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I woke up the next morning with Levi's head on my chest and my arms around him. Confusion filled my thoughts, unable to understand why I was holding him so closely. My eyes searched the room until I realized where I was, Levi's room. A small rush of excitement raced through my body. Sleeping in his room, next to him, hugging him so close… It meant a lot to me. It also meant Levi was beginning to feel more comfortable around me. It was a small thing but at the same time it was big.
Levi's eyes clenched tightly and he suddenly hugged me firmly, so firm that he knocked the wind out of me. I gasped for air and tried to pat his head.
"Tashi…" he whimpered.
The sound of my name got me interested. I looked down at his sleeping face and noticed just how helpless he looked; it gave him a cute edge which I didn't often get to see in him.
His eyes seemed to race around behind his lids as he nuzzled against my body. That was when I realized I was still naked, not that that bothered me. Although, it was a little cold.
"Tashi… Tasha-Chan, no…" He sounded so scared that I thought I should wake him. But he reminded me of when we were kids. My father had died before I knew his face and my mother wasn't a very stable person so I would often stay with Levi. He didn't have a very big house back then so we often had to share a room.
It had been too long since I last saw his sleeping face, I missed it.
"It is okay, Levi-Kun. I'm here." I said soothingly as I brushed the hair out of his face. He seemed to calm down a little bit with just that but not completely. I shuffled down on the bed so that our noses were touching. As I shuffled I removed his arms from around my body and took his hands in mine, giving them a kiss before I reached up and kissed his forehead. "I'm here," I repeated as I pressed our foreheads together.
His eyes slowly fluttered opened and glared at me. I grinned and kept my face close to his, I liked the feeling of his breath exhaling gently against my skin, it felt calming. "Any better?" I asked before he could snarl at me.
He gave me a puzzled look and he looked down to our holding hands. "I'm fine."
"You kept calling my name." As he processed my words his cheeks flushed a cute pink with embarrassment. His eyes flashed back up to mine with a slight look of panic.
"What did I say?"
"You just kept saying Tasha-Chan and Tashi, you said no too." I recalled his voice, the fear that it had. "What was the dream about."
"Is that it?" He seemed relieved. I nodded. "Alright then." He tilted his head and gave me a kiss, obviously ignoring my question. I happily accepted it, taken aback by his sudden affection. "You failed to do as I ordered." His eyes almost seemed excited as he glared at me. I raised an eye brow and was about to demand how I'd done so when I remembered how he'd wished to be woken.
"The present." I sighed and scrunched my face up. "I'm sorry, I just didn't want to wake you, and you looked so…" but I cut myself off, before I dug my own grave. "I'm sorry." He narrowed his already thin eyes at me and exhaled through his nose before looking down to our hands. I was holding onto his with a firm grip, not wanting anything to take them away from me.
I remembered when he'd first started the training to get where he was. His hands were always covered in blisters and sores, wrapped in rough, dry skin. But now they were smooth again, not soft but not hard, just smooth and moisturised.
I leaned down and kissed the knuckles on his right hand and then his left. "You know…" I began before looking back into his eyes. He stayed painfully quiet as he glared at me. "We could always make up for the missed present by doing something else."
His eyes didn't move, he kept them on me at all times, he gave me the look of a man bored to death. All of his expression was in his eyes, his face never gave any tell and even his judgemental gaze didn't give me much to work with.
"What do you mean by something else?" He asked, not sounding very amused.
"Well.." I knew if I said it outright he'd shoot me down without batting an eye but I thought if I was able to twist it somehow, I might have been able to get him to agree to make love to me.
He leaned close, lifting his head from the mattress and pressed his lips to my ear. "Still trying to get me to fuck you?" he whispered.
His vulgar language didn't do much for me but I knew he was more comfortable saying it as such, rather than making love.
"I might be," I couldn't help the smug smile that crossed my face. Levi sat up and threw his body over mine, pinning me to the bed and glaring down on me. We were both still naked from the shower we'd shared which made me feel rather uncomfortable about having him so close. Hugging him to my chest was one thing, but to have our bodies in such a way…
"Tasha-Chan," he raised his hand from where it was positioned by my shoulder and lifted it to my cheek. "I won't do it." I sighed and my good mood vanished with just those four words.
"Then I won't do anything for you, it's not fair that you get all the fun." I gazed up into his eyes, not willing to let it go without a fight.
"Then I'll just make you." He sounded as if he might be attempting to tease me again but he also had a sadistic edge to his words. I stayed quiet, glaring at him, giving him a piece of his own medicine. "Tsh! What's with you all of a sudden?" He asked as he climbed off of me and the bed. "You're being so demanding."
I sat up and watched him, keeping silent.
He walked over to his dresser and pulled out a fresh shirt and a clean pair of pants before he grabbed some new boxers. Levi had a weird thing of not reusing underwear. He'd wash clothes and re-wear them, but not his boxers.
I stood up and began to walk out of the room, unable to stay and wait for anything worse to happen between the two of us.
"Where do you think you're going?!" Levi snapped. I turned to look at him and shrugged. "You have no clothes on." I looked down, he was right, my body was bare. I sighed and walked back over to him, grabbing his shoulder and slamming him against the overly clean wall.
"You're not the only one who can be cold, Levi-Taichou." He seemed shocked at my use of Taichou, I don't think I'd ever called him it before. I snatched the shirt and boxers from his hand and stepped back from him.
I felt his eyes observe me as I stepped into the green boxers and slid the white shirt on, buttoning it up.
"I will stick to my word; I'm still yours and won't allow anyone else to touch me." I looked up at him. "But I will not allow you to touch me either, not until you realize how unfair you're being. I can't understand how you can be so selfish." I turned away from him and headed toward the door. I opened it and paused, taking a moment to think.
I turned on my heels and gave my usual, bright smile. "I love you, Levi-Kun!" Even though I was mad at him I didn't want him to feel that I hated him and I'd been wanting to tell him for a while, what better time than when you're about to walk out of him? My sudden change caught him off guard and obviously gave him a loss for words since he remained silent, something I was glad for as I exited his room and he made no attempt to stop me.
We continued with our normal duties and made sure nobody knew anything was wrong. Levi was cool, calm and collected as he gave us our commands. Myself, Erin, Mikasa and Armin, the new team Levi, saluted him and got to our chores. Levi headed off to his office and kept to himself, he only called Eren into his room for his usual tea break.
I didn't bother with a break that day, instead I rushed through my work and left early, heading to my dorm and cherished the time I had before Mikasa came back and started talking about Eren as she often did. Even though she reminded me of Levi when in public, away from everyone else she was a rather girlish person, much to my disbelief.
Several days passed just like that one. Wake up, eat, work, and sleep. I didn't see Levi unless the rest of the team was around and I found myself slowly going insane, not being able to talk to him freely… I hated it. But I knew he wouldn't be bothered by any of this. All he probably missed were the physical activities and even then it wasn't like he couldn't help himself.
A week went by and the loneliness was beginning to feel like too much for me to bear, but somehow I kept on going.
"Natasha-San," Eren walked over to me on our lunch break, looking very apologetic. "Last week, when I walked in on you two… I'm sorry for what I said." He bowed his head low and didn't dare look at me in the eye.
He says this now? It's been a week! What the hell took him so long?
I slurped up the rest of my noodles and reached out and patted his head. "It is fine; you probably came off worse for it anyway."
He looked up at me in surprise and nodded slowly. "Levi-Taichou, he seems to have been acting weirdly since then so, I was worried I might've done something rather bad." He looked away as if recalling the event. "And… the next day when I took him his tea, he tried to hide it but… he was staring at the picture of you that he has."
I felt my cheeks get hot as they flushed a bright red. "I guess I was wrong." I smiled to myself and got up off of the chair I'd been sat on while eating. "Thank you, Eren." He nodded. "But knock before entering next time, that's what probably ticked him off." I giggled to myself before walking past the young boy.
That night I decided to pay Levi a visit. I made sure everyone was in their dorms before heading out. Mikasa didn't question me, she simply told to me be careful.
I knocked on Levi's bedroom door and waited for him to answer. It took him almost three minutes to open the door for me. He stared at me a moment and then opened the door wide for me. I stepped inside and looked around. Nothing had changed in the time that I'd been away from the room but it felt different somehow.
"Natasha, what are you doing here?"
"Checking on you." I said as he shut the door.
"I'm not a child," he scoffed as he walked past me towards the desk along the right hand wall. "What do you want?" I saw him turn down a picture which was held within a simple frame making sure I couldn't see what the picture was of.
I danced over to him and hugged him from behind. "You."
"Tsk!" he reached for a bottle of wine that was on the top of the bookshelf next to his desk. I glanced over to it, red wine, not cheap and strong. I'd never liked alcohol very much and the stronger it was the less I liked it. Levi knew that. "You left me."
I tightened my arms around him and sighed. "You were being unfair." I pointed out.
"I'm always unfair."
That's true.
"If I were to do something with you…" I raised my head and peeked over his shoulder, seeing the embarrassment on his face, it was priceless. He opened the top and poured some of the wine into a glass. It had a strong scent which filled my nostrils as soon as it was free from the bottle's lip. "You'd have to follow my instructions."
I stared at him in amazement and shock. I'd originally come over to tell him I didn't mind if we never did anything as long as he was more loving towards me.
So glad I let him speak first.
"Even with all of the germs?" I teased as I inhaled deeply. The smell of the wine burned but Levi's musky scent was enough to make me forget the nasty, red liquid.
"I believe you to be worth it." He lifted the glass to his lips and drank all of it before turning to me. I loosened my grip, he turned and as soon as he was facing me I tightened it once more. "But only if you follow my instructions."
I let my arms fall by my side and stepped back from him, bowing down. "Your wish is my command."
As I went to straighten up his hand grabbed my head, bunching up my hair and gripping it tightly. I winched as he pulled me up straight and kissed me. I wasn't surprised, he enjoyed being rough before kissing me. But what I didn't expect was the hand exploring up my shirt.
The hand on my head softened until he was merely holding me close for the kiss. He slipped his other up my shirt and around my waist, reaching up my back until he stumbled upon my bra. Without skipping a beat he opened it and withdrew. Once his hand was free he began to unbutton my shirt. I stayed still and focused on the kiss, shocked by his sudden drive to 'do the deed'.
My shirt was soon off along with my bra and Levi was working on my pants. I'd unbuttoned his shirt but I was taking a moment to examine his body in detail. I ran my hands along his skin, feeling his toned muscles, and his smooth texture. He had the odd scar which danced along his flesh which I traced with my fingers.
It was weird, I'd seen Levi's body many times, just as he'd seen mine but it was different. It was like I was finally getting to see it with my own eyes, like it was new to me but I'd been longing for it for such an extensive amount of time.
He however, showed no signs of feeling the same, either that or he wasn't willing to take the time to appreciate the feeling.
He undid my pants and then took my hands in his. I gazed into his eyes; they seemed softer than usual and filed with emotion.
He kissed my hands and then released them before he wrapped one arm around my waist and lifted me from the floor. I giggled and clung to him tightly. "How sweet of you."
He carried me over to his bed and slowly, gently laid me down, my head sinking into the soft, fluffy pillows and to top it off he kissed my neck. I smiled and unfastened his belt, opening the button and pushing them down. He did the same to me and before I knew it we were nude once again.
Gently brushing his hand up my thigh, he began to kiss down from my neck. I put my hands over my mouth as I attempted to muffle my giggles. I was excited and thrilled that Levi was doing such things with me that I could barely contain myself.
He kissed down until his lips reached my right nipple; he then extended his tongue and began to lick at the slowly hardening nub, using his left hand he began to play with the other one. My body was beginning to feel hot and filled with an indescribably good, tingling sensation.
"Levi-Kun!" I gasped as he pinched and nibbled at my nipples.
He smirked as he heard my gasp. "Does that feel good?"
I bit down on my lip and nodded, not trusting my voice.
"I'm glad." He got up off of the bed, bending over and giving me a kiss before turning and rummaging through his draws. "Let's do this," he said as he pulled a rubbed glove onto his right hand.
I stared at the glove for a moment and then laughed long and hard. He glared at me as I rolled about unable to control myself.
"What's the matter?" he grumbled, already knowing the answer.
I wiped a tear from the corner of my eye and got to my knees, shuffling to the edge of the bed as I wrapped my arms around his neck. I kissed his neck right where I could feel his pulse under my lips and then positioned my lips close to his ear. "I love you." I whispered so only he could hear my words, not that anyone else would be able to if I'd said them out loud, it just felt more intimate.
"I… I think I do too." He admitted much to my amazement.
"What?" I pushed him back and stared at him with wide eyes.
"I think I love you."
"Really?" I asked, not wishing for him to try and joke with me.
He narrowed his eyes at me and snorted. "Yes, really."
I felt like my heart had fluttered and decided to skip a couple of beats. "You… love me?" They were the words I thought I would never hear, especially from Levi. He nodded and stepped closer to me, wrapping his arms around me as he pushed me back down onto the bed, using his own body to force me down, not that he had to put a lot of effort into it.
A/N: Well, I did another chapter! Hope you liked it.
I'd like to thank the people who reviewed the last chapter! It was very nice to read such kind words about my writing, I hope this chapter was up to your expectations.
I'm not sure whether to leave it there or continue... I'd like to because I did enjoy writing this but I'm worried about going too far with it. So, I guess I'll see how liked the story is and go from there.
I'd like to thank my sister (fairytailsbluepanda) for helping me with my spelling and editting, she's my unofficial beta reader I guess.
