"We should go away," she mumbled and looked up at me. "We need some time away from this place."

"You serious?" I asked. I had been trying to get her to agree to this for a long time.

"Yeah," she smiled. "..let's pack them up and run away." She smiled in a silly way and sat in my lap.

"They are small enough to put in your purse," I grinned, happy to see her smile.

"They sure are," she chuckled and wrapped her arms around my neck. "..unlike their father," she raised an eyebrow and began to bring her lips to me. As they touched I drowned out all my sense of responsibility again and threw her down on the bed.

There is no chance lightning will strike twice.

"Will it hurt?" I mumbled to Carlisle. I was reluctant to lie back down on the table until I had gotten a 'No' as answer.

"There is a slight pain with the dialtion of the cervix. Maybe some cramping and pulling with the suction.." he began.

"A 'Yes' or 'No' please," I held my hand up to him in a beggin plea for him to stop talking. "..this is awkward enough."

It dosen't matter that I'm a mother. To Carlisle and my family I'm still a little girl and I would like for it to stay that way.

"No unbearable pain," he gave me a slight smile and sat down on the chair that was placed at the end of the table I was laying on. "..please lay back on the table and relax."

I reluctantly slid down on the table and wished it was Rachel doing this. But she dosen't have a lot of experience with half human half vampire bodies so.. Carlisle it is.

"Relax please," Carlisle said softly and I squinted my eyes shut as I relaxed. "..ready?"

"Yeah," I muttered and he began.

I really wish Jacob was here right now. Just so I could break someones bones because this was both awkward and painful.

"SLIGHT pain with dialation of the cervix?" I hissed.

"Hold out," he mumbled and I sipped my lips shut.

I wish this would be the end of it all. But Rachel told me that I would probably bleed for about a week and slight cramps. Nevermind the physical pain.. it was the emotional one that bothered me.

I do believe it's up to the person to decide if they want to keep a child or not but it wasn't me. Well yesterday it was me. Now I was desperetly wishing for ten more kids. Even though I wasn't having an abortion I still felt... guilty in some way. There isn't even life inside me. Only the shell of one.

But I couldn't let this baby end like the other one.

"Almost done," Carlisle mumbled and put down an instrument on the table. The smell of blood hit me and I scrunched my nose.

Maybe a hunting trip will get my thoughts on something other than this. I slowly closed my eyes and closed of all my senses but one, my hearing. I focused as far away as I could probably get and the soothing sound of leaves blowing around in the forest made me imagine the first time Sarah had seen leaves.

It was like out of that scene of Pocahontas when the leaves twirl around her in the air. In that moment I just thought to myself 'How can my life get any more magical?'

"Done," Carlisle said with a cheerful voice and out down another instrument. He pulled my sheets down over my legs, finally covering myself.

"That quick?" I asked in surprise and leaned up on my elbows.

"I'm a skilled doctor I guess," he smirked gently and threw his gloves away. "Can Jacob come in now? I have heard him murmuring how worried he is out in the hall for about ten minutes now."

"He can come in," I smiled and he walked to open the door.

"We are done. You can come in now," Carlisle motioned for Jacob to walk past him which he happily did and quickly left himself.

"Hey," Jacob mumbled and looked guilty. "How are you?"

"I'm better now. I guess," I tried to chuckle and he walked up to me. "How are you? You aren't limping." I chuckled.

"My manhood isn't physically hurting but in other ways it is," he murmured and shuffled the chair over to sit on it. He laid my head back on the table and cradled it in his arms, resting his chin on the table where my head was.

"How was it?" I almost whispered and took his hand in mine.

"Awkward," he chuckled. "You?"

"Same," I murmured and kissed his hand. "I was thinking we could go for a hunting trip. Maybe we can teach Sarah."

"Seems like a good idea," he smiled. "Should we take Anthony with us?"

"Remember the last time he accidently took some of Sarah's juice?" I chuckled.

"Yeah," he laughed. "..he spit it out on Alice's new white carpet."

"That was a bloody mess," I sighed and he helped me get of the table. "Now let's go and hunt down some food."

"My lady," he smiled and held his hand out. As I tried to sit up an uncomfortable pain stung but I ignored it. He offered to carry me home and I happily accepted.

Seth had offered to watch the kids this morning since he had spent the night here anyways. So as always we heard them all laughing as we approached the house.

"Hello angel," I smiled to Sarah as she was sitting on Seth's lap. Her face lit up as soon as she saw me.

"Mommy!" she squeaked and held her arms out. Before I could wrap my arms around her she took a small leap from Seth's lap.

"WOH!" I gasped and pulled her into my arms. My death stare went straight to Seth for not catching her in time. "Wake up, Seth! What is she fell?!"

"I'm sorry," he held his hands up.

"Are you okay, sweetie?" I placed kisses all over her face and checked her over.

"I'm fine, momma," she said sweetly.

"This time you are. But what if I wasn't here to catch you?" I said and scolded Seth.

"You are right. I'm so sorry, Renesmee."

I covered Sarah's ears and whispered to Seth. "Next time it will be you who falls."

"MA!" Sarah muttered and pulled away from me with a big pout. "..don't be mean!"

"I'm just worried about you," I assured her. I really wish she wasn't growing up so fast. My own one year old daughter was lecturing me..

"What's going on?" Jacob asked as he emerged from the kitchen with Anthony running behind him.

"Don't let him run in here Jacob!" I gasped and bent down to catch him before he ran past me.

"HEY!" he complained as I lifted him up.

"Renesmee relax," Jacob chuckled and took him out of my arms. "..he is a big boy."

I desperetly clinged on to Sarah in fear of anyone taking her away too.

"I'm relaxed," I insisted and hugged her. When I looked at Jacob I could see he was not letting me off that easy. He was going to scold me for this later. Alone.

"Let's get going then," he mumbled and walked up to me.

"Where you going?" Sarah asked him with a smile.

"Mommy and daddy are going hunting. You are coming with us," he smiled to her.

"Me?" she pointed to herself with big eyes.

"If you want too," I interrupted Jacob before he could start. She seemed to think it over for a couple of seconds and then burst out in a smile.

"I want too," she smiled.

"Then let's get you appropriately dressed," I smiled and leaned over to Anthony who was safely in Jacob's arms and placed a kiss on his forehead. "Do you want to come with us?"

"Where?" he asked innocently.

"Out into the forest. We are getting some 'juice'," I said to him.

"I STAY HERE!" he grimaced and hugged Jacob tighter.

"Find something for him to do while we are gone," I chuckled to Jacob and kissed him.

"Will do," he turned around to Seth and the TV. "What about a movie?"

"YES!" Anthony exclaimed as I walked up with Sarah.

"Which one?" I heard Jacob ask before I got upstairs.

"Shrek," Sarah said right when Anthony did.

"How did you know?" I chuckled at her.

"He always wants to see that," she smiled as I put her down on the little couch.

"True," I smiled at her. "Now what do you want to wear?"

"My green dress!" she smiled.

"I don't think that will work out so well when we go hunting," I answered and opened her drawer. "How about this?" I asked and held her blue sweater up.

"Fine," she sighed and held her hands up, ready for me to help.

"Good girl," I smiled and slid it over her head, making a total mess of her hair.

"MA!" she pouted and flattened her hair out.

"Sorry," I chuckled and hunched down to kiss her cheek. "But you are still pretty!"

She blushed and squirmed a bit.

"Shoes," she mumbled to devert my attention.

"Shoes," I agreed and walked over to her closet. "Which ones?"

"The beige ones," she smiled.

"Beige ones? I never bought you..." I abruptly stopped and threw her closet doors open. On a new row in her closet SEVEN pairs of boots stood, perfectly alined.

"Alice," I hissed to myself.

Sarah slid down from the couch and walked over to me.

"Those are for the new pink dress, those are for the green dresses, those are for the blue shirt and those are for playing," she explained and pointed to each pair of boots.

"Oh dear god," I chuckled and hunched down beside her. "You are so spoiled."

"Alice says it dosen't count if I actually need them," she explained and I pulled her closer.

"Well that is not true," I explained. She raised her eyebrows in surprise and confusion.

But Alice is always right, she projected to me.

"She might think so but that is not the case," I laughed. "Now I'm going to take all of these back and give each pair back for every good thing you do."

"Okay," she shrugged her shoulders like it was no big deal.

"Or not," I sighed. "It's not like I can do that. Let's get real. I'm not THAT strong."

"You are strong mommy!" she exclaimed and threw her arms around me. I wrapped my arms around her and laughed.

"MY HEART IS MELTING!" I cried out chuckling. She pulled away in horror.

"WHAT?" she whimpered.

"Oh no, no, no, no, no, no," I kissed her head. "Mommy is joking."

I held back a hysterical laugh at how cute she was in this moment and Jacob came into the room.

"What is taking you two so long?" he asked.

"We are picking out some shoes," I smiled at him.

"ALICE BOUGHT ME SEV..." Sarah began and I covered her mouth. Jacob would take them away if he heard how spoiled she had been while we were gone.

"Alice bought her seven new bows. They are really pretty," I explained and he became unintrested.

"Just hurry up with those pretty bows," he chuckled and walked back down.

"Daddy will take them away if you tell him," I whisper and she gasped.

"Don't let him take my shoes," she whispered back dramatically.

"I won't," I chuckled.

"Promise?"

"Promise," I smiled and she held her pinky out to me. I hooked my pinky with hers. "..pinky promise."

"GREAT!" she exclaimed.

She finally decided for the beige boots to go with her light grey pants and blue Chanel shirt. Jacob complimented on how pretty she looked and Seth agreed. Anthony seemed unintrested because he was glued to the television watching Shrek once more.

Sarah seemed very excited about her first hunting trip. She pretty much skipped the whole way into the forest as we tried to find a good place to hunt. We wanted to keep away from the big animals. She wanted to run after the birds and we spent quite some time explaining that it wasn't possible. Not yet at least. Which bummed her out big time.

"Deer," I whispered to Jacob when I smelled it. He nodded and ran away. I wanted him to be in the sidelines so I could be alone with her, teaching her every step of the way.

"Smell that?" I asked Sarah and hunched down beside her.

"No," she said innocently and sniffed the air again.

"Come here," I said and put my arms on her shoulders as I was hunched down behind her. I leaned close to her ear. "..close your eyes."

"Eyes closed," she whispered.

"Good. Now close of everything around you. It's just you and the forest," I whispered and heard her take a deep breath. "What do you smell?"

"Juice," she whispered back intensely. I felt her body tense up and she began to walk forward.

"Not yet," I whispered and pulled her back. "Where do you smell it?"

She took another deep breath and moved around.

"There," she said and pointed to the left.

"Are you sure?" I asked her even though she was right.

"Momma," She whined. "it hurts."

"Be patient my sweet," I chuckled to her and crawled to the side of her. "When you see it you have to wait for me, okay?"

"I promise," she nodded and we began to slowly move towards the left. Deeper into the forest we found a small deer, eating the grass.

"Are you ready?" I whispered to her and she nodded franticly as she inspected the animal. "..go."

She quicky leaped across the forest, jumping on the animal as I was right behind her. As she dug her teeth into the side I broke the neck to make sure it wouldn't feel much pain. I laid the animal down on it's side as Sarah kept drinking.

Jacob ran up behind us. "Look at you big girl!" Sarah looked up at him while she kept drinking.

"Take your time sweetie," I ran my fingers through her hair to make sure it wouldn't get messy.

When she pulled away she smacked her lips and make a pleased noise.

"How was it?" I asked her.

"Good!" she smiled. "..best juice."

"You like this more?" I asked in surprise.

"Mhmm!" she licked her lips trying to get it all. I pulled a hankerchief out of the pocket of my coat and wiped her mouth.

"There you go sweetie," I chuckled. "Are you full?"

"Yes!" she grinned and walked over to Jacob, holding her arms out to him. "HUG!" she demanded.

"HUG!" he agreed and scooped her up into his arms. "Now let's go back to your brother."

"..and Seth!" she smiled. I scrunched my nose and rolled my eyes.

We walked back home hand in hand talking about the bounderies of hunting. She seemed confused why she couldn't hunt birds still so both Jacob and I suspected we would have to keep her on a short leach when hunting..

When we arrived home, Seth and Anthony were playing around in the brink of the forest near the house. Jacob took Sarah inside to get her cleaned up while I decided to free Seth for a minute. He happily accepted since Anthony was hard to handle outside the house. But him and I played around with rocks and twigs, building diffrent things.

When he was in the middle of gathering rocks to his little fort wall he dropped a bunch of them right out of his arms. Before I could even think I was by his side with my arms protecting him.

"What's wrong Anthony?" I murmured to him with a soothing voice.

"LOOK!" he exclaimed, pointing to a little trail of ants making their way into the forest. "What's that?!"

"Oh thank god," I exhaled and stroked his head. "You scared me."

"WHAT IS THAT?" he asked in frustration.

"Those are ants honey," I chuckled.

"Are they animals?" he asked me without looking away from the ants.

"No, honey. They are not animals. They are insects," I giggled.

"What are insects?" he frowned.

"It's hard to explain honey," I sighed. "Want to go inside?"

"NO!" he gasped and began to follow the ants. "They are carrying things!"

"They are building their home," I began to follow him into the forest as he stumbled around.

"With the forest?" he asked. "Will there be anything left for us?"

"Plenty," I chuckled to him. Right when he was about to fall down I grabbed him and scooped him up in my arms. "There it is," I said and pointed to their little 'house'.

"Wow," he gasped. "It's big," he motioned with his hands.

"Yeah, for those guys it is," I placed a kiss on his forehead as he kept inspecting everything.

It was like living again. Growing up all over. Experiencing the world once more for the first time. I could do this over and over again.

"We should help them!" he squealed.

"I think they can do it themselves," I chuckled. "Plus we have to give you a bath."

"NO!" he whimpered and went limp in my arms, hanging freely.

"Don't be such a baby," I chuckled and began to walk back to the house.

"BYE ANTS!" he waved to the little colony. "Say bye mom!"

"Bye ants!" I laughed to them. I wrapped my arms tighter around him and hugged him. "I love you. You are my absolute favorite boy in this world."

"You too mom," he smiled big, thinking he was complimenting me.

"Thank you," I laughed. "You are funnier than your dad sometimes."

He gave me a content smile and began to snore in my arms before we made it home. I had to go in and book our quick weekend get away tonight so I hurried home.

An uneasy feeling hit me as I approached the house. My heart began to pound, feelings of sickness assaulted me. I gripped Anthony tighter in fear of what made me feel like this. When I came closer to the house I heard someone crying.

Jacob, I thought in fear and ran inside.

Seth was standing right at the door waiting for me, holding his arms out ready to take Anthony. I handed him over and ran upstairs where the crying came from.

"Jacob," I whimpered when I saw him sitting on the bed, crying. "What's wrong?" I asked in horror and ran up to hug him. He wrapped his arms around me.

"Dad is dead," he whispered through his tears.

A/N: Sorry if this chapter was a bit boring but I want to end the story with more calm, cute family moments. And I will try to upload more often now. And sorry if you hate the ending but there is a reason for it.