when I came to the end of the day in memory and put it back. All of the sudden Jacob wrapped his arms around me from behind and kissed my neck.

"Hello, beautiful." He murmured.

I laughed and hugged him tighter. "I love you." I whispered and kissed him.

"I love you more!" he insisted and I turned around to him. "Let me show you just how much." He smirked and carried me into our bedroom.

"Show me what you got bad boy!" I laughed as he threw me down on the bed. He got up in bed with me and held my upper body up and leaned my head to the side. As he kissed my neck he carefully murmured something in my ear.

"Happy birthday." he whispered in my ear and when I looked to the side it was there…

"Oh my god." I gasped quietly and admired the picture on the wall. It's the picture I got for my sixth birthday. "I thought I lost that in the last move." I chuckled and hugged him. "THANK YOU!" I said over and over again and placed kisses all over his face.

"You are welcome." He laughed and lifted me up in his lap.

"I didn't even realize it was my birthday." I laughed and kissed him once more.

"Oh, I would never forget." He smirked. "Now is there anything else you might want for your birthday?"

"Yes." I said as seductively as I possibly could and caressed his back. I slowly leaned towards his ear and his breathing became heavier. "…cake." I whispered in his ear and he burst out in laughter.

"Anything you want." He smiled and gave me a kiss.

So here is the story of Renesmee's first kiss! I know everyone probably thought that her first kiss was with Jacob on the beach but oh no! ;)

Hope you guys don't hate me for it but this is how I have written it.. :)

Now do you guys want romance on the honeymoon or just not much at all from it? The honeymoon will happen in a couple of chapters. About two-three.