"I must say Rachel has some balls," I said and we chuckled. "..slapping an emotional unstable werewolf takes courage."

"It sure does," he laughed and placed a kiss on the top of my head. "..I probably have to leave by the end of the week."

"I know," I sighed and took a deep breath. "..we should start packing and get the kids ready."

He froze and sat up, intensely looking at me. "..what?"

"I'm coming with you," I smiled to him.

"Really?" he smiled back.

"Really!" I nodded and he threw himself over me..

Round two.

You can do this, I told myself and began packing my clothes into the bag that laid on our temporary bed. For three days we had prepared the kids for what Forks is and what was going to happen. And prehaps the most important... how the house would be decorated while we were gone. Jacob had trashed our room so according to Alice it was time for a renovation of the whole house. Which makes this the THIRD time we remake the house..

Guess third time is a charm?

"NESSIE! WHERE ARE THE CLEAN 'JUICE' BOTTLES?" I heard Jacob yell from downstairs.

I sighed heavily and ran down in vampire speed. He had Sarah on his hip as Anthony was throwing his toy cars into the air so Seth could catch them. A part of me felt sorry for Seth and everything he indured but come on... I'm allowing him to be near my daughter.

"Here," I sighed and opened the cabinet in front of Jacob where the bottles were neatly stacked. "Not so hard."

"Thanks love," he leaned forward to kiss me on the cheek before I walked away into the living room.

A blurr appeared in front of me that turned into the short, pixie-like aunt I love so much... but also scares the living heck out of me.

"Alice!" I gasped and stopped in my tracks.

She gave me that kind smile and wrapped her arms around me in a gentle but loving hug.

"You look pretty today," she said with a smile.

"So do you. Your hair is diffrent," I pointed out. It laid flat and was straight down.

"Just trying something new," she smiled. "Now do you need help with anything? Packing prehaps?"

She gave me a special look that said 'I know you don't do it well. So I will do it for you.'

"I can pack myself, Alice." I grinned and threw a coat over my arm. "See!" I demonstratively threw it over the already packed bag that was beside us. But unfortunately it slid of and landed on the floor.

"I see," she grinned.

"HELP!" I exclaimed and she laughed.

"You just pack whatever you feel the need to pack and I'll.. pack everything else that needs to be packed."

"The things I will forget you mean?" I asked and she nodded. I began walking upstairs with her behind me. "Like my phone, wallet, Anthony's favorite stuffed animal... OH CRAP!" I exclaimed when I realised I had forgotten it. When I turned around she stood with it in her hand, about to pack it into my bag.

"Did you say something?" she smirked.

"Yeah. Kill me," I sighed and she laughed. "I'm so NOT ready for this trip!"

"Packing isn't that hard," she scoffed.

"No I mean," I began but made sure no one was around. I closed the door to the bedroom and sat close to her on the bed. "I'm not ready. Mentally."

"Oh," she frowned.

"I'm still going. So don't worry," I chuckled. "..I just haven't been there for SO long and what if..." I went silent.

"If what?" she coaxed me.

"What if.." I took a deep breath. "..I don't want to leave."

"It rains alot there," she said in the hope it would make me want to stay away.. and give me a good laugh. Which it did.

"No it's just.. I was born there, but I never had the chance to truly grow up there. There is a part of me that feels like something is... unfinished."

When I said it it was like some piece fell into place. I understood my fear.

"Oh, honey," she smiled and sat down beside me, wrapped one arm around my shoulders and leaned our heads together. "..I've never told you so much about my human life have I?"

"No," I said in confusion over the topic change, but greatly appriciated it. I think..

"Well..my name was Mary Alice Brandon. I had a little sister named Cynthia. Her daughter, my niece, is still alive in Biloxi..." she looked down at our intertwined hands with a sad look.

"You don't have too," I whispered to her. I couldn't stand seeing her sad. It was a rare sight I never wish too see.

"I've gone through all the old newspapers on microfiche. My family wasn't mentioned often since they were not a part of the social circle that made it into the newspaper. But my parents engagement was there, my sisters too. And my birth was announced... but also my death," she finally looked up at me. Her eyes, lips, voice; everything about her was unsure and a part of her was sad.

"Sure it gave me some.. answers in a way but it also gave me so many questions. Everyday I wonder how my niece looks that day," she whispered gently.

I was intrigued, sad and confused by her story.

"Are you saying I shouldn't go?" I asked.

"No," she smiled. "I'm saying that sometimes some answers can be enough. You don't need them all. And they might not even seem so appealing once you have them. Lay low and do what you have to do."

I let go of my somewhat childish dream of living back in Forks, raising my kids in the place I wanted to have been raised and grow old. Everything about it was impossible, it was dangerous.

"Do you understand?" she asked again.

"Yes," I chuckled and hugged her. "Thank you."

"No problem, sweetie," she cooed. "Now we have to pack the last things. Our flight leaves in a couple of hours."

"Can't believe Rachel let you come with us," I teased her. "She has NO idea what she is getting herself into!"

"Oh you!" she scrunched her nose and stuck her tongue out to me. "She won't have to do anything. I will help her with whatever she desires."

"What if she decides to walk down the isle in a leather jacket and cowboy boots?" I chuckled to her.

"Then I will make the best out of it," she smiled triumphantly. Usually she cringed at those words. "..or throw a fit!"

"There is the Alice I know!" I laughed and wrapped an arm around her as we walked downstairs. "Are you going to be all over the place or lay low with me?"

"I'm laying low! We aren't even related if anyone asks. I'm just the wedding planner," she smiled triumphantly. And by 'anyone' she means Rebecca and the ones who don't know.

"So if I say 'Aunt Alice' you will...?" I coaxed her teasingly.

"I will ruin your dress!" she gasped. "This is serious buisniess for me young lady and you will stay out of my way!" she pointed a finger to me dramatically playing along.

"Oh, I shall stay out of the mistress way, I promise!" I gasped and hoped my words were right.

"Mommy?" I heard Anthony's weak and confused voice whisper. When I turned my head he sat on Seth's lap, the toy truck in his hand dropped in confusion and Seth's face matched his. Shock, confusion and... a bit creeped out.

"We are just kidding!" I exclaimed and went to pick him up. "Mommy is not in trouble!"

"I will begin packing," Alice put her hand on my shoulder and ran away.

"Has Anthony had his lunch yet?" I asked Seth.

"No, and uh... 'mistress'?" he taunted me. I let out a light growl and he knew NOT to continue.

"We leaving soon?" Anthony asked. "..Seth is coming too right?"

"Yes," I sighed and Seth smiled at Anthony. "Seth is coming too!"

"YAY!" he exclaimed and threw his hands up. Before he could try to get our of my arms and into Seth's I began walking towards the kitchen. Jacob stood there with Sarah in his arms, they had their noses touching each other, her hands on each side of his head and they were smiling. Little whispers escaped their lips as if they were planning something. I smiled big and brought Anthony closer to my own face.

"What do you think they are whispering about?" I asked him quietly.

"PANCAKES!" he yelled and they looked up. He held his hands out towards the freshly made pancakes on the counter.

"I don't know about that," I mumbled to myself and put him down on a chair as Jacob brought him a plate.

"Here you go big guy," he smiled and stood closer to me with Sarah still in his arms. "How are you today my dear?" he asked me.

"Oh, I'm alright," I smiled at him and wrapped an arm around him and Sarah. "How are you?"

"I'm fantastic. Thanks too you," he grinned and brought his lips too mine. Everytime he had begin to feel down and sad I threw myself over him and we spent hours in bed.. A perfect way to bring a smile to his face.

"And how are you my sweet?" I asked and ran my fingers through Sarah's hair.

"I'm alright," she sighed and I pouted at her sad expression.

"What's wrong honey?" Jacob asked. "You were fine a second ago."

"Why do you guys fight?" she sighed.

"What?" we both gasped.

"Daddy thought about you throwing yourself on him," she pouted.

"Alright Sarah," I sighed and took her out of Jacob's arms. I walked over to the couch and sat us both down. "What have I told you about snooping?"

"Some thoughts are just too strong to keep out mommy," she pleaded and Jacob, who had followed us out and was leaning against the door opening, tried to conceal a smile.

"Then we will have to train harder. Or Grandma can be around here more. Her shield might help you," I suggested.

"No! I want to learn myself," she insisted. Always the little fighter. Even before she was born.

I brought my hand to my stomach when the memories of her hard kicks surfaced. The screams in my head when Dad told me she was dying echoed.

"You can do anything you set your mind too sweetie. Believe me," I murmured and brought her face towards mine. "..you are so strong."

"Like mommy?" she asked with a grin.

"Like mommy AND daddy together," I gasped dramatically and she giggled.

"I love you mommy," she exclaimed and wrapped her little arms around my neck for a hug.

"Mommy loves you so much more!" I smiled and kissed the side of her head as she clung to my neck.

That's the way she stayed for hours. It was like even though she was in a deep deep sleep, her body was awake. Her arms were like marble around my neck as I held her body closer to me. It created some difficulty when I was packing but Alice made sure to help me. Jacob tried to entertain Anthony as Seth went home to bring his stuff over to us and I gathered courage to make another big decision. As he arrived back at our house he smiled big and gave Sarah a pat on the back.

"Where is Jacob?" he asked gently, making sure he wouldn't wake Sarah.

"He is upstairs dressing Anthony," I smiled.

"Oh. The 'Black Pack' shirt again?" he grinned.

"Is there another shirt available for my son to wear? One that dosen't smell of wet dog from all the nights you guys have played outside?" I grinned at him. He seemed both comforted and surprised by my kindness. And it hurt me.. But I could only blame myself!

"Come here, I have something to show you," I smiled and began walking down into the basement. He quickly followed me and I felt Sarah begin to wake up in my arms.

"What are we doing down here?" he asked when we stood outside the door of the room we had said goodbye in before the fight. No one had been in there since it happened.

"Well.." I took a deep breath. "..I think you can feel my... disliking of you sometimes..." I began and he nodded.

"But I also understand it," he jumped in.

"Which is why I have such a hard time disliking you," I sighed. "..but you are a good guy Seth. No one can say anything else. Before all of this happened," I gestured between him and Sarah. "..you were the kind of guy I wished for my daughter to one day end up with. You were the guy who could light up a room, bring smiles to everyones faces.. you are the nicest guy I have ever meet."

"Thank you," he gave me a smile and blushed.

"So with all that being said.. I do have some rules," I began and he looked confused as I opened the door.

Behind that door was an even bigger room then before. Not too big, but big enough for a werewolf to.. live in.

"What is all of this?" he asked as we walked in.

"Well.." I sighed and ran my fingers over the pictures of his family I had placed out on the table. "..your room." My eyes were dead set on him.

"My... room?" he gasped with a thankful look.

"Yes," I smiled. "..and I mean YOUR room," I pointed to him. "..not YOUR as in YOURS and Sarah's."

"Of course not!" he exclaimed.

"Good," I smiled. "..but as I said I do have some rules."

"Anything!" he smiled.

"This is not your home in the sense you have a say in everything. If something is bothering you greatly you can come to me or Jacob and we will discuss it," I began. "..You are more of a guest or... roomate I guess."

"Sounds fair," he smiled.

"Sarah is not sleeping in here at night with you," I continued and he nodded. "..If Jacob and I wish to have the house to ourselves you do have to go back to your old home."

"Okay," he said and waited for my next word.

"No loud music, no friends over without our permission," I sighed when I realised I was talking like a mom to him. "..and NO, I mean absolutely NO to any form of self love in this house!"

"Okay," he said with a emberassed and hoarse voice. "..no problem?"

To be honest it wouldn't even surprise me if he didn't do such things because he was completely saving himself for the one he loved. He is just THAT guy.. that nice guy who you want your daughter to end up with..

"Are we clear about these rules?" I asked him and heard Jacob walk down the stairs.

"Crystal!" he exclaimed as Jacob stood behind me. "Thank you so much man!"

"For what?" he asked as he was throwing down a sandwich. I still haven't told him about this. "Hey this room looks diffrent."

He quickly put two and two together and gasped.

"You gave him this room?"

"Yeah," I sighed. "It's his."

"You haven't asked if this is okay with Jacob?" Seth murmured.

"He dosen't have a say in this," I grinned and gave him a kiss on the cheek before I walked away.

Jacob POV

I'm not sure I like this..

"So you are going to live here?" I asked Seth and walked into the room.

"Not if it isn't okay with you," he pleaded. "I thought she had asked you. Maybe it was even your idea."

"Well.. it wasn't" I mumbled and sat down in a chair. "It's a nice room." I didn't know what to say. I didn't even know what I thought of this.

"It absoutely is but please Jacob give me an answer," he pleaded again. "I promise to follow all her rules!"

"Rules?" I sighed. "Seth I just found out you were moving in and now I find out there are rules!"

"Yeah, no loud music.." He began.

"Yeah, yeah, yeah! You don't need to say them all," I sighed and stood up. He was giving me more than the permanent puppy eyes he always had and made a pleading gesture by holding his hands together.

"Welcome to the family," I sighed.

Let's face it. If I had this opportunity when Renesmee was younger I would have been there for the important moments that I sometimes missed. I can't deny anyone this.

"Are you serious man?" he exclaimed in a smile.

"Not sure why I am but, yeah!" I chuckled and he ran toward me for a hug. I dodged it just in time and shook his hand. "A hug might be too much at this moment dude."

"Yeah, guess so." he laughed. "I can't thank you enough for this though!"

"Oh when we get back from this trip Renesmee and I are going to want some time alone. You can make it up then by being a babysitter!"

"Without a doubt. I'll be here man!" he smiled.

How did I ever think that would work? That's just icing on the cake for him... damn imprinting.

But as a compromise for my wanting to rip his head off, he decided to help me out with carrying all the bags out to the car. I needed help with this simple task because when the Cullen girls go on a trip.. half the house go with them. BUT since I wanted to keep my head I decided not to mention it. Both Seth and I sighed as we looked at the group of bags, neatly placed in the hallway.

Alice ordered us to bring the bags out. I took Renesmee's and Seth took Alice's. But I ended up having to take all the bags after Seth tripped into the mud and was not allowed to touch anything until he took 'atleast two showers' as Alice ordered once again.

Grumpy as I am I threw the bags into the backseat which was a bad idea. I haden't been careful enough and as a result Alice 'accidently' tripped me into the mud. As revenge I wiped it off and threw some on her shoe. I knew that if I did anything more it would be the end of this world.

But we thankfully got all the bags safely into the car and Alice was happy again. In fact she seemed strangly happy as she skipped around the house, playing with the kids while we got ourselves and the last things ready.

"Alice, could you get the kids into the cars while I just turn off all the lights?" Renesmee asked her as I walked into the house again.

"Let's go kids!" I heard Alice cheer.

"Hey beautiful," I mumbled and wrapped my arms around Renesmee. "How are you?"

"I'm good thank you. How is my wonderful husband?" she smiled and cupped my face.

"He has such a wonderful wife that everything is perfect," I smirked to her and leaned in for a kiss.

"Don't look, don't look, don't look!" Alice joked with the kids as she ran by us with them. They both let out big 'ugh's and ran out into the rain.

"Guess we should go too," I smiled to her and took her hand in mine. "Ladies first."

"I'll be out in just a minute. I have to turn the lights off," she said.

Renesmee POV

"Okay, I'll meet you out there," Jacob chuckled and ran outside. The heavy rain made it hard for me to see him as he ran through it.

I quickly turned all the lights off in vampire speed, all around the house and took in every inch of it. Only when I had one lamp left I began walking in human speed.

With heavy steps I walked down the stairs and admired the beautiful lamp hanging on the wall next to the entrance. I placed my finger on the on/off button and took a deep breath.

"Here I come Forks," I sighed and turned it off.

Yeah I have not given up on this story haha! I can assure you that I never will. But since it's summer I have had time off from school and worked a lot so that's why. Hope I did not disappoint too much with this chapter. I know it's somewhat boring but it's more of a build up for the last chapters of this story. And please leave a comment if you want me to conitue the story when this is finished. It won't go over 100 chapters at least haha.