I knew that I couldn't go back. It would be too painful for me and my mother. Even though I had been born there and I loved the place it was one of the worst places for me to go. One day I would want my children to see it of course but not now. Plus it would be too dangerous. What if someone saw us?

People still thought that when mom and dad drove to Charlie one day they were in a car accident and died. To escape the pain from his daughter's death Charlie moved away and the packs grew up and moved out into the world. Billy stayed in La Push but usually came to live with Charlie so he was close to us. But he couldn't let go of La Push.

And I knew if I went back I wouldn't leave again.

I was sitting in Jacob's lap over at Charlie's place. We always had our favorite spot. The chair in the corner of the room was ours. Everyone had gathered over at Charlie's house because Billy had come back into town. Anthony was enjoying Billy's stories as he sat in his lap and Sarah was happily showing Charlie her gifts. Since The Volturi wasn't here to threaten us we could enjoy life without hiding as much. People had already heard of the 'magnificent fight' and how 'The Cullen's took down those Italian scums'.

To everyone's surprise Charlie took it very well. I mean he had been living in this crazy world for a while now and getting some answers just put things into place for him. The thing he enjoyed the most was to know that I was his granddaughter by blood. He had always known it in his heart but it must be nice to get some answers.

He did have a tough time with the imprinting but who didn't…

"Join the club..." my dad and I muttered when he pretty much jumped up in anger.

It felt amazing to have the family together and not have to walk on pins and needles. We didn't have secrets now. It pained mom somewhat since she was now 'allowed' to tell Renee. But we all knew that wouldn't go well. Even I who didn't know her understood.

My side of the family had decided to go home when dinner started. It was mostly to not make anyone uncomfortable and they had a hunting trip in mind.

"So, when is the wedding?" Emily asked as she waddled across the kitchen with a plate in hand.

"On new years," Paul smiled proudly and started to dig in.

"Oh! That's soon," Emily smiled as she sat down and rubbed her belly. She was really getting big now.

"Yup!" Rachel smiled and took Paul's hand. "Then I will be a boring old wife."

"You will never be boring!" Paul kissed her hand and we all let out big 'awwwws' while Jacob dramatically made a barf gesture.

"Think I will fit in a dress by this point?" Emily asked Sam and he chuckled.

"Oh stop it!" Rachel rolled her eyes. "…and I want your help to pick out the dress!" she said and pointed at me and Emily.

"Alice can probably make yours and the others." I said and he looked surprised.

"Really?"

"Yeah," I said and glanced at Jacob. "She would probably kill you if you didn't let her!"

"That would be to such help!" Rachel gasped.

"For Alice to kill you?" Paul joked.

"Shut it," Rachel said to him and looked back at me in excitement. "We have to go over there later!"

"Sure thing!" I smiled and picked up my phone. Everyone except Jacob looked at me weird.

DING!

I opened up my phone and read the text from Alice.

-I need everyone's measurements asap!

I read it out loud and Charlie shook his head.

"Will I ever get used to this?" he leaned over and asked Billy.

"Probably not. Old habits die hard." He chuckled and Charlie took another sip of his beer.

"So where are you going for the honeymoon?" Emily asked.

"I wanted to go to Vegas but…" Paul rolled his eyes and Rachel sighed.

"We are not going to Vegas. I want to go to someplace warm and nice." Rachel pouted.

"Vegas is warm and nice," Paul replied.

"Fine..." Rachel sighed and Paul let out a big 'WOOH'.

I put my hand on Jacob's and asked if we should let them borrow our island. He shook his head and I insisted once more.

"Vegas sounds awesome you guys!" Jacob jumped into the conversation.

I rolled my eyes and the conversation went on. We got stuck on the subject of honeymoons and I was happy my parents weren't here. It always got weird when they talked about it since I ruined it. We made plans for everyone to come over tomorrow and start with the wedding plans.

Jacob, I and the kids went back to our house and decided to put the kids to bed early. It had been a long and fun day for them so they quickly fell asleep.

I closed the door behind me and slowly walked over to the couch and sat down. Tomorrow would be a somewhat hard day since it would be all about Rachel's wedding and that meant La Push talk. I heard Jacob jumping into bed and tried to gather my energy to get into it with him. As I walked to the room I passed a little table and saw a note on it.

I will be here at 10 tomorrow – Alice

"Ten in the morning?" I mumbled to myself. That's too early. I rubbed my face in my hands as I walked upstairs and into our room. Jacob was sound asleep and snoring already so I just crawled up beside him. "Ten in the morning." I muttered before I fell asleep.

The next day.

Rachel and Emily had finally arrived so now I could stay awake. They were chatting on about weddings and babies as I kept splashing cold water on my face.

"Ladies!" I heard Alice's chipper voice and she walked into the room draped with different fabrics over her arms. She put them down on the table and got out her measuring band. "Emily?"

"Oh god!" she sighed and got up. "This should be fun."

"Oh come here!" Alice smiled and hugged her.

"I'm so fat," Emily muttered as Alice wrapped the band around her belly.

"Don't be silly!" Alice sighed and took mental notes of the numbers.

When she had done their measurements the awkward part came…

"Renesmee? Your turn?" Rachel smiled and walked over to the chair.

I looked over at Alice and realized I hadn't told her yet.. "Uhh.."

"I already have hers!" Alice saved me but I knew I had to tell her anyway.

"Look, Rachel..." I mumbled and she looked confused. "I don't think I will be able to come…none of us." I pointed to Alice.

"Oh!" Rachel whispered and looked down. "I was hoping for you to be my maid of honor."

Crap. "I'm sorry, Rachel."

"No, no! It's fine. I understand." She assured me but I saw that it really wasn't fine.

I looked at Alice and she gave me a sympathetic look. "Well..."

"Can't you just have a dress in case?" Rachel interrupted Alice. I looked over at Alice again and she seemed to think it was a good idea.

"Sure," I pushed out with a smile and Rachel jumped up to hug me.

"OH THANK YOU!" she said happily in my ear. "I have something in mind for you actually." She said and Alice became interested. "I just drew some sketches of how I want the dresses." She dug around in her purse and pulled up a notebook that she handed to me and Alice.

"Wow." I gasped quietly as I admired the sketches. "Rachel, these are beautiful!"

"Really? You think so?" she asked timid.

"Couldn't have done it better myself," Alice smiled at us and Rachel looked like she just saw a celebrity.

"Thank you," she said and her voice cracked.

"Well then let's start with the colors ladies!" Alice said happily and danced over to the table. "This will go amazingly with Emily's copper toned skin!" she said and held up a piece of fabric against her shoulder. Alice went on for quite a while with all the colors, lengths, fabrics and styles. She tried out hairstyles and makeup on us all and looked like she was in heaven. The best part was when Anthony came into the room.

"LOOK!" he squealed happily and was covered in red lipstick.

"ANTHONY!" I shouted through all of our laughter and he ran out of the room. Alice caught him just in time and wiped it all away. She came back after a while with a makeup wipe that used to be white but was now soaked in red.

"He insisted that he needed it to be as pretty as mommy," she rolled her eyes and threw it out. "Jacob is teaching him how to get out of things isn't he?"

"He is going to be better than Jacob," Rachel laughed.

"OH!" Emily flinched and rubbed her belly.

Alice ran up to her in vampire speed and hunched down at her. "Are you alright?"

Emily looked in shock and smiled. "Yes."

"You should probably take it slower, Alice." I giggled and she looked a bit embarrassed.

"Sorry," she mumbled and walked over to me again to finish off the makeup. "In my mind everyone has awful pregnancies now."

We all laughed and she shook her head. "Five months left."

"Yup. Then my angel will be here," she said and rubbed her belly.

"Do you know what it is yet?" Rachel asked.

"I want it to be a surprise but I think it's a boy," she smiled proudly.

"Have you thought of any names?" I asked as Alice poked an eyeliner around my eye. God I hate this.

"I want Levi for a boy. After Sam's great-grandfather. He seems onboard with it."

"And for a girl?" Alice asked.

"Allison. After his mother. I really admire her. She took care of him all on her own," she said and rubbed her belly.

"I love those names," I said as Alice finished the makeup and I was free. "They are great."

"Thank you," Emily said and looked at me. "Oh you look so pretty!"

I looked at myself in the mirror and smiled. "Thank you!"

"You all look beautiful," Alice said as she started to clean up everything.

"Now I have a surprise for you Rachel!" I said and jumped up. "Close your eyes and don't open your eyes until I say you can." I said and she followed my instructions.

I looked over at Alice and she got the dress in hand already. We took of her robe and got the dress on. I could feel her heart start to race and Alice's dark eyes made me a bit worried but she seemed to manage.

"Are you ready?" Alice whispered and Rachel nodded.

"Open," I said and watched her eyes. Her face was a weird mix of so many emotions as she admired the dress on her. The mirror reflected her body perfectly and tears fell down her cheek.

"Oh my god," she murmured.

"You look amazing," Emily whispered with tears in her eyes. I put my arms on her shoulders to comfort and Alice stood beside me. We all now admired Rachel take in the moment.

"It's perfect," she cried and looked back at us. "Thank you."

I opened up my arms and she ran into them. "I love you," I whispered and rubbed her back.

"I love you too," she said and now hugged Alice. "Thank you."

"Rachel..." Emily cried and held her arms out for a hug. "You look so perfect."

"Thank you!" Rachel cried again and turned to the mirror.

Sarah's dress fit even better on Rachel then it did on me. It was pure perfection. She looked just like her mother did in her wedding photo.

Jacob POV

I was trying to entertain the kids with Seth as the girls had their wedding time alone. But when the cries came from their room I decided to check it out.

"Hey what's going…" I stopped to a halt when I saw Rachel in our mother's wedding dress. Tears started to fall down my cheek as I admired her. Renesmee, Alice and Emily walked out of the room and closed the door behind them. I slowly walked over to Rachel and took her hand. "You look just like mom." I cried.

"Thank you," she murmured and hugged me. I watched us in the mirror and all I could see was the back of her. It reminded me of a photo when mom hugged dad on their wedding day. I didn't look that much like my father but Rachel was a perfect reflection of mom.

I took another deep breath and let go of her. Now we both looked at her in the mirror.

"Mom would be proud," I whispered and kissed her hand. "…and I'm a proud little brother."

She smiled and leaned her head against my chest. "I miss her so much."

"I know…me too." I mumbled and stroked her back. Our embrace ended when her phone rang. She sniffled and got herself together before she answered it.

"Hello, honey." She said. "No, I'm fine. We are just trying on dresses." I could hear Paul being all lovey dovey in the background and held back the urge to vomit. "Okay, see you later sweetie!" she said and hung up.

"Did he lose the kids?" I muttered.

She rolled her eyes with a smile and chuckled. "No, he just called to check up on my day."

"Oh," I said in true shock. In my mind Paul wasn't the sweet and nice guy. He was the bastard who stole my sister.

"Yeah. Could you ask the girls to come back inside?" she wiped her eyes again.

"I can help you. What is it?"

"Jacob… can you just ask them?"

"What? You don't think I can do this stuff?" I said and dragged my hands over the pile of neatly folded fabrics.

"I have to get undressed." She said sternly.

"I'll get them." I almost ran outside and pointed for them to go inside again. I shook my head and tried to forget about that moment and went inside the kids room.

"OH YOU GOT ME!" Seth said and dramatically fell down on the floor as Anthony made a gun with his hand.

"I win!" Anthony shouted over and over again to me. He turned the 'gun' to me. "PEW!"

"OH NO!" I fell down to the floor and he clapped his hands. "He is going to be an evil kid if we keep this up," I whispered to Seth and he grinned.

"Alright, alright. Let's not clap when someone dies!" Seth chuckled to A.J and he pouted.

"I want to play now!" Sarah insisted and jumped down from the couch. She held the palm of her hand out to Seth and he lightly flew back.

"WOW!" I shouted and picked up Sarah. "No, no. We don't do that."

"I'm playing," she pouted and Seth got back up. "I didn't mean to hurt you!" she cried and held her arms out to Seth. I held her steady in my arms and made her look at me.

"Sarah, we don't use the gifts like that." I told her and she looked confused.

"Why not?"

"Hmm… God." I muttered and rubbed my face. "We have to call grandpa now!"

"I'll do it!" Seth offered and ran down to the phone. Not only did Edward come over but the whole family. Since we had decided to stay in the house out here they had all gotten another house nearby. I don't even know how many houses we have at this point...

"ED!" Sarah cooed and ran up to Edward. He quickly picked her up in vampire speed and she squealed with joy. "AGAIN!" she demanded.

"Later, sweetie." He said and kissed her cheek. "We have to talk now."

Edward POV

Sarah's thoughts were a bit confused as I told her we needed to talk and our 'secret' conversation started.

Am I in trouble?

No, sweetie. We just need to talk a bit.

About what?

"Well… It's about your gift." I said and held her hand.

"My special gift?" she smiled proudly and we all nodded.

"You have to be careful with it sweetie," I said and she wrapped her small little hand around my finger.

"I hurt Seth?" she turned to look at everyone and her eyes locked on Seth. I could almost hear a scream in Jasper's mind as Sarah's pain hit him.

"NO!" We all almost shouted and Seth ran up to us.

"I'm fine," he assured her.

"I sorry." She cried and hugged Seth from my arms.

"It's fine Sarah. I know you didn't mean it," he whispered to her and she pulled back in my arms.

Then what's wrong? She asked me.

"Your gift is so special that you need to… value it." Alice jumped in and we all agreed.

"I value," she assured us. I know that when she thought of her gift she imagined it as a little box. It made it easier for her to keep track of all the abilities she encountered and got. She now used Zafrina's gift and showed us all the little dark blue box she imagined. It lay carefully in her hand and when she opened it a light came out of it. Everyone was in total amazement when they say it. Voices from her first thoughts of the gifts she had learned silently filled the room and when the box closed she placed another hand over it as if she was protecting it and moved it to her heart. "I value," she said again and it disappeared.

I myself had seen her little box before and wasn't as shocked as the others. All I could do was smile at everyone else who had their jaws dropped to the floor.

"She values," I quoted and everyone snapped out of their thoughts.

"Wow…" Jacob gasped and we all chuckled at him. He looked a bit embarrassed and I handed Sarah over to him. "Can't believe I made this little miracle..." he murmured as he hugged Sarah.

"I know the feeling," I pulled Bella closer for a hug and looked at Renesmee holding A.J.

Love you, Renesmee thought to me and I nodded.

"Shall we get back to the house?" I asked Bella and she smiled.

"We should," she agreed.

"Hey, dad!" Renesmee said before we walked out. "Can I just talk to you real quick? Alone."

"Sure," I kissed Bella's head and told her to wait for me at home. In bed.

"Let's go upstairs," Renesmee said and I followed her. Lately Sarah had been holding her shield up around everyone so I couldn't hear Nessie's thoughts.

"So what's the matter?" I asked when we got into the office.

"Forks," she mumbled and I understood.

"You want to go?" I asked.

She hesitated. "I can't. Not now."

"And Rachel is mad about it?"

"No... I just want to be there for her." She sighed and sat down on the couch. "I just know I can't go."

"You remember how you mother acted after we moved?" I asked and sat down beside her. She let out a big sigh and nodded. "It's sometimes best to stay away from those memories and especially the places that they come from... If you know you can't handle it then don't go. If you think you might then just try."

She glanced at me. "I can't try. It would disappoint Rachel too much if I didn't make it."

"Then stay home, it's as simple as that." I kissed her forehead and she smiled real quick. "You know we love you right?"

She smiled again and nodded. "Plus que ma propre vie."

"Exactly," I smiled and she hugged me.

So I wasn't so happy with this chapter but thought I would upload it so we could carry on! haha. But the question is.. Now both Renesmee's and Jacob's honeymoon and Rachel and Paul's wedding is approaching. When it comes to the R&J honeymoon do you want some... *cough* LEMONS *cough* ? ;) And do you want me to go straight to the wedding as fast as possible or drag it out a bit more? :)

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